Good-bye, David, Good-bye

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MAKE SURE THIS GETS TO A MAN WHO ISN’T AFRAID, AND IS WILLING TO TAKE ORDERS FROM A WOMAN, AND THAT WOMAN IS CHERITH GJESTLAND AND NO OTHER!

 

January 29, 2020

Good-bye David, good-bye.

You have a real bad tail of several if not a group of men who have been using you to get to me.  They will get you killed.  Probably picked it up around 2010.

You can pretend David, as long as you are behind a camera, or using the voice of another man’s body, and he also didn’t realize seeing me in a sexual position with Edison would affect him so much, he’s been trying to pretend, he didn’t want me, when the truth is, he hasn’t been able to figure out a way to talk to me, for real, ever since, but when you have had to face me, even in disguise, you cannot hide from me because I am a mirror.

He still had feelings for me in January 2013, it’s the reason they paired us together at work, so they could read my reactions.  I read, I wanted to move on, I no longer have feelings for David.  I’ve seen him, too many times, while driving, no longer looking like the David, I loved.  And, I spent years trying to talk with him again, and he’s never chosen me.  So, I’ve done the mature thing, and moved on.

Yet, he reached for me.  David reached for me when he had to leave the store as that character, he couldn’t control himself, and he reached for me, and we hugged.

David has a real bad tail, from California.  He doesn’t know it, and they’ve been trying to frame David, since, 2013.

Eddie Gallagher and Eddie Gallagher’s wife are both Zohan’s.  And, Zohan can go with me to California or wherever I go, if he wants to.

Everyone is probably already aware that David was this FBI man’s proxy.  David former roommate was this FBI man’s ex-partner.

I am a mirror.  When I looked at David, I really saw who David was.  There really is no need to use this FBI man through another person, like David.  You really can use me, face to face, it really isn’t going to alter the results.  I really am not that fragile, anymore.  And, it really isn’t protecting intelligence by using other people like David, unless – I DON’T LIKE YOU.

IF I DON’T LIKE YOU, THERE IS A PROBLEM.  IF FOR THE ONLY REASON THEY SHOULDN’T BE WORKING WITH ME.  I AM THE MOST SENSITIVE, SOPHISTICATED PIECE OF EQUIPMENT THERE IS, ONE FALSE MOVE, AND THE WHOLE HOUSE FALLS, LIKE IT WAS BUILT ON SAND.

I would say, this should be done from a real place, instead of always picking up all the pieces after everything is broken.  It’s some of the worst, ill-thinking, poorly managed thinking, no wonder, I’ve never thought of it.

You want to keep using this model of me going to work, and having other people talk around and through me?  Why?

I’ve never been bothered by this FBI man, most likely because of his Russian.  He’s always looked at me like I am not that smart, so…um, I’ll disagree with you.  It’s taken him a while to see me for the potential I have because he’s been following FBI protocol and training.

And, now everyone knows why this other FBI man, I didn’t like.  Yet, because he was man enough and brave enough to face me, although we never spoke, I never spoke to him, just having me look – head-on, face to face, not a profile, not a side, face to face, one person in front of me, like a mirror, he repented, and has done better work than he ever did before – because of me.

So, is the real reason, no intelligence ever talk to me face to face because you’re afraid I won’t like you because you are criminal, or because you will only do better work – because of me.

Psychiatrists are not familiar with brain research or understand its functionality, and how it accesses the mind and brain, they’re schooled in how to show people, they reasons they’ve done bad things.  When brain researched persons, will be able to understand they’ve done wrong things, they also won’t be able to tell you how it got – into their brain.

Psychiatrists need researchers if you are going to work brain research, and it looks like you are all trying to find ways to exclude me from working on brain research and with brain research, why is that?

Are you afraid I will be better than you?

I’m sad, FBI man, they’ve used the same model with BF they did with David, so he’s physically repulsive to me.

It suggests there are many persons who are truly aware brain research is real, and it does exist, this goes back to, in the state of Florida, 1987, I suggest you all cooperate fully, come out of the wood-work, admit the failings, or they will kill you, and I will let them.

You have taken a sensitive time with BF and me breaking up, and turned it into a volatile, at the point of death scenario within a few days.  Is that because you don’t know how to work?

You should be worried if BF doesn’t make it.

You should be worried if I don’t make it.

David, your actions suggest you really love and like the work, and not me.  Or, it has been the only way he has been able to stay sane, without being able to even talk face to face with me.

I only make people – better.  I only make people better when they have to talk with me, face to face.  It’s been proven over and over.  If you are guilty of something, of some crime, I will convict you of it.  Otherwise, I will only make people BETTER even if they are guilty.

This is a gross, flaw.  You’ve denied humanity the use of me, as a mirror because of these years from 2012 until current.

End it before you all die.

I feel like a prisoner, like I am in jail, even in church because NONE of you, are real.  Someone else is using the person in front of me as a body.  Edison was a failure.

Good-bye David,  good-bye.

January 29, 2020: READ: WARNING: MY MOTHER’S STROKES!

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MAKE SURE THIS GETS TO A MAN WHO ISN’T AFRAID, AND IS WILLING TO TAKE ORDERS FROM A WOMAN, AND THAT WOMAN IS CHERITH GJESTLAND AND NO OTHER!

January 29, 2020

YOU FUCKING TELL ME MOTHERFUCKERS, WHAT FUCKING REALLY, BAD TERRORISTS I CAPTURED, MOST LIKELY KILLED (2004) FOR THE UNITED STATES, THAT GOT MY MOTHER A STROKE IN 2005, ANOTHER TERRORIST FROM ME KILLED (2005), ANOTHER STROKE TO MY MOTHER IN 2006 BECAUSE YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES LET SUBVERSION HAPPEN TO ME AND MY FAMILY, SO I WOULDN’T GET YOU ANYMORE TARGETS TO KILL!

I AM SO FUCKING GOOD, YOU HAD TO GO AFTER MY MOTHER?!  YOU SHOULDN’T WONDER WHY YOUR CIA PERSONS – WERE BLOWN UP!

CIA, YOU FAILED TO PROTECT THE HOMELAND – ME, AND – MY FAMILY!

YOU WANT TO LET IT CONTINUE?!  OR, DO YOU WANT TO ADMIT YOUR MISTAKES, GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY WAY AND NOSE, DO YOUR FUCKING JOBS, AND THOSE FUCKING JOBS, ARE NOT FOR ME TO – FOLLOW YOU!

NOT A FUCKING JOKE, DO YOU REALLY WANT THEM TO FOLLOW AFTER YOU AND FIND YOU AND KILL YOU?!  OR, DO YOU WANT ME TO BE ABLE TO PUT MY FUCKING BOOT IN THEIR GODDAMN FUCKING MOUTH!

MAKE UP YOUR MIND INTELLIGENCE, I WON’T MAKE IT UP FOR YOU!

YOU PUSSY-FOOT AROUND ANYMORE WITH TERRORISTS INSTEAD OF KILLING THEM?!  THEY WILL FIND YOU AND THEY WILL KILL YOU!

YOU BETTER SHAKE THIS SHIT OUT OF THE GODDAMN TREE!  SHAKE THAT GODDAMN INTELLIGENCE TREE!

YOU BETTER NOT ONLY BE AFRAID FOR YOUR VERY LIVES, YOU BETTER BE AFRAID FOR THE GODDAMN NATION IF YOU SO MUCH AS LET ANOTHER FATTY, OR SCRATCH HAPPEN TO ME!

DO YOU THINK I ACTUALLY SEE THIS OR DO YOU THINK I AM SO FULL OF MYSELF I AM PROVOKING THE TERRORISTS?!

HISTORY WILL PROVE ME CORRECT!

DID YOU MAKE A DEAL?!  INTELLIGENCE?!  YOU MADE A DEAL, GAVE MY MOTHER AWAY LIKE YOU GAVE MY BROTHER AWAY, AND THEY KILLED YOU ANYWAY!  YOU DUMB FUCKS!

YOU STILL DON’T UNDERSTAND, THEY WILL SCORTCH THE WHOLE EARTH, FOR ME.

AND, YOU STILL DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY.

I SUGGEST YOU START WORKING FROM A PLACE, OF INTELLIGENCE, RATHER THAN, DEFENSE.

YOU NEED, AND I MEAN REAL FUCKING QUICK, TO START EARNING SOME GODDAMN RESPECT FROM THESE MOTHERFUCKERS, BEFORE THEY START PLUCKING YOU OFF ONE BY ONE.

THEY DON’T HAVE ANY RESPECT FOR ANY MILITARY COMMANDERS – I’VE SEEN!  NOT ONE!

I AM REAL FUCKING SICK OF THE GOODMAN UNITED STATES MILITARY LOOKING LIKE A BUNCH OF PANSIES!  POLITICALLY CORRECT, DIAPER WEARING, PANSIES!

January 29, 2020: READ: WARNING: HOW MANY JOB OFFERS?!

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MAKE SURE THIS GETS TO A MAN WHO ISN’T AFRAID, AND IS WILLING TO TAKE ORDERS FROM A WOMAN, AND THAT WOMAN IS CHERITH GJESTLAND AND NO OTHER!

 

January 29, 2020

WOW!  Really the last thing I need is to wake up to this amount of extreme ANGER!

I WANT TO KNOW HOW MANY JOB OFFERS, HAVE BEEN GIVEN TO THE UNITED STATES’ GOVERNMENT FOR ME, TO WORK WITH ME, TO TRANSFER ME – OUT OF STATE, TO WORK WITH MY, AT THE TIME, CURRENT EMPLOYERS!  I WANT TO KNOW!  BECAUSE I BELIEVE – YOU CAN’T TELL ME BECAUSE ITS ALL BEEN COVERED UP!

THIS STUPID MASK WEARING, VIRUS CHINA STORY YOU GOT PLAYING IN THE GODDAMN NEWS AND MEDIA IS NOTHING MORE THAN – ANOTHER JOB OFFER, FROM CHINA, THROUGH THE PROPER GODDAMN GIOVERNMENTAL CHANNELS OF THE UNITED STATES TO WORK WITH ME – WHEN?!  2017!

AND, YOU MORONS LET SOME MID-LEVEL PEOPLE, SQUASH IT!

THEY’RE GONNA KILL YOU IN THIS NEIGHBORHOOD, AND I AM GOING TO LET THEM!  YOU HAD YOUR CHANCES TO COME CLEAN, CHANGE YOUR WAYS AND YOU’VE CHOSEN NOT TO!  I’M GONNA LET THEM KILL YOU!

I AIN’T HELPING ANYMORE WITH A WASHINGTON POST PROBLEM.  YOU SHOULD HAVE FIGURED THAT OUT BEFORE YOU LET ME GO!

BF IS HAVING PROBLEMS!  YOU DEAL WITH IT!  I WON’T BE SEEN PUBLICLY TODAY!  I AM TOO FUCKING FAT!

YOU SICK MOTHERFUCKERS!  YOU PURPOSEFULLY PUT BF IN A SEXUAL RELATIONSHIP WITH A VERY FAT BLACK WOMAN, SO YOU COULD CONTINUE TO ABUSE MY BODY, AS IF I WOULD THEN ALLOW MYSELF TO TURN INTO JABBA-BABBA HUT BECAUSE BF HAD SEX WITH AN UNATTRACTIVE FEMALE BODY!

PERHAPS YOU FAILED TO NOTICE THAT IS ONE REASON I BROKE UP WITH BF!

WHOEVER SICK PEROSN THIS IS, A MAN’S PENIS IS NOT MY LORD AND MASTER!

I’LL BE GODDAMNED BEFORE I EVER LET A MAN RULE OVER ME LIKE A MASTER!  YOU PEOPLE ARE SICK!  AND, NONE OF YOU ARE INTERESTED IN WEAPONS!  YOU’RE INTRESTED IN TABLOID JOURNALISM!  AND TELEVISION!  AT BEST!

ARE YOU REALLY AFRAID THAT IF I LEAVE THE STATE OF FLORIDA, FLORIDA WILL BE VULNERABLE TO AN ATTACK?!

OR, THAT YOU WILL BE EXPOSED WITHOUT ME?!

OR, THAT I WILL TAKE THE BEST MEN WITH ME?!

OR, THAT I WILL NEVER WORK FOR INTELLIGENCE AGAIN!

I, AT THIS MOMENT, DO NOT CARE WHAT BF SAYS TO ME ABOUT MY BODY – I DON’T BELIEVE HIM!  THAT DOESN’T MAKE HIM UNABLE TO WORK WITH OTHER PEOPLE, PERHAPS IT IS YET ANOTHER EXAMPLE OF YOU CAN’T CONTROL OTHER PEOPLE’S EMOTIONS!

NONE OF YOU EVEN HAS THE FOGGIEST NOTION OF WHAT BRAIN RESEARCH REALLY IS, NOT EVEN BF!  AND, YOU ARE ALL WILLING TO DESTROY ALL OF IT!

I AM WAY TOO FUCKING PISSED FOR THIS TODAY!  THIS IS WELL BEYOND AN ACCEPTABLE LEVEL OF WORKING!

CODY’S EX-GIRLFRIED IS RESPONSIBLE FOR DESTROYING THIS FBI MAN’S WORK AT MY FORMER EMPLOYMENT!  AND SHE IS NOT THE ONLY ONE!

CASEY’S EX-GIRLFRIED IS RESPONSIBLE FOR CREATING HAVOC, MAYHEM, AND UNAUTHORIZED SPENDING OF FUNDS!

WHY AM I IN MY OWN HOME, SMELLING THIS UP MY NOSE?!

I DON’T GIVE A FUCK WHAT IS IN A GODDAMN MOVIE, YOU WON’T BE SEEING ME RUNNING ON THE GODDMAN STREETS ANY TIME SOON!  MAYBE NEVER AGAIN!

YOU BETTER WISE UP BF!  YOU WANT TO LIVE?!  OR, ARE YOU OKAY WITH DYING NOW?!

YOU BETTER BE REAL CAREFUL IF YOU WANT TO BE SEEN AS – PUSHING ME!

YOU DON’T EVEN HAVE A FUCKING CLUE WHO THE FUCK I AM, BF!

YOU’RE RUNNING AROUND LIKE THIS GODDMAN CIRCUS IS ALL MEANT FOR YOU!  YOU CAN HAVE IT THEN!

YOU WANT TO BE SEEN AS A MAN WHO IS TRYING TO LET ME BE THE BEST VERSION OF MYSELF BY MAKING ME OVERWEIGHT, FAT, AND DISGUSTING TO LOOK AT?!

BE R-E-A-L FUCKING CAREFUL!

I’LL LET THEM KILL YOU!

I WANT TO KNOW HOW MANY OTHER JOBS HAVE BEEN OFFERED TO ME OFFICIALLY?! HOW MANY OTHERS?! HOW MANY OTHER JOBS HAVE BEEN GIVEN TO ME BY THE PROPER CHANNELS AND YOU MORONS HAVE ALLOWED OTHERS TO SUBVERT?! HOW MANY?! MORE THAN ANYONE IS ABLE TO FIND OUT?! HOW MANY OTHER REAL JOBS, REAL EMPLOYMENTS HAVE BEEN GIVEN TO THE UNITED STATES’ GOVERNMENT FOR ME?! HOW MANY?!

THE CRUX IS BRAIN RESEARCH, AT THIS MOMENT, IT IS ONE OF THE MOST VALUABLE RESOURCES UNDISCOVERED. THERE ARE DRUGGIES AND UNQUALIFIED’S PREVENTING THE KNOWLEDGE AND DISCOVERIES YET TO BE MADE FOR THEIR OWN SELFISH NEEDS AND DESIRES AND NOT FOR THE BETTERMENT OF MANKIND. THAT MAN CONFESSED, DIDN’T HE?! I’M SORRY, BUT I AM CODE AND INTELLIGENCE IN THE MOVIE A BEAUTIFUL MIND, IT WAS MEANT FOR ME TO TELL THE WORLD. THE APPLICATIONS AND USES OF BRAIN RESEARCH NO ONE, INCLUDING MY BLOATED SELF, HAS YET TO DELVE INTO ITS DEEP. ALL THAT JOHN NASH HAS ACCOMPLISHED IN HIS LIFETIME IS PROBABLY MINUSCLE COMPARED TO WHAT HE COULD HAVE ACCOMPLISHED. IT’S AN INCREDIBLE MIND OF HIS TO BE ABLE TO WORK HIMSELF BACK TO HIMSELF! DON’T LET IT HAPPEN AGAIN! IT’S SUBVERSIVE WORK! I’M IN LIMBO HERE WORKING BEAT COP WORK WHEN THE POSSIBILITIES OF GREATER WORK THAT HAS NOT YET BEEN DISCOVERED EXISTS! LET’S GET ON WITH IT! THE COMFORT LEVEL OF THESE PEOPLE’S WORK ETHICS, FLOORS ME! I’M SORRY I AM ABLE TO DREAM, KNOW, BELIEVE, AND ACHIEVE GREATER SUCCESS THAN MOST PEOPLE HAVE ANY COMPREHENSION EXISTS IN THE WORLD! IT’S TIME TO CUT THE STRINGS!

January 28, 2020: READ: WARNING: JESUS FUCKING CHRIST, CAN WE CLEAR THE GODDAMN FUCKING AIR!

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January 28, 2020

I told you so.  Alcoholic beverage.

I literally cannot believe I am doing this and writing this.  I also, cannot believe these men actually want to be read by me.

Um, so, no.

No, my reactions to something as painful, humiliating, embarrassing, unpleasant, uncomfortable, and yes, painful as what has happened to my body since the last quarter of 2018 cannot be swayed, coerced, or untruthful, no matter how hard they try.

What really happened?  After I left The Container Store in 2014?  What really happened?  Because it looks like the start of the movie 13 Hours was meant to find out the real truth into what made that night in Libya happen, yet WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED?!  IS WHAT I SEE, FROM INTELLIGENCE, MOSTLY THE CIA, WHEN I LEFT MY EMPLOYMENT IN 2014.  IT LITERALLY LOOKS LIKE THEY ARE STILL TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT, SO IT MUST MEAN, AFGHANISTAN.

I’m sorry, I am better at this than anyone else, and specifically, military, and I MEAN ANYTHING, MILITARY.  I’m better at it than anyone else.

It would be really great BF (formerly HL), still broken up, yet talking because I’m not going to unlove him, it would be really great if this man would sleep through the night.  Do you have any idea what it is like to have this man constantly, waking me in the middle of the night, probably with a boner, and he sets off working?  Since, he’s working, he is keeping me awake.  

Since it seems other people are aware these two have been in the area, and it looks like they want to be read, I will write about them.  Normally, I literally, would just leave them alone.

You have reason to be concerned, David Wallaims.  It does seem Matt Lucas abuses his body with drugs, sort of from boredom.

Matt Lucas did a profile of me, and it is pretty correct.

Crazy as this sounds, Matt Lucas is probably, not gay.

Did David Wallaims’ marriage put a strain on the partnership and friendship between David and Matt?

What it looks like is Matt has not been able to, in his mind, have any understanding or concept of real love.  Love that doesn’t require payment, services, personal information, love that just is.  Real love.  It suggests physical and sexual abuse, when he was a child and he, in an attempt to forgive, has been loving his abuser(s), instead of beating the living snot out of them, or placing legal action against them.

That requires talking to a therapist, and talking things out, and it will not be easy, it will be very difficult for him.  Probably close to extraordinarily painful.

What happened on Sunday looked very real, and very painful.  I literally am not that person that sticks my nose in.  Not in people’s personal lives, especially when I do not know them.

David Wallaims was nearby my home, and a smell(s), I’ve grown to detest entered my nostrils, and I did not say, he can die.  Because it is not truthful.

I said fatty-fatty-two-by-four-can’t-get-through-the-kitchen-door, people will then think and believe, I was referring or talking about Matt Lucas, when I was not.

Matt Lucas must be pretty smart.  And, that is why he does not like himself very much.  He just hasn’t found another outlet, to redirect his energy.  Negative and positive energy.  He must really need to – think.  And, not being able use his mental abilities somehow, will create such frustration and boredom, it would feel terrible in your own skin.  So, he does things, to feel better, but they don’t really help.

He might actually be more physical then he realizes.  Meaning, he has justified rage, that he should get in touch with and – work out.  Like boxing.

He probably needs to create a plan with a therapist, in conjunction with a physical activity, like boxing because he looks very physical, and start there.  If he wants to.

I’m sorry, he is not just a victim, he does have some things to be ashamed of, and he is very able to change his ways.

Has he studied anything?  He is smart.

David Wallaims looks like he bears a lot of the burden in their relationship, and he tries not to let that effect their relationship.  That’s mature of him.

It wouldn’t hurt if Matt Lucas admitted that to David Wallaims.

And, by the way, the profile, Matt Lucas did, says, among other things, you people are wrong about her.  She’s not supposed to look like that.

Stop looking at people as body parts and start thinking about who people really are.

I did talk to my brother after seeing that episode of myself because my father, at that time, was just not interested in talking to me, not really.  And, my father then is not the same man he is now, and  WOW, if my mother was still alive, and could have really known all the great things I have done, I am sure she would let me swear in her presence.

I wish my mother could have known while she was alive, even if it was in her nursing home, with her stroke-brain, I wish she could have known.  That I got them Bin Laden, I saved these mens’ lives, I rescued these men, I got this military and that, I wish she could have known.

It could literally also be a plot to kill my mother if they had made plans to film my life in 360.  My mother was amazing.  In her wheelchair, wherever we were like a store, with me pushing her, she would look at people, and truthfully mean it when she would say, I love you.

Some people might have only heard the stroke in her voice, and not that she wanted people to know, although she’s been damaged with a stroke, she still loves, people.

She was amazing, my mother was amazing.

She was mentally very smart, and she had a way with people.  I wish she could have known who I really was when she was alive.

I just don’t feel like it because YOU’VE MADE ME TOO FAT!  AND, I AM GROSSLY UNHAPPY WITH WHAT YOU HAVE DONE TO MY BODY!

AND, HEARING BF TELL ME HE WOULD STILL HAVE ME SEXUALLY, IS NOT ENOUGH FOR ME.  BECAUSE I KNOW MY BODY, AND I KNOW WHO I AM, AND WHAT YOU MORONS HAVE DONE TO MY BODY – IS NOT THE REAL ME!

The last time I resembled the real me, January 2014.