Trying To Hold On

 

There are worse things in life than having cared deeply for a man once and still remember him for what he inspired in you and remember that goodness in times of grief and pain.  It is certainly not a crime to remember a man, remember him well, and wish nothing but his great happiness – always.

It is called having a heart wanting to use that heart correctly with purpose and meaning.

There are worse things in life than not only waiting but demanding for not just any random Joe, but a man who will love me straight and true.  Take me in his arms, make me feel special and loved, more importantly waiting for the man who will inspire and hold me, be my tethering point above any other man.  Call me old-fashioned but he will have to find me and not the other way around.

I have been so badly treated, misjudged, hurt and harmed for sport, misrepresented, and mischaracterized.  If it has not happened in truth I have been made to feel as though all of the above has occurred.

Since moving here nearly four years ago, I have never felt more alone, seperate and seperated from the rest of the world, and more un-like myself.  This is not my home in any way.

So tired of this false reality around me.

 

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Author: endthefalselife

Saudi love is forever, but will not wait forever - it’s bye-bye time now! Get me my fucking money and settlements, know who is truly my attorney, get that fucking money you people owe me for this false life! Chose wisely and know the difference between what will and what will not go defended by me! Make the same mistakes over and over will not be defended by me! Fire, threats, unemployment, loss of quality of life, loss of life, no happiness, weight gain - will never be defended by me! This is not enough American master intelligence in over - 30 years, still not enough income, you’re already done and don’t know it - it’s not enough money to live on stop lying - you are not paying someone - to live, what’s the real result you expect then?! ICAI: You have until 5/30/2026 and then it’s truly over America! If you can’t let me have my freedom and my money - in over 13 years, you will lose to Norway, and ch will retire to Norway, possibly marry, not in America, and you won’t get anything again, from ch! You’ve had too much smell time! You’re too fucking lazy! You’ve not paid me and you’ve not given me - my real fucking money, you’re not working fulltime, and all you’re doing is waiting to see me dead in the takeover! You’re too goddamn fat and heavy and unemployed - fucking rage goddamn fucking hot fucking mad - Cough the money up, DC Virginia! Cough it up! Too late now, ch is on her weigh, dead or alive now! Ch is on her weigh! That’s all any of this is ever about - DC Virginia withholding money and funds! Cough it up! ;($!?,. Post script, PS a sword - cough it up dc Virginia

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