My Now

You cannot take one moment in time and think you know me.

You cannot take the present now and judge who or what you may think I am.

You have to take into consideration the day I had before, the day I had before that, the day I had before that, the weeks and months and years that led up to the present now to even begin to understand my point of view, my voice, my life, who I am and who I should become.

Every day we pass judgements upon people we meet or see, however you can never really know a person – even if by some chance you were allowed to know what a person was thinking in an exact moment, you still cannot really understand a person until you are in their life.  For there is no one living and experiencing that person’s present other than the person experiencing it and living with its consequences.  You cannot be on the outside looking in.

Maybe you do only get one true love in a lifetime, or maybe you get a few in a lifetime, I don’t know.  What I know for certain.  I am not loved in my now.