Adios

So long, California.

Almost my whole life I wanted to return to California.  Yet, my dream has been made into something intolerable.  Someone has come along perverted my dream, as well as, my dreams.

What a coward a man has to be to steal the very thought from you.

If you have set a plan in place are on the path to doing what you set your mind to and then someone comes along parodying or mimicking your moves to appear as if they are leading or showing you what to do – it is not valid or real.  It is a mere illusion has no weight or bearing on your life or what is real.  Furthermore, the person is a coward and a cheat.

I believe that I’ve been made to believe in a man/men who are not real in my life.

If a man wants to be made a part of your life – he will do it in the flesh and not by proxy.  He will come to you introduce himself start the conversation, open up and offer his heart in the process.  He will not employ tricks.  He will not employ deceptions or relayed messages.

If a man does not wish to appear in the flesh and be present in my life I have to ackowledge that he is ashamed of me, embarrassed by me, repulsed by me, afraid of me, or afraid of who he will become if he allows me into his life.