Straight To The Trash

I made a purchase that I was left with no alternative but to throw away.  It was full of subliminal messages that not only do not apply to me, but had/have such a negative effect and impact upon me it has literally caused me harm, mental anguish, suffering, and immeasurable misery.

If I had been aware in advance of what I was purchasing I would NEVER have made the purchase.  No one should have to live through the experience I’ve lived through with the subliminal messaging.  I would not wish it upon my worst enemy.

Every product has a label defining what it contains.  And, there are warning labels which state what will happen in certain circumstances.

I was deceived by this innocent purchase.  However based on principles alone I removed it as soon as I understood its (miss)representation.  No one should have to suffer through something like that as I have been made to suffer.  The harm is immeasurable.

It is like having an unwelcome neighbor, or uninvited permanent guest at your residence that you never invited, don’t want, and have no means of evicting.  Or, keeping a father away from you who violates you.  Believe me I am all too aware of a circumstance such as this and at a loss how to regain control over all areas of my life.

I should not have to keep proving and constantly keep someone who harms me away.

I should be protected instead of violated.

This brings me to another incident in my life where I was greatly deceived.  I started dating a man because – well, I am single.  After the first meeting my gut told me I should end it immediately as something bothered me and did not sit well in my spirit.  This man ended up deceiving me greatly.  The only way he was able to gain entrance in any way to me was simply through deception.  He had studied me, spied on me, and learned what men I had cared for in my past.  He then used that information, used another man’s words to gain entrance to me otherwise he would never have been able to get anywhere near me.  It has been an inescapable nightmare for me.  I have no idea why any person would go to such lengths to deceive me.  When all I’ve wanted was a man in my life whom I could love who loved me in return – forever.