Shave It Off!

Since when did James Franco get to reinvent the meaning of a “beard?”

No one is allowed entry into my home at any time!!!!

Sitting here hot as hell worried about money, food, finances, employment, my ability to stay alive!

Why is that in Sims 4 every male avatar looks like a young David Wolfe? Who I never want to see or know of again!

Swirling, swirling, spinning, spinning faster and faster!  Have you ever had things go so fast that you are unable to recognize any details at all?  Having to go so fast that the entire world becomes nothing, you see nothing, and you understand nothing!

So, I painted a picture when I was in grade school of Mt. Hood that was chosen from all my other classmates it was framed and hung in the local frame shop.  There is more to this story, but I don’t have time to tell it or anything else anymore.

How did this get to be my whole life?!

I could have had a real job by now and made real money by now.  I wouldn’t have to be going through a bankruptcy because I would have had a job that paid me a salary I could live off of.  This bankruptcy is the most expensive thing I have ever had to do in my life!

People need to listen to me.

If my brother had listened to me he would still be living in San Diego, Ca.  He would still be employed By San Diego University.  His excuse was he wanted to write more instead of teach.  It turns out he prefers to teach.  He is a good teacher.  His students like him.  They ask him for help.  They involve him in their learning.  I’ve seen it.  Do you know how hard that is to find a teacher who likes to teach?!  It seems a obvious thing, but a lot of teachers are not teacher because they enjoy it.  It is a talent to be a teacher.  It is a tremendous thing for a teacher who has the capacity to teach.  I don’t have time to go into this more.  However, had my brother listened to me he would still be teaching, have real estate, and be in a better position financially.  He is a good teacher.

I want a private brain again.  I don’t know how to create, or write with an audience in my head, with the appliances talking and making a racket.

How did this happen to me?!

I am so depressed, unhappy, and sad all the time – this is not who I am or used to be this is what has HAPPENED to me.

Another year, another Christmas all alone without a single person to be my friend, without a boyfriend or a husband – this is not who I am!  Let alone I am unable to put up a Christmas tree #1 because I cannot afford it, and #2 the lights I have someone has replaced and put cameras in them, so I cannot even decorate in my own home.

Why is it everytime I go to work and return home someone I did not create ends up in my Sims game?!

So depressed!