A Smile Series

I had started writing thank you’s to people I have seen as a way of involving myself instead of passively having something constantly done to me.  However, there have been many problems for me simply for being grateful, gracious, and creatively aware.  I have endured a lot of physical, emotional, and psychological pain simply because of how I see the world and others, and I am unafraid to show and share the tough, difficult, indelicate, and all those details and things that are unpopular, and uncomfortable.

So, I have decided after much thought to end the series.  I do not see the benefit to me or purpose in continuing something that only keeps me separate from the rest of the world.

Perhaps it is because I had such a terrible day at work today.  Overtime with no work causing me to lose faith.  Bad, terrible day at work for no reason.

Perhaps it is because I am mushy brain exhausted.  I don’t know.  I want a change.  There is no reason why I shouldn’t be able to have a better paying job.  There isn’t any reason I cannot find other employment.

I am greatly unhappy for no reason or cause.

I don’t smile anymore anyway.