Declassified Files: A Series Of True Events Being Brought To Light

June 20, 2017

Dear Mr. Computer,

I am so angry!!!!!  I am so sick and tired of being treated as a puppet on a string!!  I am so angry about one day this means one thing another day it means another thing.  No, do it this way, no, do it that way, no, did it like this!!!!  I am so sick and fucking tired of this STUPID SHIT!!!

I AM SO ANGRY ABOUT HAVING TO SCREAM SUICIDAL IDEAS AND PLANS JUST TO BE HEARD!!!!!!!!

I am so angry about not being able to choose whatever products I WANT, that I LIKE, that I ENJOY the taste of!!!!!!

Do you think I want to sit here and be finger fucked for the rest of my life?!

I don’t even know who that was in the yellow shorts!!  I am too fucking sick, and tired, and mad about it all!!!

Where my car is parked, where I pick up my mail, what number, what color – I FUCKING HATE IT!!  I AM SO SICK OF IT!!!!!

I am so tired of screaming fuck-you’s because that’s the only thing I get to express.

I hate that fucking ceiling vent in my house!  It should be disconnected permanently.  All of the appliances, fire alarms, electrical sockets, light bulbs, and lamps along with any other listening devices I might not have mentioned or be aware of should be DISCONNECTED AND SHUT OFF forever!!

I hate being monitored while in the toilet at        !!!  I want it to end forever!  No one should have to be watched while relieving themselves, especially having been made to shit their pants!!!!!!!!!!  Which is the only reason I used the toilet I did!  It is the only one you cannot see!  I am so mad and angry about       today!!

Obama cured!  The truth of the matter is I NEVER had the Ebola virus from which I could not be cured as I have previously written.  The problem was I did not, nor could I understand what was happening at TCS and every person there seemed to know I slept with the skin suit person (doesn’t really count since they were in disguise and wearing fake skin).

I thought it was David when I spoke of the Ebola virus.  I thought they were making fun of me – again – for still believing in David.  Not in love with David.  I was just unwilling to say bad things about him, or betray the memories I had of him that is why I said I could not be cured.  I am still unwilling to bend or waiver on the fact that he was important to me.  So many things have changed.  I am not the same anymore, however I will not let go of that memory for the sake of someone else’s comfort or game.

I am so sick and tired and fed up with having to return problem food!!!  I am so upset about having to choose a different aisle just to go to the TOILET!!

I am so upset about every different person being able to say different things and different procedures at         and this      life.  I am so mad about there not being consistency!!

I am so angry about being so poorly handled and managed!

I really came away from this – you are what you eat shopping.  It is so uncreative.

If it’s not my      that’s too low, then it’s my       that goes         or too     .  If it’s not one thing, then it’s another.

It all needs to be completely reworked, restructured, and reorganized.

1. There should be no reason why I am forced to be     , made     , or given extreme circumstances to get to          .
2. There should be no reason why I have to return products constantly.
3. There should be no reason why I can’t have and chose whatever products I like.
4. There should be no more proxy BUYING!
5. There should be no more proxies in relation to anything inside my home.
6. There should be no more driving games.
7. There should be no more mickey mouse puzzle, or maze games ANYWHERE in my life!
8. There should be no more altering of my food or products of any kind!
9. There should be no more entering of my home in any capacity whatsoever!
10. There should be no more listening or viewing of the inside or outside of my home at all!
11. There should be no more creating barriers for me to have to figure out, solve, or overcome!
12. There will be no more correlation between the route to      and my      experience.
13. There will be no more correlation between where I park and my      experience.
14. There will be no more correlation between where I park my car and my mail.
15. You will fill that hole to the right of me.
16. You will fix the right side of me, so I no longer have to choose left or right!
17. There will no longer be a contest between US and International.
18. There will no longer be a contest between black and white and color.
19. There will no longer be any more 1, 2, or 3!!!!!!!
20. There will no longer be a difference between Tuesday’s or Thursday’s!!!
21. There will be no more hunger games!
22. There will be no more games or gaming!
23. There will be no more sleepy-time at      or otherwise!!!!!!!!!
24. There will be no more coercions of purchasing products in order to keep my    .
25. There will be no more coercions of any sort to keep my    .
26. You will keep that skin suit person and Casey away from me!!!!
27. There will no longer be a contest between       ,          ,             , or any such contest.
28. There will be no more forcing me to eat fat-free and sugar-free or reduced products to keep my weight down.
29. There will be no more trixies!!!!!!!!!!
30. There will be no more driving games!
31. This is NOT a complete list!

I feel like I need to fill you in on the things that have been done to me since TCS went bad.  I feel like I have to download all these bad memories, hurts, and harm so that I can get to the good stuff of where my creative memories lie.