I cannot believe that I have to write this!

First, I want to say, I am still not writing which is not a good sign or in any way good at all.

STOP this copy cat stupid nonsense and bullshit!!!  I do not write for solitude!  I have never wanted to be alone in my entire life!!!!!!  I have never in my life EVER been alone before moving here.  I write because it is in my head.  I write because I can.

I should never for one moment EVER have to call into question, doubt, guess, find or read clues into purchases, vote for people, read into descriptions, fly or wear certain colors, or in any other way not yet mentioned doubt Lakeland!!!!!!!!!!!  Lakeland should in every single way do better than the best by and to me.  ALWAYS!!!!

David Wolfe you should be very worried right now.  James Franco should never have been in the picture – EVER!  Because if I am unwilling to yell at you at all, it is not good, and you should be very worried.

I want to live free and independently!!  I have not been able to do so since 2012!

Put an end immediately to working off my computer screen and imitating and copying what I watch and read.  I have a better plan.  A much smarter and more sophisticated plan that is better than anything you could copy or think of.  I have been painting, drawing, writing, and creating since before I ever met any of you including David Wolfe.

I will say this: The moment “Bill” at TCS touched me I was immediately repulsed.  I believed he was gay.  Trying to persuade me that sitting around drinking and having dinner could be considered art, or an artist.

SOYLENT GREEN MUST END!!!  Do you not even understand the political and social economical statement that movie was trying to debate and raise?!  Women are not furniture!  People are not slaves to be worked into an early death!  It is about distribution of wealth and equality.  Jesus Christ it is abstract!  I don’t have time to go on!  For fuck sake I cannot believe how fucking stupid this is!

New York and Lakeland you fucking mishandled and mismanaged me!

At the moment the only thing I see in other people is how much more money they have and make more money than me!  When I watch movies what I see in the actors and crew is how they are able to do something they want and enjoy, and I DO NOT!!!!!!!  I see how much more help and well off every one else is!

I am fucking sick of it!