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Correction: I did understand the purpose of the man I saw, I am specifically not writing about some details on purpose. It was the role of the media that caused and made significant damage to the investigation of a serial killer. It was not about freedom of the press, or freedom of speech. The story grew out of control allowing for panic and fear to take over when if the media had been properly handled, managed, dealt with there might not have been as many killings as there were. This is a huge point. One that is of the utmost seriousness. Because there are people still about who do not have the proper training, the proper credentials, the proper authority, the proper agenda, the proper motives, the proper ideas, the proper values, the proper input, the proper wherewithal. Again, this is a very serious matter.
For security purposes, I think and believe it is best to not re-use people. One person should only be allowed to be one person’s proxy, and not be used by several and multiple people. It is a damaging process in allowing such interference. Reputations, names, countries are at risk by allowing such practices. I want it to stop. For security, it is not possible for some people to just hop in and out. For security. Very, very, very important. I do not – I see a happening, an idea forming in people’s minds thinking they can and should play war games. This is real. This is a very big deal to me. Very big. I am not able to stress this enough. I do not want, nor will I allow certain very important people to have their lives ruined at the best. Crucial. Seriously crucial. Of the utmost importance.
I am aware that there are more than several high-profile, important, wealthy people and businessmen who have said and told people I should be given what I am asking for. Nearly regardless of what I ask for it should be given to me. For reasons I do not have to discuss. This is also a very big, serious matter that has not been handled correctly or at all.
Let it be known, I will not be re-parking my car at work. I am not a woman wanting to be disguised as a man.
Also, hard-armwood, it is the football and sports connection that has yet to be properly corrected. Until then, I must cease. I do not want it to be misunderstood or construed as involvement with the current sports connection. It needs to be properly corrected, affirmative. Notice, that is not a question mark. The best start for this will be with the left foot.
Please stop being careless. GI’s do not apologize.
Make certain you understand I will always love David. I have written this more than once. When you love someone it never goes away. However, I will never be able to be in love with him. It is the risk he took with whatever the fuck that was. A dating experiment? To see if they could create another show? I will never believe it was a test of any kind, not at all. Everyone who has known me, monitored me, spied on me, watched me, knows better than that. There was no evidence of any sort on my part of any misconduct. None. Remember they’ve had listening devices and hidden cameras in my homes for decades. To say their conduct is illegal is one thing, it is so immoral. I am beyond words. To know that David was also involved in this behavior damages any hope of speaking or any reconciliation at all.
Again, there has been no purpose in these hand years. Because a person does not become gay or want the same sex just because a great man will no longer be available or no longer be great to me. I write this because they wanted me to write that David believed I was gay. They wanted to use me to pick a fight with David. He knew me better than that. They made me upset at work about it, making me think about it using mind control. It is so hurtful. I had God moments with David. I will never want a woman to replace him. It will always be a man that will be in my life. To think, create, cause, and do otherwise is beyond dumb.
I am no longer going to be providing a diary, or details of my life to be investigated to prove that I am correct. It is more than about time that – they, every person, come forward, be forth coming, and confess.
I have a theory. A theory about my brother and his involvement. I believe he was paid for information and details. I believe he was blackmailed. They must have had something involving him in such a way. It might take him a while to work through those memories, but when my surgery was discussed he was off. I could not understand it. He was worried, concerned, fearful. I saw him looking in his mind at conversations and details he had shared. I believe he sent them to an email address that could have been read by several people. He had people he messaged through his phone. But, the surgery was a worry for him. He looked like a man who had gone too far and did not know who to trust, how to get help, how to break off communications, and stop the process. Do not be confused, I do not believe he did or said anything intentionally. I believe after the surgery was brought about he wondered how it could be used or misconstrued. I do not believe for a moment my brother ever said or believed I was gay. He was trying to figure out what they had planned. What they were doing and what they were going to do.
He was nervous on the day of the operation. One person was extremely nervous who was with me before I went into surgery. I was not able to understand that reaction as well. I almost asked her to leave it was so disrupting. I have not lied, nor never lied about wanting children, having a family, and getting married. It is all I wanted after taking care of my mother. My time for struggling, living like a teen-ager, and wanting to pursue acting, film, or singing was over. I wanted a man to love. I wanted a home with him. My time felt short, at times it still feels short. Half of my life is gone. I wanted to spend the rest of my life loving and being loved by a man.
Two things, my brother helped me with. We both tried to get a divorce for my mother from our father. Power of Attorney over my mother was needed for her to go to a nursing home. For reasons I will not share, I believed my brother should have Power of Attorney for my mother. Had I known that my brother was working with other parties, I would not have allowed it, not for a moment would I have allowed it. The divorce the attorney could not help with. I believe it is because they needed my father’s income somehow. Somehow, they were able to siphon off money not just from my mother and father, I believe they used money I lent to my brother as a startup cost of some sort, or to be used somehow. I loaned a lot of money to my brother, who had been a professor at a University, when he returned home, he had an unusual amount of debt considering his job, income, housing, and spending. Unusual. The attorney my brother went through also did adoptions. They were not Russian, or a Russian lawyer. I am not sure any of it was legal anymore.
For my brother it would seems as though it was coming from a good place that it was going to be a good thing. When it was not.
My surgery I believe, beyond not allowing my lineage to continue, also disfigured me. My stomach has never been the same since the surgery. I used to do almost 200 sit-ups and crunches a day, I worked-out, I ran, and I was never able, have never been able to lose my belly. It is a round bulge on the front that regardless of how much weight I’ve lost does not go down and flat. I believe not only did they take out my organs, they placed fat, they rearranged fatty tissue and placed it on purpose on the front of my stomach. It is malicious. There is no connection to the muscle below my skin around my belly button. None. It is lop-sided. One side sticks out more than the other. It is with malicious intent not only to remove my reproductive organs, but to create an unnatural stomach and belly. Why would a person or any person do such a thing? It is cruel.
I surprise and impress people every day with how well and accurate I am with my skills. Yesterday, while going through some work, I saw that a woman was dead. The image had been altered and edited, the details I will leave out, no one needs to know everything, I knew from looking at the photograph that she was already dead and had been for some time. I heard him in my head, impressed. Almost remarkable. I do it all the time. This one is missing but is dead. This one is still missing. This one has been abused and it is horrible. On and on. I am not alone in this. There are many people who have this skill and ability.
Do not be fooled, they have not trained me to be able to do these things. How many more examples must I write that happened before any of these scripts took place?
God dammit, tonight they wanted to know why something had taken so long for an answer. It is something that I am able to dismiss, set aside, ignore, whatever helps you see it in your head. If I am not asked properly and in the proper manner, or asked the question at all, most likely I will not answer it.
I am not interested in giving specifics on my cats when I am asked. I have my reasons. You need to stop asking me, being involved, and causing problems where there should be none.
Do not forget, I am the only person with the key.
Blow Jobs, I want to know why you allow this to continue. You allow for them to deliver damaged products that will harm me, inflate me, make me sick, or worse. These are products and brands from companies with reputations including Amazon. So, I want to know why you would allow them to, for instance, deliver gum that will blow up like a balloon when chewed, or hair dye or hair spray or shampoo that will cause my hair to break or my hair to be removed from the scalp, or adult beverages that will sedate me or make me sick. Why do you allow this to continue?! Because it could be considered negligence. Not to mention the damage it will cause on the reputation of these companies. Many companies are involved.
Blow Jobs, why is it that it is my job to first be a human experimentation of products to then complain about so that it gets written about? Why is it not the other way around?
A brand of cat-litter that I used to use before, I bought because it did the best job for me, my wants, and my cats. I was made to stop and change to a different brand because it used walnut shells instead. Walnut shells being a food that you do not eat. Why was I made to change what worked for me before?
WE - DO NOT AGREE! 