January 28, 2019: READ, Too Tired

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January 28, 2019

You should have hired me straight out, without the façade.

That was an admission I saw this morning when I left work, Timothy admitting he and probably others have used me in the past in their military work.  I know without a doubt I am still, better than him.  And he, is exceptional.  I know I am better.

All these DECADES of using me as a governmental employee is the evidence of that.  I am more than an asset.  Obviously, I am more than an hourly wage employee.

The phone reference in BBC’s Sherlock would also reference my mother’s job when she started at EF, Education Foundation and Sandy Hill who lived in San Francisco.  There is a subversive at work, and it is not my mother.  The fastest way to write this, the double-agents, the subversives trying to bring down the United States government started in Oregon.  Oregon, Ore-gone, this mispronunciation used to bother me.  It was probably code.

All persons involved in creating and operating on me, everything involving my surgery, you need to turn yourselves in.  You will never be safe, I see it.  Even after my death, it is there.  Turn yourself in to the authorities.

If I am too tired to even take a shower after work, I am too tired.  Who is actually in charge when none of it is real, anyway?

There is no reason for my life to be set in this manner.  There is no reason I must live my life without people.

It does look the same, not necessarily the same people, it just looks the same.  Whoever manipulated the traffic lights at the intersection where my brother’s car accident was, it looks the same as the 9/11 attacks.

They should not have moved my trash cans from the right to the left last week when I specifically placed them there.

I never really liked that man I dated.  I never loved Michael, I knew it the moment he told me he loved me, I did not love him.  I did love David, many years ago.

Too tired.