January 31, 2019: READ: The Journey of Natty Gann

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January 31, 2019

If this is a profile picture, Sherriff Alex Villanueva there is too much Florida in it.  The torso looks like the Florida State Trooper who used to work at Dillard’s with me, the one I used to flirt with and make him laugh, and he never asked me out.  What I see is the lower jaw that is the man responsible for the move to Oregon.

Who is this woman to the left of Nancy Pelosi in California House article, she is BAD!

Black long-sleeved shirt is connected to my brother somehow.

This picture of Eric Garcetti tells me that David Wolfe never really liked me, or liked me in that way, in a sexual way.

You have no real proxies of me in the news from what I’ve seen.

Roger Stone looks like gay Tom from Disney.  He looks like a ding-bat to me.  Unable to do real work.

My neighbor being a fire-fighter is not literal to me, it says community, civil servant.  Nothing more.

The Journey of Natty Gann read:

The reason the movie is set during the Great Depression is to show there is no money because we moved from California.

It does look like the dog bite leaving me with a scar was a way to mark me.  It will not be taken well.

CARE, care.  Handle with care.  CA – California, no ER.  No emergency room.  I was taken to the emergency room to have stitches.  I was a child.  Four or five years old.

It was supposed to be a kill on my brother in his car accident.  That is what it looks like to me.

My mother wanted to buy me a rabbit-fur coat, I didn’t like the idea.  Fastest way to write it would be it looked like flash and gaudy.

“What was my kid doing in Colorado.”  This says to me, it is in reference to my mother, kid as in goat – middle east.  It looks like the middle east to me.  I believe my father was stationed in Virginia, then Colorado.  I do not have all of his military information.

AFE – stations, military stations.  If you have Chelsea who transferred from AFE to manager over me, you have a problem.  It sends the message it is ok to kill our US military persons around the world.

If you thought there was a code in the name of the actress in Natty Gann, you got it WRONG!  To me it says, Betsy Ross.  Betsy Ross as in the United States.  It says nothing about flag, or the name, it is just, United States, duh!

Natty, NA, my father’s first and middle name, T, T, Y.  Capital T, Capital upside down T, overlapping each other, Roman numeral 1, Capital Y overlapping Roman numeral looks like trusses or a support for a beam.

Sherman, Finding Nemo, somebody stole my brother’s wallet in Washington state on a scuba dive.  My grandfather, as I have been told, was born in Washington state.

My cat Mimzi, peasant not poverty, peasant as in culture or cultural.  Looks like Isabella Rossellini in Immortal Beloved.

The casting and costume of the manager of the residence where Natty and her father live, tells me it was known that there was such a mole and subversive problem within agencies, and the biggest one was a woman.

I went to a job interview at Bush Gardens, while waiting for my interview they brought one of the animals that looked like a wild cat to me.  They walked around the waiting room area without a leash.  Like my mother did with Fufi in Los Angeles.

It was a woman in HR who told me to remove my hat, sunglasses, and bandana.

I worked at a place called Data Tech off of 60, Adamo dr., they moved from one side of 60 to another location on the other side of the street.  I gave them two weeks’ notice.  After one week, I was called into my bosses’ office and he tried to fire me on the basis of some improper conduct.  This is the same company that had a subversive by proxy who worked in Human Resources.  Subversive to me, she used the word candlelight it created an image in my head.  Candlelight, Beauty and the Beast.  The woman in HR spoke about candlelight and wedding invitations.  It is wrong.  Tried to fire me, I took it as a personal character assignation on myself.  I was outraged!  It is very obvious, I am not a person who is willfully going to do anything improper.  I rescinded my two weeks’ notice and quit.  Furious.

I spoke with many of the upper managements on my lunch hours, we drove together and ate, talking about politics mostly.  They were a family-owned business.

It is very obvious to me I was always meant to get married and have a family of my own.  I was never meant to live a sex-less life.  I think you have been using me improperly.  I am nearly fifty years old.  I have never been loved my whole life.  I have never been allowed to be loved by a man my whole life.  I have never been allowed to be in a relationship with a man I love my whole life.  I think it is more than wrong.  Obviously, I am meant to be free, and be loved by a man, cared for by a man.

I am nearly fifty years old and I have never been allowed to be loved.  IT IS MORE THAN WRONG!

I want to live my life, I want to live my own life without non-stop communication of someone else talking in the other person’s ear.

This needs to end.

You, in any job I’ve held, have never paid me what I’m worth.

My brother and I went to a Writer’s Conference in Sarasota with my mother.  My brother and I attended.  I have no idea why it would be important.

What the book by Charles Dickens, Great Expectations says to me; the use of an escaped convict is a metaphor for Australia and using it as a penal colony.  It was a way to show it should never have been done, it was wrong.  The relationship between Pip and the convict just tells me how England stopped using Australia as a penal colony.

When I watched the movie, Great Expectations when I was 9 or 10ish, I was so worried about that little boy being hurt and harmed by the convict, I had to watch the rest of the movie to make sure the child was going to be ok.  If they had people watching me and believed there was in anyway a connection to make between ex-con’s and my family, they were WRONG!  It is a metaphor.  It is important to write history in such a way.

You should have been paying me to write, not pack.

This needs to end.  I am nearly fifty years old, I have never been loved my whole life.

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