DIDN’T I WRITE THIS ALREADY?! THAT MOMENT I CREATED FOR DAVID AT PANERA’S, WHEN HE ASKED THE GROUP OF US THEATER GROUP PEOPLE, THESPIANS, MOSTLY WOMEN, DOES SIZE (THE SIZE OF A MAN’S PENIS) REALLY MATTER? AND, I SAID, YES, MY JAW DOESN’T COME UNHINGED, RATHER MATTER-OF-FACTLY, AND – WITH THE DELIVERY (CORRECT WORD CHOICE) OF MY RESPONSE, FROM MY LIPS TO GOD’S EARS, DAVID FELL INTO SUCH LAUGHTER, HE LITERALLY FELL OFF IN HIS CHAIR ONTO THE FLOOR, AND DID NOT STOP LAUGHING, FOR QUITE SOME TIME! AND, TO ME, IT WAS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING, I HAD EVER SEEN, DAVID LAUGHING! NO, DAVID, YOU DID NOT WANT TO LIVE A PSEUDO-GLAMOROUS HOLLYWOOD LIFE, YOU WANTED TO LIVE A LONG LIFE, FULL OF UNEXPECTED LAUGHTER! WITH CHERITH! THAT IS WHAT THAT LAUGHTER WAS, UNEXPECTED HAPPINESS, AND HAPPINESS LIKE THAT, IS FAR MORE PRECIOUS AND VALUABLE THAN MONEY CAN BUY! HAPPINESS CHANGES PEOPLE! HAPPINESS TURNS PEOPLE INTO SOME OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL CREATIONS! WITH THAT UNEXPECTED HAPPINESS MOMENT, DAVID WAS SUPPOSED TO – BE A MAN, BE A MAN TO ME, CHERITH! WALK UP TO CHERITH AND TREAT HER AS A WOMAN TO HIS – MAN! THIS LIST OF MEN WHO’S FUTURE WITH ME, YOU PEOPLE HAVE STOLEN FROM ME BY NOT LETTING ME DATE, HAVE FRIENDS, OR GET MARRIED, IS MUCH, MUCH TOO LONG! IT IS VERY CLOSE OR COMPARABLE TO WILT CHAMBERLAIN’S SEXUAL RECORD! AND IT HAS ALL BEEN DONE WITHOUT MY KNOWLEDGE, IN THE SHADOWS, THROUGH WALLS, WITHOUT ME EVER BEING ABLE TO SAY (SLEEPLESS IN SEATTLE) HI, OR GOOD-BYE! IT’S MONSTROUS! IT’S AN EVIL! THIS EMASCULATING OF MEN BY NOT LETTING THEM WALK UP TO ME, ASK ME FOR MY PHONE NUMBER, DATE ME, TREAT ME LIKE A WOMAN IS REALLY GROTESQUE! IT IS VERY, VERY PSYCHOLOGICALLY DISTURBING! WOW! IMAGINE THAT! YOU STILL HAVE BEZOS’ PROFILE WORKING! BEZOS, AMAZON, THE GREAT EMASCULATOR (COVID FACE MASK), STILL GOING! JFC! I WANNA KILL PEOPLE!! VERY, VERY PSYCHOLOGICALLY DISTURBING! DISTURBING TO DO TO OTHER MEN, ESPECIALLY MAN TO MAN EMASCULATION (FACE MASKS!) IS VERY DISTURBING, VERY ABNORMAL, VERY ALARMING! CHERITH IS A ZOHAN, SHE DOES NOT CREATE EMASCULATION! AND, THE SKILL IT REQUIRES OF A PERSON, OF CHERITH, THE SKILL, THAT I BELIEVE I HAVE REGARDLESS OF WHAT ANYONE ELSE SAYS BECAUSE NO ONE GIVES ME ENOUGH CREDIT FOR THE TERRIBLY COMPLEX, DIFFICULT, AND VERY, VERY DEMANDING WORK, THAT MAY LOOK SIMPLE ENOUGH, BUT THEY ALL END UP SAYING THE SAME THING, IT IS NOT AS EASY THAN IT LOOKS, IT IS MORE DIFFICULT THAN IT APPEARS, OR PERHAPS THEY ARE TOLD AS WELL, THE AMOUNT OF PSYCHOLOGICAL SKILL I HAVE TO ANALYZE (ANALYZE THIS, THE MOVIE), TAKE APART, SEPARATE, PROVIDE BARRIERS AND BOUNDARIES, YET REMAIN THE SAME, STILL MYSELF, IS PRETTY MUCH, OFF THE CHARTS! UNSEEN, UNHEARD OF BEFORE, ESPECIALLY CONSIDERING, THE WAY I HAVE HAD TO LIVE, CUT OFF COMPLETELY FROM THE REAL WORLD! UNHEARD BEFORE! EXCEPTIONALLY REMARKABLE! YOU AREN’T SUPPOSED TO BE COMPETING WITH ME! IT IS IDIOTIC THINKING! BRING PEOPLE INTI MY LIFE, ONLY TO TRY AND COMPETE WITH ME?! INSTEAD OF JUST LETTING ME LIVE MY LIFE?! HAVE FRIENDS?! MY FAMILY?! A BOYFRIEND?! I DON’T KNOW ALL THE WORDS, IT IS AN EGOMANIAC ON SUCH SIZE, JAFFAR IS A GOOD DESCRIPTION OF IT, YET, THE TRUTH IS, THIS EGOMANIA IS OF SUCH A SIZE IT COULD NOT FIT ON THE SCREEN! ABNORMAL! THIS IS VERY DISTURBINGLY ABNORMAL! THERE IS NO DELINEATION OF TIME, AND THAT IS DONE ON PURPOSE TO WREC HAVOC AND CAUSE EXTREME STRESS, DISTRESS, AND CHAOS! NO PLANNING, NO SCHEDULE! I HAVE COMPLAINED ABOUT THIS FOR YEARS! THIS WAS A YEARS PROJECT THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO END! THAT WAS ALMOST SIX YEARS AGO! THIS AMOUNT OF TIME FOR SLEEPING, EATING, DRIVING, GETTING TO THE CAR, PUT SHOES ON, WALK TO A BUILDING, LITERALLY THE SMALLEST MEASURE OF TIME HAS NEVER BEEN TAKEN INTO CONSIDERATION! JUST TO CAUSE HAVOC! :($!