SO THEY KEPT THAT BALCONY DOOR OPEN WHICH IS SUPPOSED TO BE CLOSED ALSO, SO I HAVE ANOTHER – FUCKED UP HEAD AND ITS – SAFER, TO GO TO SLEEP THAN TO KEEP SOMETHING LIKE THIS – THAT IS IN MY HEAD ALIVE AND GOING, BUT I AIN’T, AND IT SMELLS LIKE THEY BROKE INTO MY HOUSE AND SPRAYED ALL MY UNDERWEAR, SOGGY WET SMELLS LIKE OLD LADY STRAWBERRY RIDGE CUNTS TRYING TO BE – MY SEX LIFE, AND GOSH SIR, ONE OF THE LAST TIMES I SAW DAVID (THAT’S PHILIP, HIS LAST PAIR OF SHOES, MEANING PANTS, DAVID WAS DYING AND WHY I COULDN’T STOP CRYING FOR HIM AND – TRYING TO FIX WHAT THEY CREATED, PRETTY SURE DAVID WAS FOUND VIA PHILIP, AND I LOVED DAVID, HE WAS ENOUGH, BUT THEY – DIDN’T LET ME HAVE CHILDREN OR YET TO BE MARRIED) WAS AT THE WOLFE PRODUCE STAND AND THEY HAD CANE SUGAR TO PURCHASE, REAL CANE SUGAR IN THE CANE, DAVID IN A REALLY BIG FAT SUIT AND BEFORE THEY DID THE WEST COAST TRIP, DAVID IS STILL – REALLY BAD FOR ME, CRY, THEY HAVEN’T FIXED IT YET SIR, GOSH THAT WAS GENTLE, KIND AND SWEET IF THEY LOOKED INTO MY FAMILY, IT’S CHOSEN SIR, ON BOTH SIDES SIR, A RELATION ON MY MOTHER’S SIDE AND A RELATION ON MY FATHER’S SIDE THAT BROUGHT THE TWO TOGETHER TO BRING, ME, AND MY BROTHER, AND I AM GETTING THE WEIRDEST INFORMATION THAT CHARLES MIGHT HAVE BEEN IN LOVE WITH MY MOTHER – ALL HIS LIFE, THEN ME, IF THIS IS TRUE; HOWEVER, HE GOT TO THE INFORMATION OF MY MOTHER, THERE IS TRUTH TO IT, IN THAT, THE TWO SIDES, MUST BE BROUGHT TO TOGETHER, DOESN’T HAVE TO ALWAYS BE IN MARRIAGE, BUT MEN AND WOMEN NEED TO BE IN MARRIED LIVES, THERE MUST BE LOVE, TOO MANY STANGERS LIVING ALL ALONE, AND THERE – MUT BE FAMILY(IES), THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG IF – NONE ARE ABLE TO GET ALONG WITH EACH OTHER, WHAT A TERRIBLE THING, IF THIS IS AT ALL TRUE, CHARLES IN LOVE WITH MY MOTHER AT WHAT MIGHT HAVE BEEN TOO YOUNG OF AN AGE, NOT BEING ABLE AS I AM SURE HE DID NOT HAVE THE INFORMATION YET THAT ELIZABETH CHOSE MY MOTHER TO BE – HER BACK, SO LOGICALLY, THERE WOULD BE A REASON WHY HE WOULD HAVE FALLEN IN LOVE, YOU – DON’T YET UNDERSTAND GOD, NOR THE DEVIL WATCHING JESUS CHRIST IN THE DESERT, NOR JESUS CHRIST, WELL THAT WAS A LOT, BUT I AM JUST A NOBODY, NO ONE KNOWS ABOUT, ASK SOMEONE ELSE, I DON’T EXIST – YET…SORRY, ALWAYS A CHRISTIAN