I WANT MY HUSBAND! I WANT MY FAMILY! I DO NOT AGREE WITH YOU – THIS IS A RESCUE! ANOTHER HORRIFIC BAD CRY! DAVID WAS SO MUCH BETTER AT THE TAKEOVER THAN THIS – IF IT WASN’T FOR EDISON! THIS IS – CHAOS! NOT MANAGING! POVERTY AFTER POVERTY AFTER POVERTY! AND I HEARD THT QE PUT MY ATTORNEY IN WITH THE SIMS, AND SHE PROBABLY DID THAT FROM AMAZON TIME AND THAT JUST TELLS ME – SHE WAS NOT MENTALLY WELL, AND – I DO NOT AGREE – I – HAVE TO SEE THESE PEOPLE – IN PERSON! THEY MIGHT STILL DIE, THEY MIGHT STILL BE EXECUTED – BUT, I HAVE TO BE IN THE PUBLIC EYE – FOR REAL – NOT KEEPING THIS CHANGE – THE CHANGE HAS TO BE CHANGED OR CORRECTED – IT CAN’T STAY! I AM SO GRIEVED FOR PEOPLE, QE, CHARLES, NOT REALLY KATE, DAVID, HANNIBAL – WERE MEANT TO BE IN THE REAL WORLD WITH ME! THE PLANET – IS DYING! HUMANITY IS – NOT GOING TO SURVIVE, AND ALL I HEAR EVERY DAY IN THE TUNNEL IS – THEY ARE HAVING HEAD PROBLEMS THAT STARTED – BEFORE THE CAR WASH – AND ITS NOT MY FAULT! WHEN?! HOPE I DON’T DIE LIKE MY MOTHER, FOR YOUR SAKES! I FEEL LIKE THE ONLY PERSON IN THE WORLD WHO IS CONCERNED – THIS IS NOT ENOUGH AND WE ARE ALL GOING TO DIE HERE, AND WE ARE MEANT – TO LIVE! WHY IN OVER THRITY YEARS I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO BE MARRIED – IS A MISTAKE THAT WILL NOT BE FORGIVEN! HEARD THE WORD SPELL AGAIN! AND – MY MOTHER WAS NOT WRONG – SHE GOT A BAD SCARE OR WARNING IN THIS OLDSMAR APARTMENT, AND SHE WAS NOT WRONG TO SEND ME TO CALIFORNIA, I – STILL REMEMBER IT, MY MOTHER STANDING IN MY BEDROOM, THAT OPEN WINDOW ABOVE THE STAIRS ON THE SIDE WAS MY BEDROOM AND WHEN MY MOTHER SAID, GO TO CALIFORNIA, IT WAS PRETTY SIMILAR TO THE MOVIE THE RESCUERS, OK – I’LL GO – KINDA REALLY BIG, AND YES, MWB WAS GROSSLY UNATTRACTIVE – I NEVER LOVED HIM, I WAS – FORCED, PRETEND TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM – OR THEY WERE GOING TO – KILL, AND WHEN I GOT TO CALIFORNIA – THEY THOUGHT THEY COULD – DUPLICATE THE WORK – IN FLORIDA BECAUSE – FLORIDA IS CHEAPER – BUT, YOU – CAN’T! WHERE ARE YOU FROM, COMMONLY ASKED, ESPECIALLY IN FLORIDA BECAUSE NO ONE IS REALLY FROM FLORIDA, MOST PEOPLE HAVE – MOVED HERE, AND I – NEVER CHANGED – I AM FROM CALIFORNIA, AND IT’S – NEVER GOING TO CHANGE – I HAVE – NEVER WANTED TO BE ANYWHERE OTHER THAN CALIFORNIA – ALL MY LIFE, I NEVER LIKED OREGON, I HAVE NEVER LIKED FLORIDA – LOOK AT HOW THEY HAVE TREATED ME AND MY FAMILY, WHEN THEY SPOKE TO ME IN THE KITCHEN, LITERALLY LIKE THE KITCHEN TABLE BLACK WOMAN SCENE IN THE MOVIE THE MATRIX, WHEN MAXINE SAID, SANTA MONICA COLLEGE, I DON’T KNOW HOW MANY TIMES I’VE WRITTEN THIS STORY AND TOLD PEOPLE, I KNEW – I HAD TO STAY ALIVE AND THAT MEANT – GO BACK TO FLORIDA – I HAVE NEVER LIKED FLORIDA! BUT, MY MOTHER – WAS ALSO SUPPOSED TO STAY ALIVE! THIS MANAGEMENT OF ME AND MY FAMILY IS JUST – ATROCIOUS, YES I AM ME, BUT – SO IS MY FATHER, AND SO IS MY BROTHER, AND SO IS AND WAS – MY MOTHER – CALIFORNIA CHRISTIAN CHURCH, THE FASTEST ANSWER I HAVE – NOW, AVAILABLE IN MY HEAD, IS MORE OF A CONCEPT, THAN A PROFILE, WHEN I WAS IN CALIFORNIA 1989, I WENT TO CHRISTIAN CHURCH WITH MAXINE AND HER HUSBAND, DON’T REMEMBER ANYTHING OTHER THAN THE SNAPSHOT THAT HAPPENS IN MY HEAD, A WINDOW, AND IT WAS SUNNY, TO MY LEFT IN THE CHURCH, I WAS AT THE END OF THE PEW TO THE – ADJOINING (SORT OF LIKE A TONGUE AND GROOVE CONCEPT IN BUILDING AND FURNITURE MAKING, ITS A REAL SIMPLE CONCEPT LIKE A FRENCH CLEAT, SIMPLE, YET REALLY DEPENDABLE AND – EFFICIENT) PEW, AND I – WAS WEARING FLIP-FLOPS, EXCEPT I COME FROM A FAMILY WHO USES THE PROPER TERM FOR THE FOOTWEAR, THONGS, AND WHOMEVER AT TEH PODIUM WENT TO PRAYER, AND ASKED PEOPLE TO JOIN HANDS, AND I – CROSSED THE AISLE, BEYOND THE PEW, AND CLASPED THE HAND OF THE HAPPENED TO BE A WOMAN TO MY RIGHT, AND TOOK THE SNAPSHOT OF MY FEET TO RIGHT HAND, PAY NO ATTENTION TO THE WOMAN, ITS A CONCEPT OF CHURCH THAT I HAVE ALWAYS LIKED AND BELIEVED IN, DOESN’T MATTER IF YOU WEAR FLIP-FLOPS OR SUNDAY BEST – AS LONG AS YOU SHOW UP – AND MEAN IT! NO – HIPPIE-DIPPIE 1960’S WEIRD FUNKY BULLSHIT CHURCH – YOU HAVE TO MEAN IT! THAT MEANS – BORDERS! IT’S BILL GOTHARD, BILLY GRAHAM, CRYSTAL CATHEDRAL, TRADITIONAL, FUNDAMENTAL, HONEST, AND ONE OF THE BIGGEST BATTLES IS – JUST SHOWING UP! THAT’S PART OF THE WORK – SHOWING UP, GOING IN PERSON, PUTTING FORTH THE EFFORT OF – BEING PRESENT! DOESN’T MATTER WHAT YOU LOOK LIKE, BUT PLEASE DON’T SMELL, BUT YOU – GOTTA SHOW UP! AND I AM – REALLY GOOD, I JUST KNOW – THIS IS WHAT CHURCH LEADERSHIP IS SUPPOSED TO BE – REACHING PEOPLE – I WILL ALWAYS REACH PEOPLE – TO THEIR VERY PERSON, AND ITS MEANT, GOD THE FATHER MEANS IT, MEANT TO GET YOU TO THE BEST PERSON – GOD KNOWS AND LOVES YOU TO BE – SO GO GET THERE! CALIFORNIAN’S ARE TYPICALLY CASUAL, AND IF YOU ARE A READER YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT IS – NOT TYPICALLY LAZY, IT MEANS THEY DO NOT HOLD VALUE IN – PRETENSE! CALIFORNIAN’S, AND I AM PRETTY SURE ITS NOT CHANGED IN – MIND-SET THAT MUCH, LIKE NICE THINGS, BUT THEY TYPICALLY DON’T WANT TO LOOK – AFFECTED – THAT’S A GOOD THING! I WANT MY HUSBAND! ;($! ,