ZOHAN do you remember the Dover Christmas, and the little kids in the balcony, and I exclaimed – the balcony is open?! It’s not here or there or ZOHAN, yet I think he knows, as ZOHAN was here more with me and my brother before David and Hannibal died, who were so much better at the neighborhood than these women, seeing David finally in a church, his back to me, I can’t believe they did that to me – for control! Suicide! ;($! ,