So, ch went on break, Dnltmcai, and wrote what a bad head ch was dealing with, but the internet was taking too long, so ch was going to – and then check it again, but, they forgot almost immediately, as someone else got caught, and ch does not like to see fbi man as that fake the crossing church idiot with a woman in a car, and ch heard in break, they are not allowed to fire and they are not allowed to – hang out! As ch bought an iced tea from Tammy, and this in ch head is hospital bed struggling and really, really, really not working, as ch heard that moron couple ch named watermelon couple, not to be confused with watermelon falls, she’s having trouble, as she’s been attacking ch pets legs, and ch heard the angry they hate you penis was being asked to leave today, and ch said, I need some caffeine (because it was just awful in my body and head all day, they can’t make it more than about 20 mins – that’s not working, and ch got customer after customer asking for the restroom and that tells ch that people are – waaay over the sims holding ch back, and want to see this stuff on television, as cable and streaming will get a lot more regular, when you get ch to the real world) and they’ve been having this pin pad problem with ch debit card where it says it’s declined, and they do it again and it goes through, sort of like saying, mwb was declined and Edison was approved, which is a total con, and when it happened with Tammy today, ch said, you can’t tell me I don’t have money (as suddenly ch was Tony Blair and/or persons and people in the uk parliament, and that was a pretty bad read, ch said OUTLOUD, as ch is just fucking furious about another bullshit scheme about taking 5 years to get ch, perhaps, maybe, to the real world, ch is just – rage fucking hot, you can’t tell ch that this is the only place ch is able to be and there is not another life waiting for ch, and ch God laughed, when saying, you can’t tell me I don’t have money)! And Meghan appeared in similar colored pants that ch has a photo of, and they asked ch to share the photo, and ch is not going to share the photo, they want to educate Meghan on why ch won’t, as it is in the Spanglish movie, ch knows what ch is worth, as ch got another profile, someone grossly over-paid, as they missed out of the strawberry shortcake ch wanted a few days ago, as Marvin did not really seem to know why Charlie’s Angels do and did so much talking with and around ch – because your version of the afterlife is – really fucked up, as they ran several Japanese profiles in ch head today, and ch does not think they realize that ch Frozen flawless ice brain palace, is the real deal, and it’s as if to say, ch gives you the best version of – history, so when telling a story such as all the USA Japanese military history ch us just – filled with, ch gives you the sanitized version of history, so the guts and gore and dirt, and grime and yuck, just doesn’t appear, literally nowhere to be found – ugh – so, they want to educate Meghan, ch is not sharing the Miami photo! And got some reason ch is having a sort of get-together in ch head, maybe 30 people, remember the last supper was in a room, Jesus told them to go to a room, and sup’, so, ch likes Japanese and Indian curry just about any time, but the pajamas and sweat pants, this is too many years of them not actually living, and ch is pretty sure ch is going to remember how to dress again, so ch is maybe a cotton skirt and top, linen, or flowy pants, gah, get away from the pajamas, enough already, as ch usually wears shorts or slacks because in ch mind, a skirt is just not appropriate! In today’s world a skirt or dress is really waaaay too feminine for the function of daily life, just as most people don’t cook their own food, they buy it and do – very little cooking, it’s just the world we live in, so this is for someone with more eclectic taste, such as the mixed media house, as they’ve had ch around these weirdo’s and perverts and creepers so long, ch likes that old-fashioned traditional of the Mt. Cross gathering room and kitchen so much, ch will bend the whole world to get to something that resembles it, yet ch every day is the Norway house, modern, yet very traditional, so ch is going with barbecue chicken, chicken yakitori, and or barbecue chicken, how the chef wants to prepare, if ch is paying for it, you get a budget, and take your time, ch wants some chicken on skewers, if they want to barbecue other chicken stuff, fine with ch, she’s waaay too excited, oh, and by the weigh, Lisa is testing you, as ch heard Patrick and Lisa are not allowed to club sign again, so it was no club or gear guard today, Lisa walked all the over to ch at 9 today and looked ch in the face, and said, Meghan needs 2 people to do a cart run, and ch didn’t say anything because that’s a test that says Lisa found out they told ch that ch doesn’t have to be nice, and ch didn’t say anything and then Gina and Jennifer offered to go out in the heat, as it’s bass pro’s job to provide business, not nigger excitement, so to dinner tonight, first ch is going to start with bit of salad, pear wedges, arugula and other lettuce greens, perhaps small chopped green apple, walnuts, blue cheese, some balsamic something dressing with figs and cheese and nuts with a bit of likely rustic bread, as a starter, but ch doesn’t like the one big plating of everyone sort of diving in, ch likes things SEPERATE, it’s better experience for people, and ch is going soups too, as ch thinks soups are under-appreciated, most people don’t like soup because all they know is that stuff that comes in a can, and that don’t taste real, so, ch is going seafood with the chicken, a basic French onion soup, have that almost always, and ch would literally do this if ch had no money worries, if you like the taste of beef broth better, some in beef broth, but ch doesn’t go anything over veggie, chicken, or turkey stock, just a kind preference, and ch is gonna say some sort of seafood cream soup with chunks of crab and lobster and/or white fish, barbecue chicken, and this is unusual, ch would say, fried rice, veggie or chicken fried rice, potatoes as gratin, need that cream and sour cream and cheese, and serve it however, chives or parsley, not that stuff in a box that doesn’t taste anything like potatoes as it’s really difficult to do a real potatoes such gratin, ch would say, most recipes (potatoes au gratin) don’t have the truth in it, as ch is thinking potatoes au gratin are better slightly boiled instead of all oven cooked, but that sauce with cheese and cream and sour cream, is needed, someone’s in real money trouble, and ch (sorry for all the ch writing, this is really bad in ch head and body) is going Brussels sprouts with this, simple steamed Brussels sprouts pan-finished in just a bit of butter or butter and olive oil, salt and pepper and sliced almonds, stuffed artichokes, either plain stuffing and just have the whole artichoke to eat the leaves, but if sauce, or perhaps a seafood stuffing, some dumplings, veggie and chicken rolls, ch is not going to allow pork, just plain Concord grapes, served without the steams, individual bowls of just plain clean Concord grapes for each setting, Concord grapes are really great for the body, mushroom risotto and asparagus risotto, plain boiled corn on the cob or corn, with bit of butter and salt and pepper, none of that street corn that tries to tell ch you re-invented corn, plain simple peas and carrots, however chef chooses, ch likes to keep things as close to their original origins, mist of the time, so just plain corn and peas and carrots, is okay with ch, but the chef might want honey or whatnot, just don’t go off the deep-end and try and tell ch you re-invested food, also something tells ch pomegranates, but for some reason ch has this odd in her head, ch doesn’t remember spitting pomegranate seeds, yet, somewhere, use pomegranate, some bread and butter to round it out, and coffee and hot tea available for dinner, no black iced tea, if the my want iced tea, keep it green tea with honey, celery water, lemon water, mint water, cranberry water, cranberry juice, and for dessert, strawberry rhubarb pie, pastry is a skill, and ch appreciates it, vanilla ice cream and whipped cream, ch has no idea what that stuff is they sell in a can, but don’t serve it here, probably gonna need a bit of cinnamon sprinkled, it should say as a meal event, I still remember the country, as (Susan is squinting eyes fighting) North Carolina, in the states, is some pretty country, fall season, lots of trees, fall colors, yellow, gold, orange, auburn, green, and for the most part people in North Carolina are interested in simple sort of country life, as the world as a globe is not really simple anymore, and she’s been in ch asshole all day and Shushu-ban doesn’t like it but everyone thinks it’s too late for River), so it should say, I still remember the country, but am grateful we are not separated by economic’s of rural and region and cities, and ch is not sure if ch has ever tasted a rhubarb, and ch is getting lots of strawberry – prayers, do be it, now, is that everything because that’s just off the top of ch head, ch didn’t really think about it, as it’s pretty hit on this side, as tell ch that ch is close, it looks like you under-prepared! That’s – a get together in ch mind, and ch thinks – that’s simple! And ch has been writing now for almost 2 hours, so ch hasn’t really forgotten you want ch to write stuff, but ch is human and must work within a 24 hour day, so more than one person is grossly unaware of time and time constraints, and it does appear that the Last Samuri fighting scene looks like Jesus Christ, and the two little boys fighting, then they ask the American man to fight the little boy (a Jesus Christ profile in story), and you see how the American man, as God in story-telling profile, has no difficulty in fighting a little boy, and the towering over a child in height, is important, as it should – mortify you, feel shame and remorse at the ego’s of others, then the Japanese man (that’s ch, motherfuckers), fights with the American man because someone crossed a line, and now the real man of God, as God, appeared, and as God, he must give this American man a lesson, stay down, stop fighting, you – have – no – dominion – here! Ch has written it before, it reads, stay down, you’ve been beaten, noble to get up again, as it’s a testimony to a person’s character, but stay down – you – have – no – dominion – here! It’s very similar to the sorcerer’s apprentice fantasia! Ad ch is suffering under this 600 pound stomach, otherwise, might be in a better mood, and Johann did an erotica profile of showing ch the palm of his hand, ch reads and read it very well, but you must be insane – to act upon it! And someone pointed it out to Shushu-ban that ch knows how to ch would make it Colonial China, this non-verbal expression of love with intentions, but there is too much bad British that is stuck on un-requited love, to mean there is something mentally wrong with a man that is not able to walk up to a woman and express anything, especially if a man has feelings of wanting! A man is not a man, until they’ve been able to get over their God is their best-friend, since creation, literally, even men and boys who do not believe in Christianity, it’s still in their heads, literally God is man’s best friend, and just like the most loving and sincere and attentive parent, humanity has limits, and there is only so much a human is able to suffer through, then the human must – let it go, you learn that not everything is in your own control, no matter how much you do, God loves man, differently than God loves woman, but God made woman for man to have a mate, a helper, and let God be God! Taken man a long time to get caught up to the mind-brain reality of where we are today, as oftentimes when they teach history, they forget to remind the students, people in the past, did not have the same brain we have today! The brain has literally evolved, if that’s the word you like better or best! And ch being very American, is very much a mind-set, open, to mean not suspicious or hidden, gregarious, oftentimes, unafraid to be loud, when needed, ch is not a personal space-invader, ch thinks you have poor manners or are selling something if you get within inches of ch personal space, to say ch us very American is closer to say, do you like the first Matrix movie because ch will get you to start believing, as ch idea of America is, tell me (ch) you believe, tell me you know if what you say is true, and tell me you believe it because ch is going to find out, if you don’t because of the crux, ch would say, of government, is not a matter of heart, necessarily, but there is a crux, so tell ch you believe, as it’s the very reason the founding fathers of America took pen, to paper, they believed! So, these people who have told ch all of ch life, for instance, that David is able to look at ch with un-ending love, yet have sex with another and other women and say he’s in a relationship with them, or even married, and believe that David is living in America, when the truth is – David is and was then on the path to dying because in America, the America ch knows as a government, the America ch knows lives by what they say and it must be the truth! That’s – America! This version they are selling by the cotton candy or earpieces – has nothing to do with the history and reality of what made America the most known super-power government in all the world, in all of history! Don’t tell ch that you bought Sony guts and put it in a Corolla because that’s not America, and if ch finds out America is lying – the whole world is going to die! That’s – the place ch lives in her heart, every day! And ch knows as ch is – rage fucking money and freedom fucking rage mad about this lying for nigger excitement – that are is serious bad trouble! And, at least they got to witness it, ch had never read the Bible beginning to end in all her life, until, must have been 2024, ch has read parts of the Bible over and over many times, but never beginning to end, like a real book, as they had ch, when ch was just working at the dumb car wash, and Elijah the former cashier was in the store the other day, and it says, he’s looking to cause trouble, ch opened up the Bible as ch went to write in ch car, literally just opened the Bible and started thumbing through the pages and found – a few pages of Bible scriptures, no one else seemed to realize – is in the Bible, like suddenly someone turned a light on in their brain, you mean, this – is in the Bible?! Ch has nothing idea what morons go about in church service, and have no context to scripture, Joshua 10:25, “Don’t ever be afraid or discouraged,” Joshua said to his men. “Be strong and courageous, for the Lord is going to do this to all of your enemies.” Isaiah 40:8, The grass withers, the flowers fade, but the Word of our God shall stand forever. Isaiah 40:11, He will feed his flock like a shepard; he will carry the lambs in his arms and gently lead the ewes with young. Isaiah 41:17, When the poor and needy seek water and there is none and their tongues are parched from thirst, then I will answer when they cry to me. I, Israel’s God, will not ever forsake them. And if you like Angels, in the Bible, Angels are in the very little known books, such as Zephaniah 3:20, “At that time, I will gather you together and bring you home again, and give you a good name, a name of distinction among all the peoples of the earth, and they will praise you when I restore your fortunes before your very eyes,” says the Lord. Haggai 2:5, ‘For I promised when you left Egypt that my Spirit would remain among you; so don’t be afraid.’ Zechariah 1:9, An angel stood beside me, and I asked him, “Sir, what are all those horses for?” Malachi 3:6, “For I am the Lord – I do not change. That is why you are not already utterly destroyed [for my mercy endures for ever]. Going on 2 hours 45 minutes of writing – get this smell greasy cunt – gone! ;($!?, Save the chocolate for another day, when hot chocolate and what cake made by ch brother, could be partaken