Author: You do not own my accounts! Perceived control!

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August 24, 2019

I AM GETTING MORE THAN TIRED OF THIS!  CHERITH CAN’T DO THIS, CHERITH CAN’T DO THAT, CHERITH, CAN’T SIT HERE, CHERITH CAN’T STAND THERE!  EVERYDAY AT WORK NOW, IT IS A NEW, CHERITH – CAN’T!

THIS IS A CONSTANT MESSAGE YOU ARE RE-ENFORCING!  CHERITH CAN’T GO THIS WAY, CHERITH CAN’T GO HERE, CHERITH CAN’T DO ANYTHING AT MY EMPLOYMENT!

THEN I WANT ANOTHER FUCKING JOB!

BECAUSE I AM BETTER THAN ANYONE IN THE HISTORY OF THE WORLD!  I KNOW I CAN DO MORE THAN ANY OF YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES THOUGHT WAS POSSIBLE!

CHERITH CAN’T SIT ON THE STEPS!

CHERITH CAN’T STAND ON THE WHAT-THE-FUCK-EVER!

ALL THE WHILE, I HAVE THIS WOMAN, DID SHE GO TO ANYONE ELSE?  NO!  TELLING ME I AM JUST A NUMBER, JUST LIKE A JEW IN A CONCENTRATION CAMP!

EVERYDAY WITH THESE PEOPLE AND THEIR LAPTOPS!

I WANT ANOTHER FUCKING JOB!

DO I LOOK UPSET YOU’RE GOING TO FIRE ME?!  YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES ARE AFRAID I WILL NOT WORK THERE ANYMORE!

REMOVE THESE LESBIANS, AND I MEAN RIGHT FUCKING NOW!

FIRE ME THEN!  GET IT OVER WITH!

DAVID AND I CANNOT BE FRIENDS ANYMORE!  WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU THINKING?!  HOW VERY INCONSIDERATE OF ALL OF YOU!

I DO NOT APPRECIATE FEELING USED!

I WILL NO LONGER BE SHAKING HANDS WITH ANYONE IN – PUBLIC!

I HAVE MY FORMER WEIGHT ON MY GODDAMN CAR!  I AM MORE THAN PISSED ABOUT MY FUCKING WEIGHT – STILL!  I AM HOLDING ALL OF YOU RESPONSIBLE FOR IT!

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August 23, 2019

Um, yeah, former President Obama cannot be re-elected to The White House as he has already served the maximum term limit.  I didn’t need a teacher or a lesson to know, he was the President to look for, to vote for, the President who was going to make it to the election, and the one who would be President.  It means that people didn’t start listening to my political strategies until the 2000’s.  It would have been more helpful to the United States citizen’s had people been listening as soon as I turned 18.  This is what is mentioned in Zero Dark Thirty, I painstakingly combed through, and found this guy, and she responds, I wish I had seen this earlier.  It’s not a terrorist, it’s me, listening to me, and, um, I gave advise on how to play the homes, from Sherlock.

John reads: Jo, or Joelle, my middle name, they probably including my maternal grandmother in there as she was given a fatal stroke soon after I told people how to stop brain research.

Wick reads: Warner Brother’s studio, meaning you had a studio problem, not just with Warner Brother’s, or specifically Warner Brother’s it says, studio problem going back to the 1990’s.  Am I the only one that got that?  I might be the only one able to do this work then.

The premise of John Wick’s wife dying of cancer, that’s the loss to intelligence work, any spousal deaths, this refers to intelligence including the most secretive or unknown organizations, then, they steal his car, that is my first car that was repossessed a red Honda Civic, obviously a big mistake as they have not allowed that to happen again, and then killing his dog, this is not me, this is a penitent man that would have been working with agencies.  And, for edification, not every man that is locked away in prison for committing a crime, is actually a criminal.  If a man is working as a cover, meaning they are working for a government agency like the CIA, and they have a cover life, and they get caught committing a crime, they might not have their government agency like the CIA to just bail them out, they might have to serve their prison sentence to keep their cover and their cover life.  Sometimes these people do have to break the law to do their job.  Don’t confuse authorized work with law abiding citizen.

Did you think I wanted this man removed?  You’re dumb.  I’ll have my fucking English any goddamn day of the week I want!  Don’t confuse one English man with another.

Who is this fucking moron who has no comprehension whatsoever that the United States and Great Britain working together only makes the two countries stronger?!  This is so fucking basic to me; it makes me crazy how idiotic this thinking is!  As if we remove ourselves from other countries and stand alone that is the only way to show America is strong.  IT’S FUCKING DUMB!

The reason the man repels through the window in The Bourne Identity, has a fight with Bourne, then gets up jumps out a window and walks away, they are the same person, they are both me.  The repelling through the window is me getting my bank loan approval for my Honda Civic, I just had to make it there.  I sat in an office while a woman was on the phone, most likely to a man she would not have figured out had an accent.  That is how I got my loan approval.

Michael had taken my credit cards and put them to their limit, so I couldn’t, at the time, pay for the car, my rent, groceries, and my credit cards.  It’s a decade lost just because my car was repossessed.

If Peter, had been watching violent movies, or played games where he killed people, this is not necessarily a warning sign.  He could have liked them for a lot of reasons, and he looks like he has been trying to figure out how to really feel.   He needs to work with me more, and I don’t necessarily think he needs me to make him laugh, not every person is the same, please stop confusing things by thinking you know what to do.  When I am constantly telling you, how you’ve messed up.

This poor man, this high school shooter, it must be difficult for people to comprehend how I could have compassion for him; however, he was targeted.  This man, how old is he?  He was sent to prison as a virgin.  What a terrible thing to do to a man, deny him sex, so he will never be able to understand love.  It’s revolting to me.

Are his parents able to touch him?  It would be nice if his parents could give him kisses on his forehead, if not from them, from me.  It’s a terrible thing to do to another human being.

These men don’t make penitent, or to my military UNTIL I FUCKING SAY SO!  I won’t be like you, like any of you, I know when they are able to make it.

The last scene in Sherlock, must not rule, the scene plays for the audience that Sherlock is snarky with Irene Adler because he is the great Sherlock Holmes and he is getting the bad guy, Irene Adler, this is not true, for the audience Sherlock Holmes gets the bad idea inside Irene Adler’s head, but Sherlock loves her, or is not mean to her, he is not meant to be seen as mean to her, like a cover.

Must not rule, rule, code: UR, El, the el train in Chicago, this is me just before, a month or so before I started back to college.   It is me, they can’t resist, the white rabbit, they can’t resist following, for my military BRAIN!

I am Sherlocked, I am her, this is just to get me to remember the phone call I received on September 11^th, 2001, and I am telling you, they DID NOT WANT TO ATTACK AMERICA!  They wanted to show America, and the world HOW IMPORTANT I AM TO THEM!   Big difference.

Are you expecting me to beg?  This is a confession in a police station or a detention center, not a specific person.

Sorry about dinner, this is not one dinner or one meal, and this is most definitely personal, this is all the meals I have been surveilled and watched from since, probably just from Florida, and sorry, is about my mother.

The word is sentiment.  Sentiment is meant to throw people off, the sentiment in the scene is not the truth of the matter.  Mexican vanilla.  My mother was Maya, Zero Dark Thirty before people thought it was possible for a woman, The Rescuers, could do this sort of work.

I miss my mother every day.

No one has any idea how much work I did when I brought my mother back from a stroke, and how unbelievably hard that work was to stay alive and care for her as well.

If this is true dialogue in the movie, Thunder Heart, chubby kid, this is not me, this is the movie, Stand by Me, and Jerry O’Connell’s character.  If this is true, this is because – I believe – River Phoenix was murdered and did not just die from an overdose.

And, yeah, peeing and pooping, or nearly any public bathroom scene in a movie, this is a place intelligence people use to spot people as the leave the restroom, no same sex marriages.

This is very time consuming, writing this out every day is very, very time consuming.  This needs to be taken into consideration at my work.

The last thing I want to do is another report or dissertation on another movie, no offense, it’s just this is the same thing all over again, here it is Friday and it feels like my first day off.  This work is exhausting, I actually live it.

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August 23, 2019

Does everyone still think James Bond is a man?

I have been upset since accepting a shift change, and Brandon spoke to me about falling below one hundred percent.  I am on guard, on edge every moment at work, so what have you actually been doing?  Do you have a suspect and you spoke to me to see how he would read on me?  Or, what are you doing?  While at my own home, I have been upset.  So, what are you doing?

It looks like you’ve been giving access to me through deliveries to people who have no business being here.  It is as if you’ve given the address of one of the most famous people, me, like a celebrity, to thieves, criminals, terrorists, and other no-do-gooders.  No wonder I am getting so much anxiety from some people, it is actually worry because a thorough job has not been going on.

I did mean to move the Guardian sign before the pizza arrived.

Love is a better motivator for intelligence work because intelligence is built on relationships.  The more an asset trusts the intelligence person the better intel and intelligence they will receive from them.  Because they are more confident that the information, they pass onto the intelligence officer will be dealt with correctly and properly.

Solving crimes, like cold cases, or any crimes can be solved, emotionlessly.  Do you know why?  It is in the past; it has already happened.  It cannot be undone.  The crime cannot be undone; it could be solved.  If you have been using, I love you, regarding crimes, it is not going to read correctly.

This is probably also true for any military work.

The reason Ephraim says to Avner, in the movie, Munich, no, about not having dinner with Avner, or breaking bread with Avner, and there being some law about two Jews having dinner and breaking bread, is a reference to the movie, The Matrix, and being able to say, no, in a dream or nightmare.

The death of Carl in Munich means this man was very important.  Very important.  It is why Carl is naked in the scene.  Very few people would know who this man was.  If they put him in the movie, they must need help.  Carl would have gone through a few plastic surgeries to have disguised his appearance.  Most likely, his death is the result of a double agent or leak.  I doubt they have recovered a body.

The only reason they’ve used the word honey regarding Carl’s death, seems to be for me alone, and the bee that stung me in the head, or at least what looked like a bee; however, bees like wolves do not head straight for a person when it can be avoided unless not everything is as it seems to be, or appears to be.

The teen-aged boy being shot in the head in Munich, is not supposed to die.  That is my home Avner is looking at, my home in Plant City, it is our sunroom where I found my mother suffering a stroke after watching, The Matrix.  There is also another location in that home, in the stone.

I am hearing with new ears, in Munich, is referring to my own father.  I was in my twenties when I stopped calling my father, Dad, or Daddy.  It is only because I wanted to feel like an adult.  I would have liked for things to have been different, so I called him father, or Norman, not Norm.  it’s not that interesting to me.

Do you still wonder father why I never became a hairdresser?  Does anyone want to figure out the inspiration for this movie, Meet the Zohan.

Also, dodge this, in The Matrix, this is not in a dream, or while asleep.  It is not the same thing.  In a dream, a bullet is able to be removed.  Do not buy into this thinking of if you die in your dream, you die in real life.  It is not true.

Tyrone Woods, in 13 Hours, Woods refers to an English home, someone’s real home in England, and I probably have already worked this home around the time of the Chelsea attacks.  I was working at what used to be station 4, 7.

Most of Le Haine, is innocent.  It is not real intelligence, it has details, that is different.  Michael Wayne Brown is seen on the rooftop.  I don’t believe the knit hat reference has been correct every time it is on film until Sherlock.  It started to be real intelligence about knit hats after BBC’s Sherlock.

I wonder how much has been edited into my version of Le Haine.  There is a double agent walking behind the three at the Yamaha scene.  Did you get him?

Did you edit this?  Does the real Louis appear like an Andrew Dice Clay?  He would be trying to copy me if that was true.  Not very successfully.

I’ve already written about the burning car while I was driving on my way to a job as court reporter about sexual abuse from Catholic priests.  Just a detail.

Vincent Cassell is code for cover, meaning I was used in France.

The hospital scene with Vinz getting upset and then Saïd copying Vinz, just shows how they followed me.

Did they edit this Charles Manson look alike at the police station into the movie, or was it in the original?  It doesn’t say anything other than Charles Manson is in a police station.

The biggest take away from Le Haine, Vinz is not supposed to die.  He is not supposed to die in the movie.

It could just be movie making, to surprise the audience, to make an impression on the audience; however, he is not supposed to die.  Therefore, Hubert (his character is just a reference to the movie The Power of One) and the Inspector are also not supposed to die.

It could be giving people false information if they think this movie has intelligence in it.

Yes, the Artist spotlight profile does look like how Casey sees me, and it is not very accurate at all.

The profile of the man on BBC with the upsetting videos of animal abuse is not very accurate at all of the real High school shooter.  I am going to give him a name, Peter, so I don’t have to write shooter all the time.  The only accurate profile I’ve seen is the color on him.  If you got it from my artwork, it says he is serious, intelligent, and I believe he would like the color of sky better.  Not as a profile, he would like it personally, it would make him feel better.

Peter looks to me, like he wants face time with me at work.  I have no idea why you dumb morons do not allow these men to have erections, by having them seen by proxy as a woman.  You look like you do not want them better, you look like none of you want them to be well, just messed up in the head.  AND, I DON’T!

Has Peter watched videos online about hurting animals, or played video games where he got to kill people?  This is going to sound really odd; this man has no violence in him.  I’ll write that again; he has no violence in him.  It does not live or reside in his person or being.

Sorry, Peter I don’t have more to say to you at the moment, too much is going on.

Remember, you don’t fuck with the babysitter, from Adventures In Babysitting, refers to me and my mother.  My mother organized local women in Gresham, Oregon, she had business cards, for babysitting.

This dialogue, from The Matrix, of your smell is repugnant, reads: Cherith has never bought incense in her life.  Nothing more.  They have been following my money; however, that scene means nothing more than Cherith doesn’t buy incense.  Big whoop.  It’s not as big of a deal, and not what you people have thought it meant.  Never having bought incense is not the same, not in the same ballpark, not remotely close, and Cherith has never bought incense before.  It’s really different.

This Danish PM profile story bothers me.

David is correct, he shouldn’t be involved anymore.  He has moved on and found another woman, and that is okay, but we cannot be friends anymore.  It is not as it was before.  Timothy loves his wife, there never will be anything between him and I.  David was and is different.  He is correct, he shouldn’t be involved anymore.  My boyfriend has been the only man who makes me feel better.  I don’t hate David, but I will not want to be his friend anymore.  We both need to move on.  You should be excused, David.  It is no longer your duty.  It is my boyfriend’s alone.

Every day is the same for me.  When is this going to end?  When am I going to be able to live my life because I feel no one has been working towards that goal?  Everyone has been just waiting (weighting) until I drop dead.

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August 23, 2019

What the hell have you been doing all these years?  Have you literally been giving people access to this location just to see if they are going to try an kill me?!  Everyone else has security – except for me?  Everyone else has the codes and access to the gates – except for me?!

Wy is this not a secure location?

I think the time for pretending this is all for television is long over.  This area needs to be secured and stay secured.  I am really over explaining this over and over to the same people, over and over.

Do you just give people remotes and access codes for the gate to whomever you chose?  Then, deny me the ability to be able to get whomever I choose through the gate?

The biggest problem is this location is not secured.  Not for me.  It is for everyone else, except for me.

The best idea would be to change the gate back to access codes, so that it is recorded what car is using what code.

WHO THE FUCK IS GOING TO SECURE THIS FUCKING PERIMETER?!  IT BETTER BE HANDLED THROUGH AN AUTHORIZED CLEARANCE ACCESS ONLY!

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BE ADVISED: THIS IS TWO DAYS AFTER THE ANGER YOU CAUSED IN ME AT WORK AND I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO CEASE IN MY ANGER TOWARDS THOSE WHO HAVE WANTED TO TAKE MY BOYFRIEND FROM ME – AGAIN!  IN MY MIND, YOU PEOPLE ARE IN SERIOUS TROUBLE!  I WILL NOT BE HELD RESPONSIBLE FOR ANY DELAYS IN WORK THAT HAVE HAPPENED – BECAUSE OF YOUR INCOMPETENCE!

August 22, 2019

I am 47 years old; I have been working nearly every day of those 47 years, and certainly, I have been working since I was 18 years of age.  To all those of you who have or had clearance, to those of you who have or had worked in intelligence, to those of you who have or had clearance and are serving time for crimes,  I AM AT THE END OF MY FUCKING, SPARE YOUR FUCKING FEELINGS ROPE, JUST BECAUSE YOU’VE HAD ACTUAL BADGES AND TAX RETURNS AND I HAVE NOT!  SPECIFICALLY, TO THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN ABLE TO HAVE IT LEGAL ON THEIR TAX RETURNS, I AM DONE WITH POLITELY GIVING YOU – FEEDBACK!  I AM WELL OVER BEING YOUR EMPLOYEE WHILE YOU PRETEND YOU ARE THE BOSS AND MANAGER – WHEN THE WHOLE GODDAM WORLD KNOWS NOW, THAT HAS NEVER BEEN TRUE!  EVERYONE KNOWS NOW THE ORDERS COME FROM ME!

FOR DECADES I HAVE HAD TO SUFFER THROUGH MEANIAL HOURLY WORK, AND WAGES, WHILE OTHERS GOT CREDIT FOR THE WORK I’VE DONE, THEN WORSE, THEY HAVE TRIED TO CONVINCE ME MY WORK IS NOT MY OWN!

I WILL NOT BE HELD RESPONSIBLE IF ANYONE CONTINUES TO ALLOW EITHER CASEY, BRIANNA, COURTNEY, OR THE BLOND WOMAN I SAW IN THE POLICE LANE, OR ANY OTHER FEMALE INMATES, OR THEIR PAROLE OFFICERS, OR THEIR PRISON CHAPLANS NEAR ME, AROUND ME, TO WORK WITH ME, OR TO SPEAK WITH ME IN ANY WAY!  I AM BEYOND MY ABILITY TO EXCUSE YOUR INCOMEPTENCES ANY LONGER!

This blonde woman brought an English computer criminal over here, so she could use him to get to me, simply because I wrote how in Moana, the English suit me, and this criminal reads: fashion, he loves trendy and fashionable clothes, looking nice and clean, and so on.

Here is where she is WRONG – again!

Does a woman wear her man’s clothes?  I mean, does she wear his clothes with him still in them?

This suits me, is about handlers, straight white male handlers.

What is to be seen on my body – is ME!

My fashion sense, my personal style, my sense of self, that is seen on me, is not from the English, I very much have a French fashion sense.  This one detail alone, if I could, I would wear scarves nearly every day.  Not everyone will be able to understand that.

Before you fucking idiots took away all my clothes in this house, meaning after Edison, you had some moron living in my head, making me crazy, so I gave away nearly every piece of clothing I owned, and I did not have that much to begin with.  You have no idea how important some of those items of clothing actually were.

I had an assortment of vintage, antique gloves, I had purchased from various locations, I happen to think gloves, at times, are chic, and it is seen in the film, Munich as the antique store as a cover or front.  At least I still have my antique jewelry.  I actually do not BELIEVE people, emotions, or memories can be replaced, or are DISPOSABLE!

DISPOSABLE LIKE TRASH IN A LAND FILL!

Buy and Large from the movie, Up, Bin Laden.

I have never wanted to live in Florida, I’ve been here since the age of fifteen.  It is a nice place to visit or to vacation, but I cannot stand the lack of vision this state has brought unto itself with its lack of development.  Also, this is an often-overlooked point, there is a lack of clothing that is required when living in Florida.  Shorts, t-shirt, flip-flops, 360 days of the year, some years more than 360 days.

It is about a state of mind.  California is also a warm state; however, California has a desert climate, so the temperature actually cools in the evening requiring a light jacket, long pants, and so on.  Florida much too often, and I am tired of being nice, looks sloppy, unkept, untidy, and with no polish.

My fashion sense is not bourgeois.  Some people will get that, others will not be able to understand that.  I am not explaining it to anyone.

I am at the end of meddling females.  Including those who are trying to take away the privilege to detainees who have worked with me, then as a way to get involvement from these men, they have offered some time with me on my bench, not my bed.

Meddling females.  Still trying to look as though they are more important than me to these men.

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August 21, 2019

Let’s get something straightened out and cleared up, real fucking quick, I don’t shake, I don’t tremble, and I don’t quiver in fear.  If you have ever seen my hands shake, or I appear to tremble, it is not me that is doing so, they use virtual reality to make me appear LESS THAN I AM!  I don’t appreciate it.  It is not a true representation of me, and you are causing harm by doing so and allowing me to seen this way!

The black shakes from Johnny Mnemonic, just means PTSD, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.  When a person, especially a female is in a physically abusive sexual relationship, like a boyfriend or fiancé, they flinched afterwards when approached, sometimes.  The black shakes also refer to black, as meaning covert, or secret intelligence, as in dark and unknown, not a skin color.  Don’t get it wrong, and don’t get it confused.  Yes, I can speak to animals.  Yes, I do have actual intelligence in my head, meaning, I remember, and most of it is classified locations and work, a lot of it with the military as has already been proven more than once just like the classified work I have already done in France with cooperation from Britain, approved, most likely, through the United States.

Does the real Louis want to live, or does he want to die?  Does he even know?

Yes, the profile of him as the man responsible for three veteran’s death is the real Louis.

You allowed a story to go out that the real Louis would not find me attractive, that is untrue.  He would and he does find me attractive and is sexually attracted to me as well.  I am seen as his wife at the table with Avner, as I am Avner in the film Munich.

If you have a man who is concerned about my sleeping pattern, then he does have reason to be concerned.  It means he believes you are allowing virtual reality to be used, incorrectly.  If this is the English criminal, the US military needs to get involved.

Who’s the dumb moron whose allowed my brother to use virtual reality?!  Tim, fix this, real fucking soon!  It’s real fucking absurd and ridiculous!

Let me explain something, my boyfriend believes in me like he has never believed in another human being in all his life.  He has no problem with complying with your stupid requests of him, like saying, I love you out loud, to me, trying to sound as if that isn’t true, knowing it will prove OTHERS ARE MAKING SERIOUS MISTAKES.

You people go too fast.  Especially, when working with prisoners in prison.  You work too fast and push them BEFORE they are fucking ready BY MY STANDARD!  Criminals in prison for crimes are not fads.  Stop thinking of them as television and sensational.  You’re ruining your own work by doing so.

So, let me REPEAT this again, for everyone’s edification, my boyfriend spoke to my father first, before coming to me, like a gentleman would do when courting a woman.

Please don’t court me while married.  It is not up to my standard, nor is it up to any man’s standard I would believe is worthy.

Just like I do not appreciate the baby Trump news stories, I really am unhappy and do not appreciate real people like the Queen of England and Prince Harry to be seen as having a NEGATIVE impact and effect of me.  It does great injustice to the people’s and citizens of the United States and Great Britain.  Please stop causing harm to our citizen’s by PLACING IT PHYSICALLY ON MY BODY.  If I have to repeat myself again in this matter, I WILL NOT BE SO NICE!

Does the real Louis want to live, or does he want to die?  He is not very smart.  His father is a much smarter man, than his son ever will be.  That is neither his father’s fault, nor is it Louis.  The reason Louis did something so stupid as to send a man – using his father’s contacts and associates through his father’s work like the CIA, or other agencies and governments his father has worked for – says, and this is sick, he was trying to hurt his own father through sending a man to sexually abusive my brother because the real Papa would actually love me more because I actually am a better person than his own son.  Quite honestly, that is not a fault in the real Papa, it means he has a better measure of people, meaning he actually requires a better character in people, than his own son.

It is a very smart thing to require people to be of better character, especially in working in fields, like intelligence, FBI, CIA, MI-6, intelligence spies and so on.  It is smarter to want to work with the best of the best, than a person who could barely pass the requirements.

Is the real Louis responsible for my relationship with Michael Wayne Brown?  Let’s get this straight, right now.  Michael Wayne Brown never could.  He most certainly, cannot, and never will be able to – ever.  This relationship is of huge concern for me as it is seen in the movie, Zero Dark Thirty, in the bombing of the CIA site, as the man wearing the sunglasses.

HUGE RED FLAG – A man at a classified CIA site that is bombed by terrorists, someone else trusted when I have already PROVEN, I would NOT, wearing sunglasses that look like Oakley’s saying, he knows this is a high-level meet.  That means, Michael Wayne Brown, AND NOT ME, was involved in some dumb bull-shit, I don’t think he actually understood or had any idea what the fuck he was doing because he is not that smart, like getting involved with persons he had no idea the problems it would create because he had NO IDEA WHO I AM! 

And yeah, there actually would be terrorists and groups of people who could be seen as doing something like blowing up people and buildings, as a way to protect me, and proving to our intelligence I AM MORE IMPORTANT TO THEM THAN ANY INTELLIGENCE, OR POSSIBLY MILITARY, THAN ANYONE HAS EVER UNDERSTOOD UNTIL NOW, THAT IS WHY I SCREAM MY FUCKING HEAD OFF – I AM IMPORTANT, I AM THE ONE, I AM ALL THESES MOVIES BECAUSE I REALLY HAVE DONE ALL THIS WORK!  SO, NO ONE ELSE HAS TO DIE BECAUSE IT IS A SECRET.

It is in the movie Sneakers, too many secrets.  That means all the way back before 1992 keeping the work I and my mother was doing a secret was not a good idea, and it was causing problems.

Michael Wayne Brown bought a pair of Oakley sunglasses in Key West, Florida, 1989 or 1990, using my Portland Teacher’s Credit Union debit card, Michael never paid for anything and that account was closed soon afterwards since, I had no money, and Michael was spending my money like I was wealthy and not a minimum wage employee.

If the very reason I am seen as Louis’s wife in Munich is because the real Louis was listening or around when Michael and I ate at a restaurant like International House of Pancakes, and I said this to Michael most emphatically, I am a loyal woman.  Meaning I am not a cheater, I do not have affairs, and I was not going to cheat on Michael.  It would have fascinated the real Louis.  Enthralled him in a way that I’ve stuck and stayed in his mind all this time.  Because he, most definitely has had affairs and cheated on women.  If you think it is just because he is French and it is accepted and an acceptable way of French life, you are wrong.  I fascinated and enthralled him because I said I was a loyal woman.  It is a very valuable commodity to a man in a very high position to have such a strong woman.

Be aware, I would not find the real Louis, attractive.  His brain, his mind is not clean, among other things.  He is not a man I would deem worthy.  He is a man of no honor.  And, he is a man who would be unwilling and unable to do the work, I WOULD REQUIRE!

I doubt he will ever make it.

He should be aware I have armies of men, inside and outside of prisons and detention centers who would follow me, most loyally.  And now that this is public and known, the men that once would have listened and perhaps followed Louis, WILL NOT!  UNLESS THEY WANT TO DIE!

YEAH, I TALK AND WRITE FUCKING STRONG, GET FUCKING USED TO IT!

You people need to figure out if you want the real Louis turned to get all the information on all the jobs he has done, OR DO YOU WANT TO WATCH HIM DIE?  I am repeating myself on purpose.

If you are doing the facial hair growth on my face to repulse or have any men try and find me unattractive, you are only going to INCITE THEM TO ACTION!

Please stop courting me with a lesbian, it WON’T WORK!

If you want to know, the only reason it is in Sherlock, the most important family in Britain, meaning the Royal family, just means I’ve already done work with them.  I’ve already, most specifically, done military work with royals while they did their military duty.

Please stop doing this at work, stop giving me weekly performance numbers.  It is seen that this is no longer happening as part of the job since the television is no longer operational.

Sona from 13 Hours just means sonar as inaudible, and spicy means, temper, and, careful I think she’s flirting with you; it is something I used to be very good at, flirting.  It is just a way of communicating in my mind.  I am a very serious person, if a man tried to take it further and I was engaged or with a man otherwise, you would find my mood quickly changed.  It could have been used before, if I flirted with a man in intelligence, they could have seen it as a good sign, as a marriage signal.

If Edison was supposed to be a representation or proxy of the real Louis, he is not very good or accurate.  The real Louis would probably irritate me as he is not smart enough to understand the reasons why he behaves the way he has.  If he is responsible for hitting me in anyway, he is in SERIOUS trouble.  I will write that again; he is in serious trouble.  I could just let that go and, most likely, people would find him.  No joke.  It is another reason I am a better person than he ever has been.  Probably ever will be.

The real Louis does not like his own country, he does not love France, and I love France.  He thinks it makes him clever to not love his own country.  It is a thinking that is accepted in France, it is like not being afraid or worried of opposition thinking, of allowing free-thinking, and allowing its own citizens to think for themselves.  It is very French of the French.  A person either understands that, comprehends that thinking, or they do not.

However, plotting against your own country is NOT the same in France.  And, that is what the real Louis has been doing, worse, as he does not understand this or has figured this out, aligning himself with men who are willing to die for their own country.  Um, idiot.

If you follow that thinking, he should be aligning himself with men who also do not love their own country.  What an idiot.  What a dummkopf.

Most likely, the real Louis has never believed that I have worked and been working covertly, with intelligence, with the military, top secret and classified, and at some of the highest levels in governments.  He would probably have believed I was too dumb and too stupid for the work.  What a moron.  This also means, his father, his own father, has been able all these years, to remain silent, and keep all the work he has done, a secret.  Even from his own son.  What a valuable thing that has been for all the countries and governments involved.

I am not a combat interpreter from 13 Hours, and, that dude ain’t coming back, if this is true at all, if this man actually did live, it is because of me, as I have already proven I am a combat interpreter.  Tyrone, pulling the truck tire, and being seen as massively muscular, and Tyrone is my mother, this is to show and prove all the work she did with military intelligence.  Who let her die?  Who let my mother die?  Who is responsible for the death of my mother while in the care of a nursing home?

Is it Louis?

Do you know what this looks like?  The real Louis was not able in his own ambition of bringing his father down, his own country, and his own enemies, so what he tried to do was cause a reaction of extreme hatred with the strokes, and perhaps death of my mother, to try and turn me to hatred so I would help him instead.  What an idiot!  Let that be a lesson for everyone.  What a dummkopf!  Am I the only one that sees what a dumb, idiotic thing to do that was?!  I doubt it.

Love conquers all.

Did he think I would turn to hate and anger over my mother’s strokes?  I have been nothing, but sad.  Such sadness.  Sadness as in losing all desire for life.  That’s very far away from hate.

Straight men please stop taking relationship advice with straight women from lesbians.  It doesn’t work.

I am really sorry if I hurt anyone’s feelings, I am truly most focused on the problems at work.  Sometimes it does create a conflict when men try and give me a balance between work and home, as work is always here.  Boyfriend, you are correct, he does not love me.

Let me point out, people were worried about having the real Hannibal Lecter in the building to begin with.  Now, you fucking idiots get upset when things have not gone well between my boyfriend and me.  However, you hardly allow me to see my boyfriend either at work or at my home.  Then, you blame me for saying things out loud, or show signs of unhappiness with him.  All the while, I am fighting an emotional, mental, and physical battle at work.  No one has any idea what I am ACTUALLY going through at work because you cheat with air tricks to cause me emotional and mental HARM!

ANYONE CAN SAY ANYTHING EXTREME UNDER EXTREME CONDITIONS!  THAT DOESN’T MAKE THE WORDS OR RESPONSE ACTUALLY TRUE AND TRUTHFUL!

Do you know, I have cried, and cried, and cried, for years about David?  Not one of you were worried or upset when my heart was constantly broken over the loss of that friendship.  And, it’s been seen for years at my work.  Not one of you have taken my side in my heart break.  Not one of you, for any MAN, who has caused me heart break.

I was so sad this morning, I thought I needed David as a stabilizing comfort, yet as soon as he was here it turns to all this sadness, he is connected to concerning me, as well as, my mother.  I am not sure these are pains that can heal.  Under normal conditions, most people, just let go of, move on, and turn away from.

Yes, it is me against the world because I have never seen nor had any support, either emotionally, mentally, physically, or financially from any person, company, or employer.

AUTHORIZED CLEARANCE PERSONNEL ONLY!

 

August 20, 2019

WHAT THE HELL HAVE YOU PEOPLE DONE?!

MY BOYFRIEND ISN’T ENOUGH?  I AM NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE JUST ONE MAN?!

DID YOU TRADE ME?!  SO, THAT MY BOYFRIEND IS NO LONGER ALLOWED TO BE WITH ME?!

I AM FUCKING HOT AS HELL!

NO, I DO NOT WANT TO BE WITH THIS ENGLISHMAN, CRIMINAL!  I WANTED MY BOYFRIEND!  NOW, MY BOYFRIEND LOOKS COMPLETELY INCAPABLE OF LOVE!  SELF-DESTRUCTING!  LIVING OFF A HIGH OF ANXIETY AND ANOMOSITY AS IF THAT IS LOVE – AT ALL! 

LOVE IS THAT BORING MINUTAE THAT FILLS ARE EVERYDAY AND YOU LOVE THE OTHER PERSON SO MUCH THAT BORING EVERY DAY STUFF IS WORTH LIVING FOR!

I AM REALLY NOT INTERESTED IN GIVING A READ OF THIS ENGLISHMAN CON!  YOU MISSED SOMETHING ENTIRELY!  MY BOYFRIEND!

WHO IS THIS FUCKING IDIOT WHO THINKS THAT THE STRESS AND DRAMA OF EXTREME ANGER, ARE ANY NOTION OF LOVE?!  ARE THESE LESBIANS?!  NO WONDER THEY MAKE ME SO CRAZY, I SHUT DOWN!  UGH!!!  HOW TERRIBLE TO BE IN SUCH RELATIONSHIPS!  NO WONDER I AM NOT A LESBIAN!  BESIDES THE OBVIOUS!

MY BOYFRIEND IS STILL BETTER THAN ANY OF YOU PEOPLE WHO HAVE TRIED TO DO WORK!  HE IS BETTER!  BECAUSE HE IS BETTER THAN YOU, YOU ARE THREATENED BY HIM?!  YOU SHOULD BE FUCKING THANKING HIM FOR THE GODDAMN GOOD WORK HE DOES INSTEAD OF TRYNG TO MANUEVER HIM OUT TO GET IN HIS PLACE!

WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT THIS MORNING?!  WITH THE TRAFFIC?!  WHY DON’T YOU JUST GIVE EVERY TERRORIST A FUCKING CALLING CARD AND TELL THEM TO BLOW SHIT UP, THAT IS HOW WELL AND ORGANIZED YOU ALL LOOKED THIS MORNING!  HERE WE ARE SUCH DUMB MORONS HERE’S ARE SECRET CLASSIFIED LOCATION AND WE DON’T MIND OR CARE AT ALL IF YOU BLOW US UP?!  WHAT THE FUCK?!  WHAT A DUMB MESSAGE TO SEND!

They want me to believe my boyfriend, again, wants to break it off, that could only mean it is because he is not capable of love.  As soon as anything like love happens, he self-destructs like, killing them, or wanting to break up with them.  It’s self-destructive. 

So, I am mad and what does my new manager do, whose name is code for North Dakota, Native American, she walks over and tells me I can’t (can’t) (she’s covered in nose alterations meaning she is making me inhale mood altering chemicals just for a reaction) “take my upset out on the items throwing them on the table” as if I had broken anything, moving something faster than anyone else does not mean it has injured any of the “products”, then she tells me I can’t (can’t) crawl under the conveyor belt, something I’ve done as long as I have worked there.  Her talking to me was like trying to put out a fire with gasoline.  Pouring gasoline onto something already burning as if thinking it would put out the fire.  What a terrible manager.

Guess what, you’ve all done such a terrible job in just a few days, none of you can.  Not a single man, and certainly not another woman.  No man I have mentioned before – can.  I have too many doubts about this Englishman, I am not sure he ever could.  That’s the effect of a self-destructive person with Cherith’s brain.

Don’t get confused, I am tired and want to go to sleep is not the same as begging for mercy.  You wouldn’t be able to handle (any of you) me in the flesh, drink up.  I have the ability to consume a man, mind, body, and soul.

AUTHORIZED CLEARANCE ACCESS PERSONNEL ONLY!

 

August 20, 2019

I need you people to understand something because something is still wrong.  If it is not an imminent threat, then there is a problem in your standard operating procedure.  I really do not want anymore CIA sites to be bombed, nor buses in London, this is my focus.  My focus is making sure these things do not continue to happen because someone else failed.

What did you people do when I told my FBI man someone wanted to be brought in, and/or was workable?  What did you do with that event?  Is this yet another reason I’ve told my FBI man he cannot work with her?

Something is still wrong.

For everyone to know, the man who is sorry is in Zero Dark Thirty, he has done good work.  He is seen as Joseph Bradley, and you will need his information and help.

Boyfriend, do you know why there is a problem here in the middle of the night, waking me up?  You people will really need my boyfriend’s help, probably for the rest of his life.  No joke, he really is that good.

I really have no idea what you think you people are doing by placing fat air up my nose as I walk to the restroom.  It is fat air.  It does not shrink my clothes; it makes me gain weight without eating anything!  What a stupid woman this is!  Stupid!

Do you know why they got the man they did when I went to Washington, DC?  It was not just because he followed me, they had never seen me look so good, at least not for a long time.  Did he turn when you got him?  Did you think it was your powers of persuasion?  Stop giving yourselves so much credit when in truth it belongs to ME!

I will not be responsible for anything else that happens if you continue to bring Edison around here or have him work with me in anyway whatsoever.  How many times must I write, I never came, it never made me happy, he is more than a problem.  Be advised, be aware: I will not be held responsible!

I have no idea why any of you have not been looking to long term goals.  You look like you are simply responding instead getting ahead of them.

Obviously, my pristine man makes it.  Obviously, both Wolfe’s make it.

Is this an actual story, did you people allow them to believe I actually had my child and gave it up for adoption and that was pregnancy weight I had never lost?  That would be a serious mistake if that is true?

No, I had no reason to trust you people.  I’ve been done this road before, I’ve given the acceptance letter of a day shift before, and it NEVER appeared on my schedule not allowing me to work a day shift, and that was some time ago.  So, no I am not able to believe the acceptance of my day shift was verified until it appeared on my actual schedule.  And, no, I did not agree to a loss of hours and therefore a reduced paycheck when I gave my acceptance letter.

This feels like a parent or a person of interest who has lost legal rights and is finding ways and being enabled to illegally find means and ways to gain access to me.

You people are responsible for inciting when you do dumb things like place women on me physically through the air and in the men’s bathroom.  Inciting.

The Holocaust envy story looks true.

I have no idea what you people allowed to talk about with the purchase of soil, and this word, exclusive.  It looks like you promised something, you had no right to do, and should never allowed into discussion.  Again, someone who is not able to work at my level.  Illinois needs to be cleared.  It’s a festering wound.

I really don’t appreciate this Ihan Omar profile as it looks like Harry’s wife, and I have no interest whatsoever in involving myself with any discussion or work arrangement of any sort with her.  I also, do not appreciate the excess weight, and f-ugly added to my face.  She needs to stay away from me.  I neither trust her, nor am I willing to heal her.  He can do that all on his own.  He married her.  He needs to deal with it. 

I am able to not make it personal.

The baby case story makes no sense whatsoever.  It looks unfounded in truth, in my truth.

This has bothered me from Zero Dark Thirty, it looks like a tell, we don’t know what we don’t know.  Is this just seven, Cherith?  Or, something else?  Are those actual M&M’s?  Because they look like (I know it’s not in the movie) jellybeans.  Didn’t Ronald Reagan have jellybeans in the Oval Office?  Joseph Bradley’s response is most unusual.  Especially because the next scene is the bus bombing in London.

Is Brexit a real thing or does it just mean breakfast?  It’s not that smart if that’s true.

The Jordanians have a mole is not as simple as it appears, nor does it mean what you want it to mean.  Yes, I did have a mole that disappeared on my upper lip and side of my face.  It can be seen as a white mark or circle on my face.  Yes, they were not happy with the amount of facial hair remover I had to use every week, so it looks like they were unhappy with at least one lesbian working for the agency.  Meaning they did not like the lesbian’s work and believed it was causing harm to US intelligence, not their intelligence, get it?  Be careful, OUR intelligence.

Truthfully, the mole looks like, Oregon, and Oregon medical, and that does go back to California also.  However, the mole is ON BOTH SIDES, Jordanian really means Oregon, and it could be referring to brain research, I haven’t had time to look at it.

Something is wrong, it is like a nagging in my spirit.

AUTHORIZED ACCESS PERSONNEL ONLY!

 

August 19, 2019

If all you want is the answers to the mysteries, to the cold cases, to decode the movies, and so on, don’t come back to my bedroom.  I have never been interested in breaking up marriages.  Don’t persist.  Don’t come to my bedroom.  If all you wanted was a better telling of events, don’t enter, don’t return, don’t come into my bedroom, don’t use virtual reality just because you want to know the answers.

Have I not been cooperating?  Then, don’t use the virtual reality for any other reason other than love – that’s why my boyfriend is my boyfriend.  He is love to me.

Something is still wrong.  Something happened.  Someone set up the day shift as something I was supposed to read of the manager being all wrong, so that I would not want the day shift because of the manager.  My boyfriend is the only man who reads as truly being the man who loves me.

David will not be able to love me unless it’s real.  And they will never allow any of these men, including my boyfriend, to be real.  None of them.  Everyone wants me dead, prefers I was dead, and is waiting for me to die.  Wow.  Hurt.

My feelings have been hurt and no one cares.

You want me to play a song, so that the only man, who has actually hit me, physically abused me, will be seen as the only man who wanted me enough to want to marry me.  I will not thank you for the embarrassment and humiliation.

I have NEVER wanted Edison to ever return.  I would rather die!

No one gives a fuck about capturing terrorists, or the most wanted men, something that would help the whole world all you people care about is trying to break up a marriage.  I want nothing to do with it.  It doesn’t look to me as though I am capable, willing, or able, to play nice in this circumstance.  My feelings are beyond hurt.

I think you are confusing diplomacy with real feellings.

I truthfully have no desire for Franco whatsoever.  Hurt.

My boyfriend has been the only man, who actually does man things, like protecting people.

And, the end to this is…