Author: You didn’t pull! You don’t understand! You do not own my accounts! Perceived control!

January 29, 2019: READ,Too Tired

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January 29, 2019

You should be paying me to write, not to pack.  Obviously, and obvious to nearly everyone it is of greater importance.  Obviously, they are not real products going to real customers.  Obviously, it is staged and unimportant.

Do you think actors working on a television show spend 10 hours a day on their feet, performing high-level energy performances?  I don’t.  I know they don’t.  Stop pretending that packing heavy, huge products is the correct thing to do.

It does look as though someone has literally tried through legal means to adopt me as an adult through my brother’s wedding.  It looks as though it is in the initials of Roy Campbell.  CR, CAR, actually in the Central African Republic.  You will see this person if not several, need to be taken out.  It’s grotesque.

Mrs. Potts and Chip from Beauty and the Beast are my real mother and my real brother, learning you were wrong, this song lyric is directed at someone, as in directed, as in an FBI Director and so on.  Something happened in Old Town, Kissimmee, Florida when my brother and I made the music video.  Something happened when my brother pushed me out of the way, I have not been able to brain-think it yet.

Father of mine, I need you to start going back in your mind and work through conversation you had with people you worked with when at work, there are pointed words spoken to you, I see them.  I need you to work on it.  It will help them regardless of what happened because of it.

In the Tiki room, I have no idea why I liked it, but I did.  It could be taken as code, In the United States.  The T, K as symbols, two eyes as eyeballs being pillars, pillars of society, the Lincoln memorial, and the White House.

Andre the Giant from Princess Bride is me, I have not been able to write this, or brain think it.  She set up my relationship with Michael to – the fastest way to write this: as a way to destroy evidence.

I took in a stray cat when we lived in Oldsmar, I named him Tigger because he was so full of energy, orange and white cat.  I have seen this for a while.  When we lived in Plant City stray cats, as if they were left in front of my house on purpose look like a message sent about children being abducted, kidnapped.

Cherith hears the inaudible.  Like other animals can hear the inaudible, Cherith hears the inaudible.  They specifically designed my mother’s stroke to destroy her auditory process.  This cannot be allowed to happen anymore!

I am too tired.  Management is completely incapable of understanding what the work is.  I am too tired.

January 28, 2019: READ, Too Tired

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January 28, 2019

You should have hired me straight out, without the façade.

That was an admission I saw this morning when I left work, Timothy admitting he and probably others have used me in the past in their military work.  I know without a doubt I am still, better than him.  And he, is exceptional.  I know I am better.

All these DECADES of using me as a governmental employee is the evidence of that.  I am more than an asset.  Obviously, I am more than an hourly wage employee.

The phone reference in BBC’s Sherlock would also reference my mother’s job when she started at EF, Education Foundation and Sandy Hill who lived in San Francisco.  There is a subversive at work, and it is not my mother.  The fastest way to write this, the double-agents, the subversives trying to bring down the United States government started in Oregon.  Oregon, Ore-gone, this mispronunciation used to bother me.  It was probably code.

All persons involved in creating and operating on me, everything involving my surgery, you need to turn yourselves in.  You will never be safe, I see it.  Even after my death, it is there.  Turn yourself in to the authorities.

If I am too tired to even take a shower after work, I am too tired.  Who is actually in charge when none of it is real, anyway?

There is no reason for my life to be set in this manner.  There is no reason I must live my life without people.

It does look the same, not necessarily the same people, it just looks the same.  Whoever manipulated the traffic lights at the intersection where my brother’s car accident was, it looks the same as the 9/11 attacks.

They should not have moved my trash cans from the right to the left last week when I specifically placed them there.

I never really liked that man I dated.  I never loved Michael, I knew it the moment he told me he loved me, I did not love him.  I did love David, many years ago.

Too tired.

January 27, 2019: READ, Read My Face

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January 27, 2019

Read my face.  What does it say to you?  Do I look well-rested?  Well taken care of?  Happy?  Content?  Look at me from when I worked at The Container Store and notice the HUGE difference.  What does that say about the people and the time since then?  Think about it.  Of course, everything should be organized.

If that was Casey I saw yesterday, she needs to be in therapy on a scheduled continual basis.  Anger-management to begin with.  She is like a spoiled child needing constant validation and attention.

Who is this person, someone who has no idea the amount of detail, organization, efficient time-management, and brain thinking it takes to manage a home?  I was more than managing my own home.  There is more than one person here, they are inept.  So, why am I not a manager?

If a person is better being around me, but I am not better around them it is not a good relationship, influence, or person.

I am more than exhausted.  I am so tired, I want to go back to bed and sleep for days – DAYS!  My feet, my whole body, exhausted, tired, in pain, I can barely function.  Barely move.  I am nearly fifty years old.

Did they actually put something in the paint of my San Diego mug simply to be cruel?  To be cruel to me?  They should be in therapy.  Wow.  Nice to know what San Diego State University thinks of me.

Too tired to write anymore.

January 26, 2019: READ, Write

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January 26, 2019

Michael R. White – no H, no Michael, Write.  Somehow this looks like a composite photo.  At first, I want to say you found a photograph, yet these are only pieces, spliced together.  He looks dead to me.  It looks like the photo has been aged to show what he might look like if he was alive today.  That is what it looks like to me.

Is that really going to be the most reliable source, homosexual prostitutes?

How are her feet, by the way?  LESBIAN!  Make her feet uncomfortable.  With varied means of discomfort, walking and standing for hours.  Looks like she – LESBIAN! – needs to be taken more out of her comfort and control zone(s) and area.

If the news about Brexit (breakfast) is literally only about me leaving the International House of Pancakes after ordering an egg-white omelet in the healthy or reduced calorie portion of their menu and coffee in 2014 when I was driving across the country while in California before I had gotten to Los Angeles, Los Angeles was lunchtime.  Then, you misunderstood me.  None of what was around me, every person looking like they are in a movie, everyone pretending to eat as though they are extras in a movie – still, does not make sense to me.

Pretty sure it was a blue and white building.  I do not believe I left because of anyone near by or anyone in the building at the time.  I went to Panera instead and ate my breakfast in the car.

If you have not understood what happens because chatter or whatever is heard just from me being, or living, or visiting a place, you should have just asked me instead.  I could have told you.  I still cannot believe how many people were at the airport when I departed LAX.  It is rather obvious I am not a criminal, or terrorist.  I am; however, exceptional.

Besides being a code-breaker this is something else I have seen as well, a kill machine.  People have seen me as a kill machine.  As an effect people saw in me.

How very English of me, to not scan people every moment I see them, is to say it is rude, I consider it to be rude to look at people as descriptions.  Also, I can turn it off.  I can turn off the brain-thinking.  You have to be able to do that.  You would go insane otherwise, in my opinion.  You would be a computer program otherwise, if you did not.

January 25, 2019: READ, Converted

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January 25, 2019

Converted.  READ: Converted.  This is what I am getting and reading from the information I’ve been given.  Have you seen a decline and not quite understood why?  Converted.  Converted, that’s what happened.  That’s very difficult to believe.

#1 – somebody broke into my home and destroyed my personal property.  I am the only owner and person with access and possession of a key to my home.  If anyone else has a key, they need to turn themselves over to the police.  I most sincerely did not appreciate it.  I do not appreciate any one touching, manipulating, or destroying my property.

#2 – I will destroy you.  As I broke the bottle, I sent a message that said I will destroy you.  Most specifically, I will destroy you, Eel.  I told him, the Eel, I will destroy you.  What happened because of it?!

Did you not quite understand everything that has been going on and popping up on your screen and the chatter you are hearing?

If there was a threat because of my sign that said, Fire Chelsea, Fire Chris it is from that little hustler of a man.  What he did with the trash at that home is the evidence.

What I am seeing, and reading is that it appears the Eel has turned into a believer, a believer of me, a believer in me.  Is this true?  Find out if this is true.  If it is true it is beyond remarkable.

Understand when I look at someone, I am reading closer to what a classical writer of literature does with a sentence and paragraph by way of description, details, and creating an image or picture.  I am not notating the height, build, physical size, color of the clothing, etc.  That is police training.  That is factual notating in a policeman’s notepad.  Of course, I see all the physical details; however, what I see is much greater.  It’s a talent, it cannot be taught.  You either have it or you don’t.  As simple as that.

The crazy spider woman in 47 Ronin looks like that psychotic LESBIAN woman – that is who I told, never come back.

January 25, 2019: READ: KILL ME, PLEASE!

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January 25, 2019

SOMEBODY JUST KILL ME, PLEASE!

SOMEBODY JUST KILL ME INSTEAD!

I HATE THAT JOB!  I HATE THAT JOB!

Somebody put me out of my misery and just kill me!  Kill me!  Kill me!  Please kill me!

I am supposed to sit here and give you all the information, all the details while I am not able to have children, a life of my own, or men that I want in my life?!  Just kill me instead!

No, I am not interested in writing a report – anymore, kill me instead!  I AM BETTER OFF DEAD!

SOMEBODY KILL ME!  SOMEBODY PUT ME OUT OF MY MISERY AND KILL ME!

I AM NEVER ALLOWED TO GRIEVE?!  I AM NEVER ALLOWED TO FEEL ANYTHING OTHER THAN WHAT SOMEBODY ELSE THINKS?!

EVERYBODY ELSE THINKS MY BROTHER IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN ME?!  JUST KILL ME INSTEAD, PLEASE!  PLEASE, KILL ME!  KILL ME!  LET ME DIE AND KILL ME!

I HATE THAT JOB!  I HATE THIS LIFE!

EVERY PERSON THINKS MY BROTHER IS THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN THE WORLD, THEN PLEASE KILL ME!  I NO LONGER HAVE A PURPOSE!  KILL ME!  LET ME DIE!  KILL ME!  KILL ME!  KILL ME!  KILL ME!  KILL ME!  KILL ME!

OBVIOUSLY, THE WORLD IS BETTER OFF WITHOUT ME THAT IS WHAT THE WOMAN THIS MORNING TOLD ME THAT IS WHAT THAT BLACK DELIVERY MAN TOLD ME THIS MORNING, SO JUST KILL ME, PLEASE!