February 2, 2020: READ: WARNING: LEAVE ‘EM ON!

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February 2, 2020

Preacher arrested at church, is true.  I warned you.  I told you so.  You morons opened a door that you do not have a key to lock!

I say again, before you open a door, you better fucking make sure you have a key – TO FUCKING LOCK IT!

YOU FUCKING MORONS!  YOU FUCKING MORONS WORK FROM A PLACE OF – I WONDER WHAT WILL HAPPEN IF WE DO THIS?  IS THAT BECAUSE YOU DON’T KNOW HOW TO PLAN, OR DON’T KNOW HOW TO THINK?!

You want to know why, I never checked out the preacher’s junk?!  Last Sunday?  Because he is (by proxy) another man I am really sexually attracted to.  They tried to manipulate me.  They tried through virtual reality to MAKE MY EYES LOOK AT THIS MAN’S CROTCH.   How disgusting.

I WOULDN’T LET THEM!

AND, BY THE WAY, IF YOU HAVE TO LOOK AT A MAN’S CROTCH – TO SEE WHAT – MUSCLE, HE HAS TO PLEASURE A WOMAN?!  YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT MEN’S PENIS’!

A penis is not fat, or flab, or BONE, it’s MUSCLE.

A man tells me, everything I need to know about his penis, his dick, just by standing in front of me, and looking me in the eyes.  And, I can tell by looking at a man, before looking anywhere else, his feet, or his crotch, what kind of lover he will be.

If you have to look at his crotch, you know nothing about penis’ when it comes to – intercourse, sex.

Was he wearing, children’s underwear?  Like children’s under-roos?  Underoos?  Clean and not contaminated by a crime scene.  Yet, purchased from a children’s department?

You people are only interested in parlor tricks.  Not solving crimes, not capturing bad guys, or the most wanted men, you only care about parlor tricks, how BORING.

Yeah, my former employer was so scary for me and unsafe for me to work, they let me go to “ensure” my safety?!  THAT’S WHY EVERYTHING THEY DID AT MY FORMER WORKPLACE(S) – HAS BEEN BROUGHT TO MY HOME INSTEAD?!  RIGHT?!

SO, WHEN THEY KILL ME, AMAZON WON’T HAVE A WRONGFUL DEATH LAWSUIT TO – FIGHT!

IT’S ANOTHER REASON THEY LET ME GO.  THEY AND NO ONE IS WORRIED OR CONCERNED ABOUT KEEPING ME SAFE, THEY WANT TO SEE ME DIE, IN MY – BED!

All the Chinese deaths, I’m ok with.  And, keep going.  You people really fucked up.  And, you are not done.

The movie, The Power of One, being about a boxer in South Africa, about brain research, me defeating  brain research, and be careful I was not brain researched, it was attempted and not successful, me defeating brain research has nothing to do with South Africa as a location, there is another movie connection about a funeral that goes with it, too many movies, at this moment, South Africa is about my paternal grandfather’s funeral, it was meant for me to figure out, his death looked suspicious, or my paternal grandmother wouldn’t have visited us in Gresham, Oregon after his death.

The location, in the Power of One, is really…Los Angeles, California.  Not South Africa, and it has nothing to do with, black and white, you morons, are MORONS!

Is the movie, You’ve Got Mail, about me losing my job at WORSHIP?  That would be another real intelligence man, who looks devastated by the loss of working with me, and he looks like he really loved me, in 1993, probably until about 1999 and 2003.

You people are sick to deny these men.

The loneliness birds from the Power of One, are probably, military men.  I look really good with these men, always have, meaning, I MAKE THEM LOOK GOOD.  Good like they are standing at the wall, they are standing at the border, and the enemy?  Drops their fucking weapons and asks to defect – GOOD!

You think it is all their work because they get to have and shoot a gun?  Or, is the real truth, my brain, working through their mind HAS SUCH AS EFFECT?!

And, I really don’t trust the people around here, to attempting learning to shoot a gun, although, I would be interested.

It’s who I used to be, a person, who, breaks the ice, rather quickly, upon meeting someone.  I’ll hug my father, again!

And, I am too upset at the Bing news feed on my tablet, to read it there, again.

It appears the only reason Benedict Cumberbatch appeared with black face makeup in my neighborhood, was to tell me the “marriage” between Harry and Meghan is really a business arrangement.  It reads like a real marriage because there really is legal paperwork that goes with their “arrangement”, she is receiving money for this relationship.

No one asked me if I cared.  No one asked me to read it either.  Harry is a grown up if he chooses to do something stupid like a marriage arrangement that his business unless he’s used public monies to put on a “wedding”.

Harry was never supposed to date me by proxy.

Harry was never supposed to date me – BY PROXY!

As a mirror, I am not supposed to date men by proxy.  It’s a warning.  You are listening to the wrong people.  I ONLY MAKE PEOPLE BETTER, INCLUDING CRIMINALS, LIKE THIS BRITISH INTELLIGENCE MAN, I WOULD SCARE THIS MAN TO DEATH, IF I EVEN LOOKED LIKE I LIKED DAVID JUST A LITTLE BIT IT WOULD FRIGHTEN (YOU’VE FRIGHTENED HIM, THEM AWAY, MOULIN ROUGE) THIS BRITISH INTELLIGENCE MAN SO MUCH, HE LITERALLY WOULDN’T KNOW WHAT TO DO, AND THIS BRITISH INTELLIGENCE MAN HATES AMERICA, HATES AMERICANS, DOES NOT WANT THE WHITE HOUSE, THE PRESIDENCY TO EXIST!

Any person, and I mean ANY person who aligns themselves with a man or person that does not want the WHITE HOUSE AND UNITED STATES’ PRESIDENCY TO EXIST?!  YOU FAILED TO MEET SAFETY, HARRY.

Even if Harry had met me with a wig on as some sort of disguise, instead of by proxy – IT WOULD HAVE BEEN BETTER!  YOU FAILED, HARRY.  YOU DIDN’T MEET – ME, AS A MIRROR.  I ONLY MAKE PEOPLE BETTER!  I MAKE EXCEPTIONAL MEN, BETTER THAN EXCEPTIONAL!

Did this British intelligence man, fool – everyone?!  Except me!

I say it again because it is a fact, it has been proven over and over again, it is a statistical fact, I MAKE PEOPLE BETTER!  AS A MIRROR I MAKE THEM BETTER!

Crazy people want to be sane; criminals want to go straight meaning law-abiding, and great men?  Even better.  FACT!

Unfortunately, in these last few months, Britain has burned the bridge between me and England.  A psychotic was allowed to “attempt” a relationship by proxy and by not being real, and truthful, that bridge – is burned.

I want a DC power couple.  I want a man to be in a relationship with me that allows us to be a Washington DC, power couple.  They’ve burned the bridge, and the military gets to take over the scene.

LEAVE ‘EM ON!

In the movie, Klaus, that’s a real fight or struggle between, probably two countries, over – me.  To have access to – me.  And, um…it’s dumb.  That doesn’t take a genius to figure out if another country wants to work with me, as a United States citizen, they MUST GET PERMISSION FROM THE UNITED STATES’ GOVERNMENT.  UH, DUH!

It also, makes me the Postman and Klaus.  The ringing of the bell in the village, is just to show people fighting for control over me (at my employment with a gay black Franco, by the name of Kevin, Home Alone, 2015).  Lydia is my mother.  The only reason Klaus goes away at the end of the movie, is to show my mother’s death.  And, it is still horrifying to me, to see my dead mother in this house.  It’s horrifying.  It’s so grotesque.

It means, I would probably really like this real intelligence man that is in the movie, Klaus, and he probably is, Icelandic, and really, really – normal.

You’ve buried my mother, here in Florida, with a grave marker of someone else’s name?!  I WANT THAT CORRECTED IMMEDIATELY! 

IS MY MOTHER’S GRAVE MARKED WITH A TOMBSTONE OF A DEAD – BLACK WOMAN?!  Is her nursing home also, involved in covering up her death?!

GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF HERE!

I WANT THESE MOTHERFUCKERS TO PAY AND BURN FOR WHAT THEY HAVE DONE!

Sam Diller from the movie 12 Strong, as code for military police, meaning catching bad military persons and upholding military laws, goes together with the movie, What Lies Beneath, with the actress Michelle Pfeiffer and the movie, I Could Never Be Your Woman.

What Lies Beneath tells me, I got rid of a bad spy in our home in Plant City, Florida.  Probably in one of the rental houses that were to my right (You don’t mind if my female colleague, Zero Dark Thirty) when looking out from the front of my home.  I got rid of them, just by – looking.  It was probably in the rental house that abutted my back yard, by the pool, that used to wash – their mini-blinds because of their cats.

CANADA – GETS TO DIE.

And, I am no longer working with you, by writing anymore, at the TIME they gas me in my home.  I’M GOING TO LET THEM KILL YOU, INSTEAD.

This Uber story tells me the real Diller doesn’t want to work with you people and has left.

Yes, I really did get naked with the real Hannibal Lecter turned my Boyfriend, no, YOU DON’T GET TO SIT ON HIM AS MY BENCH OUTSIDE MY HOUSE!

It shows they were planning since, August to get a black woman on Hannibal, just because I liked him!

I told you NOT TO LISTEN TO THEM!  NOT TO WORK WITH THEM HANNIBAL!

YOU MAY DO TERRIBLE THINGS LIKE COERCE HIM INTO A SEXUAL RELATIONSHIOP IN THE FLESH WITH A REAL WOMAN, SO I DO NOT WANT HIM TO BE MY BOYFRIEND, YOU DON’T GET TO ABUSE MY BODY BECAUSE I CHOSE HANNIBAL – AND NOT A GODDAMN WOMAN – TO BE MY BOYFRIEND.

This profile of a red-haired Chinese woman wearing a pink gas mask, is my dead mother.  Did they move my mother’s body to this complex and BURY HER, HERE!  YOU PEOPLE ARE SICK!

FBI MAN, MAKE SURE THESE MOTHERFUCKERS, DON’T COME BACK!  PENIS ENVY, FOR HANNIBAL LECTER’S PENIS?!  FROM LAW ENFORCEMENT?!  SICK!  NO, THEY DON’T GET TO SEE HIS JOHNSON, HIS DICK, HIS PENIS, HIS MANHOOD, HIS FEMALE ORGASM-MAKER, THEY DON’T GET DICK!

YOU RAN A STUPID GODDAMN MORON NEWS STORY ABOUT A TERRORIST STRIPPING ME NAKED (CHINESE BENCH OUTSIDE MY HOME) AND HAVING HAND SEX WITH ME, HANNIBAL IS NOT A GODDAMN TERORIST, YOU STUPID MOTHER-FUCKERS!

HE’S KILLED PEOPLE.  HE’S NOT A TERRORIST!   GOD, YOU PEOPLE ARE STUPID!  NO WONDER, NOBODY LIKES – COPS!

JESUS CHRIST, WHO’S THE MORON WHO CAN’T FIGURE OUT RELATIONSHIPS?!  ESPECIALLY, STRAIGHT MEN AND WOMEN, MALE AND FEMALE, RELATIONSHIPS?!

DO YOU HONSETLY THINK, THAT THE PERSON WHO WAS GIVEN THE NAME WEAPONS OF MASS DESTRUCTION, IS SO FUCKING STUPID IN HER PERSONAL RELATIONSHIPS, THAT SHE WILL TABLOID, JERRY SPRINGER, FOR HER MAN?!

I’LL EXPOSE HIM!  AND EVERYONE ALONG WITH HIM!

YOU PEOPLE ARE BEGGING TO – DIE!  AND, I’LL LET THEM!  I WON’T PROTECT YOU!  WHO THEY FUCK DO YOU THINK I AM?!

KEYSER-FUCKING-SOZE, WEAPONS OF MASS DESTRUCTION!  YOU DON’T COME BY THESE NAMES BECAUSE YOU ARE WEAK OR COWARDLY – BY OUR GODDAMN ENEMIES, I WAS GIVEN THESE NAMES BY OUR GODDAMN ENEMIES!  I DIDN’T ASK FOR THEM!  I DIDN’T WANT THEM!  I DIDN’T WIN A GODDAMN CONTEST TO GET THESE NAMES!  I DIDN’T ENTER A SWEEPSTAKES TO GET THESE NAMES!  I DIDN’T SIGN UP FOR THEM!  I DIDN’T COMPETE FOR THEM BECAUSE I WANTED IT – SO BADLY!

I WAS-GIVEN-THESE NAMES!

LEARN YOUR GODDAMN LESSONS, INTELLIGENCE!  I DIDN’T COMPETE, OR EARN, OR FIGHT, OR DEMAND, I WAS GIVEN!  YOU DON’T WANT TO USE ME BECAUSE OUR GODDMAN ENEMIES RESPECT ME MORE THAN YOU, THEY LET THE WHOLE GODDAMN WORLD KNOW IT?!  THAT’S ON YOU, NOT ME, AND YOU WILL FIND OUT WHEN I AM DEAD.  HISTORICALLY, PROVEN.

Somalia declares emergency story says, I need a witness protection program.

By the way, Anne Rice, knew nothing about Christians and Christianity.

There was and is a real feud between the real Marvin and this Stupid British intelligence man played by a gay Todd.  Marvin is going to win, and I am going to let them kill him.

If the only reason Marvin went back to work, wasn’t he retired?  There is no such thing as old spies.  Old Spice.  If Marvin went back to work with me in 2013, IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN A BIG WARNING TO YOU STUPID MOTHERFUCKERS!

Me messaging, Facebook messaging David, over and over, and over and over, and over and over, and over and over, and over, and the TONE AND LANGUAGE I USED GOT WORSE AND WORSE, AND MORE DIRE, AND WORSE, AND WORSE!

ARE YOU FUCKING STUPID?!

JESUS CHRIST, DAVID!  YOU’RE STUPID!  DID YOU GET TO READ THEM AT ALL?!  STOP LISTENING TO THEM – THEY’LL GET YOU KILLED!

Cherith as a mirror, if you had met with me, just for a few minutes, at the very least would have prevented all the years of misery you’ve had with Courtney.  And, Meghan, is another copy, of Courtney.

It also, would have prevented my mother’s death.

By the way, I am not going to be able to change my schedule the way you people have this place set up.

Probably, the real reason, I wrote I no longer trust this Russian man?  He no longer, and probably NEVER, trusted you people.  That’s how he looks in college, he didn’t trust the people involved and working.  He’s a man who really loves, my Russian.  That’s something that doesn’t just happen every day.

Hannibal you want to explain why you don’t imagine living with me, in my bed, in my house, taking a bath with me, fixing dinner with me, watching me cook food for you, give you a cocktail, or beverage, while you watch me walk away?  Um, that’s what a boyfriend does.  He wants to be with his woman, his female, ALL THE TIME.

Explain yourself, if you can.

Perhaps, it needs to be a professional relationship, if at all.  I will expose you.  I am resolute.  I have real big cajones (California, Jones, or Johnson, DICK, penis).  In my mind!  Not hanging in my fucking pants!

Pay attention, every other man, this is who I am, this is what I expect, I DO NOT ALLOW, I WILL CUT YOU DOWN, IF I NEED TO.  MAN UP!  OR, GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY WAY!

If Hannibal got talked out of thinking – thinking – about me in this way, it is not his fault.

Hannibal is used to being the one who is always in control, and always able to outthink?  Well, that’s ok.  He’ll figure it out.

It, also means, I am smarter than you FBI man.  That’s not really his fault either, he would be further in his career, if it weren’t for meddling women.

And, Meghan Markle looks like she has a dangerous obsession with me and my body like Courtney.  “Developing” from 13 Hours, also means a slow-working plan to manipulate people into actions, who might not otherwise, by – placing them in close (Close Encounters of The Third Kind) proximity, like working together, or – neighbors.

The Container Store is going to win.

This is some morons brilliant plan to get back at the real Marvin.  The shipping tape used to tape packages at The Container Store, is – white.

If Amazon’s has always been black or black in the most recent years, 2013 to current, it has only been – TO GET BACK AND HURT THE REAL MARVIN.

If you envision yourself in the green field of Elysium, you are already dead.

David Wolfe has green eyes.  Are they still?

I am the killer.  And, team David?  I’ll let them kill you.  You will be dead, if I see you through – David.

Franco is sorry he’s played along all these years.  And, he didn’t know how to stop people, get out, and so on, just like David, and a lot of other men.        

No one knows how to STOP THIS SHOW YOU’VE STARTED AND CAN’T CONTROL.  None of you look able to turn the cameras off and let me live my life.  You shouldn’t wonder why I write I am dying here.    

NONE OF YOU LOOK IN CONTROL ENOUGH TO TURN OFF THE CAMERAS AND LET ME LIVE ME LIFE.  NONE.  THAT’S A DEATH SENTENCE FOR ME.  NOT TURNING OFF THE CAMERAS.

Franco at my employment in 2015, goes together with “Marilyn” (a former manager during my employment of June 2015 to March 2016) a white heavy-set woman, being seen by me in Guest Services at the Tampa, Florida Disney call-center, and my manager I was speaking to, “John” wearing,  usually, a black and white shirt.

Security measure only work if we use them every time, Zero Dark Thirty, means, and haven’t I already written this before?  Guest Services, after I quit (witness protection from Sherlock) didn’t follow the rules, and it is connected to the bombing of the CIA black site in Zero Dark Thirty.

Black site, and black tape, do not go together and it is meaningless, a dead-end, a red herring, and a ruse.

Then, using another  “Marilyn” as a black heavy-set woman (red station 2, 9), at my last employer with me in the White House, and you let a real terrorist use virtual reality, hit me in the goddamn head, causing me pain in my head for weeks.

Franco, at the cash wrap stand, the registers at The Container Store, talking to a “Gil Parsley” although this Gil was shorter, about taping a foot with tape, being able to tape it back together to heel.

The tape won’t work.

Franco said to tape the foot, Gil said it won’t work.  I walked away.

Because it’s stupid.  A stupid plan, stupid spy work, stupid, stupid, stupid.

The Container Store wins.  And, I’ll let them kill you.

It’s for a good cause, Zero Dark Thirty, it was meant for me to figure out.  Meaning, you have the CIA in a movie, saying, Cherith needs to be the one to tell the world, what really happened here.

It’s not a secret if it’s in a movie.

You have the CIA as an agency, telling the world, Cherith Gjestland, Good Cause, needs to be the one to tell people what happened here.  At that black site where people died because its meant to look like an inside job (The Insider, The Insider is really about the tobacco companies purposefully tainting their own cigarettes, and a few Sunday’s ago when I went to my father church on a Sunday night, they really did taint my cigarettes with dope, or something else that made me violently sick, I had to throw them away, probably, to annihilate Native Americans, extinguish Native Americans from both the United States and Canada, or it wouldn’t have been made into a movie), and a lot, if not enough, people, put it in code in the movie, TO FIND THE TRUTH, THROUGH CHERITH GJESTLAND.

THE CONTAINER STORE, WINS, AND GETS TO WIN.

Joe, at The Container Store, before the store opened…there was a lunch.  The store bought lunch for everyone from Wright’s, true story, we sat on the floor, on the sales floor, there wasn’t a lot of merchandise, yet in the store, I sat next to Joe (a black American man, who “supposedly” worked for TSA) and I told him that day, we were going to be friends.  This Joe is probably a black man who has helped intelligence of some sort at The Lighthouse, my father works with.

Then, Joe showed up to work with his wife, who was a blonde heavy-set woman.  A woman, a blond woman I will never approve of, tried to attach herself to this other real black man – because I said, he and I were going to be friends.

WHITE MEAT ONLY.

She is still around, and she CANNOT WORK.  WINSTON CHURCHILL, CANNOT WORK.

The airbag never deployed in my car crash in 2013.  It would have been purposefully deactivated at the job interview I went on that day.  At that location, the job interview location, they would have deactivated the airbag.

It means, Roy is responsible when he stayed in this house, to make copies of all my keys.

It’s a business arrangement.  You want to try and tell me, Harry’s wife, a woman he married, is more interested in being seen at a gas station, at a Wa-Wa gas station on a Sunday afternoon, than bettering the lives of British citizen’s?

Really?

Who and who’s really the people afraid that they will have to confess that these news stories, are not real and they will have to start real work, instead of fake and phony news, and let me live my life?!

Who’s really the one afraid of me living a real life?       

It’s not Hannibal.  It’s not David.  It’s not this FBI man.  It’s not this other FBI man.

Who’s really afraid of it?

You can’t control the filming of it either.

NO, CHERITH, DOESN’T HAVE TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH HANNIBAL LECTER UNLESS SHE WANTS TO.  THAT BLACK MAN IS GOING TO DIE.

IF HANNIBAL WANTS TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH ME, HE HAS TO WORK FOR IT AND EARN IT.  IF HE DOESN’T.  HE DOESN’T.

NO, YOU DON’T GET TO BLACK CONTROL THINGS AROUND HERE, OR IN THE WORLD!  I’LL LET THEM KILL YOU!  AND, IF THEY DON’T?!  I’LL KILL YOU!

THE CONTAINER STORE WINS.

LEAVE ‘EM ON!

                                                                                                                                      

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February 1, 2020

Yes, you have at least one law enforcement, police officer, or former law enforcement officer who has a dangerous obsession with me, my person, my body, including my family.  That goes with using me, for my mind when they, cannot.

You’ve allowed a former law enforcement officer and personnel DEMOTE me at my employment in 2014 from being intelligence’s number one person, their numero uno, their Alpha, their go-to-girl, to catch some of the worst people on the planet, the most wanted terrorists, to being, an undercover cop.  And, the very reason the undercover detectives in Point Break are mentioned – is A WARNING – FOR YOUR PROTECTION.

YOU BREAK IT, YOU BREAK ME?!  YOU BOUGHT IT!

LEAVE THE CUFFS ON!

Neither this FBI man nor I had nothing to do with undercover work or any police work in California 1989.  Point Break the movie, has to do with Cherith, and teaching, among others, how to capture and kill terrorists.  I’ve been doing it longer.  I didn’t just get out of training.  Your training is over solider (Bourne movies), now you get to be trained by Cherith.

You want it or not?

You either want to catch or kill these motherfuckers, or you do not.  I already know I am better at it than anyone else, I’ve seen.

You want it or not?!

You caught a drug addict?  You might as well count all the sand particles on the beach for the way your using my mind.

Militia vs. Intelligence?  Intelligence is going to win, if they must kill you to prove it to you.

I am also, getting a lot of conflicting information around here.  IT’S A PROBLEM.  It’s nothing more than a FUCK ABOUT, person, mentality, and way to try – working.

 LEAVE THE CUFFS ON!

I AM GOING TO LET THEM TAKE OVER THE SCENE!

YOU NEED TO ASK YOURSELF IF YOU WANT TO DIE, OR – LET THEM HAVE ME!  IT’S ABOUT THAT SERIOUS!

I want a fireplace, FBI man.

It’s about as serious as needing a witness protection program.

LEAVE THE CUFFS ON!

STIGMA

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February 1, 2020

If this helps at all, let go of the stigma, of abuse, of sexual abuse, or of physical abuse, let go of the stigma that others will see you differently when they know the truth.

It’s a stigma.  It’s pretty significant within society of sexual abuse, and abuse.

Be responsible and take the responsibility of your actions.  If you’ve done nothing wrong, and were abused, that is not your fault, and you do not have to bear the burden of someone else’s actions.

Having to show the world, you hurt and abuse, does not make you ugly.  It takes that spotlight off of you, and places it upon the guilty party and person, in doing so, you’ll feel relief.  Probably for the first time.  Relief.  Whew!  Weight off your shoulders.

However, it is not a task, that is simply done.  It is work to do every day.  And, acknowledging that accepting that, being at peace with, yes, I need to do this work with myself every day, then there may or may not be a day when you forget that it is there, work to do.

At least then, your head won’t hurt so much.

To me, it looks like it is so painful to him, Matt, he is protecting himself, by layering himself within himself, and shielding himself, and trying to sort of hide to avoid the pain, that’s understandable.

It’s just pain.

Turn the spotlight on the abusers for a change.  Show them what they’ve done.

CANCER

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February 1, 2020

These things, a lot of these people, you have me helping like Matt Lucas, are not able to be worked this way.  The only place it worked was at my former employer, and YOU’VE RUINED THAT AND LET THAT GO.

Matt sounds like he is having a difficult time.  I’m sorry for it.  The only place that worked before, for me to work with Matt to help him was at my former employer.  The way to help Matt is like cancer, you attack cancer with chemotherapy, to kill the cancer.  That’s how they get better.

I would need an environment like what was at Amazon, where I got to yell, and talk, and YELL at people if I need to, and show them, their mirror image.  It’s helped too many people, to not be factual.

He needs chemotherapy.  Putting a band-aid on cancer isn’t going to help or cure the cancer.  At best it looks like a fashion accessory.  To kill cancer you need the aggressive, chemotherapy.

And, having people like Meghan Markle being able to make my underwear – WET WITH URINE WHILE I AM EITHER IN OR OUT OF MY HOME, OR ANYONE FOR THAT MATTER, speaks very poorly, for the person responsible for it, and a person, it is only logical, would end an activity when it continues to be a negative experience for them, me.

Hannibal also says, he has an idea for Matt.  Might work.  He’s, Hannibal’s, pretty good at helping people.

If I am the only one, I am at least aware, I am – unemployed.  Yet, everyday is so stressed and stressful, I am exhausted, and still, all these months later, barely functioning.

This is not a functioning work, and workable environment, and situation. 

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February 1, 2020

Why this is something I need to write about is beyond me, concerning my relocation.  And, something says, why am I not being treated to something like a relocation program and a safe house, while these arrangements are being made.

Between California, Oregon, and Washington, it is a three-way tie, as far as I am concerned.  I need to be able to scout the locations for myself, on my own, without, a film crew, in order to make a better assessment.  Again, neither my brother nor father get a say in any of this.  Unlike all the other arrangements like family dinners (2019) and my father and brother going to church with me, and INSTEAD OF AGREEING WITH WHATEVER ARANGEMENTS I MAKE YOU’VE ALLOWED AT LEAST ONE OF THEM TO CHANGE AT LEAST ONE THING, JUST TO BE A FUCK-ABOUT!

I am real close to putting a goddamn boot in someone’s fucking face.

Neither my father, nor my brother, get a say anymore, as a mouthpiece, as an earpiece.  THEY MUST BE MADE TO – STOP!

All states, most likely would be coastal property, rather than as inland as Gresham, Oregon.

I need to be able to get, and I deserve to get truthful answers from my brother and family, like, where is my mother really buried?  Is she buried in Canada, or was that just staged?  Is she really buried in Florida?  I deserve to know the truth, and this filming is ONLY PREVENTING the real truth from being known and not discovered, not the other way around.  NONE OF THIS HAS BEEN TO SHOW THE REAL TRUTH AS IT HAPPENS, OR I WOULD STILL BE EMPLOYED WITH THE EMPLOYER WHO GAVE ME THE JOB IN 2013!

I deserve to know the truth.

Antonio Brown story tells me nothing.  Is brown supposed to be some vague person?  Is it a white person painted black?  Is it MWB?  No, I don’t want him back, I told David so.  It’s in the movie, Point Break, take the cuffs off, LEAVE ‘EM ON, TAKE THE CUFFS OFF, LEAVE ‘EM ON!

That’s military shouting, in that dialogue, that is yet again, another military man, losing his goddamn fucking mind with the handling of me.

TAKE YOU HANDS OFF ME RIGHT NOW, that’s me.  That’s a pretty accurate read of me, and a real man I dealt with. Before my transfer order.

It reads, LEAVE THE CUFFS ON MICHAEL WAYNE BROWN!

I told you they want to take over the scene.  Especially, if you mishandle me, like California, 1989, in anyway.  And, I’ll let them.

I understand the importance of our United States military, even if penis-envy-fucking cops – DON’T!

Um, I will go so far as to say, I probably understand the importance of our United States military, probably better, in more complex ways, than most decorated (DECORATED) military men.  I also, understand that, being able to see the purpose, the successful purpose of our United States military, in such a way, as my brain, does – is at times, greater than most battles, and wars.

There are more ways to spend our tax-dollars, than on bullets.  Like, on the people, and that includes military people and personnel!

I also, told you I was made to have sex with Michael as a way of protecting my family from being killed, and it is in the movie, Point Break with the insurance policy of Rosie.  Someone make sure these – keystone cops – don’t get to do this to me, again.

I chose Hannibal Lecter to be my Boyfriend because I broke up with him for sleeping with another woman, that does not mean, anything other than, I have a standard, I EXPECT AND DEMAND ALL MEN, WHETHER I AM ROMANITCALLY INVOLVED WITH THEM OR NOT, AND I WILL NOT WAVER!

LEAVE ‘EM ON!

The last time I chose a man was David, and John Moyle, except neither of them, chose me in return.

The FBI teaching this FBI man, my transfer order to learn to surf, is about capturing terrorists.  Not crimes, and serial killers.  In the movie, Point Break it is about capturing and killing terrorists.

And, t he only reason they go to Australia to surf means, a theory at least one man had because OBVIOUSLY, I appeared sophisticated enough to ACTUALLY know things like, prison code, prison movements, prison life, and con-men, IT IS NOT FOR MWB, if the only reason you placed me in a sexual relationship – THAT I HAD NO CHOICE IN – just to get information about how I knew and know the things I know…?!

Just jump in the paddy-wagon, right now, and put the CUFFS on!  You’ve never seen anything like me before, and you’ll never see anything as brilliant as me – again!

Admit it!

The shrimp and fries in Point Break, shrimp?  I’m short, not that difficult.  Five feet, two inches tall, I am not a tall girl.  And, fries?  MWB, fried my brain.  He ruined the most sophisticated piece of equipment; the world has ever known.  And, at the time, for utilizing a brain such as mine, is to OBTAIN IT, AT A YOUNG AGE, LIKE IN MY TWENTIES.

And, you have a lesbian actress playing the love interest with the FBI man, in Point Break only because his ex-partner was a lesbian, and I told you she reads, or read, as straight, sexually confused because she wanted to be like me.

I’ve written this so many times.  Stop confusing actors with the real people.  She lied to him, its in the goddamn movie, in what year?  1991?  1992?

Who’s the dumb fuck who wants to let criminals, go without having to go to jail because their gays or lesbians?!  Special rules apply to gays or lesbians?  I don’t think so.

You sexually confused people, need to get off my body, out of MY GODDAMN NEIGHBORHOOD, OUT OF MY GOODMAN LIFE OR – YOU WON’T MAKE IT OUT ALIVE!

FBI man, you ever go to work with a partner again, you better make sure they are as straight as they come.  You and the agency might not make it.

STOP CONFUSING MY REAL LIFE, MY REAL PERSON, WITH STUPID CELEBRITIES!

I have about had it with movies, film, celebrities, and Hollywood people!

She lied to him!  It’s in the goddamn movie.  She, his ex-partner, not him, not me, she lied to him, IT ‘AINT A GODDAMN SECRET!

SO, WHEN I SCREAM – BIN!  ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR FUCKING MIND?!  IT’S IN A GODDAMN MOVIE AS FAR BACK AS THE EARLY NINETIES THAT SHE, HIS EX-PARTNER, LIED TO HIM!

FUCK THE FUCK OFF!

Just his type in the movie, Silence of The Lambs, does not mean I am Hannibal’s type, although he might disagree, it also means, my transfer order, is just my type, and the list goes on and on.

It mostly means, they also, could not quite understand his attraction to me, well…you fuckers don’t know a goddamn thing about brain research.

He’s probably wanted – help.  Like I am the only person in the world who could make sense of his brain, and he NEEDS that – me.

I am so disgusted at what you people have done to Hannibal like he is not a real person, nor am I, just a thing – to be toyed with.  When brain research is some of the most, unusual, sophisticated, unresearched, and difficult to comprehend, then – conditioning, like training a DOG!

Military?  You want to take over this scene, here?

I’ll let you!