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August 31, 2019

I have approached this day with trepidation.  Now, I know why, something is wrong.  What have you people done?  What have you allowed?  Something is wrong.

If you haven’t figured it out, I am unhappy because my life if not real.  I am ceasing my writing until further notice.

August 30, 2019

What I walked into on August 27, 2019 was a multi-scale war.  Louis is not a good man.  He still reads bad; you should be worried.  I am no longer working, so I have no reason to rehabilitate him, or solve, or fix the problems that have already started.  Louis has yet to make it into my military.  Multi-scale war.  That is what I saw.  Make sure he does not escape.

They would have me believe he is responsible for my mother’s death, and my surgery.  If this is true I have yet to see anything that would appease the other side for this loss, yet.  I have already told you what they will do, and Louis is worried.

They wanted a body, in a body bag with the kill of Osama Bin Laden, that is why they sent that team in.  I would have wanted to drop a bomb just like in the movie, Zero Dark Thirty.  With all your dip, gear, and bull-shit, code: dip, smokeless tobacco, Bubba Gump, this would have been a real military man that I would not have approved of, it does not mean it is from the same time of my military work.  Gear, code: drugs, I do not approve of drug use, this is probably also other military men while on active duty using narcotics.  Bull-shit, code: lying, meaning not telling the truth about work they were doing.  These are things I don’t tolerate, if they don’t make it, they don’t make it.

My boyfriend in all the work he has done, has always done a verification check with me when we were working.  He knows the truth of it.

It should be of great concern that I am not living a real, normal life.  How many men are going to be brought to me that we will be good matches for each other and I never get to be seen with them in the flesh?  To never marry for real?

It should be of great concern.  When do I get to be a real person?  When do I get my life back?

August 29, 2019

I am miserable.  I don’t want to eat.  I am finding it difficult to drink, anything at the moment, including coffee.  I am only writing at the moment because it looks like from Louis point of view, this, being with me, listening to me, is helping him.  Well, isn’t that a good thing?  That’s the way I see it.

I have no idea why you fired me for no reason and no cause.  Just like you did when I worked at Hilton.  I have been saying this over and over, and writing it, that it is a problem in the world for Hilton to be seen as having fired me, the threat is not from me, it is from others.  I have, more than once, told people to make a deal, so that Hilton will not be seen as responsible anymore.

He needs to realize how helpless he is, from Zero Dark Thirty, reads: intelligence, US intelligence needs to realize not how helpless, but how helpful I am to them because I am the way that has ended wars and regimes, and I actually help because it is the correct thing to do.

It is really disturbing to me just looking at my manager, she literally creeps me out.  Especially when she does hand moves over her crotch.  Gross.  I go to stand up, I listen, so why do you and everyone else threaten and punish me for good work?

You read it wrong, Louis is not interested in the affair I had with Harry.  It is of no interest to him.  The fear was what Louis needed from me to see he needs to change his ways.  He needs to find his well of truth within him, so he gets better.  He does want to live, so that makes him smarter than everyone else has made him appear to be.

I am not going to follow Louis as a leader, and that is how it was set-up.  Well, that’s not good enough.  So, why fire me?

This other Englishman does not wish or want to be involved with me, a straight woman, and a lesbian.  I have no idea why you’ve allowed him to be involved as such.

The way they set it up, I was supposed to know by every person painted black from the time of Home Depot on, that my mother was dead.  It also included a death threat to every person who participated in appearing with me.  Most celebrities probably would not have a problem since they could be seen as just doing art-type of work.  I wouldn’t do that to anyone.  I am not interested in making death threats because someone else killed my mother.

It does appear that Brianna has a crush on James Franco.  It should have been as a red flag if Brianna wanted to be seen as my manager.  It looks unhealthy, very unhealthy.

They removed the classification of my computer because the man responsible or connected to it, looks like he had his privileges revoked because of his actions.

So, at the moment, Amazon terminating me is real until otherwise.

The garage(s) in Umbrellas of Cherbourg are code for military.  The reason Guy quits the garage shows how the French dishonorably discharge their own based on conduct unbecoming.  It’s a good thing for them to show the world they require their men to conduct themselves in their duty as such.  The other garage Guy works at is just to say, another branch of the military.

The moustache on the man that Catherine marries is just to show a double agent, he looks like a Barnaby, from Babes in Toyland, he is in no way a double agent, criminal, or pervert, it is to show how France is not willing to have double agents in their intelligence.  That’s a good thing.

Kind of like Gandalf, in Zero Dark Thirty, means, you shall not pass, meaning terrorists will not be allowed to enter the United States.  It is not about penitent men.

Tall, white beard, from Zero Dark Thirty, probably does mean the woman David was then seeing, and then married?!  I actually find it difficult to believe he married her.  Since, it is obvious he doesn’t love her like that.

This other FBI man just needs to work on creating boundaries in his mind.  If David ever worked with him, it is probably why David also needs to work on creating boundaries in his mind.

If anyone is uncomfortable around David or myself, it just says, I and he, are stronger people than they are.  They’re all cowed, from Zero Dark Thirty, that is what cowed means, cowed means unable to work at the level of these very scary men.  Cowed meaning afraid.  I do not believe any strong person should have to carry a weaker person in their work performance.  It is like having to do multiple person’s jobs just because the strongest team possible was not put together.

I think she’s fucking smart, from Zero Dark Thirty because there really was a Jeremy at college with me, means he could not find the words (can’t explain, song lyric) to express my ability and talent.

Protect the homeland, in Zero Dark Thirty, I am the homeland, I am what you protect if you don’t want any more bombings or wars to occur.  That is how it reads; I am the homeland, Cherith is the homeland.

They sent an email about meeting with a person in HR to reinstate me at work.  Well, I am so miserable I went to sleep nearly as soon as I got home and stayed in bed.  I didn’t want anymore bad news.  How was I to know they would do that so quickly?  Immediate termination after being told not to do something once and then not doing it anymore, not going underneath the conveyor belt, truthfully, is very threatening, and not how to protect me.

The reason the legs at Amazon are important, that is how sex happens, that is how procreation happens.  The mayor’s wife in the movie Chocolate is to show the world that having Trinity from the movie, The Matrix, appear as genderless, sexless, androgynous, was being seen as a mistake, since it is not biblical.

No, I am not interested in hugging another woman.

My Fair Lady, the word is Fair, meaning fare, as in the fare my mother took to get from Canada to Los Angeles, California.  It is also, the one thing I couldn’t prove after my mother’s stroke, so that she would receive her Canadian pension.  My mother is seen as Audrey Hepburn in the movie, My Fair Lady, and the ball is to show how well she managed herself working in the field, she fooled a Hungarian.

All I know is my mother was in a car accident in California, in her VW, I do not know anymore information other than that, she didn’t tell anyone about it, her car accident is probably because of Umbrellas.

My mother lived her whole life telling me her gun shot wound was self-inflicted, a suicide attempt.  I no longer believe that story.  She also, kept that secret, all her life.

Am I never to be allowed to have a real life, ever again?  Am I never to get married, and have a life without being recorded?  No real life, ever again?

David do you just love the work?  Only?

If any of these men loved me, they would want this reality show to end, so we could be together, live as man and wife.  Am I never to be loved by a man in the flesh and live with him as his wife?

Making me so miserable and unhappy is not the way to create a true Vatican cameo.

Harry Potter the movie, just looks like it is from the time I was seen by English handlers when I lived in Gresham, Oregon.  Most of the characters look like me.  Hogwarts means, warts, planter’s warts, it just says the swimming pool at Mt. Hood Community College.  Hog means, Dukes of Hazard, and that means American television, and that means when I watched Great Expectations.

If the only reason you brought me into HR to terminate me was to tell me that this FBI man broke the rules and that is why he is seen in Black Hawk Down as being yelled at regarding his safety.  I am at a loss for words over it.

David did you really get back together with an old girlfriend, have sex with her, and then come to me in my bedroom, and then let your girlfriend fire me because you still choose another woman over me, just  like you did in college?  Because you still think you can do better than me?  After you’ve proven to yourself you can’t?

Whoever set that situation up, doesn’t know women at all.  They certainly do not know me at all.  I am really hurt by it, David.  Offended and hurt.

A man’s penis is in his pants.

I have no idea why after Michael, none of you in intelligence weren’t shoving dick in my face.  You should have been having me dating – constantly.  Military men, specifically.  Why did no one think of that?  It is what would have prevented, probably all of the attacks.

I am so hurt by you, again, David.  I don’t believe anyone – in the world – was really seeing it as David’s pants only.  They saw it as men.  Well, that’s where the penis is, in men’s pants.

I am so hurt, so sad, I am at a loss for words.  I don’t want to write anymore.

August 28, 2019

This is the last thing I want to do, to write and tell everyone the truth, and reality, and code, in people, movies, and events; however, I feel it must be done.

The work Boris Johnson did, looks like it is working and will continue to work.  Good job.

Having Tiffany tell me other people are uncomfortable around me, then having me fired, was not wise.

It would have been better to have had my manager immediately replaced rather than terminating me.

Louis is not my leader.  However, it does look as though me taking to him, as I did – worked.  He has been uncontrollable, hasn’t he?  Very uncontrollable.  For how many governments has he been uncontrollable?  Being a mirror to someone is a really useful tool.  Being the mirror, I am, to people is not something just anyone is able to do.

No, Louis is not a big kid, it would be demeaning to have him appear as such.  The diaper wearing and baby references, meaning he looks like a baby, really demeaning as well.  I wouldn’t do that to him.  For the very reason, it serves no purpose whatsoever to have him appear so.

I am sure it would surprise a lot of people that Louis really would like things like Disney, innocence talk like, zoology.  It would surprise people as it did him.  This is good.

Learning about the information I have about Umbrellas of Cherbourg, really helped also.  Did no one else have that information?

Umbrellas of Cherbourg, code: University of California.

Catherine Deneuve, code: DC, Washington DC.

Umbrellas of Cherbourg is intelligently, meaning it is intelligence as a film, it is intelligently way ahead of its time.  By my calculations it is about thirty years, ahead of its time, intelligently.  That is a very powerful sentence that should be heard.  It says that France, intelligently, knew they needed to have a connection to The White House, to the United States, to have as an ally and friendship before the film was made, specifically to stop Socialist regimes from starting or remaining in power.

Genevieve is my mother, she must have met a real Frenchmen, not a Canadian French, a real Frenchmen when she was a teenager, it is the reason she went to California, to Los Angeles because of this Frenchmen, specifically to help him (I am not certain she had such specific details about the military help she was doing) with terrorist cells that were already formed and in place in California, and Los Angeles, specifically.

Je T’aime, je T’aime, this song lyric looks like my mother and this Frenchman talked about having two children when they married.  It is why she always used the name, Cheri (Chair-ah) when introducing me to people. Or talking about me.  It means it never left her, this love.

The opening sequence of Umbrellas are tears for all the dead intelligence persons in the history of France.  It opens with a rooftop scene to suggest this is surveillance, and the umbrellas are used to hide or protect the intelligence persons in their work.  It in no way suggests double agent, or working against its own government, or any of its allies.

The specific colors in Umbrellas just means it is telling the story about that specific period in time, sort of like a time capsule.

The biggest take away is the ending.  They are not supposed to continue staying married to the people they were married to.  Guy and Genevieve are supposed to admit to each other that they still love each other and marry each other.  The fact that they stay married to the people who were available at the time, says they didn’t want to hurt their spouses’ feelings by telling them they were still in love with another.

David, please stop breaking my heart.

Harry and family, I, of course, do not wish or want any harm to come to you and yours.  That sentence should help you.  I just don’t like feeling used for information.  I, as always, am willing to help, it doesn’t have to have a romantic personal connection because affairs, literally hurt my heart.  It is literally painful to me.  I am not sure anyone yet realizes the high moral standard, I actually have within myself.

So, I will remind you there are other people who know differently about me.  The fact that they used airplanes to destroy The World Trade Center, is a phallic symbol, meaning, not to date anyone, why wasn’t I being seen in a relationship, dating men, and getting married.  Because they knew I loved David, and they knew David would have become a Christian, the most famous converted Jew, from Everything is Illuminated.

So, once I have a man who makes me happy, and does really good work for all of mankind, stop trying to take him away from me.  It works when I am in love, not when I am heart-broken.

AUTHORIZED CLEARANCE ACCESS PERSONNEL ONLY!

 

August 26, 2019

WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU PEOPLE BEEN DOING?!  YOU SENT A WOMEN I WORKED WITH TO HAVE A MEET WITH ME, IN MY HOME, ON CINCO DE MAYO, SO WHO THE FUCK SET THIS UP?!  IT’S A SET-UP!  WAS HE WORKING WITH “NICOLE” AS A DOUBLE, OR WAS HE SETTING YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES UP AND YOU DIDN’T KNOW IT?!

KING LOUIS FROM JUNGLE BOOK IS BASED OFF OF HIS FATHER YOU DUMB FUCKING MORONS!  FOR THE WORK HIS FATHER DID, YOU DUMB FUCKS!  IT WAS A DETAIL ABOUT THE SORT OF MEET HIS FATHER AND I HAD, AND NOTHING MORE, A DETAIL THAT MADE THE MOVIE, INTERESTING, NOTHING MORE!

HE WOULD HAVE BEEN MAD AS HELL AT THE STUPID DUMB FUCK OF AN EDISON YOU ALLOWED TO BE USED AS – HIM, LOUIS.  IF THAT’S WHAT ANY OF YOU WERE TRYING TO DO!

IF YOU’VE ALLOWED EDISON TO BE SEEN IN “BLACK PAINT”, AS A BLACK MAN, YOU FUCKING MORONS WOULD HAVE BEEN PLACING – DEATH ON HIM!  LIKE A DEATH THREAT!  SO, THIS MAN WOULD HAVE BEEN DOING MORE CRIMES TRYING TO FIGURE OUR WHY ALL THE HITS WERE HAPPENING!  YOU DUMB IDIOTS!

LOUIS DOES NOT WANT TO BE SEEN AS – DUMB!  IT’S THE LAST THING HE WANTS!  IT IS NOT THE SAME AS A NAPOLEAN COMPLEX.  LOUIS ALSO DOES NOT WANT TO BE INVISIBLE!  THAT’S THE REASON HE DOES THE DUMB SHIT CRIMINAL WORK, HE WANTS TO BE SEEN, KNOWN, IT IS ANOTHER WAY TO SAY HE WANTS HIS LIFE TO MEAN SOMETHING.

LOUIS IS NOT A RACIST.  EDISON IS.  LOUIS, YOU DUMB FUCK, IF YOU’VE KILLED JEWS, IT WOULD SEND THE WRONG MESSAGES TO PEOPLE.  YOU HATE YOUR OWN COUNTRY BECAUSE YOU ACTUALLY LOVE AMERICA, AND THAT AMERICA IS ME!  IF YOU’VE KILLED JEWS IT WOULD TELL PEOPLE, YOU DON’T LIKE ME, THEY WOULD COME AFTER YOU BECAUSE OF IT!

BE CAREFUL, LOUIS, THEY WILL KILL YOUR WHOLE FAMILY, AND MORE, IF IN ANY WAY YOU’VE BEEN RESPONSIBLE FOR MY MOTHER’S DEATH, OR MY SURGERY, THEY’LL KILL YOUR WHOLE FAMILY.  THAT’S NOT A THREAT FROM ME, THAT IN THEIR MINDS.  I WOULD WORK OUT A DEAL, REAL FUCKING QUICK, IF ANY OF THAT IS TRUE!

Louis has mother problems.  His mother wasn’t a moral enough woman, and he’s taken it out on his father.  Sometimes children do not understand the reasons their parents behave or say the things they say.  You just have to forgive them.  Parents are human beings, they are fallible, you just have to forgive them and know they did their best.  His parents love and loved him, so it really is on him.

Louis’, sexual ideal is a 50’s American pin-up girl, not a rock-a-billy, that would be too hooky, too costume-y.  Short, shorts, halter top, or bustier, bare legs, heels, sexy, cute, slightly innocent.  The face and hair would be somewhat different, a little more French contemporary.  It will surprise his wife (wives), they do not look like this.  It is what he wants. 

He would like good old-fashioned, American made, muscle cars.

1950’s diners without the cheeseburger cuisine.

How he’s gotten so messed up, I am not sure.

Too goddamn fucking tired from standing 10 fucking straight hours, not to mention all the heavy lifting, to write anymore!

AUTHORIZED CLEARANCE ACCESS PERSONNEL ONLY!

WARNING!  STOP TAKING AWAY MY GODDAMN FUCKING AUTHORITY WITH THESE MEN, WITH THESE CRIMINALS, WITH THESE WANTED MEN, BY FUCKING MANAGING ME, AND TELLING ME WHAT THE FUCK I CANNOT DO!  IT’S A BIG MISTAKE, AND IT GOT PROVEN TO YOU TODAY WITH – HOW MANY DEAD BODIES?!

 

August 26, 2019

STOP COMING HERE TO MY HOME, TO ME AT MY WORKPLACE, ANY AND ALL GAYS, LESBIANS, AND TRANGENDER’S, STRAIGHT WOMEN, DAVID, FRANCO, HARRY, HARRY’S WIFE (I DON’T REALLY NEED TO KNOW SOMEONE THINKS I AM PATHETIC), ALL MY FBI MEN, MILITARY MEN, CIA MEN, ANY INTELLIGENCE PERSON’S!  WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU PEOPLE BEEN DOING?!  STOP COMING HERE!

EVER SINCE YOU MOVED ME THAT NIGHT FROM FOUR TO TWO WHEN I WAS WORKING THE FBI MAN, EVERYTHING HAS GONE – WRONG!  SO, STOP COMING HERE, ALL OF YOU!

MY BOYFRIEND IS THE ONLY PERSON WHO HAS MY PERMISSION TO BE IN MY BED!

IF HAVEN’T NOTICED, I’M FUCKING PISSED!

STOP FUCKING COMING HERE!

AUTHORIZED CLEARANCE ACCESS PERSONNEL ONLY!

 

August 26, 2019

I HOPE YOU FUCKING REALIZE BY NOW; LOUIS IS A FLIGHT RISK.  I HOPE YOU FUCKING REALIZE IT BY NOW, YOU STUPID FUCKING WOMAN!  YOU LET HIM OUTTHINK YOU!

TELL ME I AM BEING RUDE AT WORK BECAUSE I WAS NOT TALKING AND ANSWERING QUESTIONS, AND TELLING ME I AM RUDE IS THE SAME DUMB-FUCK MENTALITY THAT IF YOU HAVE A CRIMINAL IN AN INTERROGATION ROOM – YOU JUST FUCKING TOLD THEM HOW FUCKING STUPID YOU ARE, AND THEY WILL  OUTTHINK YOU AND DO DUMB SHIT, LIKE THEY DID TODAY, KILLING MORE PEOPLE, JUST TO PROVE TO YOU, THEY ARE SMARTER THAN YOU!

HE TRUTHFULLY, DIDN’T THINK I WOULD BE ABLE TO ALERT YOU, OR TELL YOU AS IT FUCKING HAPPENED!

SHE DOESN’T UNDERSTAND OR COMPREHEND THE CRIMINAL MIND, NOT FROM ANYTHING I’VE SEEN!  STOP SENDING PEOPLE TO TALK TO ME OR MANANGE ME – WHO DON’T HAVE A GODDAMN FUCKING CLUE HOW THE CRIMINAL MIND WORKS AND THINKS!

HE’S A FLIGHT RISK, YOU BETTER LOCK HIS SHIT DOWN AND MAKE SURE THIS MOTHERFUCKER AIN’T GOING ANYWHERE, YOU DUMB-FUCKS!

HE WILL LISTEN TO ME, BUT NOT TO YOU’S!

SHIT, THAT WAS A NICE JEEP, CODE: PEE-J, PJ, PAJAMA’S, ANOTHER WAY TO SAY, WEDDING DRESS!

AUTHORIZED CLEARANCE PERSONNEL ACCESS ONLY!

 

August 24, 2019

I AM GETTING MORE THAN TIRED OF THIS!  CHERITH CAN’T DO THIS, CHERITH CAN’T DO THAT, CHERITH, CAN’T SIT HERE, CHERITH CAN’T STAND THERE!  EVERYDAY AT WORK NOW, IT IS A NEW, CHERITH – CAN’T!

THIS IS A CONSTANT MESSAGE YOU ARE RE-ENFORCING!  CHERITH CAN’T GO THIS WAY, CHERITH CAN’T GO HERE, CHERITH CAN’T DO ANYTHING AT MY EMPLOYMENT!

THEN I WANT ANOTHER FUCKING JOB!

BECAUSE I AM BETTER THAN ANYONE IN THE HISTORY OF THE WORLD!  I KNOW I CAN DO MORE THAN ANY OF YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES THOUGHT WAS POSSIBLE!

CHERITH CAN’T SIT ON THE STEPS!

CHERITH CAN’T STAND ON THE WHAT-THE-FUCK-EVER!

ALL THE WHILE, I HAVE THIS WOMAN, DID SHE GO TO ANYONE ELSE?  NO!  TELLING ME I AM JUST A NUMBER, JUST LIKE A JEW IN A CONCENTRATION CAMP!

EVERYDAY WITH THESE PEOPLE AND THEIR LAPTOPS!

I WANT ANOTHER FUCKING JOB!

DO I LOOK UPSET YOU’RE GOING TO FIRE ME?!  YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES ARE AFRAID I WILL NOT WORK THERE ANYMORE!

REMOVE THESE LESBIANS, AND I MEAN RIGHT FUCKING NOW!

FIRE ME THEN!  GET IT OVER WITH!

DAVID AND I CANNOT BE FRIENDS ANYMORE!  WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU THINKING?!  HOW VERY INCONSIDERATE OF ALL OF YOU!

I DO NOT APPRECIATE FEELING USED!

I WILL NO LONGER BE SHAKING HANDS WITH ANYONE IN – PUBLIC!

I HAVE MY FORMER WEIGHT ON MY GODDAMN CAR!  I AM MORE THAN PISSED ABOUT MY FUCKING WEIGHT – STILL!  I AM HOLDING ALL OF YOU RESPONSIBLE FOR IT!

AUTHORIZED CLEARANCE ACCESS PERSONNEL ONLY!

 

August 23, 2019

Um, yeah, former President Obama cannot be re-elected to The White House as he has already served the maximum term limit.  I didn’t need a teacher or a lesson to know, he was the President to look for, to vote for, the President who was going to make it to the election, and the one who would be President.  It means that people didn’t start listening to my political strategies until the 2000’s.  It would have been more helpful to the United States citizen’s had people been listening as soon as I turned 18.  This is what is mentioned in Zero Dark Thirty, I painstakingly combed through, and found this guy, and she responds, I wish I had seen this earlier.  It’s not a terrorist, it’s me, listening to me, and, um, I gave advise on how to play the homes, from Sherlock.

John reads: Jo, or Joelle, my middle name, they probably including my maternal grandmother in there as she was given a fatal stroke soon after I told people how to stop brain research.

Wick reads: Warner Brother’s studio, meaning you had a studio problem, not just with Warner Brother’s, or specifically Warner Brother’s it says, studio problem going back to the 1990’s.  Am I the only one that got that?  I might be the only one able to do this work then.

The premise of John Wick’s wife dying of cancer, that’s the loss to intelligence work, any spousal deaths, this refers to intelligence including the most secretive or unknown organizations, then, they steal his car, that is my first car that was repossessed a red Honda Civic, obviously a big mistake as they have not allowed that to happen again, and then killing his dog, this is not me, this is a penitent man that would have been working with agencies.  And, for edification, not every man that is locked away in prison for committing a crime, is actually a criminal.  If a man is working as a cover, meaning they are working for a government agency like the CIA, and they have a cover life, and they get caught committing a crime, they might not have their government agency like the CIA to just bail them out, they might have to serve their prison sentence to keep their cover and their cover life.  Sometimes these people do have to break the law to do their job.  Don’t confuse authorized work with law abiding citizen.

Did you think I wanted this man removed?  You’re dumb.  I’ll have my fucking English any goddamn day of the week I want!  Don’t confuse one English man with another.

Who is this fucking moron who has no comprehension whatsoever that the United States and Great Britain working together only makes the two countries stronger?!  This is so fucking basic to me; it makes me crazy how idiotic this thinking is!  As if we remove ourselves from other countries and stand alone that is the only way to show America is strong.  IT’S FUCKING DUMB!

The reason the man repels through the window in The Bourne Identity, has a fight with Bourne, then gets up jumps out a window and walks away, they are the same person, they are both me.  The repelling through the window is me getting my bank loan approval for my Honda Civic, I just had to make it there.  I sat in an office while a woman was on the phone, most likely to a man she would not have figured out had an accent.  That is how I got my loan approval.

Michael had taken my credit cards and put them to their limit, so I couldn’t, at the time, pay for the car, my rent, groceries, and my credit cards.  It’s a decade lost just because my car was repossessed.

If Peter, had been watching violent movies, or played games where he killed people, this is not necessarily a warning sign.  He could have liked them for a lot of reasons, and he looks like he has been trying to figure out how to really feel.   He needs to work with me more, and I don’t necessarily think he needs me to make him laugh, not every person is the same, please stop confusing things by thinking you know what to do.  When I am constantly telling you, how you’ve messed up.

This poor man, this high school shooter, it must be difficult for people to comprehend how I could have compassion for him; however, he was targeted.  This man, how old is he?  He was sent to prison as a virgin.  What a terrible thing to do to a man, deny him sex, so he will never be able to understand love.  It’s revolting to me.

Are his parents able to touch him?  It would be nice if his parents could give him kisses on his forehead, if not from them, from me.  It’s a terrible thing to do to another human being.

These men don’t make penitent, or to my military UNTIL I FUCKING SAY SO!  I won’t be like you, like any of you, I know when they are able to make it.

The last scene in Sherlock, must not rule, the scene plays for the audience that Sherlock is snarky with Irene Adler because he is the great Sherlock Holmes and he is getting the bad guy, Irene Adler, this is not true, for the audience Sherlock Holmes gets the bad idea inside Irene Adler’s head, but Sherlock loves her, or is not mean to her, he is not meant to be seen as mean to her, like a cover.

Must not rule, rule, code: UR, El, the el train in Chicago, this is me just before, a month or so before I started back to college.   It is me, they can’t resist, the white rabbit, they can’t resist following, for my military BRAIN!

I am Sherlocked, I am her, this is just to get me to remember the phone call I received on September 11^th, 2001, and I am telling you, they DID NOT WANT TO ATTACK AMERICA!  They wanted to show America, and the world HOW IMPORTANT I AM TO THEM!   Big difference.

Are you expecting me to beg?  This is a confession in a police station or a detention center, not a specific person.

Sorry about dinner, this is not one dinner or one meal, and this is most definitely personal, this is all the meals I have been surveilled and watched from since, probably just from Florida, and sorry, is about my mother.

The word is sentiment.  Sentiment is meant to throw people off, the sentiment in the scene is not the truth of the matter.  Mexican vanilla.  My mother was Maya, Zero Dark Thirty before people thought it was possible for a woman, The Rescuers, could do this sort of work.

I miss my mother every day.

No one has any idea how much work I did when I brought my mother back from a stroke, and how unbelievably hard that work was to stay alive and care for her as well.

If this is true dialogue in the movie, Thunder Heart, chubby kid, this is not me, this is the movie, Stand by Me, and Jerry O’Connell’s character.  If this is true, this is because – I believe – River Phoenix was murdered and did not just die from an overdose.

And, yeah, peeing and pooping, or nearly any public bathroom scene in a movie, this is a place intelligence people use to spot people as the leave the restroom, no same sex marriages.

This is very time consuming, writing this out every day is very, very time consuming.  This needs to be taken into consideration at my work.

The last thing I want to do is another report or dissertation on another movie, no offense, it’s just this is the same thing all over again, here it is Friday and it feels like my first day off.  This work is exhausting, I actually live it.