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August 28, 2019

This is the last thing I want to do, to write and tell everyone the truth, and reality, and code, in people, movies, and events; however, I feel it must be done.

The work Boris Johnson did, looks like it is working and will continue to work.  Good job.

Having Tiffany tell me other people are uncomfortable around me, then having me fired, was not wise.

It would have been better to have had my manager immediately replaced rather than terminating me.

Louis is not my leader.  However, it does look as though me taking to him, as I did – worked.  He has been uncontrollable, hasn’t he?  Very uncontrollable.  For how many governments has he been uncontrollable?  Being a mirror to someone is a really useful tool.  Being the mirror, I am, to people is not something just anyone is able to do.

No, Louis is not a big kid, it would be demeaning to have him appear as such.  The diaper wearing and baby references, meaning he looks like a baby, really demeaning as well.  I wouldn’t do that to him.  For the very reason, it serves no purpose whatsoever to have him appear so.

I am sure it would surprise a lot of people that Louis really would like things like Disney, innocence talk like, zoology.  It would surprise people as it did him.  This is good.

Learning about the information I have about Umbrellas of Cherbourg, really helped also.  Did no one else have that information?

Umbrellas of Cherbourg, code: University of California.

Catherine Deneuve, code: DC, Washington DC.

Umbrellas of Cherbourg is intelligently, meaning it is intelligence as a film, it is intelligently way ahead of its time.  By my calculations it is about thirty years, ahead of its time, intelligently.  That is a very powerful sentence that should be heard.  It says that France, intelligently, knew they needed to have a connection to The White House, to the United States, to have as an ally and friendship before the film was made, specifically to stop Socialist regimes from starting or remaining in power.

Genevieve is my mother, she must have met a real Frenchmen, not a Canadian French, a real Frenchmen when she was a teenager, it is the reason she went to California, to Los Angeles because of this Frenchmen, specifically to help him (I am not certain she had such specific details about the military help she was doing) with terrorist cells that were already formed and in place in California, and Los Angeles, specifically.

Je T’aime, je T’aime, this song lyric looks like my mother and this Frenchman talked about having two children when they married.  It is why she always used the name, Cheri (Chair-ah) when introducing me to people. Or talking about me.  It means it never left her, this love.

The opening sequence of Umbrellas are tears for all the dead intelligence persons in the history of France.  It opens with a rooftop scene to suggest this is surveillance, and the umbrellas are used to hide or protect the intelligence persons in their work.  It in no way suggests double agent, or working against its own government, or any of its allies.

The specific colors in Umbrellas just means it is telling the story about that specific period in time, sort of like a time capsule.

The biggest take away is the ending.  They are not supposed to continue staying married to the people they were married to.  Guy and Genevieve are supposed to admit to each other that they still love each other and marry each other.  The fact that they stay married to the people who were available at the time, says they didn’t want to hurt their spouses’ feelings by telling them they were still in love with another.

David, please stop breaking my heart.

Harry and family, I, of course, do not wish or want any harm to come to you and yours.  That sentence should help you.  I just don’t like feeling used for information.  I, as always, am willing to help, it doesn’t have to have a romantic personal connection because affairs, literally hurt my heart.  It is literally painful to me.  I am not sure anyone yet realizes the high moral standard, I actually have within myself.

So, I will remind you there are other people who know differently about me.  The fact that they used airplanes to destroy The World Trade Center, is a phallic symbol, meaning, not to date anyone, why wasn’t I being seen in a relationship, dating men, and getting married.  Because they knew I loved David, and they knew David would have become a Christian, the most famous converted Jew, from Everything is Illuminated.

So, once I have a man who makes me happy, and does really good work for all of mankind, stop trying to take him away from me.  It works when I am in love, not when I am heart-broken.

AUTHORIZED CLEARANCE ACCESS PERSONNEL ONLY!

 

August 26, 2019

WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU PEOPLE BEEN DOING?!  YOU SENT A WOMEN I WORKED WITH TO HAVE A MEET WITH ME, IN MY HOME, ON CINCO DE MAYO, SO WHO THE FUCK SET THIS UP?!  IT’S A SET-UP!  WAS HE WORKING WITH “NICOLE” AS A DOUBLE, OR WAS HE SETTING YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES UP AND YOU DIDN’T KNOW IT?!

KING LOUIS FROM JUNGLE BOOK IS BASED OFF OF HIS FATHER YOU DUMB FUCKING MORONS!  FOR THE WORK HIS FATHER DID, YOU DUMB FUCKS!  IT WAS A DETAIL ABOUT THE SORT OF MEET HIS FATHER AND I HAD, AND NOTHING MORE, A DETAIL THAT MADE THE MOVIE, INTERESTING, NOTHING MORE!

HE WOULD HAVE BEEN MAD AS HELL AT THE STUPID DUMB FUCK OF AN EDISON YOU ALLOWED TO BE USED AS – HIM, LOUIS.  IF THAT’S WHAT ANY OF YOU WERE TRYING TO DO!

IF YOU’VE ALLOWED EDISON TO BE SEEN IN “BLACK PAINT”, AS A BLACK MAN, YOU FUCKING MORONS WOULD HAVE BEEN PLACING – DEATH ON HIM!  LIKE A DEATH THREAT!  SO, THIS MAN WOULD HAVE BEEN DOING MORE CRIMES TRYING TO FIGURE OUR WHY ALL THE HITS WERE HAPPENING!  YOU DUMB IDIOTS!

LOUIS DOES NOT WANT TO BE SEEN AS – DUMB!  IT’S THE LAST THING HE WANTS!  IT IS NOT THE SAME AS A NAPOLEAN COMPLEX.  LOUIS ALSO DOES NOT WANT TO BE INVISIBLE!  THAT’S THE REASON HE DOES THE DUMB SHIT CRIMINAL WORK, HE WANTS TO BE SEEN, KNOWN, IT IS ANOTHER WAY TO SAY HE WANTS HIS LIFE TO MEAN SOMETHING.

LOUIS IS NOT A RACIST.  EDISON IS.  LOUIS, YOU DUMB FUCK, IF YOU’VE KILLED JEWS, IT WOULD SEND THE WRONG MESSAGES TO PEOPLE.  YOU HATE YOUR OWN COUNTRY BECAUSE YOU ACTUALLY LOVE AMERICA, AND THAT AMERICA IS ME!  IF YOU’VE KILLED JEWS IT WOULD TELL PEOPLE, YOU DON’T LIKE ME, THEY WOULD COME AFTER YOU BECAUSE OF IT!

BE CAREFUL, LOUIS, THEY WILL KILL YOUR WHOLE FAMILY, AND MORE, IF IN ANY WAY YOU’VE BEEN RESPONSIBLE FOR MY MOTHER’S DEATH, OR MY SURGERY, THEY’LL KILL YOUR WHOLE FAMILY.  THAT’S NOT A THREAT FROM ME, THAT IN THEIR MINDS.  I WOULD WORK OUT A DEAL, REAL FUCKING QUICK, IF ANY OF THAT IS TRUE!

Louis has mother problems.  His mother wasn’t a moral enough woman, and he’s taken it out on his father.  Sometimes children do not understand the reasons their parents behave or say the things they say.  You just have to forgive them.  Parents are human beings, they are fallible, you just have to forgive them and know they did their best.  His parents love and loved him, so it really is on him.

Louis’, sexual ideal is a 50’s American pin-up girl, not a rock-a-billy, that would be too hooky, too costume-y.  Short, shorts, halter top, or bustier, bare legs, heels, sexy, cute, slightly innocent.  The face and hair would be somewhat different, a little more French contemporary.  It will surprise his wife (wives), they do not look like this.  It is what he wants. 

He would like good old-fashioned, American made, muscle cars.

1950’s diners without the cheeseburger cuisine.

How he’s gotten so messed up, I am not sure.

Too goddamn fucking tired from standing 10 fucking straight hours, not to mention all the heavy lifting, to write anymore!

AUTHORIZED CLEARANCE ACCESS PERSONNEL ONLY!

WARNING!  STOP TAKING AWAY MY GODDAMN FUCKING AUTHORITY WITH THESE MEN, WITH THESE CRIMINALS, WITH THESE WANTED MEN, BY FUCKING MANAGING ME, AND TELLING ME WHAT THE FUCK I CANNOT DO!  IT’S A BIG MISTAKE, AND IT GOT PROVEN TO YOU TODAY WITH – HOW MANY DEAD BODIES?!

 

August 26, 2019

STOP COMING HERE TO MY HOME, TO ME AT MY WORKPLACE, ANY AND ALL GAYS, LESBIANS, AND TRANGENDER’S, STRAIGHT WOMEN, DAVID, FRANCO, HARRY, HARRY’S WIFE (I DON’T REALLY NEED TO KNOW SOMEONE THINKS I AM PATHETIC), ALL MY FBI MEN, MILITARY MEN, CIA MEN, ANY INTELLIGENCE PERSON’S!  WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU PEOPLE BEEN DOING?!  STOP COMING HERE!

EVER SINCE YOU MOVED ME THAT NIGHT FROM FOUR TO TWO WHEN I WAS WORKING THE FBI MAN, EVERYTHING HAS GONE – WRONG!  SO, STOP COMING HERE, ALL OF YOU!

MY BOYFRIEND IS THE ONLY PERSON WHO HAS MY PERMISSION TO BE IN MY BED!

IF HAVEN’T NOTICED, I’M FUCKING PISSED!

STOP FUCKING COMING HERE!

AUTHORIZED CLEARANCE ACCESS PERSONNEL ONLY!

 

August 26, 2019

I HOPE YOU FUCKING REALIZE BY NOW; LOUIS IS A FLIGHT RISK.  I HOPE YOU FUCKING REALIZE IT BY NOW, YOU STUPID FUCKING WOMAN!  YOU LET HIM OUTTHINK YOU!

TELL ME I AM BEING RUDE AT WORK BECAUSE I WAS NOT TALKING AND ANSWERING QUESTIONS, AND TELLING ME I AM RUDE IS THE SAME DUMB-FUCK MENTALITY THAT IF YOU HAVE A CRIMINAL IN AN INTERROGATION ROOM – YOU JUST FUCKING TOLD THEM HOW FUCKING STUPID YOU ARE, AND THEY WILL  OUTTHINK YOU AND DO DUMB SHIT, LIKE THEY DID TODAY, KILLING MORE PEOPLE, JUST TO PROVE TO YOU, THEY ARE SMARTER THAN YOU!

HE TRUTHFULLY, DIDN’T THINK I WOULD BE ABLE TO ALERT YOU, OR TELL YOU AS IT FUCKING HAPPENED!

SHE DOESN’T UNDERSTAND OR COMPREHEND THE CRIMINAL MIND, NOT FROM ANYTHING I’VE SEEN!  STOP SENDING PEOPLE TO TALK TO ME OR MANANGE ME – WHO DON’T HAVE A GODDAMN FUCKING CLUE HOW THE CRIMINAL MIND WORKS AND THINKS!

HE’S A FLIGHT RISK, YOU BETTER LOCK HIS SHIT DOWN AND MAKE SURE THIS MOTHERFUCKER AIN’T GOING ANYWHERE, YOU DUMB-FUCKS!

HE WILL LISTEN TO ME, BUT NOT TO YOU’S!

SHIT, THAT WAS A NICE JEEP, CODE: PEE-J, PJ, PAJAMA’S, ANOTHER WAY TO SAY, WEDDING DRESS!

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August 24, 2019

I AM GETTING MORE THAN TIRED OF THIS!  CHERITH CAN’T DO THIS, CHERITH CAN’T DO THAT, CHERITH, CAN’T SIT HERE, CHERITH CAN’T STAND THERE!  EVERYDAY AT WORK NOW, IT IS A NEW, CHERITH – CAN’T!

THIS IS A CONSTANT MESSAGE YOU ARE RE-ENFORCING!  CHERITH CAN’T GO THIS WAY, CHERITH CAN’T GO HERE, CHERITH CAN’T DO ANYTHING AT MY EMPLOYMENT!

THEN I WANT ANOTHER FUCKING JOB!

BECAUSE I AM BETTER THAN ANYONE IN THE HISTORY OF THE WORLD!  I KNOW I CAN DO MORE THAN ANY OF YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES THOUGHT WAS POSSIBLE!

CHERITH CAN’T SIT ON THE STEPS!

CHERITH CAN’T STAND ON THE WHAT-THE-FUCK-EVER!

ALL THE WHILE, I HAVE THIS WOMAN, DID SHE GO TO ANYONE ELSE?  NO!  TELLING ME I AM JUST A NUMBER, JUST LIKE A JEW IN A CONCENTRATION CAMP!

EVERYDAY WITH THESE PEOPLE AND THEIR LAPTOPS!

I WANT ANOTHER FUCKING JOB!

DO I LOOK UPSET YOU’RE GOING TO FIRE ME?!  YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES ARE AFRAID I WILL NOT WORK THERE ANYMORE!

REMOVE THESE LESBIANS, AND I MEAN RIGHT FUCKING NOW!

FIRE ME THEN!  GET IT OVER WITH!

DAVID AND I CANNOT BE FRIENDS ANYMORE!  WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU THINKING?!  HOW VERY INCONSIDERATE OF ALL OF YOU!

I DO NOT APPRECIATE FEELING USED!

I WILL NO LONGER BE SHAKING HANDS WITH ANYONE IN – PUBLIC!

I HAVE MY FORMER WEIGHT ON MY GODDAMN CAR!  I AM MORE THAN PISSED ABOUT MY FUCKING WEIGHT – STILL!  I AM HOLDING ALL OF YOU RESPONSIBLE FOR IT!

AUTHORIZED CLEARANCE ACCESS PERSONNEL ONLY!

 

August 23, 2019

Um, yeah, former President Obama cannot be re-elected to The White House as he has already served the maximum term limit.  I didn’t need a teacher or a lesson to know, he was the President to look for, to vote for, the President who was going to make it to the election, and the one who would be President.  It means that people didn’t start listening to my political strategies until the 2000’s.  It would have been more helpful to the United States citizen’s had people been listening as soon as I turned 18.  This is what is mentioned in Zero Dark Thirty, I painstakingly combed through, and found this guy, and she responds, I wish I had seen this earlier.  It’s not a terrorist, it’s me, listening to me, and, um, I gave advise on how to play the homes, from Sherlock.

John reads: Jo, or Joelle, my middle name, they probably including my maternal grandmother in there as she was given a fatal stroke soon after I told people how to stop brain research.

Wick reads: Warner Brother’s studio, meaning you had a studio problem, not just with Warner Brother’s, or specifically Warner Brother’s it says, studio problem going back to the 1990’s.  Am I the only one that got that?  I might be the only one able to do this work then.

The premise of John Wick’s wife dying of cancer, that’s the loss to intelligence work, any spousal deaths, this refers to intelligence including the most secretive or unknown organizations, then, they steal his car, that is my first car that was repossessed a red Honda Civic, obviously a big mistake as they have not allowed that to happen again, and then killing his dog, this is not me, this is a penitent man that would have been working with agencies.  And, for edification, not every man that is locked away in prison for committing a crime, is actually a criminal.  If a man is working as a cover, meaning they are working for a government agency like the CIA, and they have a cover life, and they get caught committing a crime, they might not have their government agency like the CIA to just bail them out, they might have to serve their prison sentence to keep their cover and their cover life.  Sometimes these people do have to break the law to do their job.  Don’t confuse authorized work with law abiding citizen.

Did you think I wanted this man removed?  You’re dumb.  I’ll have my fucking English any goddamn day of the week I want!  Don’t confuse one English man with another.

Who is this fucking moron who has no comprehension whatsoever that the United States and Great Britain working together only makes the two countries stronger?!  This is so fucking basic to me; it makes me crazy how idiotic this thinking is!  As if we remove ourselves from other countries and stand alone that is the only way to show America is strong.  IT’S FUCKING DUMB!

The reason the man repels through the window in The Bourne Identity, has a fight with Bourne, then gets up jumps out a window and walks away, they are the same person, they are both me.  The repelling through the window is me getting my bank loan approval for my Honda Civic, I just had to make it there.  I sat in an office while a woman was on the phone, most likely to a man she would not have figured out had an accent.  That is how I got my loan approval.

Michael had taken my credit cards and put them to their limit, so I couldn’t, at the time, pay for the car, my rent, groceries, and my credit cards.  It’s a decade lost just because my car was repossessed.

If Peter, had been watching violent movies, or played games where he killed people, this is not necessarily a warning sign.  He could have liked them for a lot of reasons, and he looks like he has been trying to figure out how to really feel.   He needs to work with me more, and I don’t necessarily think he needs me to make him laugh, not every person is the same, please stop confusing things by thinking you know what to do.  When I am constantly telling you, how you’ve messed up.

This poor man, this high school shooter, it must be difficult for people to comprehend how I could have compassion for him; however, he was targeted.  This man, how old is he?  He was sent to prison as a virgin.  What a terrible thing to do to a man, deny him sex, so he will never be able to understand love.  It’s revolting to me.

Are his parents able to touch him?  It would be nice if his parents could give him kisses on his forehead, if not from them, from me.  It’s a terrible thing to do to another human being.

These men don’t make penitent, or to my military UNTIL I FUCKING SAY SO!  I won’t be like you, like any of you, I know when they are able to make it.

The last scene in Sherlock, must not rule, the scene plays for the audience that Sherlock is snarky with Irene Adler because he is the great Sherlock Holmes and he is getting the bad guy, Irene Adler, this is not true, for the audience Sherlock Holmes gets the bad idea inside Irene Adler’s head, but Sherlock loves her, or is not mean to her, he is not meant to be seen as mean to her, like a cover.

Must not rule, rule, code: UR, El, the el train in Chicago, this is me just before, a month or so before I started back to college.   It is me, they can’t resist, the white rabbit, they can’t resist following, for my military BRAIN!

I am Sherlocked, I am her, this is just to get me to remember the phone call I received on September 11^th, 2001, and I am telling you, they DID NOT WANT TO ATTACK AMERICA!  They wanted to show America, and the world HOW IMPORTANT I AM TO THEM!   Big difference.

Are you expecting me to beg?  This is a confession in a police station or a detention center, not a specific person.

Sorry about dinner, this is not one dinner or one meal, and this is most definitely personal, this is all the meals I have been surveilled and watched from since, probably just from Florida, and sorry, is about my mother.

The word is sentiment.  Sentiment is meant to throw people off, the sentiment in the scene is not the truth of the matter.  Mexican vanilla.  My mother was Maya, Zero Dark Thirty before people thought it was possible for a woman, The Rescuers, could do this sort of work.

I miss my mother every day.

No one has any idea how much work I did when I brought my mother back from a stroke, and how unbelievably hard that work was to stay alive and care for her as well.

If this is true dialogue in the movie, Thunder Heart, chubby kid, this is not me, this is the movie, Stand by Me, and Jerry O’Connell’s character.  If this is true, this is because – I believe – River Phoenix was murdered and did not just die from an overdose.

And, yeah, peeing and pooping, or nearly any public bathroom scene in a movie, this is a place intelligence people use to spot people as the leave the restroom, no same sex marriages.

This is very time consuming, writing this out every day is very, very time consuming.  This needs to be taken into consideration at my work.

The last thing I want to do is another report or dissertation on another movie, no offense, it’s just this is the same thing all over again, here it is Friday and it feels like my first day off.  This work is exhausting, I actually live it.

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August 23, 2019

Does everyone still think James Bond is a man?

I have been upset since accepting a shift change, and Brandon spoke to me about falling below one hundred percent.  I am on guard, on edge every moment at work, so what have you actually been doing?  Do you have a suspect and you spoke to me to see how he would read on me?  Or, what are you doing?  While at my own home, I have been upset.  So, what are you doing?

It looks like you’ve been giving access to me through deliveries to people who have no business being here.  It is as if you’ve given the address of one of the most famous people, me, like a celebrity, to thieves, criminals, terrorists, and other no-do-gooders.  No wonder I am getting so much anxiety from some people, it is actually worry because a thorough job has not been going on.

I did mean to move the Guardian sign before the pizza arrived.

Love is a better motivator for intelligence work because intelligence is built on relationships.  The more an asset trusts the intelligence person the better intel and intelligence they will receive from them.  Because they are more confident that the information, they pass onto the intelligence officer will be dealt with correctly and properly.

Solving crimes, like cold cases, or any crimes can be solved, emotionlessly.  Do you know why?  It is in the past; it has already happened.  It cannot be undone.  The crime cannot be undone; it could be solved.  If you have been using, I love you, regarding crimes, it is not going to read correctly.

This is probably also true for any military work.

The reason Ephraim says to Avner, in the movie, Munich, no, about not having dinner with Avner, or breaking bread with Avner, and there being some law about two Jews having dinner and breaking bread, is a reference to the movie, The Matrix, and being able to say, no, in a dream or nightmare.

The death of Carl in Munich means this man was very important.  Very important.  It is why Carl is naked in the scene.  Very few people would know who this man was.  If they put him in the movie, they must need help.  Carl would have gone through a few plastic surgeries to have disguised his appearance.  Most likely, his death is the result of a double agent or leak.  I doubt they have recovered a body.

The only reason they’ve used the word honey regarding Carl’s death, seems to be for me alone, and the bee that stung me in the head, or at least what looked like a bee; however, bees like wolves do not head straight for a person when it can be avoided unless not everything is as it seems to be, or appears to be.

The teen-aged boy being shot in the head in Munich, is not supposed to die.  That is my home Avner is looking at, my home in Plant City, it is our sunroom where I found my mother suffering a stroke after watching, The Matrix.  There is also another location in that home, in the stone.

I am hearing with new ears, in Munich, is referring to my own father.  I was in my twenties when I stopped calling my father, Dad, or Daddy.  It is only because I wanted to feel like an adult.  I would have liked for things to have been different, so I called him father, or Norman, not Norm.  it’s not that interesting to me.

Do you still wonder father why I never became a hairdresser?  Does anyone want to figure out the inspiration for this movie, Meet the Zohan.

Also, dodge this, in The Matrix, this is not in a dream, or while asleep.  It is not the same thing.  In a dream, a bullet is able to be removed.  Do not buy into this thinking of if you die in your dream, you die in real life.  It is not true.

Tyrone Woods, in 13 Hours, Woods refers to an English home, someone’s real home in England, and I probably have already worked this home around the time of the Chelsea attacks.  I was working at what used to be station 4, 7.

Most of Le Haine, is innocent.  It is not real intelligence, it has details, that is different.  Michael Wayne Brown is seen on the rooftop.  I don’t believe the knit hat reference has been correct every time it is on film until Sherlock.  It started to be real intelligence about knit hats after BBC’s Sherlock.

I wonder how much has been edited into my version of Le Haine.  There is a double agent walking behind the three at the Yamaha scene.  Did you get him?

Did you edit this?  Does the real Louis appear like an Andrew Dice Clay?  He would be trying to copy me if that was true.  Not very successfully.

I’ve already written about the burning car while I was driving on my way to a job as court reporter about sexual abuse from Catholic priests.  Just a detail.

Vincent Cassell is code for cover, meaning I was used in France.

The hospital scene with Vinz getting upset and then Saïd copying Vinz, just shows how they followed me.

Did they edit this Charles Manson look alike at the police station into the movie, or was it in the original?  It doesn’t say anything other than Charles Manson is in a police station.

The biggest take away from Le Haine, Vinz is not supposed to die.  He is not supposed to die in the movie.

It could just be movie making, to surprise the audience, to make an impression on the audience; however, he is not supposed to die.  Therefore, Hubert (his character is just a reference to the movie The Power of One) and the Inspector are also not supposed to die.

It could be giving people false information if they think this movie has intelligence in it.

Yes, the Artist spotlight profile does look like how Casey sees me, and it is not very accurate at all.

The profile of the man on BBC with the upsetting videos of animal abuse is not very accurate at all of the real High school shooter.  I am going to give him a name, Peter, so I don’t have to write shooter all the time.  The only accurate profile I’ve seen is the color on him.  If you got it from my artwork, it says he is serious, intelligent, and I believe he would like the color of sky better.  Not as a profile, he would like it personally, it would make him feel better.

Peter looks to me, like he wants face time with me at work.  I have no idea why you dumb morons do not allow these men to have erections, by having them seen by proxy as a woman.  You look like you do not want them better, you look like none of you want them to be well, just messed up in the head.  AND, I DON’T!

Has Peter watched videos online about hurting animals, or played video games where he got to kill people?  This is going to sound really odd; this man has no violence in him.  I’ll write that again; he has no violence in him.  It does not live or reside in his person or being.

Sorry, Peter I don’t have more to say to you at the moment, too much is going on.

Remember, you don’t fuck with the babysitter, from Adventures In Babysitting, refers to me and my mother.  My mother organized local women in Gresham, Oregon, she had business cards, for babysitting.

This dialogue, from The Matrix, of your smell is repugnant, reads: Cherith has never bought incense in her life.  Nothing more.  They have been following my money; however, that scene means nothing more than Cherith doesn’t buy incense.  Big whoop.  It’s not as big of a deal, and not what you people have thought it meant.  Never having bought incense is not the same, not in the same ballpark, not remotely close, and Cherith has never bought incense before.  It’s really different.

This Danish PM profile story bothers me.

David is correct, he shouldn’t be involved anymore.  He has moved on and found another woman, and that is okay, but we cannot be friends anymore.  It is not as it was before.  Timothy loves his wife, there never will be anything between him and I.  David was and is different.  He is correct, he shouldn’t be involved anymore.  My boyfriend has been the only man who makes me feel better.  I don’t hate David, but I will not want to be his friend anymore.  We both need to move on.  You should be excused, David.  It is no longer your duty.  It is my boyfriend’s alone.

Every day is the same for me.  When is this going to end?  When am I going to be able to live my life because I feel no one has been working towards that goal?  Everyone has been just waiting (weighting) until I drop dead.

AUTHORIZED CLEARANCE ACCESS PERSONNEL ONLY!

 

August 23, 2019

What the hell have you been doing all these years?  Have you literally been giving people access to this location just to see if they are going to try an kill me?!  Everyone else has security – except for me?  Everyone else has the codes and access to the gates – except for me?!

Wy is this not a secure location?

I think the time for pretending this is all for television is long over.  This area needs to be secured and stay secured.  I am really over explaining this over and over to the same people, over and over.

Do you just give people remotes and access codes for the gate to whomever you chose?  Then, deny me the ability to be able to get whomever I choose through the gate?

The biggest problem is this location is not secured.  Not for me.  It is for everyone else, except for me.

The best idea would be to change the gate back to access codes, so that it is recorded what car is using what code.

WHO THE FUCK IS GOING TO SECURE THIS FUCKING PERIMETER?!  IT BETTER BE HANDLED THROUGH AN AUTHORIZED CLEARANCE ACCESS ONLY!

AUTHORIZED CLEARANCE ACCESS PERSONNEL ONLY!

BE ADVISED: THIS IS TWO DAYS AFTER THE ANGER YOU CAUSED IN ME AT WORK AND I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO CEASE IN MY ANGER TOWARDS THOSE WHO HAVE WANTED TO TAKE MY BOYFRIEND FROM ME – AGAIN!  IN MY MIND, YOU PEOPLE ARE IN SERIOUS TROUBLE!  I WILL NOT BE HELD RESPONSIBLE FOR ANY DELAYS IN WORK THAT HAVE HAPPENED – BECAUSE OF YOUR INCOMPETENCE!

August 22, 2019

I am 47 years old; I have been working nearly every day of those 47 years, and certainly, I have been working since I was 18 years of age.  To all those of you who have or had clearance, to those of you who have or had worked in intelligence, to those of you who have or had clearance and are serving time for crimes,  I AM AT THE END OF MY FUCKING, SPARE YOUR FUCKING FEELINGS ROPE, JUST BECAUSE YOU’VE HAD ACTUAL BADGES AND TAX RETURNS AND I HAVE NOT!  SPECIFICALLY, TO THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN ABLE TO HAVE IT LEGAL ON THEIR TAX RETURNS, I AM DONE WITH POLITELY GIVING YOU – FEEDBACK!  I AM WELL OVER BEING YOUR EMPLOYEE WHILE YOU PRETEND YOU ARE THE BOSS AND MANAGER – WHEN THE WHOLE GODDAM WORLD KNOWS NOW, THAT HAS NEVER BEEN TRUE!  EVERYONE KNOWS NOW THE ORDERS COME FROM ME!

FOR DECADES I HAVE HAD TO SUFFER THROUGH MEANIAL HOURLY WORK, AND WAGES, WHILE OTHERS GOT CREDIT FOR THE WORK I’VE DONE, THEN WORSE, THEY HAVE TRIED TO CONVINCE ME MY WORK IS NOT MY OWN!

I WILL NOT BE HELD RESPONSIBLE IF ANYONE CONTINUES TO ALLOW EITHER CASEY, BRIANNA, COURTNEY, OR THE BLOND WOMAN I SAW IN THE POLICE LANE, OR ANY OTHER FEMALE INMATES, OR THEIR PAROLE OFFICERS, OR THEIR PRISON CHAPLANS NEAR ME, AROUND ME, TO WORK WITH ME, OR TO SPEAK WITH ME IN ANY WAY!  I AM BEYOND MY ABILITY TO EXCUSE YOUR INCOMEPTENCES ANY LONGER!

This blonde woman brought an English computer criminal over here, so she could use him to get to me, simply because I wrote how in Moana, the English suit me, and this criminal reads: fashion, he loves trendy and fashionable clothes, looking nice and clean, and so on.

Here is where she is WRONG – again!

Does a woman wear her man’s clothes?  I mean, does she wear his clothes with him still in them?

This suits me, is about handlers, straight white male handlers.

What is to be seen on my body – is ME!

My fashion sense, my personal style, my sense of self, that is seen on me, is not from the English, I very much have a French fashion sense.  This one detail alone, if I could, I would wear scarves nearly every day.  Not everyone will be able to understand that.

Before you fucking idiots took away all my clothes in this house, meaning after Edison, you had some moron living in my head, making me crazy, so I gave away nearly every piece of clothing I owned, and I did not have that much to begin with.  You have no idea how important some of those items of clothing actually were.

I had an assortment of vintage, antique gloves, I had purchased from various locations, I happen to think gloves, at times, are chic, and it is seen in the film, Munich as the antique store as a cover or front.  At least I still have my antique jewelry.  I actually do not BELIEVE people, emotions, or memories can be replaced, or are DISPOSABLE!

DISPOSABLE LIKE TRASH IN A LAND FILL!

Buy and Large from the movie, Up, Bin Laden.

I have never wanted to live in Florida, I’ve been here since the age of fifteen.  It is a nice place to visit or to vacation, but I cannot stand the lack of vision this state has brought unto itself with its lack of development.  Also, this is an often-overlooked point, there is a lack of clothing that is required when living in Florida.  Shorts, t-shirt, flip-flops, 360 days of the year, some years more than 360 days.

It is about a state of mind.  California is also a warm state; however, California has a desert climate, so the temperature actually cools in the evening requiring a light jacket, long pants, and so on.  Florida much too often, and I am tired of being nice, looks sloppy, unkept, untidy, and with no polish.

My fashion sense is not bourgeois.  Some people will get that, others will not be able to understand that.  I am not explaining it to anyone.

I am at the end of meddling females.  Including those who are trying to take away the privilege to detainees who have worked with me, then as a way to get involvement from these men, they have offered some time with me on my bench, not my bed.

Meddling females.  Still trying to look as though they are more important than me to these men.