April 21, 2019: READ: American Sign Language

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April 21, 2019

Do you know why I sign ASL with my left hand?  I feel like I have written this or told this enough people already know; however, I sign ASL with my left hand because my right hand does not have full function in that I am unable to sign the letter Y.  My ring finger does not close to make a Y.  Do you know when this happened?

In Oregon, we had a hallway with a coat closet on the second floor.  It had a handle not a knob, one afternoon as a teen I was walking from my bedroom down the hallway – brain-thinking – my right hand hit the handle leaving my right hand with a bruise that covered my whole hand.  I did not think much of it at the time.  Maybe I am just clumsy, although I know that wasn’t true.  I have to tell myself all the time now, don’t walk into things.  Brain-thinking.

The character that kills her and himself if probably based off of a real person who – this is what it looks like when I look at it quickly – wanted to impress a real serial killer by harming someone that a real serial killer liked.  It could be in connection to the real Hannibal Lecter, or someone else.  I haven’t been able to work it or study it.

It is the most I got from the movie Patch Adams as I was not able to watch much doing housework.  I think it is probably obvious people thought of me as Patch Adams.  Me, trying to understand the proxies who are talking to me, and, well, laughter does reveal beautiful inside a person.

Larry, the name has been mentioned in other movies, I have not worked it yet, he is a character from television.  It the most I have gotten so far.

I know I have been therapy to people before, people watching me interact with children.  Watching the children light up being around me, the movie poster for Lion is from a real photograph of me in a Christian theater group with a little boy I baby-sat for nearly running up to me on stage, Nullah from Australia.

Grateful, he could still be included.  Wouldn’t he be?  I saw him in her as I started to watch the film.  Pain, loss, and sadness are hard to hide.  Clown noses from me at Circus World being chosen from the audience as a teen-ager, thirteen, maybe I was, just walking and climbing up the ladder of the trapeze like I belonged there owning the entire tent making the audience laugh.  There is never enough laughter in the world.  The good honest laughter, the laughter that is so good you don’t want it to stop.  I always used to see if I could get someone to the point of laughter, they would forget the world around them.

Jimmy Looks Twice from Thunderheart is me, it is why he gets away.  It is why his back is turned to the camera as he gets away.  Looks Twice, a mirror.  Me as a mirror of other people.  It almost looks like a ravine he jumps into, brook Cherith, and jump, looks like a – break.  Like a code to disperse.  Break-apart, been spotted that sort of thing.

I have been working with intelligence persons all my working adult life, and it started when I was just a child.  My be married dress, brushing my hair seeing that this neighbor was really an intelligence man and lethal, sometimes they have to kill us from Thunderheart is not referring to killing Native Americans, seeing he was a good man who took care of our country for all the world.  It’s why there is a little girl in 12 Strong because that’s me, you need to learn Spanish Daddy, that’s Mexican Vanilla.  Ice, Ice Baby, Vanilla Ice, does this look like the Russian in The Spy Next Door to anyone?  It’s probably what someone, a former felon, thought of me, this little girl who could understand Russian.  For some men it would have felt like home, made them homesick in a way.  To be able to speak their native tongue.

All the time my mother was in a hospital or nursing home nearly every single nurse – every single nurse – had a packet of cigarettes in her pocket.  I think people just have not understood that the Oracle and Neo from the movie The Matrix are really the same person, and the kitchen is just a brain-palace, brain-thinking and so on.  The cigarette smoking is just a measure of time, slow, methodical, like fog, brain-space.

If anyone thought showing me props, would actually get me to thinking, I am well beyond my years with such small thinking.  It’s like asking someone if they’ve noticed in the nuclear explosion their standing in, if a piece of lint was out of place.  It is the closest comparison to show the differences of importance, meaning, and depth of understanding.

Who was that SOB last night?  Trying to manipulate my feelings and emotions with virtual reality?

After the incident at the church in Damascus, Oregon we went to (his MO is to mess with people heads from the movie Thunderheart is not a Native American this is a white male who worked nights with my father who also went to that church) I hid in my closet one Sunday morning therefore escaping going to church that day.  My mother soon changed churches we went to, we started going to another church that was much closer to us.  I really can make things happen.

It really is subversive work having us move from California to Oregon, my father working nights, so that I never got to spend time or know my father growing up.  I never saw him.  I have very few memories of him, I think it is probably why they’ve placed him in a lot of movies.  Like they were trying to make him – disappear – that’s subversive.

Wanting to take away the American DREAM from the fifties.  Home-ownership, buying stocks, this is some old thinking that still has roots here.  The American DREAM.

To me it just looks, moronic, not skill, or skillful, moronic.  Dumb.  There is a flatness to it, to them, in their eyes, in their thinking, in their person, in their personality, flat.  As if that could hide their thinking.

I’ve written for an hour, it never seems enough, and it never feels complete.

My mother was like a super-hero to me, I really never knew my father growing up.  Hasn’t every child looked at their parent at least once and wondered, how did they do that?

Such sadness.  When happiness is really not that difficult for all to have and achieve.

April 21, 2019: READ: Phillippe Wart

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April 21, 2019

Phillippe Park, Safety Harbor, Fl – planters’ wart, right foot from the women’s locker room at the outdoor swimming pool at Mt. Hood C.C. before shower shoes were something to wear in public.  Truth gospel, Christian singer bought shower shoes from me at Dillard’s.

Was that really the purpose of this evening’s work?  See if Cherith will get so mad she will not want to work with the FBI ever again?  Or the military?

All you did in my opinion is make it appear that no one in the building neither understands nor is able to create and do the work that Cherith does.  Does he feel like a big man for making me – HEAVY?!

Anybody else see that the real Hannibal Lecter is probably Joe Black in Meet Joe Black?  Wow.  Has no one written an original story – ever?

BTW, blubber belly is not a good, scary Russian.  It does not prevent nor deter pedophiles.  Blubber belly says – weak.

April 20, 2019: READ: David Has No Penis!

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April 20, 2019

I used to weigh 109.  David has no penis.  Are you really so surprised that someone put a hit out on you David?  After they’ve seen how you’ve treated me?  I am really not a difficult person, and you allowed these dumb cops to tell you what to do rather than be who you are.  David has no erections and no penis with me.  It is obvious.

You stupid people have allowed a serial killer to be more decent than nearly anyone in these years since this house.  Wow.  All he did was listen to me and respond accordingly.  Of course, he was approved from the movie The Bourne Legacy this would have been very early after his first capture.  Of course, he’s not gay, it is again a reference to my brother’s accident.

Have you people really kept me in the dark, worked so hard to stop me from believing in myself, denied me the work I have done – just to make money off of me in movies?!  No wonder there have been so many celebrity deaths.  You quite literally would have criminals so upset by me not receiving recognition – for lack of a better word – they have killed people for it.  They have also sent planes into building because of it.  You people are morons.  I am not.  Unfortunately, it really is that simple.

I gave you people the answer – for free, willingly, as a teen-ager.  History has proven you did not have the decency to respond with intelligence.

Brother of mine, they really have tried all these years with that stupid Roy Campbell to try and make me believe you are a criminal and deserve to be in jail.  Does it look like it worked?

This stupid notion of nothing but a black female over and over all these years, is nothing more than an attempt to get me believe I am nothing more than a con-artist.  They probably think I should be in jail.  This has been done only to appease someone else’s guilt over what they have done to me and my family.  I ain’t black.  Wow.  I really don’t think it is anything to be ashamed of to demand I be – ME.

I do not like the profile of Emin Agalarov.

I do not trust nor like the profile of Nadler.

I have been busy, or I would have written about those two before now.

You people really need to get over the tucked in shirt or untucked shirt.  The message has nothing to do with a shirt being tucked or untucked, fashions change.  The message was and is, obviously Cherith is straight, you, especially lesbians because there really is a school of thought, a line of thinking that men use sex as power over a woman, they do not see it as love, are compromising missions and work because sex really is in the brain, it really starts in the brain first.  It is really is not that difficult to figure out.

The messed-up hair from Sherlock and The Spy Next Door really is me, I cannot believe these people have followed me so closely they’ve watched me in hair salons all these years.  I really have done that from the hair stylists chair after they’ve finished with me.  It’s really not a big deal, I can’t believe they’d put it in a movie.

David is not Jacob Black, they just used what they saw.  There is a reason he imprints on a baby, I am not the baby. I am Bella – Duh, shield, protector, duh.  You people look stupid to me.  It’s basic human psychology.  David has treated me as nothing more than a Neanderthal man.  I am not a woman who would be interested in such a man, obviously.

David has no penis.

Edison has no penis.

The skier profile picture you put in the news is completely inaccurate.  The real Hannibal Lecter is not a boy who has just discovered what else happens with his penis.  You people look stupid.  This person is a terrible reader and completely biased and judgmental with regard to their own beliefs rather than actual intelligence.

I used to weigh 109.  David has no penis.  David has no erection.

April 20, 2019: READ: My Mother’s Name Was Gayle Gjestland

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April 20, 2019

My mother’s name was Gayle Gjestland.

If any of you stupid fucking morons thought that a male Native American actor with the same initials was a proxy for my real mother, you are dumb.  I am the school teacher, I am not the dead school teacher, I am the grandmother lovingly looking at her people.

Leo is code for oil.

The word organized in the movie Thunderheart connects my mother to the movie, as she had organized women in a Babysitter’s club.  This was before daycare’s were formed as companies.

She says she made this for you from the movie Thunderheart, is a gift from God, from the one Christian God to Native American persons and in Canada seen through the eyes of US intelligence.  It will never go away.  The protection Cherith Joelle Gjestland provides will never go away – not ever.  It is protection until the end of time seen through the eyes of US intelligence.

The wheelchair Native American is Abraham Lincoln, Theodore Roosevelt, Washington D.C.  As a proclamation, Native American’s are United States citizen’s and no foreign persons will be able to remove it – not ever.  For Native American’s to NEVER be seen as slaves – again!  It also has a connection to the movie The Dead President’s.

Do not be fooled, it is movie scripting these men were working to protect Native Americans, they were not corrupt.

Receive the gift you were given, tell your children, talk to your ancestors, tell your loved ones – AND BELIEVE!

It is true.

April 19, 2019: READ: I Am Putting My Foot Down

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April 19, 2019

I am putting my foot down.  It is really not too much to ask for on a day off to get what is considered a healthy amount of sleep.  I have spent the last two day spending nearly every minute writing here.  It is more than time-consuming, then I am unable to do every day things to keep a house they way I like it, the way it allows me to think.

I haven’t even begun to write about Everything Is Illuminated, me being the old woman as a teen-ager, I am Trochenbrod, not as a location as my mind, the house being a representation of my mind and thinking, the sunflowers being how I made somebody feel.  I am Sammy Davis Jr. Jr. because I am white, dog, God’s child, and how I befriended a felon there is a defector in there too, and it was important to connect them to the Jewish people, my name.  Not just that I am able to tell you about a dead relative, it looks like I know dead languages as well.

Off chems from movie The Bourne Legacy really means Cherith is not has never been chemically induced to get the results of translating, brain-thinking, I am a natural occurring brain.  Don’t get them confused.  There is more than one sections of operatives referenced in those movies.

Motor function in the frontal lobe.  Who is this person that was sent to me?  It is not my brother.  Their frontal lobe protrudes like an enormous bulbous mass from their forehead, like a birth defect.

I am seeing higher thinking from the real Hannibal Lecter; he is a quick learner.

Deep sleep is restorative sleep.

April 19, 2019: READ: FBI! FBI! FBI! FBI! FBI! FBI!

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April 19, 2019

Please tell me you arrested this asshole that looks like the word FBI sets him the fuck off, Juan Carlos Pedraza-Morales.

FBI!  FBI!  FBI!  FBI!  FBI!  FBI!  FBI!  FBI!  FBI!  FBI!  FBI!  YOU FUCKING MORON!

YOU DUMB FUCK!  YOU DUMB FUCKS!  YOU JUST EQUATED YOURSELVES WITH PEDOPHILES!  YOU FUCKING DUMB WONDER!

FBI!

I MEAN HONESTLY, THE WORD ALONE, FBI SCARES THE FUCK OUT OF THEM!

Some real big tough men!  The word FBI scares them!

Who is this profile of Richard Burr, profiteer is what comes to my mind.

Seriously, people.  Come.  It is a word in the English language.  You have to be a juvenile to believe every time a person uses the word come it is a sexual reference.  How old are you?  Or can you just not get it up anymore?!

Kevin is a girl.  Kevin Spacey, Keyser Soze.  KS, Kansas City, for brain-thinking, brain palace.  There is a photograph of my brother at Kennedy Space Center looking like he is wearing a space suit.  Get it?  Those twisty rocks are her home. That’s brain matter you dumb fucks!  She’s getting food for her babies, YOU DON’T GET TO HURT CHILDREN! 

Kevin is a girl, as in Kelvin, as in temperature, as in cold.  It is just interesting code.  Something a smart person might do when BORED!

Somebody around here has a real strong brain, several of them.  Jesus, man it’s like having four shots of espresso in a Venti Starbucks!  By the way, they’ve been around a long time.  It could be a reason why I have difficulty waking up, get up Trinity, get up, snooze alarm.

The real Hannibal Lecter doesn’t like who you have near him, he is having a difficult time, he will figure it out.  Is he really reading the Bible?  I always found it difficult to read, it is so dry and uninteresting.  It is hard finding the passages that find you and have meaning because there is so much that is just – uninteresting.

KISSES!

April 19, 2019: READ: Douche-Bag!

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April 19, 2019

Yeah, that’s him in the gray t-shirt with the word Blood on it next to the 98-year-old man who has faith in me.  He is the military man who thought it would be ok and acceptable to code my brother’s birthday on my weight in numbers.  Would he do that to the real daughter of the President, the one who uses the Ronald Reagan bathroom?

What a disgrace!  That’s our US military, more importantly, SHUT UP!  SHUT THE FUCK UP!  I FUCKING OUT-RANK YOU!  I FUCKING OUT STRATEGIZE YOU!  DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY COUNTLESS LIVES I HAVE SAVED?!

You could have been a real man instead you chose to be a douche bag!  Wow, that’s some microscopic penis!

Any woman want to sleep with this brain-less fuck who rather than being a man in uniform that provides and creates stability around the world chose to be a pervert and sexual-deviant?  Get real comfortable with your hands, stock up on hand-lotion, you fucking retard!  That’s the end of your love life!

Look at the look on his face.  Where the FUCK is his brain because it is not in his penis.  What the fuck are you doing?!  What the fuck is he doing?!

He looks like he has no idea, no comprehension of what the United States Military stands for!  He looks like he thinks he is beyond reproach.  Would he do such a thing to his girlfriend?  His sister?  His family?

Because I am a woman?!  Because I am a woman?  Because I am a woman with breasts?  With a vagina?  Because I am a woman this douche-bag believes I do not have a brain.  Because I am a woman, he believes I do not know how to think?!  ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!  SHUT THE FUCK UP!  I OUT-STRATEGIZE YOU!  I AM MEXICAN VANILLA!  YOU LOUSY FUCK!

THAT’S INSIDER TRADING!  USING MY WEIGHT TO BUY STOCKS, THAT’S INSIDER TRADING!  WHAT A STUPID FUCK HEAD!

WHAT IS IT YOU PEOPLE THINK WE FUCKING DO IN THAT BUILDING?!  YOU ACTUALLY THINK PACK NUMBERS MEAN ANYTHING AT ALL?!  UH, IT’S OK IF YOU CAPTURE TERRORISTS AND SERIAL KILLERS – JUST AS LONG AS YOU MAKE YOUR PACK RATE NUMBERS?!  WHAT THE FUCK?!

SHUT UP!  SHUT THE FUCK UP!

Douche-bag!

April 19, 2019: READ: Something’s Wrong

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April 19, 2019

Something’s wrong.  Really wrong.  What’s happening?  What’s going on?  Because I have a real alarm going off in my head.

That straight-porn lesbian should be dealt with another lesbian and not me.  Get it?!  Brains.

It feels like there is something else going on that is wrong.

My FBI man.  I am Keyser Soze.  Somebody tell these shit-bags they don’t live here, they don’t have powers here, they don’t have proxies here, they are in very serious diplomatic trouble.

This problem looks Latin American.

Alarm in my head.

April 18, 2019: READ: Thunderheart

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April 18, 2019

I have not yet to finish writing about Thunderheart, and I feel this at work and around, hurry up and watch another movie and decode and write another report before you go to work the next day.  What?!

In what world are they and this person living in?!  I live in the real world where it takes time to rest, to think, to clean your own home, and to actually get sleep and rest.  Your body actually requires sleep.  It is a basic need.  I have no idea who this moron is that thinks my life is nothing more than a to-do list of chores where I have no feelings or emotions involved – at all.

It looks like it is a mind-set and not just one person.  Do you actually know what that says about you?  About people that think, and believe, believe so much they created a set and studio around the notion that people – and this woman, Cherith Joelle Gjestland – are brain-less, dumb, plastic vaginas?

Just visualize this for a moment.  This is along the lines of the game The Sims where people, have gone to the extent of putting me out in the world as their to-do list.  A brain-less, dumb, plastic vagina.  Of all the intelligent, creative ideas they could have done, they chose to make me appear as nothing more than a brain-less, dumb, plastic vagina.  Why would they want to do that?  What are they hiding?  It says hiding to me.

They must be near by because I was going to start writing about something else, then as I sat down to write, my mind FOUND THEM!

Take note, the real Hannibal Lecter has been hit, punched, knocked down, smashed, yes, I fought him, and defeated him.  It will be good.  Looks like he wants to be able to tell real people how it looks, how it feels, and how to do it in return.

It looks like the real Hannibal Lecter is a fast-learner, a quick-thinker, very smart, probably a speed-reader in that he is able to read articles, words rather quickly.  It would be a good trait in a doctor when there is so much to learn.  He is also, this is important, a people person.

This looks like to me, it was a sort of professional curiosity, the real Hannibal Lecter.  I would have saved his “life” from Sherlock, when I say run, you run, the real truth is it was more of a question about the real Hannibal Lecter.  It looks like my messages, my thinking, my view of him he will be able to see from messages he has received in prison.

They would have asked me about him, what do you think about this person?  Not knowing his crimes, just asking me about his person.  It looks like what I said, responded with was shocking.  I gave positive, good back to them.  It would have been startling.  It would have created doubt.  It would have been difficult to reconcile his crimes with my reaction to him.  It would be the very reason why there has been so much made about him and referenced.  100%

It looks like I would be able to go back and find something “they” missed about him.  Something that would have changed a course of action.  He likes reading about himself that is not good, it’s not criminal, it’s just not good.  It will take him awhile to figure out what that not good is about, and he will figure it out.  Probably in his childhood somewhere.

He loves his job, the real Hannibal Lecter, he loves his job.  He doesn’t want me to have any time off because he doesn’t want to miss a minute of it.  Do you understand what that means?  Souls saved.  Souls have been saved!  What?!  Yep, souls have been saved in prison.  It looks amazing from what I’ve seen.

Use this as a metaphor and not religion in movies, Catholicism.  Catholics must go to confession, to a priest to confess their sins, like a criminal must confess his crimes to law enforcement.  Criminals do harm, they hurt people, every crime hurts someone.  In Christianity, God’s love is free, God’s love does no harm, God’s love does not hurt, God’s love is eternal.  Do you see some things in movies differently now?

I had a plan, I had a plan in mind, and I set about to create it.  You should have followed me.  You should not have pretended to think that I am not an important person.  Would you have sent a product of yours to the real daughter of the President – to bald her?!  I very much doubt anyone would.

I saw this white male Russian who has spent time in jail.  No, I did not buy a white Russian cigar for him, I bought it for this stupid Fatal Attraction woman.  This man is the kind of good, scary men that scare away pedophiles just by being your neighbor.  You people don’t want to be the good, scary Russian that scares off pedophiles?!  You can go fuck yourselves then!

I am the good, scary Russian (metaphor) that has not done any time in jail that literally stopped this stupid cum-throwing man that is in the movie Silence of The Lambs from jerking off to what – I see his mind – saw my brother as nothing more than – meat.  His dick literally stopped working upon seeing me around – GOOD!

My brother graduated high-school early.  Were you sixteen, Creggan?  He went to University – early.  He was underage when this stupid pedophile starts jerking off to my brother, and I SENT THAT FUCKER TO JAIL!  GOOD!

I went looking for creeping fig in the store – for a reason.  Creeping figs are used in topiaries.  Bonsai.  Get it?  Karate Kid, teacher, and the fighter.  It could also be used to create privacy, a fence.  The “man” in the store told me they were not in stock.  I went looking for it because I did not believe him.  I found it, and it had the number ten on it.  Ten to mean The White House.

Fig is a product in several of the WEN products.  I planted my brother, I purchased a plant that looked like my brother to me, it really is how people like me work, it is like speaking, brain-thinking, creating an image on the plant, the good, scary Russian man, and the creeping fig together.  Do you not see what I did, planned, and created?!  I created, implemented, designed, for everyone, The White House PROTECTING children from harm, from abuse, from pedophiles!

You should have followed me.

Someone will be looking for this answer and this information.  He still has faith in me.  By proxy a married man gave me a kiss on my right facial cheek because I had a mole on the left side of my face above my eyebrow.  The kiss was from a man in jail or prison in England for sexual perversion crimes if not for pedophile crimes.

This faith man would have sent eyes into the store at Visionworks to confirm, I am Cherith Joelle Gjestland because I stayed away from that man afterwards and gave him dirty looks when I had to work with him.  He would have wanted to wait some time before he sent eyes on me to see if it still stayed, if my opinion was the same.

I still remember this married man that took me to lunch at Visionworks, I really was that poor, I had no money for food, lunches, breaks, I usually don’t frequent cafés from Sherlock, I had a Philly cheesesteak.  Get it?  Pennsylvania, White House.  He insisted on dessert, cheesecake.  Cheesesteak, steak, beef, Japan, he would have gotten the information about my visit with the Japanese government official.  I don’t remember the beverage it looks unimportant at the time.  He chose the restaurant because of the Philly cheesesteaks.  I was probably eighteen or nineteen.  Do you remember what you had for lunch on a specific day thirty years ago?

He would have received some sort of report from this married man that was of Latin descent.  He also did not place any importance on the information.  Meaning the report was useless.

Upon this faith man’s eyes on me, he would not have liked what he saw, and what they did with me.  To him I would have appeared skittery, no longer my natural self that had such ease, it is a greater skill than some people understand, to have and convey calm especially when around very dangerous men.  He would have believed it to have been a great loss to both countries and the world of intelligence.

If it is possible to create moles on people, they could have given me a mole at some place like the dentist.  They would have to have touched me.  Not ingested.  It could have been a warning to people because of the scar on my right eye from the dog bite.  Dentist because you cannot see what they are doing while in the dentist’s chair.

This man that still has faith in me, is really exceptional.  The way I see him, everyone knows he is exceptional, people that know him, know of him, have worked with him, exceptional.  He is not interested in their thinking of him, he knows who he is.

Was karaoke supposed to be difficult because it is a slang word and because of its Japanese connection?

The grandfather in Thunderheart is many different Chiefs, Leaders, Tribal Council Members, he is many.  It is meant to show all Native Americans have my protection and the protection of the United States as citizens.  The grandmother in Thunderheart is meant to be me.  You see how she looks at the FBI man in the movie?  That is me around Native Americans.  It is what people saw in me around Native Americans in the states and in Canada.

The scene about the dream with the grandfather, how to me shows the reason the grandfather wants to trade with the FBI man shows that he likes the FBI man, the real Chiefs, some of them are still living, the more appropriate word would be more along the lines of, not a problem.

Third world country in the United States, why don’t they pick up the trash from their front lawns – again – this is not about a negative image of Native Americans, or dirty Indians it is real intelligence work.  Trash, bin, as in terrorists.  Do not be fooled.

Did anyone watch Thunderheart and not do anything about what they saw?  Did you just take it as Gospel?  Did anyone read an article, do research, petition the White House, or anything other than passively, with eyes glazed over – not code, visualize – believe those were real conditions of United States citizens?

To me the shack or trailer of the grandfather just tells me that the location, the surroundings do not matter, it is all about brain and mind, and thinking.

I did have a glass of the white rabbit wine because I saw Native American persons were told to follow me – for real.

I really did have NFL clothing I wore from around 1988 to 1992, my two favorite teams were the Washington Redskins, and the Miami Dolphins.  I think everyone by now will be able to see the connections in films.

I hear out there some people, or just one woman thinks the motorcycle the Native American FBI man drives is significant.  What it says to me, conservation, conservation of natural resources.  Motorcycles get great gas mileage.  It has nothing to do with saddlebags on a woman’s body, that would be idiocy thinking.

The man telling the FBI man to not ask questions – is real.  It is along the lines, of shut-up and follow your orders.  Just do as your ordered to do that is agency to another agency, not person to person.

The wheelchair FBI man I have not yet had time to look at or brain-think, other than his height is significant.  There is obviously more there than just script.  It is possible it is telling the biblical story of Elijah sat (wheelchair) by the brook Cherith and the ravens fed him.  Fed is sometimes used as code for talking or speaking, not actual food.

The lying face down and finding my mother after her stroke, leaving work (Disney) early because I could not get a hold of her – I lost communication with her – is just a red herring.  It is meant to confuse me, make me believe something else other than the truth.

This is going to be very difficult for this family who have looked up to their father as a family man, Black Hawk Down is Spanish, trying to frame my real father for my mother’s strokes.  It is sadistic.  It is a slow torture.  Years and decades of causing harm to my mother.  Sadistic.

To me, from what I’ve seen this family is trying to give the impression of regret.  It has yet to reach their well of truth.  Do you know what it is to kneel on the floor?  Do you know what it is to lie prostrate?  Do you know what it is to see humans beyond flesh and bone?  I must be honest.  Their effort, their approach, their proxies, their persons are saying to me they are more worried – along the lines of – an unpleasant Facebook status rather than appearing genuine.  I have no idea who has been talking to this family at work, who is handling them, they have not been spoken to well.

They look like they are more worried about their social media portrayals and appearances than genuine sincerity.  It shows they do not believe in me, care about anything that I have done, or believe any of the work I have written about as being real – that is criminal.

I am not fooled.  Do you understand what that means?  This fucking idiot man, it means the real Hannibal Lecter is not as criminal as the man who laid my mother face down on the tile floor.  That’s sick.

He had a choice on Tuesday April 16, 2019 because of his actions, he chose to be less than a real man, he chose to be arrogant.

Let’s have dinner from Sherlock is about the real Hannibal Lecter that is him as the woman (don’t get crazy, it’s not difficult to see the effect I have on the real Hannibal Lecter) wanting to have dinner with me for real not as a criminal.  He was not able to hide his feelings about me.  It’s not a big deal.

I would have you beg for mercy twice from Sherlock is code.  I really had a temporary job at factory that made different things mostly pills, some of it was hazardous wearing full protective suits.  It just tells me there is real work from the movie Silkwood that does not look as though all of it has been solved.  When I interviewed for the job, the straight man behind the desk asked me if I was talking any medication.  Why is question in an interview?  I told him I was on birth-control, he literally almost jumped across the desk, he wanted me so bad.

It seems completely out of place to me.  Why?  But then, I do wonder why it is so difficult for men to just ask me out.  Why all this speaking in ears?  All I see is deception when they do so.  Of course, I am not going to be interested in any man who deceives me.  It’s really simple.  How many decades of this?

Twice is code, T – C,1-h,2-e,3-r,4-i,5-T,6-h,7, T being 6, meaning back, kam, as in camera.  W for George W Buch’s presidency, and me as ice.  So cold.  So cool.

I am the Ice Man, the flight instructor, Maverick, Goose in Top Gun.  I am all of them.  I definitely gave them flight patterns before they took off.  It also means, I really did something people previously thought was not possible.

If you’ve noticed from the map of California, I gave starting in night clubs in Los Angeles, River Phoenix died outside a night club.  I am telling you there is a connection between night clubs in Los Angeles and financing terrorism.  Probably brain research as well.  There are too many celebrity deaths to be a coincidence.  Night clubs are famous for the celebrities that make the tabloids and – papers, newspapers.  This is probably not new information to a lot of people.

If I am the 50-year storm and I am, and they’ve made a movie with a character’s name Storm casting a black woman as the actress and use the space metaphor of a black hole, do you see what intelligence has been putting out in the world for all of mankind.  Terrorism, as we know it, can be extinguished.

The piece I wrote about erections is a profile.  Think about it.  Why would that work?  Why would erections work as a profile for terrorists and terrorism?  Why?  I know.

When I was in college, they did send a pregnant horse, she was just outside the theater doors, I think it was from the Seminole Indians, when I touched her, her response was not normal.  Whatever they did they hurt the horse not me.  Remembering it now, the horse was my mother when she was 8 months pregnant with me, she moved all of us on her own into our house in Simi Valley.

This is referenced in the movie, The Power of One as something breaking in my mother.  She would have had more than one man who worked with her, I see my mother really working, doing intelligence work.  It would have been noticed my mother and father were not in a happy marriage.

Why they sent the horse to me I am really not sure.  It is really difficult for me to believe I have been so important to so much intelligence and military work, yet that is what it looks like.  I am that important.

The biggest reason, besides this black woman as my teacher, for the right lane to end has to do with the association of the Gator Ford dealership and private investigation agencies using The White and me together.  It says to me that private investigators were somehow involved with causing my surgery.  It should never have happened.  You took away parts of my body, and no one really knows why they did so, other than you let a cuckoo, lunatic have power and authority with my person.  How does this happen to Americans, in the United States?

You do realize some moron created a hack into the website at work I must use to manage my own time, so that I must sign in twice instead of one time.

You people really need to get over the color grey and the color of the trash cans at work.  The movie Grey Owl, Pierce Brosnan, Ireland.  I would need to watch it again to decode it, the whole story is not on the screen.  You people really need to get over this trash can nonsense.

The Sleepover Bandits from the movie Bandits, get this, it really is me as a teen-ager in Oregon.  I really did sleep-over a weekend at some girl’s house, I do not remember her, her father would have been a company man or intelligence of some sort because, I see him.  He really found it hysterical that I told the girls (it was a big bedroom and there were several of us girl’s) a scary story about a man, I used the word scrape (Adventures In Babysitting), and I probably told details from the real work and cases he was working on that I would have no way of knowing at all.  He was probably working on serial killers and really scary stuff, and I made a story out of it.  Obviously, he would have had a listening device.

I really did spend a lot of time in public making out with my then boyfriend/fiancé, there probably really is a lot of footage of it.  Hours.  Hours at a time.  That had to have been sexually-frustrating to watch for some men.  Hours.

Whoever the idiot is that thought that Edison since he was in a bodysuit, he never entered me, he never penetrated me, hundreds of people working against me, would make me so angry, I would turn gay, is a moron.  It is as of to say that anger creates homosexuality.  Moronic.  Anyone?  It is so dumb it’s laughable.  Using David to then make me despise David because of it, anyone?  It’s dumb.

Obviously, after I discovered David was in a disguise at work, I no longer looked at him, or felt the same way about him anymore and haven’t since.  And this really is true, I have written it more than once, from when I first met David at college, I would look at him and the world literally stopped, David and I were the only two people in the world.  Every time.  I could look at him, and the world – stopped.  Imprinting, Jacob Black.

The restaurant scene with Bella and Edward is about a restaurant in Gresham, Oregon named The Truffle Hunter.  It was an older home that had been converted into a restaurant.  I don’t see it because it involves my mother, someone was there for her, it looks like fondness close to love.

The camping scene with Jacob is a real camping trip I went on in middle school from the theater group.  This man looks like he is still out there, not sure if the statute of limitations is over with, we camped in a front yard of a cabin near the Pacific Ocean, I remember being frightened quickly and then it dissipated.  Someone walked by, they wanted to do something.  You want to know how my mind told them to go away?  I went to sleep.  Brain-waves.  I did not think about them, and I did not let them upset or bother me.  He would have been a young man closer in age to me.  That’s strategy, people.

There really were a lot of sleep-overs, so much so, I started looking at these girls I went to school with and wondering why and who is really asking me to sleep over.  It’s nothing sexual.  I just saw past them; I saw who told them to ask.  Get it?  How many people do that?  How many do that as a child?

How is the real Hannibal Lecter doing?  To me he is looking really domestic.  Wanting to be domestic.  Is that surprising to anyone?  Domestic.  Like a siege quelled.  Is this true?  He looks like he has several plans he wants to work on and implement.  Domestic.

Whatever happened to that medical research I had been working on at work?  What was shown to me was something I helped with worked.  What was it?

Is this really what this looks like?  Someone really wants permanent residence?

Everyone should realize that sex is meant was created by God as an expression of his love.  That is why it is enjoyable.  He wanted his children to know how much he loves them.  We as humans are not fully capable of understanding how much God loves us.  That is why when two people are in love – it shows.  All over them, you know they are in love because they light up.

Does anyone really enjoy reading these long pages?  I have been writing so many hours it doesn’t seem as though people are interested in knowing all these details.

I am way ahead of my time.  Since a child ahead of my time.  I have been saying no to all of this for some time now, the only reason for the transgender – and this has nothing to do with the man at my work – was a way to create a cheat for handling me.  If a woman has a sex-change operation into a man, she still has a woman’s brain, not a male brain.  It makes a difference.  It compromises missions.

Enough for now, everyone must be bored of this.