February 8, 2019: READ: Dusan

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February 8, 2019

Dusan, the name Dusan from the movie The Peacemaker tells me as were betrayed by one of our own military men probably stationed in Japan, this would have been in the mid to late ’80’s most likely.  Du, Do, Oregon, Nike, san.  I would question why would he want to do something like that.

I have seen nothing in the character Dr. Julia Kelly that in anyway looks like me.  it just looks like Dr. Cindy Kelly, it doesn’t look good.

February 8, 2019: READ: Disney, Orlando

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February 8, 2019

Man, I really don’t like thinking like this.  You people might think I like it, I don’t.

If what I am seeing is real and truthful it means there is not one, it looks like there are several serial killers at the Orlando site, worked there for more than several years, at least a couple work in security, and they travel to the tourist’s hometown and home after they’ve returned from vacation.  They do not socialize or are seen with each other; however, they do have their own communication.  Their careful, not too many at a time.  They are preying on whom they are watching.  Always scanning, always preying.  It’s deceptive.

It would be the reason Roy Campbell was black, Roy – Roy Disney, Campbell, Camp – Camp David, the President’s retreat, Bell – Belle, me, her looks have no parallel, the song lyric from Beauty and the Beast, Cherith’s looks have no parallel, or Gym, or Jim Moriarty looks, there is no other self within me there is only me.  It is very obvious to see, isn’t it?

They used the word toxic about the call center for Disney in Orlando, so whatever that was supposed to mean.  Real or not location?  I should be glad I don’t work there.  On and on.  About the building and its condition.

It is the reason I saw Jim Franco on the monorail at Magic Kingdom, READ: King.

I think it would be important to scare the shit out of people in Orlando at Walt Disney World, disturb their norm.  It’s deceptive.  Deceptive.

These movies really, most of them, are really like analyzing data.  I could go line for line and write about its meaning.  The background, the lyrics, the color choices, it’s exhaustive.  One movie would take me more than several hours.  One movie could really take me several days, to read.

Atonement is a worry.  Keira Knightley.  It’s a worry.  I must be famous, she said, in Fantasyland.  It’s a worry.  It is not the movie itself, it is the word, Atonement.  It’s a worry.

Magic Kingdom has never been my favorite theme park, I’ve said it on the phone and spoken to people about it numerous times.

Epcot is my theme park, always has been.

Eucalyptus is a natural bug repellent.  We had a Eucalyptus tree growing in the pot in the picture of Mimzi and Barney.  Guess where Eucalyptus grows?  Australia.  My mother bought eucalyptus to get rid of the bugs and deter them.  These stupid cops probably, I can’t write about it anymore, it is too disturbing.  How terrible they read – red.  How terrible the read – reed.  Reed.  There was a Reed that worked with me the second time I was at Disney.  The association made was that he was a race car driver.  What?!

My mother would have been more in line as an architect’s wife, an architect who owned his own company, and they have my mother getting sick because they thought we needed to learn to do drug busts.  Their lack of knowledge is obscene to me.

The oracle in the Matrix, is not baking cookies, she is cooking books.  This would be a huge scandal, I haven’t had time to work it or brain think it.

Colorado, you stupid people!  The Columbine shootings they wanted to blame on the movie, The Matrix.  I took their stupid brain research AND DEMOLISHED IT!!  AS A TEEN-AGER!  DEMOLISHED IT!  POOF!  GONE!  DEMOLISHED IT!

You allowed that work to be taken away with the tooth and the surgery!  YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU DID!

The Columbine shootings look like brain research that succeeded.  Think about that for a long time.

My father went to high school in Chicago Illinois.  This is another Presidential connection.  Men and people, predicting, forecasting, and planning Presidential races.  You can thank my real father for being in this country, he helped Barack Obama in his election just by being alive.

They wanted to place a hit on my real father once I purchased the t-shirt from a Christian bookstore about strength.  By using that black dancer, by way of Oregon and Russia, I would fix that if I were you.  He might not be safe to work in the building.

My mother had her Presidential connection until death.  Just like me.  Daughter of the President, as I am seen is until death.  It is why they are working so hard to get me to kill myself.  Hiding my mother’s death from me was not a good thing.  My mother’s death is seen, I don’t know how to put this into words, it is African intelligence, it is a company, organization, a group of persons, former governmental persons, and current, conspiring to disrupt the United States and the United States government.  They were more than pleased with my mother’s death.  Make no mistake it is an attack on the President and the United States government.  By proxy and in real.  People have died because my mother is no longer living, think about that for a while.  I want this dealt with.  They have been able to hide.  They have been able to conceal.  They have been able to get away with it.

Do you know, I am actually responsible, most likely, for the release of Nelson Mandela?  I just had to get there, to a location, and be seen.  Probably, the Coconuts comedy club in St. Petersburg, Florida.  Michael was hitting me with his elbow over and over on the drive to the show, so I wouldn’t enjoy myself while I was and look terrible and miserable.  Or, it could have been someone I checked-out when I worked at a grocery store.  Most likely, it was the comedy show.

That is really difficult for me, Nelson Mandela.  Invictus, Jason Bourne.  It could just be Winnie Mandela people angry at Nelson Mandela’s release.  It is so big, I am not sure at this moment.  Non-violence rather than killing people.  There is African intelligence in this, I WANT IT DEALT WITH.  IT IS GRUESOME.  IT IS GROSS.  I WANT IT DEALT WITH.  I WANT IT KNOWN THE UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT DOES NOT TAKE KINDLY TO PLOTS.  IT IS SO BIG I CANNOT WRITE IT ALL NOW.

Inhale all, from my Fire Pit poem, just means I stopped breathing.  You people have seen me do this, it is not a literal thing.

Who was that on the phone this morning telling me to go to the Spectrum store in Tampa?  Not a good person.  Go here, to go here, to do this, to do that rather than having it done correctly the first time!

Wow!  No wonder I dislike talking on the phone anymore!  AHT, Average Handle Time, at Hilton was 130 seconds.  My AHT was usually 130 seconds, in a 6-hour shift, calculate that.  How much would you enjoy speaking to criminals, agents, and what not whilst not knowing exactly who in on the other end of the phone and do it that quickly.  Disney was a little better in not having an AHT, per se; however, it had an effect.  I was not able to be prepared for what was happening and what was happening to me.

It is a mistake to place me in isolation like this.  Things happened, good things happened when I was free to be about in the world.

Erin and Nancy were sisters who worked with me at Hilton.  Nancy wore Broncos shirts often, she had gone to rehab for her drinking, she was in her twenties.  Erin worked at the Help desk, as a supervisor, of sorts.  This is a problem.

The celebrities started calling me when I worked at Disney, HUGE problem.  This is the introduction of celebrities and criminals, serial killers, and worse.  This is a really bad one, Little Britain on HBO.  This really happened.  He really spoke with me in the phone, the straight man from Little Britain.  It is really bad.  They used it almost word for word in a skit at a hospital with the receptionist, appearing dumb and stupid, and repeating herself.  You have no idea how bad this is.

I had criminals and killers calling me, IT WAS MORE THAN MY JOB TO NOT DETER, I COULD NOT GO AGAINST THE RULES OR POLICIES.  FOR INSTANCE, I COULD NOT MAKE UNAVAILABLE ROOMS, AVAILABLE.  THAT WAS NOT SOMETHING I COULD DO, PEOPLE DEPENDING UPON ME TO ALWAYS STAY WITHIN THE RULES, OR LAW!

I ALWAYS SAID NO MORE THAN I WAS SUPPOSED TO, FOR A REASON!  THEY MADE A COMEDY SKIT ABOUT A CONVERSATION I HAD WITH THE STRAIGHT MAN OF LITTLE BRITIAN IN A HOSPITAL!  A HOSPITAL!  A HOSPITAL!  ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!  A HOSPITAL!  THEY EQUATED ME TELLING THEM OVER THE PHONE THAT A RESORT DID NOT HAVE ROOMS AVAILABLE ON THE DAYS THEY WANTED TO GO WITH A RECEPTIONIST AT A HOSPITAL!  DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT THAT IS?!  WHAT THAT MEANS?!  IT IS NOT JUST MY MOTHER, THAT COULD BE IN BRITIAN ALSO, AND OTHER COUNTRIES!

THESE GUYS ARE MILLIONARES AND THEY CHOSE TO PICK ON ME, MY MOTHER, AND CAUSED HARM TO PEOPLE THEY DON’T EVEN KNOW.  IT IS SO BAD I CAN’T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT!

THEY MADE ME APPEAR DUMB!  THE DAUGHTER OF THE PRESIDENT, PEOPLE COULD HAVE TAKEN THAT VERY SERIOUSLY!  THAT ONE IS SO BAD!  People were actually getting killed.  You thought you were safe because you are celebrities?!

You are not paying me to pack, you are not paying me to write, you are not paying me to read, do you know you are actually paying me to be employed by Amazon, to be seen on paperwork as an employee, or is the news about Jeff Bezos being the richest man in the world, made up and fake news?

I am tired and these displays are at an end for me, I see it is so.

February 7, 2019: READ: There Is No Love Here

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February 7, 2019

I simply cannot continue this charade and lie.  It is not true this 1, 2, 3.  It’s not true.  It is a lie.  It includes that terrible short man for whom I cannot say anything good about him.  I cannot do it.  I cannot pretend.  I am real.

I loved David.  He did it for money.  He continued to call me and stalk me only to make me believe he had feelings for me when there were none.  He did it for money.  I was sincere he was not.  It has been more than proven to me.  I cannot recover from this deceit.  He did it for money.  He does it for money.  There is no love in that.

I would rather be dead than continuing living a life without real love.

 

 

February 6, 2019: READ: I HATE THAT JOB!

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February 6, 2019

Wow!  How about you people stop using me to write stories – AUTHOR – IZED.

Wow!  Tally the votes of what underwear I wear, what shirt I wear, what food I eat, what make-up I wear, and worst of all FINGERS – I HATE THAT JOB!  I-Tally, Italy, I-Taly.

Wow!  I will never love David again!  I will never love David(s) again!  That includes Edison and the FBI guy!  Wow!  I don’t think it was a smart idea to place death threats on the FBI and its government agencies!  However, I will never love him!  I will never love David again!  Go home to your wife and put your black hands there!  Wow!  Black hands!  I will not be protecting you!  Black hands because you want me to be a fan of my mother’s death and murder?!  Go to hell!  Stay away from me!  I do not have an option as to my parking, make no mistake there is no love for you anymore!

Wow, David who never found me sexually attractive!  Wow, David, or whoever this is that never believes I am good enough, smart enough, or pretty enough!  Wow, David who only did it for the money!  He was paid to call me, paid to play a part, paid to call me!  All David cares about is money and looks!  I will never love David again!

You want me to write the story about how Medieval Times got me to Dachau, how I helped create a map?  Go to hell!  What would be the reason why I should continue anything at all?!  You want me to tell you how many people I helped capture by seeing them in Los Angeles at a Mexican restaurant?!  You want me to tell you about my sixteenth birthday?  I am too mad, sad, angry, hurt, upset, and so very, very unhappy!

There is someone or a company or organization that has an insurance policy on me, someone gets money when I die, and it does not look like my brother.  It looks like they will be getting money soon!  I have no plans for the future.  I would rather die than continue living this life, that horrible job!

Wow!  You think I am going to stop and write down the license number of the vehicle that is making me belch and puke?!  That is not who I am!

Wow!  I had to hit my hand while driving to work tonight to try and recover the sensation in my hand!  I had no feeling in my hand for hours while working!  It’s abuse!  They are still doing it!  I WANT THEM TO STOP!

I read people as classical literature!  The fantasy and science fiction reader of books is my brother, not me!  Classical literature!  It is a world of difference!

You stupid woman took me, who was seen by several people because I’ve seen it from them, from their perspective, as the Daughter of the President and put me in an abusive relationship – to train me?!  An abusive relationship and exposed me to drugs – to TRAIN ME as a cop?!  I was catching terrorists, planning maps, spotting people!!  It’s is such a huge difference!

My mother was seen as the President.  Whatever my mother did it was before she was married and it was so good with such good intel and capture, most likely, that she was given the Presidency as communication, and you killed her and had her killed!  Wow!  I hate that job!

Publish the names of every person who has used virtual reality that I never agreed to or have ever given consent to!  EVER!  Publish and name every person and every time it occurred!  There are celebrities and actors getting killed!  Publish their names!  No more secrets.  Knowledge is power!

I unscrewed that light bulb for a reason James Franco it is getting pretty bad.  I would suggest you make a public declaration about what you knew before this all started.  Because you are James Moriarty to someone(s).  Unless you have no problem with death threats and possibly getting killed for it.

Someone wants me to believe they planned my surgery as revenge.  As a way to listen to my thoughts while I was having sex.  It’s nonsense.  The tooth was there before the surgery, there is no reason for it whatsoever!  There were cameras in my home!  Based on what behavior?!  None!

They obviously mistranslated a lot of my facial responses.  It is possible to think about someone else while responding to spoken words.

Miserable!  Sad!  Unhappy!  I HATE THAT JOB!  SOMEONE APPROVE ME TO GET ANOTHER JOB SOMEPLACE ELSE WHERE NO ONE IS SPEAKING IN THEIR EARS!  SINCE I WAS A TEENAGER!

I WAS MEANT TO BE MARRIED, I SEE IT!  I WAS NEVER SUPPOSED TO LIVE A LIFE OF ISOLATION!  YOU WERE WRONG!

I HAVE NO PLANS FOR THE FUTURE!  I AM DONE!  I PLAN ON KILLING MYSELF BECAUSE I HATE IT SO MUCH!  YOU PEOPLE ARE NEVE GOING TO END THIS UNTIL I DIE!  SO, I AM ABLE TO END IT ON MY OWN!

MOST IMPORTANTLY I DO NOT WANT TO LIVE LIKE THIS OR THIS LIFE!

I HATE THAT JOB!

February 4, 2019: READ: EMERGENCY EXIT!

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February 4, 2019

Over a goddamn fucking door!  Fuck you!  Fuck you people!  Over a fucking door!  Wow, I hate that job!  I hate that lousy fucking job!

Fuck you people!  Blow up the whole goddamn world!  What the fuck do I care?!  I am better off dead!  You tell me so every day I go to work!  Every day I wake up to this lousy, miserable life because I AM NOT ALLOWED TO BE A REAL PERSON!  FUCK YOU PEOPLE I AM BETTER OFF DEAD!

JUST KILL ME INSTEAD!

WHERE THE FUCK IS MY SPECTRUM MOBIL PHONE?!

Coke Zero and orange juice in a wine glass, you people should all be very worried!

Contacts and glasses because it DIDN’T HAPPEN!

I HATE THAT JOB!

February 3, 2019: READ: Sick Belly

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February 3, 2019

I feel compelled to write this before I get to work tonight.  As I had to turn back to my house while driving to work today.  I thought I was going to puke on the side of the road.  Perhaps people thought it would be funny.  It looks like people thought it is a literal copy of Dumb and Dumber.  I would really like it if people would start thinking for themselves instead.

To me Colorado started a problem.  My mother had allergies in Colorado.  Hay fever she said.  What I see when I look at it is people went out of their way to make her sick and miserable.  Sniffling all the time.  Congested.  Unable to breathe.  She was miserable there.  She had no desire to return to Colorado.

When I worked at the call center at Disney, there was a Nicole, stage name Fallon, who worked on my team.  When I had a good day of selling – Read, selling – thinking I had made a good amount of money, she and her numbers were 10, 20, 30, 40 thousand dollars more than me.  It just never looked good to me, looked right, looked Kosher, it was not possible.  It made it appear that calls that were going to book vacations were sent to her alone.  She was never written up for numbers, she never had to worry, she won every award they had.  It was not jealousy from me, it just didn’t look good.  She talked to me about her husband who had no sense of smell.  That she wore yoga pants around her house, odd conversations from her.  Yoga could be India.

When I lived in Oregon, I got Bronchitis at least three times every year.  I thought it was from the weather conditions in Oregon; however, if does not look that way now.  Farrell’s ice cream, Ampicillin, Amp, I had a reaction where I could not breathe.  Anymore it looks now that there were people, most likely subversives, working on ways to create health problems, therefore creating the perfect murder weapon.  A stroke being a murder, a heart attack being a murder, and so on.  I got sick in Germany also, similar conditions to Bronchitis.

Tired, and sick.

February 3, 2019: READ: FBI Building

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February 3, 2019

Is that really an FBI Building I see in Downtown Tampa, or another office?  What I see, wow, you people think I might enjoy writing this, but I don’t.  It is the whole building.  The whole building is lit up for me.  Wires.  I see wires everywhere.  Devices like phones.  Lit up for sound.  It is the best why I can describe it.  There are several buildings, if you saw the map, I made tonight that just – PROBLEMS, sounds, bad people.

I have gotten this for years, people unable to understand my music choices.  Because I am so obviously a choir girl, a prim and proper girl above the slut of the streets, however, I have had such a need to get it out of me.  The reason I took to the racquetball court with my tennis balls and tennis racquet playing until I puked when we lived in Oldsmar.  For those who still cannot comprehend; to be able to keep it calm and centered requires – A LOT.

My brother, I appreciate the energy; however, if I am honest, he is better suited for a more, is it analytical?  Or, removed from the rush of the capture scene.

How is father, brother of mine?  I am no longer allowed to know about my dad since they created these false health scenarios for actors in disguises to play in documentaries.

Universal Studios in California, I was only thirteen, I am sure it was a famous actor that I took a photo with.  He had a mask on his face, yet, my whole person was different almost immediately.  I tried to take his mask off.  Was he the same man in San Fran in 2014?

How I enjoyed San Francisco in 2014 just walking the city, what’s this, what’s this?  A big city, yet still able to be a neighborhood.  Did something really good happen?  Is that why Roy took off in a cab in the afternoon by the ice rink?!

I wondered why he worked so hard to age himself, to place dirt and age in the creases tonight.

I am still thinking.  He had been very prepped.  So, I see the need, still thinking, nonetheless.

How kind of them to place empty Papa John’s pizza boxes in front of my house tonight with the lingering of room-temperature, once warmed cheese, and pepperoni smell.  That is sarcasm.

Equalizer – liez, lies, raq, rack, EU.  The European Union rack or busts lies.

Broome – room, to be a room, work a room, EB – E, a comb like in The Rescuers, Capital B, my straight back and what’s in front of my back?

I am going to refute the White House claim in connection to that Hampton Inn, Disney and White House is closer since it is Hilton that misunderstood my importance at their business.

February 2, 2019: READ: Better Off Dead

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February 2, 2019

What happens when I die?!  Who gets money?!  Someone has been plotting to get money when I die.

You should have been surrounding me with hundreds of attractive, single men!  Men for me to flirt with, talk to, date!  Men!

You should all be afraid for your lives.  I am better off dead than working for any of you.