April 29, 2019: READ: Whose Taking Care Of My Father?!

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April 29, 2019

Whose taking care of my father, my real father?  Are you people just allowing my father to take care of himself?  Men can’t take care of themselves.  What is wrong with you people?  Why do you think God created woman?  Men would sit around scratching their balls all day if you let them.  Pondering the naval lint, they found.  Wondering if it was there before or after they farted in their boxers.

Is this picture accurate?  He needs a better diet!  Who has been feeding him?  He needs more fresh food, less prepared foods.  He needs more vegetables, specifically.  Fresh, raw, steamed, and not-over-cooked vegetables.  He can have fresh vegetables with a dip as long as it is homemade and not purchased from some vat.  Sautéed vegetables, steamed vegetables with little oil or butter, and seasoning for flavor, rosemary, thyme, fresh ground salt and pepper, real seasoning.  It’s the ingredients that are important that’s why it needs to be homemade.  Get this man some vegetables, quick.

Get this man, get my father on nothing but organic food, every food and ingredient should be organic.

He needs more water; he needs to be drinking a lot more water.  Father put a fresh lemon, or orange, or any other fruit in the water if you do not like the taste or get bored of just drinking water, watermelon, cucumber, celery, whatever.  But you need to be drinking more filtered water.  I see it.  At least six to eight more glasses of water.  I think room-temperature is better; however, sometimes you do need a cool glass of water.  For instance, if you’ve been outside and are over-heated.  However, for most drinking purposes room-temperature or un-chilled water is better.

Father you need to be taking Garden of Life vitamins, the whole world needs to be taking Garden of Life vitamins.  I have yet to find a better vitamin supplement company in quality and in its use of solar power in its production.

If I was in charge I would have you take Super Seed each night before bed, it doesn’t have to be immediately before bed.  It would better if it was some time before you go to sleep.  An hour or two, just do not eat anything else after having taken your Super Seed.  Have a glass of Super Seed and then drink one or two, I would start with two, you might be able to manage just one glass after two-weeks or so, of room-temperature water.  Store it in a plastic jug or some other container, so long as it is room-temperature water and not cold, or cool.  You need to be on Super Seed for about a month.  Then, you could probably drop to a few nights a week, or once a week.

Super Seed is really terrific stuff.  It is very potent, so that is why what I see in my father is he needs to drink water with it.  Father, if you get constipated or diarrhea, then take less Super Seed than recommended in your glass.  From the looks of you, you should be fine with the recommended dosage, one scoop with water.

Father, you need to be on Primal Defense.  Everyone needs to be on Primal Defense.  Most of health problems, at least from what I’ve seen, start with the digestion of nutrients.  People might think I don’t know what I am talking about; however, I have understanding beyond my schooling, training, and education.

Father you need to be taking B-vitamins, a B-complex and a sublingual – at least – a B-12, if not a sublingual B-complex.  Not one single person would not benefit from taking B complex and B-12, and sublingual’s are best when it comes to B-vitamins.

Father, I know you, do not buy that generic vitamin stuff.  It’s junk.  You might as well have a yoo-hoo, and a Ding-Dong than take those junk, generic vitamins.  Look at the ingredients, they put fillers in the vitamins, like cellulose, it is as if to say you are taking a vitamin with the foam peanuts that fill a package when you order something on-line.  That is how much nutrition value that stuff has.

Father I would put you on a Norse diet, meaning fish.  Fresh-caught fish, it is difficult to get here in Florida, everything is frozen and some frozen is better than fresh depending on where its from and what type of fish it is.  Do not eat breaded, or fried fish, you might as well drink the oil that it is cooked in, I am trying to get you healthier.  Oven-cooked fish, poached fish is better than pan-fried for you – for a while.

Beets are good, fresh and pickled at least once a week if not more often.  Pickles and pickled vegetables are good too.  Pickled vegetables are better.  Pickles with the fish, not just on their own.

Father when wake up have a glass (6 to 8 ounces) of room-temperature water, again you can store it in a container, it must not be cold, room-temperature.  It would be best if you have it as soon as you wake up, not after you’ve used the bathroom and done other things.

For breakfast, egg-white omelets with vegetables, some cheese, vegetarian or minimal meat, poached eggs, hard-boiled eggs, as long as the eggs are organic, cage-free, free from anti-biotics, toast with organic real butter, if you want butter, the bread must be real grains, brown, homemade, the kind you actually see the grains, jam if you want as long as it is organic, no sausage for him, or bacon, not for a while, fresh fruit, no porridge or oatmeal.  Father, for you it would be better to have a late-morning snack than a bigger breakfast.

My father needs rest, sunshine, fresh air, not to be cooped-up in an air-conditioned house all day.  Let him have lunch, or any meal out-doors at least once a day it does a world of good.  It’s what I would do, it’s what I would be doing too if I was allowed to have a screened in porch.  That’s why they have so many screened-in porches in Florida, so many bugs here, that way you can enjoy the outdoors more by not having to be bothered by bugs of all sorts.

Father I would have you use Dr. Bronner’s Organic Peppermint soap, for hand-washing and for shower or in the bath, use a bath scrubbie to get the lather.  You could probably use it for your hair too and it would be ok.  Take a soaking bath in a freshly cleaned tub at least once a week.  Do you people really not know the healing power of a soaking bath?  Take a soaking bath with Epsom salts and the peppermint soap.

Get my father new towels and wash cloths too.

Get him good-quality, organic lotion, sun-screen, and facial moisturizer.  Dr. Bronner’s Organic Peppermint lotion, Dr. Bronner’s Peppermint lip balm.  I like Ole Henriksen’s Sheer Transformation moisturizer, there is no fragrance, father, so it would be good for you too.  It soaks into the skin; it doesn’t just leave a layer on your skin.

Get my father a new hat, one he will like, for when he goes outside.

Father have at least one really good-sized mug (and I mean big, not tea-cupped size) of green-tea with fresh, good-quality honey at least every few days.

I would get him new clothes too.  At least a foundation starter wardrobe, a few slacks, a few shorts, a few short-sleeved shirts, a few t-shirts, at least one long-sleeved shirt, a bathrobe, slippers, socks, underwear, belt, pajamas, a light-weight jacket, a work-out type outfit that is not gym-specific, new swim-trunks, new shoes, flip-flops or thongs, sandals, and at least one pair of closed toed shoes.  New clothes really do matter, Father.  You really can have new clothes.

Is my father staying in a home that has carpeting?!  Get rid of it, immediately!  Replace it with wood-flooring.  Is my father still using his old bed?!  Get rid of it!  Get him a Queen-sized brand-new bed with protective, zipped, coverings for both the mattress and box-spring, brand new-sheets, blanket, comforter, duvet, or coverlet.  New pillows with zipped protective coverings.

I would also move his older clothing into another chest or set of drawers or other furniture.  It will help in organizing thoughts and such.  It might sound weird, yet it will help.

Does my father have any social activities such as church, or a place where groups of people meet to do activities, fishing, canoeing, bicycling, or anything else he might like?  Does he get to go swimming anymore, use a pool?  We used to have a swimming pool – 40 feet long, deeper than the standard Florida pool.  Creggan would know the answer, 8 or 9 feet.

Get this man interested in something he will enjoy doing outdoors.  It is one of my worst complaints about Florida, people spend all their time shut-in-air-conditioned doors.  And thanks to this stupid place, I am not allowed outdoors because someone gets to use the air around me – against me!

Take my father’s car to a detailer and have it cleaned out, if in fact he doesn’t need a new car.  He probably needs a new car; he’s driving a used car, isn’t he?  If I could afford it, I would buy and get him a new car.

Fresh fish, fresh vegetables, less starch, and fillers.  Let this man have as much fresh fish and vegetables as he wants rather than filling in the corners of his stomach with something else.  It doesn’t mean he can’t have a starch, he just needs more fresh fish and vegetables.  Chicken, pork, turkey, less beef.  And, absolutely NO ground beef.  Beef is really difficult people to get good quality beef.  It’s really expensive to get good beef.

He’s allowed to have sweets, as long as it is homemade, from a real person and not a machine.  He is not getting good-quality food.

Father if you like and drink alcohol, I would have you drink white wine only for a while, you can dilute it with water if you want or juice.  Coffee is fine, tea is fine, if he still takes milk and sugar – ORGANIC ONLY!

That’s what I would do for him if I was in charge.  What is wrong with you people?!  I’m not really done ranting; I just feel I’ve said enough.

Was there really a Chinese double-agent sent to jail?

I started watching Legends of the Fall to figure out this connection between families.  Mia, the assassin, looks like she made a connection from the movies Gia and Girl Interrupted, it’s a problem.  She is more than wrong.

Legends of The Fall so far, looks like Tristan has a real-life proxy and he would be a First Nation Canadian that saw me when I was about thirteen.  He is older, he wasn’t so much as promised to me, more that people thought we could be introduced when I turned into an adult.  I am not sure he would remember me.  They thought we would be a good match, be good for each other.  It looks more like elders and his father saw me.  Samuel in Legends of The Fall would be this man’s real father that died somewhere around my twentieth year.  That’s why Isabel Two gets pregnant, I was with my fiancé, had an abortion, and it looks like real sadness that we were not allowed to be introduced as planned.  Things are no longer the same.

The war they go to, looks like me in California, in LA, greatest defeat against Al Qaeda.

April 29, 2019: READ: You People Disgust Me!

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April 29, 2019

You people disgust me.  From the dark circles under my eyes from coffee to the weight gain from the cigarette, to the FORCED weight gain, you people disgust me!

I have done nothing, but write and work to do good, and the best you can do is not support me instead look a fool and childish.

You have a serial-killer in prison looking like citizen of the year compared to you and your “show”.  Wow.  Congratulations, you’re morons.

I am sick of you people.

April 28, 2019: READ: Hidden Camera

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April 28, 2019

Yeah, I am furious over the hidden camera placed in my Christmas tree.  YOU are addicted to watching me.  There is no reason to violate my privacy.  You are unable to read me, my reactions, my face, and my emotions.  YOU PEOPLE ARE ADDICTED TO WATCHING ME!

The real proxy to Quince in the movie Meet Joe Black, I really do like and think is funny in real life.  Allison, they would have lived near an alley near my landlord when I lived in St. Petersburg, Florida.

You do realize John Earnest is a real death threat to Spain?  I have no idea why they ask me to write things they already know the answers to.

Mia is an assassin, a paid for hire assassin.  What is the purpose of putting her in a news story?  How did she get the Spanish information?

That is a good Native American man standing left of Bill Gore.

Look at the conversation between Bella and Rose from Twilight about “turning into a vampire”.  Rose talking to Bella about things she will want out of life that she will no longer have once she is a “vampire”.  Look at it as a metaphor, vampire, for a criminal and crimes.  Rose is a criminal talking someone “straight” about being a law-abiding citizen.

For example, this is me talking to men:

Do you like making love to women?  Well, don’t be a criminal and commit crimes, you will never touch a woman or make love to a woman ever again.

Do you want to have children?  Have a family?  Well, don’t do crimes and break the law, you will never have children.  You will never hold a baby, a child in your arms, and learn there is more to the universe than what lays in front of you.  And, so on.

Do you really only want to know, live, be around, criminal men or women the rest of your life?  Because that is what will happen if you break the law, you may never see daylight, again.

April 28, 2019: READ: Larry Is Not A Real Lead

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April 28, 2019

Larry is not a real lead.  If you people have been following after a “lead” because of a movie with Larry David in it and believing it was meant for me, you are mistaken.  Larry is not a real lead.  Because it has the name “David” in an actor, and the storyline is about weight-loss in the female actress with Larry David’s character finally realizing he has had feelings for this female actress all along and her weight loss prompts him to visit his feelings, and admit the truth, only to have Larry David callously and cruelly, then, in dialogue, say, you will gain the weight back.  Are you people for real?!  Are you really this dumb?

I have nothing against the actor and comedian Larry David.  I have liked some of his work before.  I am no longer the same person.  But you have used this movie as though it was intelligence when it is not.

Larry shows up too often in movie scripting, dialogue, and so forth.  It is not a real lead.  It is pretty obvious.  Do you not know what you are putting out there by having David be responsible for the weight gain on me at work?  I would never do such a thing to David, and I no longer love him.  Yet, I would never do such a thing.

Dangling David on a string for, so far, two decades, “is this what you want?  You will never get him; you will never get this!”  Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha!  What moron would do and allow such a thing?  While David has woman, after woman, after woman, after woman.  Um, no.  I will never love David again.

I have not gained any weight, you morons FORCED weight on me.  You – are – stupid.  FORCED.

I see the real Hannibal Lecter has been upset for a day or so now, and I’ve been working as fast and as much as possible, yet he is not happy because this weight is not coming off fast enough.  I don’t know what else to tell you other than I do not believe people are aware, he is upset.  I feel it.  I see it.

Cruelly and callously, David.  Is that how you want to be remembered?  I am Death, I will not love you again, do you really want to be remembered in such a way?  Then, you are definitely not the man I once thought you to be.

I see the real people in the movie, Meet Joe Black, I didn’t write about them because I do not want to expose them to potential threats.  Peanut butter is a metaphor, do not let the emotion sway you, he is a peanut butter man, now.  The real Hannibal Lecter has had his eyes opened, his heart, his mind’s eyes opened because of me.  It looks to me by the movie people are saying he has seen something in me (not quite known it until recently), he didn’t see in the world before.  It is just a metaphor.  I don’t see anything wrong with that.

What’s wrong with a woman showing a man, this is who you really are, this is what you are truly capable of being, this is the person I see in you?  Nothing.  Not in my eyes.

My one and only boyfriend and I am never allowed to love a man the rest of my life?

April 27, 2019: READ: I Am Death

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April 27, 2019

I didn’t lead you people astray.  You thought it had to do with a coffee shop because they have a scene in a coffee shop in a movie and have dialogue about coffee can in another movie?  These are different movies, obviously.  If you followed that lead, I didn’t tell you to do so, and would have been wrong.

I am Death.

I am Death and William; Bill Parrish, is the real Hannibal Lecter in the movie Meet Joe Black.  Why do you think Bill Parrish had a heart attack at the beginning of the movie?

Yes.  Yes.  Anyone think this word means something else other than, yes?  It is code.  Y-1, e-2, s-3.  Yes, the three wise men.  How many people have figured that out?

This just reaffirms what I have already written, I have an effect on people, I was given information about the real Hannibal Lecter and I gave it back as good.  It doesn’t mean I didn’t understand he had done wrong, or crimes, they could have phrased it to me as to whether they should work with him or not.  If you look at the movie Silence of The Lambs, Hannibal Lecter is not a doctor in the movie, that is an FBI agent, they are several FBI agents, talking to another FBI agent.

Is there anything about the character Hannibal Lecter that says, Doctor?  His mannerisms, his behavior, his appearance?  Do not be fooled.  It is clever scripting and writing.  Real-life is not a movie.  It is not always an exact copy, or verbatim.  They do put real events into movies; however, movies have a way of making most circumstances and events seem more glamorous, attractive, and spoken to better music than real-life.  It is just meant to create an experience, don’t lose your head over watching a movie, that’s how people end up in – JAIL.

It was a decision in movie writing to create Hannibal Lecter as the star, or lead, or the number one actor, and the female FBI agent to be less than him.  That is not code, I don’t know how else to explain this to you.  It is just scripting, movie writing, they thought it would make better box-office numbers.  There is nothing wrong with wanting to make box-office numbers and creating a script that a writer believes audiences – will like.  Don’t let the emotion fool you.

This is referenced too often in other movies, lost my chems, lost my work, lost my – anything, this word, and it does also mean the TV show, Lost, is about – my brain.  Lost opens with – a plane crash, get it?  How many times has this word appeared in movies over and over, and a TV show?  To me this tells me how bad the relationship with my former fiancé was to the loss of intelligence.  I was not yet eighteen and I was decades ahead of my time, someone got greedy, someone thought of a way to destroy the Sistine Chapel, and they very nearly did.

Rooves, roof-tops, ceilings, this is about drones, birds-eye view military procedures.  The notion that once I moved here it turned into art, paint, and painting, is just diversion.  Do not be fooled.

I am Death, the real Hannibal Lecter is Bill, William Parrish (my former boyfriends tattoo on his arm with a heart, BP, he thought he was funny when he said it meant, Big Peter), I, of course am always seen as a woman, I am not the lady doctor, they use this actress as a way of showing the effect I had on the real Hannibal Lecter and other criminals.  These characters do switch back and forth at times, sometimes the real Hannibal Lecter is seen as Death as so on; however, for the most part, Cherith Joelle Gjestland is Death, William Parrish is the real Hannibal Lecter, and everything else – for this movie – follows after that fact.

Drew is named from the sketch I drew as a teen-ager, of one eye closed and one eye open, and a mole.  Who would ever suspect a little girl and Cherith as an agent?

Death and taxes, they follow me, they follow money.  The first time I filed taxes, I went to the local library – Collateral – instead of a tax office to prepare my taxes.  The man who wrote on my tax form, I did not quite understand because he was lying.  He wanted to appear indifferent, uninterested, slightly mad and angry when in fact he loved me dearly.

Well, I can see why you have no friends, this dialogue is just about Hannibal Lecter’s crimes.  What real person of worth and value is going to want to befriend a monster?

Just to interrupt, Trinity, the character Trinity, Father, Son, and the Holy Ghost, the reason I never saw myself in Trinity before now?  It is just their movie decision to make Trinity, slightly androgynous to appeal to a wider audience.  I don’t think or believe I look or appear anything like the actress who plays Trinity.  There is nothing wrong with that.  I do not believe I am making any disparaging remarks about her looks or acting, I am merely pointing out, I am cute like a bunny, fast, in my brain, as a rabbit, sexy like a Playboy bunny, and fucking smart as hell.  That’s a lethal combination.

In the movie Thunderheart, when the boy or son is shot and sent to the hospital that is my brother.  We were at some sort of Health fair in town in Gresham, Oregon, it was indoors, like a hallway, a glass door at each end to allow natural light into the interior.  My mother and brother were in front of me, I was behind them, they had already walked inside, then I walked in, they were close to twenty feet in front of me when my brother dropped to the ground like dead weight.  I’ve never seen anything like it.  It made a terrible noise to hear his head hit the ground, I made no reaction.

He fainted because of the presence of formaldehyde.

Every time, my mother was sick, heart problems, stroke, I cried, was so upset I could hardly think, this is so gross to think other people have done this on purpose.  If it was read correctly, and I do not believe people have actually understood the difference, if any, it is very few persons, it means my mother was the brain, the thinker, the greater asset.  I go to the biggest threat first.  Of course, I loved and love my brother; however, I have a spectacular mind.  I am well ahead of my years.

Outcome, you’d lose Outcome from The Bourne Legacy, this is code.  Come out, come out, wherever you are.  It is as if to say what Cherith does and is capable is mere – child’s play.  Let that be a lesson and a warning.  Child’s play.

The coffee shop scene in Meet Joe Black, is not a coffee shop and the man on the phone in that scene is my brother.  I used to choose my brother’s clothes when we were teen-agers, and he continued to ask my advice on clothes and clothing.  I could not stand to see my brother appear less than I believed him to be, and the image he put on with his clothes was less than I thought of him, and that has nothing to do with his sexual orientation, and everything to do with him being my brother.  We will always be family.  There is nothing to change that.

The coffee shop is about LA, at a Mexican restaurant when I was not yet eighteen years old.  It is about me working with real intelligence men, and a man.  I told you he liked me.  It would have been difficult to watch me, years later after LA, and see how small in their minds, big in my body, they had made me.

The car crash is about my brother’s car accident.

The speaking to me through my brother, this notion and idea that is played out in the coffee shop scene is really about me talking with police in Oregon, and the false story they created.

Obeah is about the Emergency room doctor who stitched my eye after the dog bite me.  I wouldn’t have remembered the doctor if there was not something wrong, and I told the story – a lot.  Cherith is not an evil spirit – duh.  However, there were subversives, double-agents who did not think anything about using animals like dogs to hurt children and me.  What?!

The ghost of Christmas past, the ghost of Christmas present, the ghost of Christmas’ yet to come, the three wise men.  Does Death visit the Jamaican woman three times?  Yes, the past and present meet at the same time.  When the Jamaican woman is admitted into the hospital, this is difficult threads, the dialogue starts off one way and then it turns into something else.

With the mention of the bus driver, that’s my school bus driver, the one from the movie Speed, who watched me too closely, obsessed.  From bus driver, take me to the next place, that’s a victim pleading with its serial killer to – kill them, let them die.  It’s gross.  If you see it.  It’s gross.  It means a cold case of a serial killer, Cherith solved – finally.  With the help of Cherith a murder was solved, and a serial killer was imprisoned.

When Death takes the Jamaican woman, this is difficult to watch, it means people already saw that my mother, had given up.  How many more years was I able to keep my mother alive after she had given up on life?  It’s difficult to watch.  Worse is what you people did to me while I worked at The Container Store.  Arranging a dentist visit for my mother while she was in a nursing home – the premeditation of my mother’s murder is such a rage to me, you people did it, allowed it for a documentary, for ratings – I rode in the bus vehicle with my mother back to her nursing home, the driver drove past the tax collection office for the county.  We stopped at a red light.

This person who plotted to kill my mother probably thought they could pin the murder wrap on the real Hannibal Lecter.  They did not believe I would ever recover my mind and see them for who they really are.  This is a woman, who plotted to kill my mother.

He will out-think her and it will not be difficult.  He might be able to place her with another person that will be able to work on her.

Yes, there is a connection between families.  I am Death.  I have not yet finished working on medical messaging, cancer, as I see it, is completely – preventable.  No one might believe me; however, that is the future I see, that is what I see when I look, cancer is preventable.  Cancer has been used as I have already written as a hit-list, a way to message.  It is preventable.

If the scene of cold lamb sandwiches has not been edited into the movie, that scene is about my maternal grandfather.  He was never the same after my grandmother passed, he never got to tell her he loved her, and then she died, and his whole being grieved.

Sex is sex it is not always love.  Love is love that is why people marry because it is love.

“Well you goddamn well should!”  This sentence alone is for my father, for every single father, every single parent who has a daughter that has been taken, abused, sexually assaulted, mishandled, or used inappropriately.  It is a warning for those who wish to do harm.  It is from – men – who have literally hurt from damage they have seen.

Well you goddamn well should.  They made a serious mistake with using me and my former fiancé.  Serious.  Be very careful here, this is the same person, these are not two different people arguing, this is the same person.

Holy shit, Jesus Christ, how the fuck did this happen?  The most famous is “Never get involved in a land war in Asia.” But only slightly less well known is this: “Never go in against a Sicilian when death is on the line!”  From Princess Bride, and then he dies.  How the fuck did this happen because this looks real.  I am Death.

Well you goddamn well should.

I love the smell of freesia.  Well you goddamn well should.

I exceed by a lot in his eyes.  A lot.  I goddamn do.

April 25, 2019: READ: Psycho Cops

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April 25, 2019

You have Native American’s near by me who want people to know they believe Cherith to be highly teachable, in that I am deciphering and translating noises they are making into words and language because they have placed thought behind it.

This is not my first rodeo; I know I am more than able to do work.  Why don’t they remove the trash from their front yard from the movie Thunderheart, be careful here, this also says Native American’s are more than capable, able, and willing to help.  These are not a people just looking for a hand out – no pun intended.  These are smart people.  They are a smart people.  Make no mistake.  It would be unwise not to listen.  Duh.

My former fiancé stated repeatedly to me he wanted to become a sports director, Life As We Know It.  There are multiple people involved in that sentence.  My former fiancé went to a sort of video/film technical school.  He asked me my opinion on a work he did, I told him it was not good enough, he could have done better.  I was quite serious when I spoke, I remember.

Collateral, I liked this movie instantly, right away, do not get confused with those words, the English language is meant to communicate not turn into meaningless drivel.  My mother and I are not the same with movies and film.  I liked this film, immediately, to me when I remembered it at work and started thinking about it, it tells me the film is full of intelligence.  And, it is.  It is not quite the same intelligence as Thunderheart, and that is ok.

My mother liked – as I see her now – agents, spies, intelligence agents and officers’ men who had such ability and skill, no one would have suspected them to be anything other than their cover jobs.  She liked them because she saw the trueness of their person and spirit, these were men that would never betray the United States, never be double-agents.  These men were calm, subtle with such skill, thinkers.  She really chose really incredible men.  William H. Macy, my mother always like William H. Macy.  His proxy would be an everyday man that no one would suspect their cover job.

As the movie, Collateral opens, that’s me as Tom Cruise as seen by intelligence (meaning they believed I was that good) leaving LAX after the greatest defeat to Al Qaeda.  Was Tom Cruise always attached to the movie?  Whether he was or not, the fact that I went on a Truth cruise, with Christian contemporary singers would have protected him because Tom Cruise in the film is more than a hit man.

As Max (code for camera) gets in his taxi, and cleans his vehicle, left turn signal, right turn signal, that’s about me getting my driver’s license.  It’s my driver’s license test in Plant City (Hillsborough County), I was 20 years old.  There was always something that was off, or out of place to me when I took my driver’s test as though it was procedural, obviously I had been seen driving and was a more than capable driver.

When I took my first driver’s test when I was sixteen in Pinellas County, I did not pass the written portion of the test, therefore I could not move on to the driving portion of the test.  How does the DMV get to be infiltrated?  Because it looks purposeful.  I did not take a written portion of my driving test in Hillsborough county.  Somebody got yelled at, is what that looks like.

Not ready yet, the Jazz man says, not ready yet, this is my first driving test, and this man and persons have been more than yelled at.  They put it in a movie, that’s bad.  They let a sixteen-year-old not get her driver’s license because of a grudge.  That’s bad.

Any mention of Mercedes-Benz, in any film probably, is about me being spotted in Munich, Germany by a man who drove behind my mother and I from the airport to our hotel, who liked what he saw, immediately.  He is a real man; he would be closer in age to my real mother and father.  Not every person who saw my mother and I were of the same affiliation, plan, intelligence and agency, or coordination.

Hey pal, where can I catch a shuttle, did they edit this into the movie after the fact?  It is about the shuttle explosion that killed the female teacher in the eighties.  Does someone believe this was meant to show intelligence I had a death threat as a teen-ager?  Probably.

Seven Years in Tibet, what character do you think I would be in this movie?  I am the child, the Tibetan child, a spiritual leader, as a child.  I remember the first time I found a ladybug on a tree in Simi Valley.  I thought is was one of the best things, I talked the lady bug into walking onto my hand (submarine) and walked home with the lady bug, then placing it on another tree.  Lady bugs eat aphids.  Aphids that destroy roses, stem, leaf, plant and all.  Lady bugs destroy aphids.  Rain drops on roses, whiskers on kittens, these song lyrics are more than cute.

Heinrich Harrer’s character in the movie Seven Years in Tibet is a real person, there is a man and a woman.  Just from me looking at the movie by memory.  The woman is the psycho lesbian I made on the plane in Munich.  The man could have actually been captured because of me, by following me.  It is also a warning.  Cherith is the child as a child she was already a leader, and spiritual, religious, as a child.

Annie Farrell’s character in the movie Collateral, is this really the character’s name or did they change it after the fact because I brain-spoke to the real director of the movie at work?  If it really is the character’s name from the script, Farrell, this makes me sad…Farrell is an ice cream parlor from Oregon.  I went to a birthday party with kids my age to Farrell’s ice cream parlor and they ordered one of those huge bowls with every flavor of ice cream.  Every child ate from the dish.  I got sick.  They told me I had an allergic reaction to chocolate.  They put me on ampicillin (Amp), whatever they gave me was not ampicillin, I do not believe, I started having trouble breathing.  It has been listed on everything that I am allergic to ampicillin.

There was a doctor in Plant City, ear infection, who when speaking to me tried to persuade me into believing I was and am not really allergic to ampicillin because I was a child.  I have always questioned him and his motives.

They could not breathe from the movie Thunderheart, looks like the showers during WWII.  The gas chamber, gas, oil, Jewish people, Holocaust, Cherith in Dachau, Germany.  This is the question people should be asking, why is someone interested in diminishing the populations of persons in African countries?  It is not about resources, or infrastructure, or governments, those are all solvable problems.  So, why has there been such a reduction of populations within African countries?  Anyone really looked at this?

It says to me countries, countries within the continent of Africa, need help, in that they need to go to the UN, they need to go to the Summit’s, they need to go to the US, they need to do the work themselves, and not the other way around.  These are also capable people and persons; they are not children.  They need to recognize the danger and seek the help of other government’s before they all disappear.

Allergic reaction to chocolate, this still makes me sad, this would have been a message to me that the man who was in the store with my mother and me when I chose the Whatchamacallit candy bar, had died, had passed, was most likely, been killed.  This man who looked at my mother with adoration, as though he believed she was a good mother and liked her, had been killed only a few years after I was with him in the store.  He was a good man.

I would be Annie Farrell in the movie Collateral; however, make no mistake, the bet that takes place in the taxi about the “traffic” is between two other people.  The woman who admits she is wrong, ain’t me.  It would have been very obvious, very quickly that Cherith should have stayed in LA, in California.  It is a matter of Cherith working with intelligence vs. beat cop.

Make no mistake about this either, there is a lot of anger in that film, in the film Collateral.  That is my brain that helped to bring the greatest defeat to Al Qaeda, and it was taken away from the men who were trained and knew how to handle me – almost immediately.

Make no mistake that is not just our intelligence men and women who are angry that is bad guys, bad people who are still angry about it.  I see it.

Rough handling of Cherith still makes people angry.

Annie’s character that gets nervous before her court appearance is not about Cherith, I was never, not once nervous to take the stage.  Why would I be?

Her make-up looks off to me.  Anyone?  Too shimmery.  It makes me wonder why this was done, it looks purposeful.  When I worked at Dillard’s a woman who worked with me gave me a Gift With Purchase that was supposed to be for customers who purchased make-up.  This is something I would never have accepted or allowed before.

It makes me wonder.  I believe someone’s life was literally on the line had I not taken the eye shadow.  Someone would have died.  They let me walk out with it in my bag, it was not disguised.  It could be the only explanation.  It was a test, to show someone they knew who I was, and I knew how to save a person’s life.  Sometimes, there are situations that make a person go against regulations.  Would a GWP really be worth the cost of a man’s life?  Not to me.  Obviously.

Island Limos, the post card is just the rear-view mirror, a mirror.  Men tailing me, following me, looking at me in the rear-view mirror of a car.  Limos, Limo, is code, Li-lie, mo-Modus Operandi.  Limo – lies as their modus operandi, double-agent.

Vincent is code for a number, a Roman numeral.  Vincent, VIN, VIN number on a vehicle, a drop car.  Vincent’s monologue about LA being disconnected, about no one knowing or caring about each other, this is terrorist talk, this is one terrorist that is now dead, almost the rest of the movie Vincent is a terrorist.  Do you see it now in the dialogue, the terrorist talking about how his country is so much better than America, than LA?  I see it.

The handshake in the film looks real, was it edited in or was that a part of the original film.  That is a real handshake going against regulations and that is not me.

The man falling on the cab, the first dead body, that is my bedroom window in Gresham, Oregon.  It means I was helping intelligence when I was a teen-ager in Oregon just by watching the animals.  I had a Christmas cactus in my bedroom in Oregon, sometimes I placed it in the window sill.  That Christmas cactus was never happy to me, I tried everything to get it to bloom and grow, it just survived.  Nothing more.

Max’s clothing, his hoodie, do not follow this trail, it will lead you nowhere.  Max and Annie being black, African-American’s, what decade is this to you people?!  I see and hear people waiting to have me write about criminals and bad people and the metaphors, they’re just people.  What’s wrong with people being actors?  Nothing.  What’s wrong with people of various skin colors being actors?  Nothing.  There is no hidden meaning in the skin color of any of these actors, nor their national descent.  They fooled you, not me if you thought or believed otherwise.

Be aware, I am meant to interrupt people.  Men with training understand it is not a politeness manner that is deficient in Cherith.  When Cherith interrupts people it is because there is something else, she hears that she must tell people – immediately.  It is one way they’ve created maps, before.  Like a stop in a telegraph, or Morse code.

No longer the cleanest cab, this is not me, or about me.  The is the black man I worked with at WORSHIP that was from an African country.  He is skinny.  Keith Scott is skinny.  This black man from an African country, I see, was scared out of his mind.  This is the man that is referenced in Black Hawk Down.  It is pretty obvious he could not deal; he could not manage.

It is much more difficult than it appears, than I make it look.  If any person watched footage of me, then believed they could work with me based on what they saw, the real-life is really fucking real, and to make it appear as though nothing dramatic, frightening, terrible, or life-threatening has happened – takes real skill, and I have always had that.

When they told me at WORSHIP my brother was in a car accident – Boom.  No reaction from Cherith, nothing to read, none whatsoever.  It would have scared the living daylights out of men watching, especially if they were of a terrorist mind-set.  What’s wrong with that?  Nothing.

The police pulling over the taxi-cab is from my real life.  There was a white girl in her twenties, who worked with me at WORSHIP, she was driving us in her car one-night, we went to dinner or something menial like that, and we were pulled over by the cops.  I knew – immediately – we should not have been pulled over, as soon as I saw the lights.  I remember looking around because I was thinking, we should not be getting pulled over.  The driver looks like she was in on it, she expected it.  I was upset.

They police left pretty quickly after – looking at my face and reaction.  They must have had someone in custody that they needed my read on who this person really was.  I was upset.  We were not supposed to be pulled over.

This girl soon left WORSHIP and went to a Christian college or University in Tennessee.  I always found her behavior to be off.  Probably because she had a man speaking to her in her ear, so she would have appeared – out of place.  He probably really liked me; he probably really likes me still today.

Have I written this yet?  Monster’s Inc, door-to-door salesman like the Fuller Brush movie with William H. Macy.  I always liked Red Skelton, I talked about him to a male teacher of mine at Hollydale Elementary school.  How many kids have an appreciation for person’s like Red Skelton – as a child?

Monster’s Inc is about brain-research and scaring children turning them into monsters in and out of prison, get it?  This funny little girl stopped it from happening.  I liked the film so much I took my mother to see it at the theater in Plant City.  Sushi, Japan.  Silent screams, ice storms that bring down power lines, in winter, shutting off power, wood-burning stoves.

The reference to the mother calling all the time and being in the hospital in Collateral, is about me calling my mother when I was at work.  This is before I worked for Disney, me calling my mother from work was not a good sign.  When I worked at Tele-tech, I called my mother at every break, and every lunch break, I was that unhappy there.  Other temp jobs, if I called my mom, it meant I was unhappy there.  I am not sure people understood I was unhappy.  The hospital scene probably is in reference to my mother being in the hospital before I left for Boston and New York.

I was unhappy, that’s why I called her.  I’ve changed jobs because I am unhappy.  Normal response.

Did they edit the movie, or is there really a reference of hitting a deer in the original movie?  I am very protective of my family nick name.  My mother always used this name, so when people talked with my mother and they did not know my nick name it would be a point of conversation.  I did not like my mother using my name in front of other people who were not family.  It used to make me instantly upset, and angry.  This tells me my name has been used in missions, most likely military missions, more than once.  I have not de-classified myself or my work, you people have with this “show.”

Cheri, five letter’s long, Cheri, pronounced, Chair-ah, Chair, a.  Cheri is not cherry, and it means dear.  Five is referenced too often for me not to write about it anymore.  It makes me sick to have to write, though, sick.  Upset sick.

The coyote in the movie, looks to me like intelligence really cannot believe how these most wanted men follow after Cherith.  Did you just see what popped up on my screen?  Did you just see who popped up?  They are following Cherith.

When I went to the Inauguration 2012, we took the Metro from the Dulles airport to the hotel.  They made sure to tell me I was spotted, a blonde man “looked” at me as I got on the Metro.  Everything was working, trams were working, then I got underground and – everything stopped.  We waited for nearly two hours before the Metro started working again.

This looks unbelievable even for an Inauguration.  It was the middle of the afternoon.  So, what actually happened?  Because I remember people speaking to me while we were waiting in line underground, trying to figure me out, trying to figure what went wrong, and all I did was tell them it was ok.  So, who followed me?  I was dressed, sharp.  Who did they get?  Most likely, they would have picked him up on surface streets.

When I worked on the Obama campaign I ate, ordered take-out more than once at a Mexican restaurant that was literally around the corner from the office, trailer I worked out of.  So how much intel did you people get from that alone?

If people were given photographs of me from that time, it would have been so good.  I was dressed as I should be, in dresses, professional, cute, sharp, sexy, better dressed than anyone in the office, or who showed up.  I was better dressed.  I was not in sweats and a slumpy t-shirt, it would have said, 007 agent to people, I am sure.  How much less difficult did I make the local FBI offices job during those months?

Did I really get the job at The Container Store, taking the call on the stair-well in the Embassy Suites I was staying at in Maryland because of who you got when they followed me?

Buffalo gal won’t you come out tonight, come out tonight, from the movie It’s a Wonderful Life, do you know the floor opening up during the dance, is the parting of the red sea, and them falling into the pool, is baptism?  It’s probably – during its time – about Abraham Lincoln and his wife, Mary Todd Lincoln.

Dances With Wolves, Buffalo gal won’t you come out tonight, get it?  To be seen in Washington, D.C.

Lenny from the movie Collateral, again, has a reference to the Laverne and Shirley show, this reference is so old, any leads there would be dead.

Stealing the wallet, do not follow this lead, it is also a dead end.

Just wanting to “being around the music” that’s about me, the opening sequence, down shot of the vehicles, that’s about people wanting to work with Cherith.  Actors have said this in interviews, why did you choose to work on this film, this character, this movie, their response, happened a lot, I wanted to work with this actor, this director, and so on.  It is the same for people in intelligence, wanting to work with me.  How many people brain-speak?  I see many people and agencies from around the world just wanting to be involved in such work.

Did that Irishman really go to, probably, local FBI in Ireland because I wrote about terrorists wanting to be “made” by me to get infamous?  And, how that made more sense to them than any religious reason?  Good.  Looks like they will be able to do work there.

That’s me as the jazz man, that’s why he is overweight.  When I moved back into my family’s home, I’ve already written this, I became overweight trying to decipher everything around me.  It made many people angry, to see me after what happened in LA.  To see what they did to me.  To see this sharp mind reduced, to not very clever in some people’s minds.

I told people, what happened in LA was near the kitchen, it is in the movie Collateral as well.  If anyone thought there was a connection between The Matrix and Collateral, they are wrong.  I see so many people upset by the discrepancies in The Matrix, it has caused a lot of problems.

Outcome, from the movie The Bourne Legacy, the loss couldn’t be quantified, that’s me.  I am the loss.  I am the loss of such intelligence it has not been quantified.  It happened almost immediately, upon my return to Florida.  I left a note in the middle of the night while my family was not at home, and left with my boyfriend, fiancé.  The person using my boyfriend made a very serious mistake.  The loss has not been quantified.

Someone wanted it to appear as though, I never existed.  Cherith never did work, Cherith never helped, she turned into mush, she dies, I see it in their mind over and over.

The headshot of the Jazz man, was he shot three times?  Three wise men.  These look like unconfirmed to me.  As in, you break it, you bought it.  You break Cherith, you hurt Cherith, you cause distress to Cherith, you die.  Simple as that.

The briefcase you live out of, is just a brain, Cherith’s brain.

Do you know what this looks like?  The nightclub scene in Collateral, this looks like my 8th grade school dance.  My mother was supposedly there, I never saw her, other kids told me she was there.  They would have had someone in the back portion, behind where the dance was held somehow connected to a night club in LA.  I swore like a mother-fucker during the dance.  If they read it correctly, it was a bad man is near-by sign.

Cherith’s brain goes to the biggest threat – first.

The sequence in the building with a man wanting to kill Annie, is about me living in St. Petersburg, Florida, and being woken up in the middle of the night.  Maybe you’re in the wrong meeting, from the movie The Bourne Legacy, these are psycho, local police, cops, willing and allowed bad men to try and kill me.  Psycho cops.

They knocked on our back-door first.  My boyfriend told me to answer the door, I wouldn’t, I didn’t even get out of bed.  They tried to sound like the police banging on a door, I said to him if it is the police, why didn’t they use the front door.  After nearly five minutes of banging on the back door they went to the front door and started banging on the door.  I did not call 911, the thought never entered my mind.  The phones would have been tapped, and they would not have gone to the real 911, the movie, The Call.  They were probably banging on the doors almost fifteen minutes before they left.

When I woke up in the morning my boyfriend told me to use the payphone down the street to report it to the police.  The “police” told me if they were cops, they would have left – a business card.  He was always on about anonymous, not having anything going back to names and addresses, like anonymously reporting a car fire on our way to work Judgement.

Why someone would go to such trouble as to set a car on fire for me to see tells me they were in trouble and they did not know what to do and this was not local PD, they needed my voice, someone needed confirmation that I was alive, and that is why I booked the job as the court reporter in a trial against – pedophiles, priests abusing boys in the Catholic church.

The fact that I must write this is more than disappointing to me, all the beer in my fridge has been turned into non-alcoholic beer full of caffeine to make me stay awake, it is not clever at all.  My coffee creamer they turned into blubber belly; these things happen repeatedly.  I am beyond in my disgust.

I hear this in my home, that David is not happy that I did not finish writing this yesterday.  This has taken me more than five hours to write, and David wants me to feel as though I did not do enough work yesterday.

I do not love David anymore.  A heart breaks only so many times, feelings are hurt only so many times, they do not go back together anymore.  They’ve placed David on a string, dangling him in front of me since I’ve met him.  As if to say, did you want David, here he is, you can’t have him, over and over.  I’ve stopped loving David.  He is no longer the man I once saw in him.  He has hurt me too many times.

David has never been my teacher.  David, if what I see is true, was supposed to be a proxy for the real Hannibal Lecter, what a mistake.  It really doesn’t take a genius to know the real Hannibal Lecter would not fall for such a fallacy.

I shook David’s hands after he got off the phone at Home Depot, and a woman walked in backwards saying, So, not a leader with a shirt that had Sherwin-Williams paint on it.  I despise David for the way they’ve used him with me.  You cannot undue work I actually did, and I was actually honored for my work at college, as a leader.

They way David looks to me now he appears as though he wished he had never done it or been a part of it at all.  He did not want to use virtual reality and he did not want to shake my hands.

He looks as though he believed I was terrified or scared of him, to approach him, or talk to him, and that has never been true.  He wrote to me that he didn’t want to talk to me, I respected him wishes and never approached him when I saw him.  Had he not been disguised as my supervisor; I wouldn’t have approached him at Home Depot.

We’re talking about decades of deception, those years do not get forgotten, or undone.

I don’t love David anymore.  Hurt like that doesn’t just mend.

I see your upper lip.  I see the real Hannibal Lecter’s upper lip.  I saw his back to, his six, covered with mental wounds someone has placed on him.  I gave him kisses, on the wounds.  I kissed the wounds.

I wonder if he has been able to work on that himself and discovered all the people that did that to him.

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April 25, 2019

I am not upset anymore.  Who did this?  Received my packages and am no longer upset.  How did this happen?

Yes, Cherith does not interpret names.  She does not receive names through her brain.  It has probably either been trained into me, or my own natural protection against messages being intercepted.  I would be able to receive names if they were spelled and not just brain-spoken.

Move my brother, keep my father near me.

A name also does not create a picture in a brain.

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April 25, 2019

Move my brother and his partner as far away from me as possible.  I don’t want them near me at all.  Change my brother’s address so it is no longer in Winter Haven, on Bates Street.  I am more than pissed.

That woman who parks her car in the driveway next to mine – the one with the garage code – does not live where she parks her car.  Take your own damn trash out bitch!  Or, are you completely incapable?!

Creggan they sent it up to bring a man to you that you would like to try and get at me.  To upset me.  Because every other person in the world is allowed to have love, be loved, have real sexual relationships and love – except Cherith.  Cherith is never allowed to be loved – all her life.  Because they want me dead.

I do not want for anything other than your happiness.  With what they have done, they have made your partner appear as though he is only interested in you because of me.  Because he gets a famous association, he is only interested in the fame and television.

Move my brother, send him and his partner away.

Keep my father near me, do not let him move – at all.

You stupid fucking people are allowing yourselves to be played and you don’t realize it.

You do not understand.  I am more than pissed.