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If I have to go another day commando to keep that goddamn fairy out of here and away from me, I will rip somebody’s fucking face off!  How the fuck did this ever get to happen?!  How and why the fuck is my underwear a matter of state, government, or the world’s business?!

Stay the fuck away!

I am very much disinterested in explaining, clarifying, or writing about X-box or “Ready”.  Not interested in something and a person that could never apply or be applicable.

Stop wasting my time and life!

Stop confusing a certain person with a government agency when it is not true.

Hooey, it is a bunch of hooey.  Somethings cannot be explained.  For instance, a man and a woman may on paper, or a program appear to be a good or a perfect match for each other in interests, likes, etc.  However, they may not be compatible in person, in real life, or like each other at all.

In contrast, a man and a woman might have nothing in common or appear to be compatible on paper, yet in person, in real life, they could be a great love.

It is one of those things that cannot be explained no matter how you examine the brain, chemistry, or pheromones, etc.

It simply is.

If you haven’t figured it out by now, there is no way in hell I would ever allow myself a marriage of convenience for the sake of being married.

I will have nothing less than the greatest love of my life.  One that could never be replaced.

Nothing less.

Day 1,567.

FIX THE CLOCK!

No, it will not be dancing in attendance, no it is electrical lock-out!

I am so angry over these years!!  For what?!  For that?!  A television show?!  I am so angry there is not a chance it could ever be made better.  If the walls fell down and I was allowed to live my life how I want without control of any kind, I would sue everyone involved for false imprisonment, for false labor and employment.  How could I not?!

What have all these years been for?!  What was their purpose?  What was the point?!

I DO NOT BELIEVE IN THE HEAD WORK ANYMORE!

No, Mata Hari, I understand better than you do, copycat.

These years are just the same as forcing and making a homosexual person have nothing but straight sex with strangers for years.  FOR YEARS!!!!!  WITH PEOPLE THEY NEVER SEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why is there not outrage for an end to this?!

End it.  There is no point to it.

I am unable to believe in the head work anymore.

How does a person get to illegally place devices in a person’s body – in my body – then, force and make them spend years of their life…I cannot finish this sentence.  I would sue everyone involved.  I would win.  It is a gross injustice to me.

If it had not been for this house and its control, for the devices implanted in me – NONE OF IT COULD HAVE EVER HAPPENED!

I DO NOT BELIEVE IN HEADWORK ANYMORE!  IT IS ALL A LIE!  THEY USE TRICKS AND FAKE THINGS IT IS NOT REAL!  DO NOT BELIEVE IT ANYMORE WHEN I CRY AT WORK THEY USE TRICKS!  IT IS NOT THE SAME AS RECORDING REAL LIFE!  REMEMBER I NEVER AGREED TO THIS LIFE EVER!

I no longer know if David Wolfe is really his name.

I am not interested in filling in the puzzle pieces for you, I have graduated from college.  Sometimes it helps to laugh with a movie when you’ve done something you never thought you would ever do.  Or be able to do or accomplish.

Truthfully, I do not want to share this, however seeing other Christians around me…the movie The Crow, I never saw.  I never wanted to see.  I will not see.  I would have told people to never see.

I saw blackness.  Blackness that surrounded the frame of the pictures of the movie like a frame.  Dripping in blackness.  I used to look away.  Then, several years if not a decade or more later the blackness disappeared.  It was almost as if it was time specific.  Who knows they could have used tricks on back then too.  It could have been a trick.

Still, I will not watch that movie.

There was an area around Plant City that I avoided whenever possible.  It was literally painful to drive through for me.  I felt dog-fighting.  Cock-fighting.  Illegal gambling.  Prostitution.  But, the animal abuse was hard on me.  I cannot explain it.

It literally hurt me.

I wanted to watch the movie Mission Impossible but was verbally coached out of it!

Two Actress – SB, NK, I’ll let you figure this out on your own.  Acting in movies involving substance abuse, separation of animals, and non-Christian beliefs, specifically.  Figure that out yourself, I already know.  This house should never have been allowed to happen.

Music is not of the devil; however, I will not be returning my products to the UPS store!  PICK UP!

Well, I am not going to be sharing stories of Maurice, Lambert, or Murphy if I am constantly being yelled at, written up, etc. at work.  Remember, I don’t have a choice in my employment.

Day 1,564.

More than upset, pissed, and mad!

You are in for the fight of your life when I get to work!

Stupidvisors – this is what I used to call them when I first started working because I know more than them usually, understand there are better ways to achieve cooperation – HR, I am fucking pissed!

We are not united electronic artists.  I will not be turning my tires to that billboard!!!!  I am fucking pissed!  Mad as hell!

Come near me again with talk of how slow I am?!!  Fuck off!!  I do more work than anyone in that building!!

FOR FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fire that stupid bitch!  Fire that woman!  I will never be able to be her baby, his baby, or any baby of any sort!!

Do not forget my last name is Norwegian – we are conquerors of people it is in my blood!  It is not all that I am, but do not forget the Norwegians are the ones that sailed the seas, discovered new lands, and conquered its people.

Isn’t that why they now have the Nobel Peace Prize?  They are still conquering! 

The fight of your life!

Here I had been standing up and fighting and this is the treatment I get in return!

I am not Anne Frank!  I am not for sale!  I am not writing a diary!

Take an M turn it upside-down it is a W.

I will not explain how this happened, I am high as a kite at the moment and coming down not by my own means.  I did not ask or what to get high.  I fucking hate it.  YUCK!!!

There was nothing wrong with any of the Mati Hari family.  Why there are people allowed to be in control creating a false war I have no idea!!!  Simply because they used information incorrectly about Sweden trying to get me to move my car one way or another.  Because that car is more important than me or what I have to say or write.  Do not confuse me flipping off an image because I am mad and writing in my head, or more than fed up with this life.  There was nothing wrong with that family.  It is a European thing, more specifically it is a Scandinavian thing.  It is a Scandinavian quality of life that does not exist – yet – elsewhere that I am aware of.

Let me remind you the Russians freed their Serbs before America freed our slaves.  How France also – before America – freed their citizens of Rulers.  Before America!  It is disgraceful!!

I would like a proper pot of coffee.  I have yet to get a proper and decent cup of coffee.  Homemade boysenberry jam on my country white toast and Irish butter.  Have whatever you would like.  I am having it with a new man.  One I have not yet met or seen.  I am moving on.

Yeah, I would like that breakfast, but I am not eating it!  Probably not eating at all!  DIET!  SICK OF YOUR FUCKING BLOATED FAT BELLIES ON ME!!!!  STAY AWAY FROM ME!

It is exactly what they want this is why they set this life up like this.  Don’t get me started on the stupid lesbian bull-shit!  Fucking mad!

Fight of your life!

It is a good thing you keep that little twat of a boy-man away from me, I would punch his fucking face!  However, how could I?!  I am not able to do that at work! 

Keep that 1, 2, 3 little boy-man away from me!  If he did not have people speaking in his ear telling him what to say, if they did not have this house controlling my brain and thoughts he WOULD NEVER HAVE HAPPENED!

I like the men I like!  I like the physique of a man I like!  I like real, attached, born-straight penis, AND THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT!

Perhaps, tomorrow I will be able to write the cook-out for these lethal men who I am surprisingly comfortable around. 

Guess what?!  It will never be short men!  I like them tall. 

I am moving on.

Because it doesn’t work this way.  Flesh to flesh not mind to mind, or brain to brain.

FIGHT OF YOUR LIFE!

A text is not gay-possible.

Men Only Life – I Am A Straight White Box Only!

No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no for the millionth time and beyond NO.  United Artists are not pockets – EVER!  You do not wipe art.  United Artists are not bums – homeless.  United Artists are not hands.  United Artists are not underwear.  United Artists is not cancer – this was a lie.  United Artists are not children.  United Artists are not babies.

I saw him standing up for the harm a teacher has done to humanity.  I cannot help his age.  His parents, his family was with him.  For the love his parents and family give him.

A painting on my wall is nothing more than a nice painting.  Psychologists, shrinks, head doctors: if you like this painting it means this, if you like this painting, you enjoy this – it is all a bunch a hooey!  I have always believed so.  The brain is a complex thing and organ.  And, some things do not have to be explained or examined.

No, radio Keith you are not correct.  Electrical lock-out – only.  His headphones were not a threat, nor was he carrying or a threat.  I cannot help the color of his skin.  He was a plant asked to stand and nothing more that is why I did not go inside.  Also, I did not go inside to pay because I have been taught to go inside the gas station to pay.

They used the truck weigh station as the means to keep me from choosing other gas.  Plus, I have been schooled into believing it was a trick and nothing more.

It is beyond disgraceful that this life is allowed to continue.

I am so angry, I cannot write or do anything.

I will only ever be a men only woman – EVER!  This does not change.

The only thing I understand about a dolphin is that these years, my surgery were all a lie.  A sham.  I never needed to have surgery it was used as a tool to try and turn me into a lesbian.

I will never be.  I’d rather die.  I’d rather die first than live a false lie.

I do not live or survive off of hands.

I’m so upset I cannot finish this.

Be careful of hand watering it is about a tree.  Nothing more.  Those who understand will, those who know will understand.

It will never be a hand-only life for me.  It will never be a dildo life for me.  It will never be a toy penis life for me – EVER!

I’D RATHER DIE!!!!!!!!!!

You cannot teach a person into becoming a lesbian, you cannot make a person into a lesbian.

This is how the information has been perceived by me, you have stolen, taken years and decades of my life trying to make me a lesbian that I will never become – EVER!  You have deprived me of a sex-life that I want to have, that I enjoy, that I like, that is the only way I work, the only way I function, the only direction I ever go, have gone and ever will go…for what?!  A television show?!

Discriminated against me for being straight.

No, I have to write this because this is how it has been presented to me, you tried to force me into being a lesbian?!  In this day and age, a person, I, have been forced into nothing more than a lesbian lifestyle – it is a lie, a falsehood, a disgrace, disgusting that this has happened to any person especially to me.

I must write this because this is how it has been used and shown to me.  This is the totality of my understanding.  They have used movies as a teaching tool for so many years.  They have used STAR WARS as a means to turn me into a lesbian?!

It is sick, sick, sick, sick, sick, sick, sick, sick, sick, sick that any person has the means and has been able to steal years of my life away.

Black hole?!  That is disgusting.  It is disgusting to me.  I have never lied about my sexuality, you have.

News Flash – I am not gay.  I never will be.

You owe me more than an apology.

Years of my life – gone.  For what?!

I will not turn my vehicle around because of a billboard.  I cannot stand this nonsense where my vehicle has more power, means more, and is greater than I am!

I want my life back.  I am not gay.  I will never be with a woman.

You had to create an environment where you could control my mind, deceive me, and trick me…I am so sickened.  I will not write anymore.

You, you threatened me?!  You, you threatened me at my job?!  You, you threatened my job?!

I who do not have a choice of employment threatened me and my job?!  After everything I have done and given?!  You threatened me?!  I want you gone and fired!  Better yet, give me back my life own up to lying to me and the world all these years.  Confess to the true purpose and nature and agenda of everything around here.  Admit you did wrong.  Acknowledge your deception.  Allow me to move on.  Allow me to live the life I wish to live and not the want I am forced to live.

Because I have never lied about who I am or what I want.  Ever! 

You have.

Understand there is no recovery from this.  It has all been a lie.  There is no way you can make this better.  There is no way I will see all these years I have lost differently.  How could you possibly make these years and my life okay again?  With money?!

YOU HAVE STOLEN MY LIFE?!  You have used me and nothing more.

I was schooled on July 9, 2018 that what I did, what I experience was nothing more than a trick.  How am I ever going to be able to believe again?!

After everything I did, after everything I have given, I was schooled, yet again!

Then, let me get another job, one where I am not threatened into work.

An ill eagle on stairs in South Dakota flew to safety in trees that had been saved from drought by hand-watering.

Straighten that box.

Kaiser Soze is only a mug.  I left film school notions years ago.  Do not repeat.

Gas it Code Adam, remember texting me that you didn’t want a second date there wasn’t enough chemistry?  I remember where I was parked at The Container Store.  Lots of glass windows.  Bye, abdomen.

My blinds closed during the day – not all clear.  It means I am so upset I don’t want to look.

Counting in my head – a bad sign.  It means something terrible has happened.

It never happened.

Of course there are rules.  If there weren’t I could park anywhere without repercussions.  I could use whatever time clock I wanted.  I could drive however I wanted.

I was given instructions by a bald man to not write about my cats.  My boys.  So, I didn’t.

Because there are rules I am not allowed to choose.

I can barely see.