January 27, 2020: READ: A Beautiful Mind

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING AND FRONTAL CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

MAKE SURE THIS GETS TO A MAN WHO ISN’T AFRAID, AND IS WILLING TO TAKE ORDERS FROM A WOMAN, AND THAT WOMAN IS CHERITH GJESTLAND AND NO OTHER!

January 27, 2020

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None of you have learned your lesson.  Your lessons.  So, I’m writing it, again.

Look at Murphy’s face at his face.  Look at his expressive eyes.  Look at his good, sweet face.  He’s a good boy, Murphy is.

Maurice loves to eat his food.  When they get breakfast, whatever time of day that is, Maurice loves to finish everyone’s else’s dish because he loves to eat food.  It is also, normal feline behavior, if a cat was in the wild, they want to make sure they get the most food to survive.  It’s normal.

Lambert just loves to talk as soon as I wake up, talking, talking, talking, talking, until he gets some breakfast, he’s a talker.

Murphy, when he is given his dish of food, he eats his food regardless of the pressure from Maurice and Lambert who want to take his food away, by eating it.

Murphy says, no. 

I know Cherith gave me this food, it is my food, and my dish, I get to have all the food she gave me in this dish; however, I want it because she gave it to me, and Cherith is my person, I love her, and she loves me, and she says, I’m allowed to have all the food in this dish, and I do not care if Maurice or Lambert want to eat my food, I know they are not allowed to have my food because it is my food because Cherith gave it to me.

And, Murphy will look for me, if I am not paying attention while they are eating trying to take his food away, Murphy with this expressive eyes, literally will find me, I am usually in the kitchen, just around the corner from their food, and say, they are trying to take away the food you gave me!

Murphy doesn’t fight Maurice and Lambert because he loves them, and he knows the greater authority, in this instance, is in me.  Not in taking on the matter, himself.

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Look at his face.

Murphy knows he’s allowed the food in the dish; I’ve given him because I’ve given it to him.

It’s a pattern of behavior, it’s a pattern of abuse, it’s a pattern of punishment, and it is not a work, or working plan.  It’s a pattern of revenge, using me, to hurt men, mostly because they were born male, and also because I was born, exceptional.

When I was told to report to the HR on the last day of my employment from my former employer, there was a Hispanic woman in a red workout outfit, staring at the “white board” holding a hot pink water bottle.  This woman is supposed to be the representation of all the women who are responsible for letting me go from my former employment, and also, seeking to DESTROY the reputation of my former employer.  It was their attempt to make sure, through me, Amazon’s reputation would be ruined by creating false accusation against my former employer by creating a false narrative of racism, Jew-hatred, body/fat-shaming my body, and so on, that simply are not true of Jeff Bezos.

It’s a mistake.

Amazon could also file a lawsuit against the women responsible.

The Hispanic woman is meant to show his ex-partner, she is actually this Sona woman, who at this time of the morning, 10:54am, she is still drunk from the night before.  So, the truth is then, when I am seen outside my house with an adult beverage, and alcoholic beverage, it stops her from drinking.  It convicts her of her own, addiction to alcohol, and prevents her from drinking.

What you have then allowed is to create a narrative that I must need to stop being seen with an alcoholic beverage to help these other alcohol dependent persons around me.  When the truth is, me being seen with an alcoholic beverage, prevents and stops them from continuing their addiction.

You’ve allowed it by fattening me, and body shaming me, also.

The red workout outfit on this woman is meant to be this other FBI man, specifically because he is seen in the movie, Zero Dark Thirty, the red color is meant to be my belt, meaning he was supposed to not be seen (although I gave him permission) as having a sexual relationship (hands) with me, by way of these compound women, from Bin Laden’s compound.  That previous sentence should SCREAM WARNING TO YOU!

Any women, and I mean, ANY women preventing me from having a relationship with this other FBI man – because he’s seen in the movie, Zero Dark Thirty as more than one man, as more than one actor – has nothing to do with what crimes he committed, HE REPENTED ALMOST IMMEDIATELY BECAUSE I READ HIM, IT HAS EVERYTHING TO DO WITH – KILLING BIN LADEN.

These compound women, are no longer allowed to follow me, go to church with me, work with me, I want nothing to do with them.  I WON’T ALLOW THEM TO SUBVERT THE UNITED STATES’ EFFORTS IN CAPTURING OR KILLING TERRORISTS!

The hot pink water bottle is meant to be HL, my then, boyfriend.  Meaning these women were preventing and stopping me from having a sexual (hands) relationship with HL, mostly because he frightens them.  And, they have no understanding whatsoever of what brain research does, is, what it is about, how it could happen, nothing.  They have no concept whatsoever of brain research, and that goes for all these women, involved.  They have no concept, whatsoever, of research, let alone, brain research.

Worst of all, you have Meghan Markle being seen as the head of the United States Presidency.  Effectively meaning, you have Meghan Markle working in media, and news stories, and plots, as having removed, by way of my vehicle, and my home, removing President Trump as President of the United States.

You should be asking why a woman such as Meghan Markle, would be in any way interested in not only being seen as the President of the United States, removing, the President of the United States.  It’s a bit grotesque.  To me, in my mind, its grotesque.  Talk about a narcissist.  You might as well have her seen as trying to remove the crown from the Queen of England.  Because she couldn’t.  Because she cannot remove the crown from the Queen of England, you’ve allowed to attempt to remove the President from the White House.

Grotesque.

I have removed your means of communicating with me through the media, and news because it is full of nothing more than doggie diapers.

You have Meghan Markle being seen as having me on a leash, and she walks me around, and I am a dog in her car, and she gets to decide – my underwear.  Meaning, she has me on doggie diapers.  Grotesque.

A married woman, let alone a woman married to another man wants to be seen as having me on a leash?  That’s crazy!  Crazy talk!  I don’t know how to be a woman on my own, crazy!

Somehow Meghan Markle believes that because Cesar Millan has been changed, touched, by me, not physically touched, looked at himself from watching me, that he must be the man I virtually hugged with my father, when the fact is, it was this really sexually attractive military man.

Cesar Millan being involved because he understands and believes what it means to be a leader, especially concerning, men, con men, and the difference between coasts, west coast and east coast of the United States.

Cesar Millan could also have a correlation to the movie Zero Dark Thirty, in the dialogue, you volunteered for this, didn’t you?  Being the SPCA I volunteered for, meaning yes, the SPCA in Lakeland that I chose to work on Sunday’s with the big dogs.  Why?

I needed to do something.  I had been sending my resume all over the place, every day, for hours I would look on-line for jobs after placing my mother in a nursing home, 2012, and look for jobs, employment, and NO ONE EVER RESPONDED – TO ANY JOB APPLICATION, RESUME, I SUBMITTED, UNTIL AFTER I STARTED VOLUNTERRING AT THE SPCA IN LAKELAND AND THE OBAMA CAMPAIGN ELECTION.

NOT UNTIL AFTERWARDS.  AND THE ONLY EMPLOYER WAS A RETAIL STORE THAT ALISHA WAS SUPPOSEDLY A MANAGER AT.

I didn’t get that job either.

I volunteered on Sundays, with the big dogs because most families are together on Sundays, and most people, don’t want to work with the big dogs because they are more work.  Big dogs are scary, they require more physical strength, and a stronger mind, just to get them to – obey you.

I liked the SPCA in Lakeland.  They did a lot of work on the grounds, and buildings, and kennels.  It was not a hole in the wall operation.  Get it?

And, if I  choose, it will probably be the most dangerous, difficult, hard to do work, and not because I am trying to get another person’s job and career because, I know how to do the work better than any of  them, I’ve been doing it longer.

Here is another example of how my father and I differ about money.  Example: Buy the saltshaker: If you are a restaurant and you want to increase your revenue, something as simple as replacing and buying all new saltshakers will increase your revenue by x-fold, or x-amount of dollars.  Perhaps its information you read from a business article, or expert advice from another entrepreneur, or perhaps it is just information you know, and that is why you are a business owner.

If you don’t replace the saltshakers you will still earn a profit from your restaurant, but it won’t be an – exceptional restaurant, and revenue.

I would give the advice to purchase new saltshakers, where my father, who is really not that interested, and is better suited for other work, would tell you, you don’t need to buy saltshakers.

Buy the new saltshakers because the amount of money it takes to purchase the new saltshakers, with the increase in revenue you will (guaranteed) receive, minus the cost of replacing the saltshaker, factor into the equation of if you had not replaced the saltshaker over so many years, blah, blah, blah, do you get it?

I understand this kind of math, without having to show my work to teacher.  I get it.  Like that.  That fast.  Meaning I understand and can see the answer, almost before the question has been asked of me.  It’s been proven, A LOT!          

Something I have said to more people than I can remember, math is a language, its fluid to me in my mind, like a language, and there is an art to it.  Math is not just about knowing the rules of mathematics.  If that were true, more people would know complex and abstract math problems.   

If you take the example of the purchase of saltshakers and apply it to, for instance, intelligence work, I am my father’s daughter, but I am not my father’s mind.  Stop using him, incorrectly, if you want to stay alive.

Zohan, this is for you because this was very personally done to you, this man who was seen here by way of another man, probably a local police man, on September 19, 2019 (and this is the blown out of proportion, pot-bellied, fatted pig bellied man), this man is his to have, or whomever he wants to give him to, and he looks like he is still alive, and he is in hiding.

This man is terminated, he does not get another chance, he does not pass go, he does not get pardoned, by way of ANOTHER PURCHASE THAT WAS DONE, ON PURPOSE!

HE DOES NOT GET PROTECTION; HE DOES NOT GET TO HIDE!

Did you know this, Zohan?

I doubt they had any idea when they “required” the replacement of a part on my air-conditioner.

He is not a US citizen, he is not Palestinian, he is not Israeli, he is not French.  They rest about him; is better I don’t tell you; I don’t write.

Both David and HL were seen at my front door, at this walkway to my front door, with HL in front of me, and David at my back.  The truth is it looks like you have Meghan Markle as seen as a black man; executing both David and HL.

I suggest, you have someone work that because it does NOT get to happen.

HL is so upset that I broke up with him, and he did not see that coming.  I did the adult thing, the grown-up thing, he slept with another woman, in the flesh, when he had a choice, and I STILL don’t have a choice.  The grown-up thing to do is break up with him.

Just like having an abortion to a man who had no idea what he had gotten himself involved in, by way of American citizenship with a baby being born on US soil, was the adult thing to do because no one was protecting me.  They were going to let it happen, kill me, my baby, MWB, my handlers, and my family.  I had a choice to make, and I chose self-defense in advance.  Most likely, because more than anything no one yet knew about – brain research.  Certainly not enough, and not enough that believed in me.

Not because I didn’t want children or love children, and probably the biggest reason they took my child-bearing years away from me – brain research.

I was never in my mind “factually” married to him, HL, I described how I felt about him.  Both David and HL because they have slept with other women, reconciling their actions in my mind, is something I won’t allow.

I am not able to reconcile it in my mind.

I won’t love them less, yet I will not love the same way, again.  I might not love them at all again.  Not like I had before.  Wanting a life with them. And, HL did not realize, I would have such an effect upon him.

HL gets to have emotions, he gets to be upset when something has hurt his feelings, or he believes a person to be criminal, and so on.  HL gets to have emotions.  He does not frighten me.  He is not scary to me because I actually SEE him.

I know, he’s done really bad things, killed people, and the possibility of him re-creating his crimes, should exist, yet, when did you get to be an expert in BRAIN RESEARCH?!

I do not see where HL got a thrill or was excited by killing people.  He does really enjoy sex, probably because he’s pretty good at it.  That is hardly the same thing, at all.

UNTIL ANY OF YOU FUCKING MORONS GET TO BE SCHOOLED BY ME, TAUGHT BY ME, ABOUT BRAIN RESEARCH, YOU GET TO STAND THE FUCK DOWN BECAUSE YOU DON’T KNOW, WHAT YOU DON’T KNOW, AND NOT A GODDAMN ONE OF YOU, YET, HAS ANY COMPREHENSION, OF THE – MAGNITUDE – THE DEVASTATION, THAT IS CAUSED, BY BRAIN  RESEARCH, AND YOU ARE ALL ALLLOWING  YOURSELVES TO BE – FOOLED, BY IT!  WHEN I WON’T BE!

HL is mad, and mad at me for breaking up with him, and just mad and angry, it’s ok.  It’s normal.  It’s a normal reaction to have in a breakup.  I’m okay with it.  Why are you morons, worried about it?! 

If HL scares you at all, you are not on my team.  And, I never agreed to work, again.  I never approved MP to be on my team.  I wrote he knows how to spot people, good and bad people, I never approved him to work – with me.

First thing MP does is allow or align this drug-addict female, to “hurt me” at my house?  He just disqualified himself.  He is not and has not been seen as a guardian or protector – of me.  Just because he is former military does not mean – I would place him on my team, as a protector.  You morons want to continue following and copying after a movie, or do you want to do real work?

I SWEAR TO FUCKING CHRIST, IF YOU DON’T STOP FUCKING AROUND WITH THIS FBI MAN, YOU AIN’T GOING TO MAKE IT!  FBI MAN, THIS STUPID BITCH OF A WOMAN IS TRYING TO REPLACE YOU, SHE LOOKS LIKE SHE WANTS TO DIE, TO ME!

GET THIS FBI MAN’S TEAM BACK OVER HERE, OR YOU AIN’T GOING TO MAKE IT!  OR LEAVE ALL THESE INTELLIGENCE PERSONS – OUT OF HERE!

DO YOU KNOW WHAT THIS FBI MAN SAYS TO ME?!  HE IS NOT INTENSE – ENOUGH!

HE AND OTHERS (MEN) COULD BE – MORE INTENSE!  SO, SHUT THE FUCK UP!  STAND THE FUCK DOWN, YOU DON’T KNOW A GODDAMN THING ABOUT MILITARY STRATEGY!

YOU MORONS DON’T HAVE A FUCKING CLUE STILL OF WHAT IT MEANS TO STAND AT THE GODDAMN WALL WITH SUCH A FUCKING HARD-ON YOUR FUCKING ENEMY SURRENDERS – AT THE SIGHT OF YOU!

I DO!  I KNOW!  I’VE FUCKING DONE IT!  MORE THAN ONCE, MORE THAN TWICE, MORE THAN THREE AND FOUR TIMES!

SURRENDERS!  AT THE SIGHT OF YOU!  WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK KEYSER SOZE IS?!  THE FUCKING TOOTH-FAIRY?!

YOU DON’T SEE THE VALUE OF A KEYSER SOZE, I want nothing to do with you.

It’s not where I would place him, if I ever approved him to be on my team.  I would not place him on guard duty.

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What do you see when you look at this photo?  Who stands out the most?  Who looks the most important?  Most interesting?  Most threatening?

Intelligence has their programs and training to tell them what to see and how to think. 

This is what I see: Reg stands out in the grey turtleneck.  Yet, that’s all he says, reads.

Big Daddy, Wesley, the man who played the role, Big Daddy, in Cat on A Hot Tin Roof, with the vest, and two women on each arm, stands out, he looks charming, and that’s about it.  Attractive, yes, mostly, charming.

The man sitting with me in the chair, on my right, looks like a Steven Surrency proxy, and he reads as comfortable with me, fine, happy, enjoyable, and respectful.

Thomas with the ballcap on looks manly.

However, to me, David stands out the most.  Head, head, head, head, head, head, head, head, he reads head, all over the place.  Head, meaning, brain, thinking, thinker, brain.  Yes, he’s handsome, and attractive, fit, yet to me, he says, brain, mind, thinker, HEAD.

Do you know what nickname I gave David, in college?  Bam-bam.  I nicknamed David, Bam-bam.  Who is Bam-bam in the cartoon, the Flintstones?  Bam-bam, is the strongest boy in the (Flintstone’s) world.  He’s so strong, he can pick up any object, and Bam-bam!  Beat people up.  Bam!  Bam!  Bam!  Bam!

What moron failed to notice the reason(s) I nicknamed David, Bam-bam?  And, why it would be important for me, to have the strongest, mentally and physical, male?  Since, none of you morons have been working from a place of creating a safe place for me to work from?

Bam!  Bam!  He’s definitely, a Bam-bam!

He’s still Bam-bam, just…he’s gotten better, his responses have gotten better, more refinement in his understanding.  And, I see nothing wrong with him being, a Bam-bam!  He’s good at it, and he likes it.

HL is similar in that he has a very strong physical presence, and I am not frightened by it, swayed by it, moved by it, altered by it, in fact I enjoy the fact that he has such a strong physical presence. 

The same goes for every intelligence man, I’ve worked with.  The ones I’ve liked anyway.  This FBI man is a good model, he is my kind of man I would want to work with, a by-God, damn hotshot.  Meaning, a man willing to go all the way to God, to get his man.  It’s a matter of ethics, to me.

I want to know why you haven’t moved Meghan Markle out, and HL into the unit across from my front door.  Because he doesn’t want to be friends with me, or work with me, or someone else wants HL out of the way?

Bust your head wide open.

He asked, so I’ll answer and let people know, the truth is, I prefer a more traditional church, a wear your Sunday best church, a sing the same songs from a hymnal of 500 pages, over and over, or years and decades until its rote.  A preacher who preaches from the bible, yet, I really enjoy a good fire in the belly Sunday service.

A good fire in the belly Sunday service is meant to inspire you all the week until you go back the following Sunday.  So, I am traditional, yet unconventional.  And, there has been a movement of contemporizing Christian churches, and Sunday churches.

I don’t care if people wear their fanciest clothes, or jeans and t-shirts to church, I’m from California.  Truth, and true story, California, 1989, at church, I have a snapshot in my mind, of one person wearing beach flip-flops, casual, beach-like clothes, and the person across the aisle, dressed like me, in “Sunday” clothes.  And, no one cared.  That’s California, to me.  Who cares?!  That’s, also, how I grew up.

And, I know I look silly, and foolish maybe, yet I don’t want to sit still and calmly observe the grace of God, I WANT TO JUMP FOR JOY, AND SING FROM THE ROOFTOPS OF GLORIOUS WONDERS!

Truthfully, I don’t go to church for God, I go for me.  I don’t have to go to church to be seen by God.  So, I also don’t feel I have to go every week, although it is a good – habit.  As part of a routine.  It is not a requirement.

HL must be a good speaker.  I only repeat the prayers because people, are looking for it.  It does not change my mind, or my relationship with God.  He knows who I am.

Bust your head wide open, is truly, the beginning of the movie, A Beautiful Mind.

Bust your head wide open, is the murder plot, meant to look like suicide, or derangement, that is very real, and happened to the real John Nash.

Are the dates in the movie, A Beautiful Mind, correct?  He seems, much younger.  If only his mind, is younger, than his physical body.

He says its fast, by the way.  John Nash says, my reaction, and reaction time is fast, and much faster than probably he anticipated, and then they’ve been able to keep up with or understand and understood.  He’s probably never seen anything like me before, and it’s likely no one, ever will again.

How many times has this FBI man been passed over?  Passed over for advancement or transfers?  Especially, out of state?  How many times?

She’s a loose cannon.  She gets cut loose, in my mind, she doesn’t get to follow, she doesn’t get to be involved, she doesn’t get included in any of the work BECAUSE SHE’S NOT GOOD ENOUGH.

I would make a requirement, if I were to agree to want to continue working with intelligence, that is an all-male team, and their wives, and girlfriends do not get to be included, or involved in the process and in the work.

Are all of John Nash’s delusions of people, female?  Is this true?  His delusions are real, he is not schizophrenic.  I know, I also, must be crazy to see and know things, that are contrary to medical science, or perceived “experts”, yet John Nash does not look to me to be, schizophrenic.  It’s close, it has a lot of the symptoms, behaviors, yet it is not schizophrenia.

If my neighbor’s in Plant City, were purposefully placed because their son had schizophrenia, it’s why I never really responded to those neighbor’s.  I liked them.  Yet, it makes more sense, now, they were looking for a response from me because they had a schizophrenic son, yet, John Nash, is not schizophrenic.  Not in my mind.

John Nash’s delusions of people are real, and they are pretty scary.  It’s about the equivalent of the neighbor’s in the movie, The Burbs.  Did you just hack people up and bury them in your backyard?  Most people would not want to be neighbors with a neighbor they believed did and able to hack people and bury them in their backyard.  It’s about how his delusions, feel to John Nash in his mind.

The reason, the delusions look friendly, affable, likeable, is just for the storytelling purpose of John Nash’s life.

It looks like a precaution and not actually, factual.  It does not look like John Nash really ever drank to excess, I’m sure he’s had a hangover, and gone out drinking with buddies, yet, one night, is not a lifetime of decisions.  Meaning, just because a person, for instance, does not count how many alcoholic beverages they had in one night does not make them, in the future, not in control of their alcoholic consumption.

John Nash looks like he is able to have alcoholic beverages, if he chooses not to because of what he has been told, and how he’s lived, and functioned, that’s ok.  However, I do not believe his delusions are brought on by stress or alcohol consumption.  In fact, this information might help his wife also, she was going by what the doctor’s told her because, she also, had to have an explanation for his actions and behavior.

So, excluding stress, and stressful factors out of John Nash’s life, are not completely, untruthful, they would only help him; however, John Nash, must also know this, he knew more about his own condition than all the doctor’s, or his wife, or children.  And, he is correct.

It’s probably why because this also looks true, it’s taken him decades to be able to think through all the damage they did to his brain.  B-rain.  The Rainmaker, those are eyeballs.  Two eyes.

Here is more proof: is this correct?  When I saw President Trump, then not long afterwards, to my right, I IMMEDIATELY WENT HULK FUCKING MAD!  LIKE TEN FEET TALL, FIVE HUNDRED POUNDS OF PURE MUSCLE, BEAT THE LIVING SHIT OUT OF THAT FUCKING THREAT – MAD?!  And, the real John Nash, got an erection upon seeing my reaction?  Is this correct?

Don’t read so much into it, if this is correct, not every erection a man gets is, sexually.  Most of men’s erections, probably close to sixty or eighty percent of men’s erections, are a mental erection.  It’s normal, and a really good thing for them to have.  A mental erection.  It’s who they are. 

We are a polite society, we want men to have erections the best way to describe this is this, we want them to have mental erections, we’ve evolved into a society of people who have asked men to put their erections away, with our fashions, for instance, so we can get some fucking work done.  That’s all.

I would caution people to be careful of the difference between strong men with erections and turning into a society of gentrified, genderless men.  A male erection is a beautiful thing.  Not that I’ve been allowed to see my husband’s (because I’m not married) erection.  It certainly is nothing to be ashamed of.

If the real John Nash got an erection upon seeing me lose my fucking mind with anger and rage – at this threat – the proof that his erection was a good thing, is this…I’ve already vanquished  brain research, as a teen-ager, about thirteen years of age.  I beat that motherfucker up in my sleep, in my dream, in my mind, and then, I killed him.  And, placed my alive and living family members back where they belonged, in their beds, safely asleep.

If the real John Nash got an erection upon seeing my ANGER response to the “threat” that no one else was allowed to see, it’s because the truth is, he has been so frightened and scared, not of himself, he is not scared of himself, so frightened and afraid, of not knowing the truth of what was happening to him, and what happened to him.

If he got an erection it is because I KILLED THE BOOGEYMAN IN FRONT OF HIM, HIS WORST NIGHTMARE, THE SCARIEST OF SCARY, AND IT ALLOWED HIM TO, PROBABLY, FEEL SAFE, IN A WAY, HE HAS NEVER FELT, PERHAPS IN SO LONG, HE FORGOT WHAT IT FELT LIKE.

I’m not mad at him, if he got an erection, and I doubt his wife is really that worried or concerned about it.  Perhaps, the only reason I have to write about is so the children pretending to adults, SHUT THE FUCK UP!

He looks afraid, John Nash in the movie, A Beautiful Mind, he looks, afraid, afraid, afraid, afraid, and when he starts yelling at people, and looking crazy and delusional, I see a frightened man.

I am not a doctor, I don’t have medical degrees, I am not an intelligence officer, yet I believe, I know things, most people do not, that does not make me crazy, arrogant, delusional, or insane.  It makes me correct, when others are not.

Is this correct because it looks as though what really got John Nash into Princeton, was the paper he wrote that happens about the middle of the movie?

What happened to John Nash, was very personal.  By one man, personal towards, John Nash, and not the government.  It looks true that John Nash was working on top secret, governmental work, and when John Nash was discovered as having mental, or health problems, they covered their (the US government) tracks.  And, it is possible for them to do that, without anyone being aware of it.

I’m sorry, it looks true.  It looks like John Nash, was working on governmental work, and he probably didn’t get to work, for very long.  It also, looks like such a disappointment to the US government.  The loss of his mind.  A loss. And, it does not look like he was working on codes, or decoding, it looks like he really, truthfully, doesn’t know anymore.

This, people don’t like me, I don’t like people much that is repeated in the movie, A Beautiful Mind, looks like a misperception.

This is what it looks like to me from the movie, A Beautiful Mind, it looks like, competition, for John Nash’s real wife.  It looks a professor at the University with John Nash, who had a delusion about John Nash’s wife, and probably did not want John Nash to have any women to be his wife, just from envy over John Nash’s mind and ability.

It looks like it started about the time John Nash started dating his now, wife.  It looks like he was both poisoned and brain researched.  I know that must seem crazy, yet that is what it looks like, and the poisoning is not reversable.  It is also, permanent damage.

The brain research looks like, in this instance, was used not to create criminal activity, it was used to get him killed, by suicide, or deranged behavior, like jumping into the middle of a busy street and traffic.

It’s rather sinister.  For a professor of such a standing, social standing, to be so little as being envious of another man’s mind, it goes along with the movie, The Moulin Rouge, and driven mad with jealousy.

This professor would not have stopped with John Nash’s delusions.  I would need more information, and there is something that says, hospital.  Hospitals.  Death.  It would also, most likely, make this professor, a serial killer, over decades.  And, the way to catch that would be to find the misappropriation of funds.

The movie suggests that John Nash has only had “episodes” when one person is present.  Most likely, when this professor retired, and was no longer on campus every day, John Nash started getting better, and better.

It is possible there was some sort of high frequency to cause the episodes of delusion.  Similar to a dog whistle, yet more sophisticated.

It also, looks like it gave this professor great pleasure to see John Nash, diminished so.  Sick.

It is similar to what they did with me and MWB, creating a reaction in me to be terrified because a man was physically abusive to me.  Because I have such a brilliant mind.  And, it only looks like envy, of another person’s mental abilities.

For instance, I have no idea why you morons act the way you do, a person, a man like HL, and these mental midgets, gets frightened, afraid, and their way to control it is to sedate, drug because they are not able to – think.

More crazy plots, I don’t believe that John Hinckley Jr, was so obsessed with Jodie Foster that he attempted to assassinate a President for her.  I think, he was paid.  It’s how he looks.  Bought off.

Hinckley looks depressed, low self-esteem, and maniacal.  If anyone read him this way, and paid him off, they manipulated him into believing a delusion, about himself.

This has also had me wondering about all the crime I’ve seen reported on the news.  There had been such a number of bank robberies, in this area within the last two decades.  It seems unusual.

Recall the lessons of Adam Smith, the father of modern economics, in competition, individual ambition serves the common good from, A Beautiful Mind, what does this say to anyone else?  Because it is the sum of the whole movie.  Does it look like code to anyone?  Can you decipher it?

To me, the word, Smith, stands out, yet is also, not that important.  The only word, I see, is…common.

Think about that word, common, the movie, a Beautiful Mind, and John Nash, for a while.

Common.  Did someone seek revenge against John Nash because they perceived him to be, common, and not bred, into – privilege, or bred into having a remarkable mind?

Worried about you, from Zero Dark Thirty, code: worried, University of Alabama.

Is that ok, is that ok to say, Zero Dark Thirty, goes together with, is that order okay, in Zero Dark Thirty.  The word is order.  Meaning, foreign persons because I do not see any Americans with worry or concern for what happened to my family, not even with what happened with MWB, order, meaning, foreign persons believed my mother’s strokes, were – hits, orders to hurt her, intentionally.

Is that ok, from Zero Dark Thirty, I have not seen one intelligence person who understand non-American, foreign persons, the way I understand them.  Is it ok?  They are referring to my, vagina.  There have been foreign persons, foreign governments who were concerned, I was not a happy woman because I was not married, and they were correct, are correct, and America, got it wrong.

Furthermore, you morons allowed these hicks to believe something that wasn’t true, like they are all evil because of the country of their birth and their religion.  When they were – trying to help you.

If this true, the real MP had never seen me go, Hulk Fucking Mad before with a real threat, that is not my fault.  And, he may be able to spot people, he also has a lot to learn about – life.

I was facing bullets, as well.  They took out my mother because I helped intelligence.  Soldiers are not the only Americans whose lives are in danger.  They’ve taken thirty years of my life because they DO NOT SEEM ABLE TO WORK UNLESS I DO THEIR WORK FOR THEM.

I don’t believe I want to work with the military or intelligence, anymore.  Forty-eight years is longer than most of their careers.  And, I am really tired of someone else getting the credit, money, and acknowledgement of the work, I’ve done.

My mother’s 1999 stroke, and subsequent strokes in 2005, 2006, were all efforts to prevent intelligence and Washington, DC, kills, by Americans, not foreigners, or foreign persons, or those you were and are fighting in Afghanistan, that threat, and what happened to my mother, was from Americans.

It goes like this, I was supposed to graduate from HCC in the year 2000, graduate from FSU, the capital of Florida, in 2003.  David got to go in my place to FSU.  David is from New York.  They were mad that I was not being loved, AND they wanted me, not another man, and NOT ANOTHER WOMAN, ME.

And, now, you can’t have me.

You also, have another plot within local law enforcement that just looks like its been allowed to perpetuate, and it is not really that personal; however, it is being –  God, how boring, used again, to subvert the efforts of Washington, DC getting their kills, that would mean, domestic terrorism, to perpetuate more wars, and – EXTEDNING UNDER-QUALIFIED, AND ILL-EQUIPPED PERSONS WHOM I WOULD NEVER APPROVE, ALLOW, OR GIVE INFORMATION TO, JUST TO FUCK SHIT UP, RATHER THAN  GET FUCKING WORK DONE.

It goes like this, and it looks like Sona does use local law enforcement as a cover, and manipulate them, it goes together with the Department of Motor Vehicles, starting in 1986 when I moved to Florida.

And, worse, this is not a profile of one person, this is a profile of a working plan that has been in place, only for the benefit of the state of Florida’s – budget.  So, this would be a group of persons.

You’re looking for men, with daughters, and this other FBI man, I have already excluded, men with daughters, and they are using me, as a surrogate daughter.

The daughter would be loved yet seen as a – slut.  And, in most instances, married to a straight man.

The father, my father, is a decoy.  Don’t follow that.

1999, one, 2003, two, 2005, three, spell the word mother, place an X over each letter, M, O, T, (Japhia Mott), and you get – her.  That her, is me.

Spell the word brother, place an X over the letter T, that looks like a cross, and you have, bro, her.  Still me, all about, me.  Rob, her.

My brother’s car accident meant to look like they really wanted him, over-confidence.  They still want and wanted me.  Boring.

This is a chronic alcoholic, a dry-drunk.

Depressed.  Depression.  Chronic depression.

Drug use.

Dingy clothing.  Nothing ever really new, and new looking.  Brand new.  Store-bought, brand new.

Not active, not an athlete, not fit, not in shape, not muscular.

They have access.

Poor and bad money manager.  Little income to savings ratio.  Very little retirement has no real savvy in financial investments like real estate, so if they are a homeowner, their home is valued at nearly the same as it was when they purchased it.

Disconnected from reality.  Of a young daughter turned into a mature woman.

The role of the Department of Motor Vehicles is just used to create an image of a real person, being the vehicle, it’s not really true.  Or truthful; however, they use the distance between when and where I park, and how and how far away I go from my vehicle, as a sort of metaphor because its not real, not even in the mind of the person who created this.

I walk away from my vehicle, and I “show” rejection by walking away, to go to work, or church, or a movie, or wherever, then I return to my vehicle, and they punish me for being away.  And, then they repeat the cycle again, for decades.

And, yes, this complex does, reek, of under-cover work, like local law enforcement work, probably just done because my mind, and the work I’ve already done, is WELL BEYOND THEIR SKILL, PAY-GRADE AND YEARS.

It’s done to humiliate and punish me for being, exceptional.  And, wanting to date, and have a sexual relationship with a straight man because I have wanted not much more than to get married since a young girl.

And, they really would have done profile work on me in 2013 that would have shown me as a really great match for a really top military man.  His second marriage, a divorced man because of my age, and how good it would look on my husband having a wife that was so fucking hot because I took care of myself better than you’ve allowed me to look, than Franco has allowed me to be, AND, I was a woman that spent years taking care of an elder parent?  It’s almost like money, it would be such a power couple.

This is my gym, meaning Franco, I looked better and was really fucking hot, in 2012, 2013 when I took care of myself, without you people.

And the only reason for the garage sale and David handing me the information about The Crossing Church, Grenier wanted out.  It’s a reason actors are actors, they work only a few months at a time, not years and years, and decades.

And, David is also, better at this.  With me.  He has ambition, but he’s lost interest because he’s been so hurt.  He also, has a lack of focus.  Mostly from disinterest.  I don’t really think David has any interest in filming, film, or television.  Honestly, he looks sick of it.

This all says, local police and law enforcement being used to subvert the efforts of using me to get Washington DC, their kills.

I know I’ve been observed the last few days, and no, I don’t really care what his opinion is of me.  One quality of mine that is probably most unusual, is me, knowing and believing in myself, for instance, that I am better at this, like getting targets to kill, I believe is a talent of mine, not something I was born with like translating, it’s a talent, and I believe I am better at it than anyone, yet, I am also, devoid of an inflated ego, or exaggerated perception of myself which is probably present in a lot of intellectual, academic minds, yet also, I do not allow myself this notion because I know it will interfere in my work, and working that will bring me, less than the best.

Also, I am much more complex than, a comedian.  Perhaps, I laugh because the reality is so frightening  one laughs to avoid the threat, perhaps I laugh because it is real, perhaps I laugh to make others feel better, perhaps I laugh because I like it, perhaps I laugh as strategy, perhaps I laugh because I know I am smarter than you, perhaps I laugh because I know you will die, perhaps I laugh for reasons, you cannot factor into a program.

You want me to be worried, concerned, know whether or not I am going to pass your test or not, when you have never passed mine?

This is what I know, my lack over-inflated ego, is probably about the most desirous quality a man, especially a criminal man, WANTS.  It makes me a woman, that drink of water, when a man is lost in the desert about to die.

It makes me more desirable than the most beautiful woman in all the world, any man could ever want or create.  Physically more beautiful than the most sculpted, leaned, zero cellulite, perfect skinned flawless beauty in all the world.

All because of my – mind.

They want me to believe they are finally going to work me intelligently, that there is a promise of a better future than the one they have allowed me, that I should want it so much I would want to make sure I “pass their test”.

Well, I don’t believe them.

I made sure, they were aware I don’t believe them anymore that I turned off all media and news.  I won’t read the news anymore.

This 360 life, can’t follow me around anymore.  It is not intelligent.  And, something I’ve never wanted.  Probably the real reason David is was so willing to spend all these years with me, he likes this work.  Bam-bam does.  He’s pretty good at this work, usually, he could be better.  It’s also, probably, more satisfying work, than filming.

Are you going to make a move, or are you going to dance all night with your hand on my ass?

No, I don’t believe you people anymore.

The truth is, I already told this man, everything he needs to know.  Do you want to know what that is?  You don’t need to know; you aren’t cleared for this conversation.

FUCK OFF!

Why am I not losing weight?!

Someone wants people to know they are trying to get me to stop walking outside (smoking).  By weight gain.  FBI?!

Am I the only person who believes and is interested in brain research?

Because brain research, I did not vanquish brain research by calmly telling the bad guy trying to kill me, to drop his weapon.

He had already just by being there with intent – to kill me, and already having killed my family, shown to be a threat, so in dealing and working with brain research, you don’t calmly tell the boogey-man, if he would be so kind, please go away.  You go HULK, snowman BIG mad, and kill them if you must.

Perhaps, I am the only one that believes.

I guess that’s why I am not working with you, anymore.

Why did they turn off my electricity again?

GET HER IN A FUCKING PROGRAM! BAKER ACT HER IF YOU HAVE TO! SHE’S SPENDING MONEY HERE AT THE HOA JUST TO BE NEAR ME! SHE’S FUCKING MY BRAIN UP, FUCKING SHIT UP BECAUSE SHE CANT! BE AWARE: I HAVE NO PATIENCE OR TOLERANCE FOR ADDICTS INCLUDING ALCOHOLICS! THEY THRIVE OFF OF UNDERSTANDING, SYMPATHY, AND COMPASSION LIKE GREEDY LITTLE WHORES NEVER ABLE TO – ACCEPT! ACCEPT A COMPLIMENT, ACCEPT CRITICISM, ACCEPT LOVE, OUTAGE, ANYTHING! I HAVE ZERO TOLERANCE FOR ADDICTS! DEAL WITH IT!

Forrest Gump

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING AND FRONTAL CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

MAKE SURE THIS GETS TO A MAN WHO ISN’T AFRAID, AND IS WILLING TO TAKE ORDERS FROM A WOMAN, AND THAT WOMAN IS CHERITH GJESTLAND AND NO OTHER!

 

January 25, 2020

Million-dollar buttock wound from Forrest Gump is…

Soap Lake

…again, how old was I?  Pay no attention to the right buttock, it’s been poorly edited.

Million dollars wound, I’ve never seen the money from it, I still remember this man, to my back right, I CHECKED!

Because I about lost my fucking mind.  Like hulk mad, lost my mind.  It goes together with, Hello, my name is Inigo Montoya, you killed my father, prepare to die, from Princess Bride, and that really says, Russian Jew, another way to describe brain-speaking, inaudible, or in this instance, a man, just looking at a photograph of a dead military man, probably a top official, I don’t believe he spoke, or anything, just looked at a photograph, was nearby me, and I obviously knew this dead man because the read is, WHO KILLED THIS MAN?!

Looks like they got to die because of it.  Probably a top-ranking US military official that died in a POW camp after the Vietnam war, that Vietnam did not disclose was still in use, after the war.  So, they got to die because of it.

It would violate, the terms and conditions, of the end of the Vietnam war, wouldn’t it?!

I would have really liked him; he was a good man.  Anyone want to research this?  For his family?  His family believed he died, MIA, Missing In Action, he didn’t.  He would have died several years, after the end of the Vietnam war.  Looks like three of four years after the end of the Vietnam war.  He was probably captured about 1972.  Somewhere near Thanh Pho Quy Nhon, is this true?

January 25, 2020: READ: WARNING: WORLD OF HURT!

BE ADVISED: THE FOLLOWING AND FRONTAL CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT.

MAKE SURE THIS GETS TO A MAN WHO ISN’T AFRAID, AND IS WILLING TO TAKE ORDERS FROM A WOMAN, AND THAT WOMAN IS CHERITH GJESTLAND AND NO OTHER!

 

January 23, 2020

Somebody get me a glass of ice water, would you.  You’re going to need it where this is going.

Ice.  Put it in a glass, clear glass, not any stupid, funny, colored glasses, about yeh big, put clean water in it, and give it to me.

HL you get that FBI man, and as many other FBI men like him, or men like him, that know how to be intense, or intimidate, or scare the fucking bejeeses out of criminals, and you let them put a world of hurt on all these people.  That have hurt you.  With no just cause, for no reason, and literally to use another person, as a toy, or pet.

HL you let them put the world of hurt on them.  They brought it upon themselves with their actions, that their front doors are being shown for their shameful actions!

HL you let them put the world of hurt on them!  I also, give you permission to let them.

Yeah, Franco and Harry, step down.  Resignation accepted.  That also includes, spray painting as a “management technique”.

Do you want to know why?

Noel Stepfather profile and news story is very true and looks like their new number one I caught in 2013 while I was employed in 2013.  Do you want to know what a bad fucking dude, this guy was?  Think of all the adjectives possible for a really mean, terrible, and bad dude.  That’s Noel.  I helped them catch, in 2013.

It goes together with the code in 13 Hours for Chief’s orders.  Chief’s, code, CH, my sign name I used when writing to my mother after her stroke, if, se, code, when (if) Cherith sees, you get the orders.

I saw Noel, you got the go orders to get that mother fucker, and where was that?  At the elfa station, at the design station, and the computers, when no one else was around, TO SHOW THE GODDAMN ALARM!

I actually do not know this person, also.  Who showed me Noel.

You guys catch one terrorist every few years, and that’s it?!  Because recently, I been worked multiples in a day, whatever time of day that is.

And, seen too many guys naked from Zero Dark Thirty means, had to kill too many men, and that means, you didn’t have enough staff, around – me.

You let that lunatic create a scenario of burn it down to the ground, meaning my employment, just because I got you your new number one.  Downgrading me to human interest stories instead of terrorist killer.  It’s been a model that has been happening since, 1989.  It’s not a sustainable model or scenario.  It’s not sustainable.  You need longevity, stability, permanence.  Unless, you don’t want to have a strong base from which to work.

There were multiples on President Trump from what I saw, multiple men, and they ALL read, THEY DIDN’T KNOW.  Everyone of them, including, this FBI man.

And, this other really genius man you brought in to observe me, disqualified himself, on purpose.  He’s really, really smart, probably genius level.   He really knows how to handle himself as an adult and around other really intelligent persons.  He tested me.  And, I do not pass him because his focus, is not where it was supposed to be.

He did it on purpose, most likely, because of where the money came from, for the loan of his services.

Because, again, someone I don’t trust brought this man to me, I WON’T EVEN WRITE A GODDMAN THING ABOUT WHAT HE’S SAID, THINKS, KNOWS ABOUT, OR ANYTHING!

YOU MOTHERFUCKERS EITHER DO THIS SHIT FOR REAL, OR NOT AT ALL!  BECAUSE IF I AM ACTUALLY TO DO THIS WORK, I WON’T HAVE FUCK ABOUTS, I WON’T HAVE THE SAME GODDAMN C-O-P-I-E-S OF ANOTHER MAN’S WORK THAT HAS BEEN HAPPENING – SONA BECAUSE YOU DON’T HAVE A FUCKING CLUE HOW TO FUCKING WORK, OR YOU WOULDN’T HAVE TO ASK, I WON’T HAVE THE PURPOSEFUL ‘MISTAKES’ HAPPENING SO MORE MISTAKES HAPPEN, AND MORE MISTAKES HAPPEN, AND MORE MISTAKES HAPPEN, SO YOU ALL ONLY GET FURTHER AND FURTHER AND FURTHER AWAY FROM THE TRUTH, AND THE REAL THREAT!  I WON’T ALLOW THIS DUMB, STUPID, GRIFTING TO CONTINUE – EITHER!

THESE COUNTRIES ALL KNOW MY GODDAMNN NAME NOW, THERE IS NO MORE SECRET SPYING ON MY HOUSE, EVERYONE KNOWS ME.  SO, IF A COUNTRY NEEDS HELP, AND THEY DO NOT TRUST YOUR GUYS, HOW ABOUT YOU LET ME TALK TO THEM, INSTEAD!

INSTEAD OF SEND SOME MONEY AROUND THIS WAY, TO GET IT TO THAT WAY, TO GET OVER HERE, TO BE SEEN BY THIS GUY, TO GO THIS WAY, TO HAVE IT FINALLY MAKE ITS WAY TO PAPER REPORT THAT GETS FILED AWAY AND NEVER SEEN.

I didn’t wash this Sona woman (Harry and Franco, also) off on purpose.  This hair obsession (because you don’t wash newly colored hair, hair that has been colored shouldn’t be washed for about 72 hours, any moron could tell you that) people have been allowed to manipulate, this bum obsession people have of my bum also, that been allowed to turn, disproportioned, I also, did not wash off on purpose because they’ve all lied.

They were allowed to let me go at my former employer because HL and I were getting along, really well.  So well, in fact that I would mentally place my head upon his chest every night, whatever time of day that was, snuggle into him, and fall asleep.  Who else had access to this information?  Because it was spoken out loud to me on one of my breaks at m y former employer.

Then, Harry shows up at my employment, with displaying – just his chest?

Someone want to explain their motives before this world of hurt happens to them?!  Did you allow yourselves to take direction, from a lunatic?!

That British (location and actions caused also) man that sent me from the level of, no, I’m fine, to HULK-FUCKING-MAD (because that is the best equivalent to how BIG my reaction goes), in a public place, where I am not allowed to scream my fucking head off (quite frustrating), yell, cuss, whatever, the most polite way to write it, it is so unbelievably, inappropriate.

It is not the time, not the place, not the way, to work.  Everyone knows it.  They also know there is a better way.  The risk of exposure to so many people and countries, for, um, starters, is another uncontrollable.  No matter how much you work to protect these people, you’ve unnecessarily exposed people, countries, governments, when it could have been done, subtlety.

Subtlety, meaning not in public.  Because it is also, not exposing, for instance, double agents, or I would have been given his ex-partner, to read.

Readers do it in person.

You’ve also, allowed, and when I write, allowed, I mean, FORCED, HL has gained weight.  He’s been made to gain weight, meaning fat and flab, probably.  The only reason, I liked him, just the way he was.  Just like David, I liked David just the way he was, and I NEVER asked or wanted him to CHANGE.

Crooked teeth and all, I didn’t care, I liked him for who he was, David.  He didn’t need to change, for me.

They made HL gain weight, so I wouldn’t like him anymore.  In an attempt to get me to not like him, sexually, anymore.

You people realize this man is a, lunatic.  This British man is a lunatic.  A lunatic.  Lunatic.  Lunatic.

Something else you haven’t been paying attention to, me sleeping, or having an alcoholic beverage has been one way of shutting you people out, meaning, my way of creating a buffer between you and me.  You’re too goddamn close.  Give me some fucking room.  It’s like having someone talking to you 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 365 days a year with their face pressed against your face.  Back the fuck up.  No one lives like that.  Not even people who really love each other.

Husbands, wives, those people who really loves their spouses, would you still love them if you were FORCED to speak to them with their face pressed against your face, 24/7/365?

You got a problem, I mean a real problem if any person, especially intelligence DOESN’T want me to create hulk mad reaction WHEN A REAL GODDAMN THREAT IS REALLY REAL, AND REALLY NEAR! 

YOU EITHER BETTER ADMIT DEFEAT, BOW OUT, SUBMIT RESIGNATION, OR IT IS NOT A SURVIVABLE SITUATION.  THE COMPARABLE IS BEGGING MEN WITH GUNS TO START A WAR.

Fiat Chrysler, General Motors racketeering news story, is a no.

The reason HL has not been sleeping well, he’s lost my good opinion, my good opinion of him.  You people really don’t understand brains, don’t understand men, and don’t understand straight men.

Something simple, like making David smile and laugh in college when he didn’t want to because he was thinking about something else, is a good thing.  That’s taking a person’s brain and thinking and changing their channel.  Without hurting them.  It’s like saying don’t play with fire because its mesmerized you, let me snuggle your face instead.

Men?  Straight men?

Women are hard-wired, usually, to be nurturers.  That doesn’t mean that’s all we are, but I sure like being able to change channels.

This Neil Young profile is really my Englishman, and another reason, I didn’t shower last night.  You’ll find out why.

There is also, another news story that says, there has been – paperwork – to be introduced to have Cherith Gjestland and that goes with my immediate family, as well, to receive a permanent White House residency, wherever I live.  Something along the lines of tenure for a professor, something that has also, never been done before, for any other United States citizen.

This Dow Jones Stock Market news story suggests, the stock market weighted news stories, really aren’t what you think they are, meaning the truth is, the weight upon my person has been a way to deflate, meaning increase the debt to credit ratio of the United States budget; therefore, decreasing the financial ability of the US economy, creating a weaker dollar.

A weaker dollar, meaning our US currency is not as valuable as it was, two years ago.  Look it up.

Trace report on Yellow cake, does refer to an exercise video I work out to, and it does suggest you had dumb morons watching me in my home, getting off on watching me, instead of, protecting me.  From in my home, and the reason I had to cover up the half circle windows in my home.

It goes together with this black female nurse of my mother, who was paid to sexually abuse my mother, and at least one person in production here, who just wanted to cause harm.

The tell of that would be at my former home I tried to work out while watching my mother at the same time, in her room because proximity to her was a constant on my mind, and she spoke about how it was good I was working out, and then she got upset enough after a few times I worked out in another room because she didn’t want to stare at this woman working out.  No one really would.

Would you watch a workout video if you were working out?  Most people don’t.  There isn’t anything wrong with her response, I had a difficult time conveying needing to watch her every moment.

Going into another room for just a half an hour, or 45 minutes, was so difficult, it felt it shouldn’t be done. 

Every person involved with using my mother this way should be brought up on ethics charges.  This is going on more than thirty years of my life, and intelligence is still working me as, bringing my whole house, and family, into – battles?!

What I talked about with my brother, if Sebastian is a code name for Cody, he has someone bad on his team who gave him the way to get my phone.  Probably another black man, who was and possibly is still using him to get near me.  Whatever I talked about to my brother, like working out, or going to the beach, and then Courtney is photographed in the Pacific Ocean?!  Means, you people don’t know the work you are doing.

It is possible they had been using my Babee Bear as code…

Bear

Bed

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…for California, and all that says, is you people really haven’t known how to do your work.

Obviously, this man in production should have been put in his place, and probably why I’ve never seen him to be read because if I don’t like a man, and do not think he is worthwhile, there’s a problem.

If a man cannot live up to my expectations of man, there’s a problem.  I expect and demand a certain caliber of a man, or I won’t have it.

Caliber.  Of a man.

Mary Parsons

Read this young man’s face.  What does he say to you?  How does he read to you?  What about Mary’s face with the child?  What does she say?  Because obviously, the other child, this child has been hurt, and that’s why she’s at the Parson’s, for them to take care of.

Mary, Mary’s face really just says, I love.  Meaning she loves, people.  This young boy’s face?  Is really a good boy, a really good man, going to grow up strong and full of character.  He, as a child, is with a child who has been hurt, and is unaffected, still himself.  It’s a really good face.

It could be how they were using Facebook, social media, to get more reads, of my face.

If they were then trying to get me to read other people like David and Courtney and then get a read from me, after seeing them.  Well, it just wasn’t going to work that way.  It’s like trying to create a reaction, when I am not the reactor, I am the instigator. 

It’s a little backwards.  It’s like trying to dodge a bullet when you are in front of the gun, instead of being the person, shooting the gun.

And, men, who’ve worked with me, understand this expectation, and it is a reason why I am in so many goddamn movies as code and intelligence.  It’s meant to reinforce the credibility of the United States.  By way of me, and my expectations of men.

That intelligence man in the RV looks like the man, I am not excusing his actions and behavior because of his age because there is no logical explanation other that ignorance and hick mentality for creating all these scenarios of burning people, and men I love to the ground just because I love them, and he is probably connected to the real reason, a military man wanted to try and kill me, A Few Good Men, just because I am a female and have worked SUCCESSFULLY with the military to give them SOME OF THE GREATEST VICTORIES IN HISTORY!

HE MUST BE MADE ACCOUNTABLE FOR HIS ACTIONS.  BECAUSE THEY DO NOT SPEAK WELL OF HIS CHARACTER.  It literally shows intent to deceive the United States government.  By not following his orders, of me.  You people, Bourne movies, were given the fastest racecar in the world.  And, he didn’t want to use it, me?!

Then, he never should have been given the job, placement, and career, he was given.

Ask this question of intelligence persons, if they had the ability to use a 100% accurate program to do their work, would they use it, yes or no.  If it was a certainty that a program was designed, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that all the other program of percentages had been done away with as errors within training, and you were given the choice of either 100% or not work at all, what would be their choice?

Because – any person – given the chance to work with an 100% certainty, and they chose NOT to work with it, is a tell, of something greater.

This is for this other FBI man, there is something in the garage layout of my former home with the modifications and improvements my mother made of built-ins, the wardrobe, cabinets, and a window, and it could really mean and look like California to some people, or do they see something else.  Because the utilization of a garage, here in this home, in my former home, and my future home(s) is going off like a ringer, like of great importance.

Also, multi-generational homes is very Californian.  In-laws, and grandparents living with their children does not have the same stigma in California it has here, in Florida.  It is so very different, you might as well ask the night to start – shitting rainbows.

There is a stigma here in Florida, that does not exist, specially in California, specifically in the Los Angeles area, it’s not just ethnic, probably a reason the famous Parsons are in the movie, Leap Year, and something my mother also tried to do here in Florida, have my grandfather live with us at our former home.  My mother just couldn’t afford it.  And, Canadian Social Security was so much better than she could have provided for him, even on Medicare.  She did the work.

What the hell are you people doing?  Is this really, has my life since 1986, really just been about a state’s budget instead of what is BEST FOR THE UNITED STATES?!  Someone please correct this quickly.

13 Hours, the H, in Hours, is Heiter, the street name of my home in Simi Valley, California.  Not my vehicle.  It’s a street.

There is also code to be seen in 13 as a bee, and the shape of the windows in my home, and my former bum.  My former bum being my white girl bum and bottom.  And, not this ghetto booty they placed on my body that does not belong to me.

I shouldn’t be body shamed – for being white.  I am not trying to be another other person, other than me.  Every shape and form that takes.  Including Keyser Soze, the incredible Hulk, or snuggle face or chest.

If you people see it as someone acting “black”, you got a problem, and you don’t understand my brain and how I work.

Here is another big tell, David is not from Florida, HL is not from Florida, this FBI man, also, not from Florida.

I would really want to walk the ground in California, it is important.  I am not sure, I want to go, although, there are so many Californians here.  California, my real information of California is more than twenty or thirty years old.  That’s a lifetime in Californian time.  It looks so different to me, it might as well be another country, yet the mountains, that are really hills, speak to me.

The Pacific Ocean is important, yet the mountains speak to me, like a language of their own.  I don’t think you know what’s really there.  I like it.  Those hills and mountains, I like it.

It’s like a calling.  Those mountains and hills, I like so much, are more like a calling.  So, I don’t think you know what’s really there.  It goes back to work, intelligence work done in California in the fifties and sixties.

It’s peaceful to me, those hills and mountains, so it is probably, military in content because you people haven’t understood, you didn’t catch Noel because I was frightened out of my mind, and I don’t watch Hunter Killer because I’ve never been in battle on a sinking submarine, I’ve really lived it, all in my head, in real time, and there is no safety – behind a desk.

Because soldiers there is another battle that is being waged, and why MP in 12 Strong talks about from your desk, you’ll be fine.  No, you won’t.  Everyone won’t be fine because the other battle that is being waged within the United States’ military – are the ones they leave behind to go to war, and battle.  And, that is medical.

Medical, strokes, illnesses, hysterectomies, miscarriages, and so on, being done ON PURPOSE because the United States has WON VICTOIRES AGAINST OUR ENEMIES!  SO, STOP BEING QUIET ABOUT IT!

YOU WERE IN THE GODDMAN MILITARY IT ALSO MEANS YOUR LOVED ONES WERE NOT SAFE AT HOME!  START SCREAMING YOUR FUCKING HEADS OFF ABOUT IT!  DON’T STOP TELLING PEOPLE THAT IT IS ALSO IMPORTANT TO MAKE SURE OUR – FAMILIES – ARE PROTECTED AT HOME!

STOP BEING SO GODDAMN MEEK!

YES, WE ARE THE UNITED STATES, THE UNITED STATES MILITARY, WE ARE HONORABLE, WE ARE A PEOPLE OF WORTH, AND VALUE, AND TRUST!  OR, WE WOULDN’T BE FIGHTING YOU!

Usual Suspects, the reason Verbal Kint is a “gimp” is a way to show all the medical messaging that has been happening to celebrities.  It’s why I am Verbal Kint, Keyser Soze, it’s another way to show a Sherlock, or brain-palace thinking.

And, the casting of Stephen Baldwin, in Usual Suspects, is very unusual.  A movie, like that about cons, and Stephen Baldwin got cast in it?  That doesn’t say intelligence work to anyone else other than me?  He’s a most unusual casting choice, to me it says, he was cast, just because he is a Christian.

It’s like someone stumbling upon information they didn’t quite understand and got someone to   write a script.  Just to see what would happen because of it.  And, I, made a speech about it, at college.

Film Appreciation.

Fa, a long, long way to run…

January 24, 2020: READ: WARNING: DEPRESSING

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January 24, 2020

Do not get this confused, Cody is workable, and it is not to be confused with the message I received of bad code.  That is – something else.

I do not remember every detail of other people’s lives, for instance, the year my father HAD to work for the Lighthouse because USF let him go.  The state, state level, let my father go in his employment, probably because whoever was connected to my father’s employment, did not get a promotion.  Because he didn’t deserve it.

There is another conspiracy at The Lighthouse, trapping me, and my family within this state, and that says, people like Sona, are simply not able to work, on their own, without my help, that means, they will never be good enough, and if she really is an intelligence officer, it means, there is another cover-up, it is a theory in 13 Hours, with this dialogue, Army retard, meaning, who’s had there grades changed to get into the CIA, or intelligence?

Not me.

If you can’t do any work without my help, you can’t work.  I’m a resource, not a tool, or when I was a child, they would have used me every day, instead they sent the leaders of countries, the biggest missions, the most difficult work, when they needed help.  I am not the horse to be used mindlessly pushing ammunition up a hill.

My brother repeatedly for years talked about wanting to retire in Florida, obviously, this is someone else’s words and not his, now.  Otherwise, I would not have spent so much of my own money, on my former home.  I did it for my brother’s – future.

We did not have a choice in this home, this home to me says, it’s too far away from the interstates.  It takes too long.  To drive.  It’s about the same distance as our former home.  One purpose of me moving, was to be more – active, and not sedimentary at home.  I was always going to be on the go, busy, not sitting at home watching the television, like I am in jail, a virtual jail.

It’s a bad email in Zero Dark Thirty, that got connected to this former White House staff, and the reason I quit that employment, 2002 or 2003. 

It’s not my job to work with lesser men.  It WAS your jobs to bring the BEST men to me.  Here’s an example, FBI man, HIS connected employment, December 2003 to August 2009.

Another house we put an offer on (2012), was too close to our former home, we went so many places, one that has stayed in my mind was a townhouse close to HCC, close to the movie theater, really, really close to the interstates, it would have needed almost $50,000 (it was in foreclosure, or short-sale) to bring it to a livable standard, for me, and that offer also, fell through.

California thinking, is really different, than Florida.  Californian’s are open to new ideas, new ways of thinking, new technology, different cultures, it’s really different, it why there is the dialogue in Cars, I’m in hillbilly hell!  Since 1986, I have always told every person, I wanted to return to California.  Probably because they need me more than they understand.  Just like maybe, the real reason, after 9/11, I couldn’t stop watching BBC news, wasn’t just because the British made me feel better it was because my mind understood the businessmen, funding the attacks on America, were British.

Following the money for 9/11, is in London, is in Great Britain, and people thought, if I looked afraid, it must be the answer?  When the truth is, that is this 1989 California man’s model, and it’s not a very good one, and I do know how to get you the answers – faster, than decades, or months, perhaps, I  shouldn’t be giving you answers anymore.

It appears President Trump did lie, and the proof is, I would not pay for the new unit on my air-conditioner.  Because it reads as, not legitimate.  It is better to accept the disgrace, and admit the truth, and accept the consequences.  Impeachment.

It appears this news story of Casey accidently overdosing is true, she didn’t kill herself on purpose and it didn’t happen recently, and you have several of Casey’s friends, who also have an addiction problem (problem in production around here) who have been taking their grief out on me at my home.  By abusing me.

There are several people who want me, and my family removed from this state IMMEDIATELY simply because of The Lighthouse connection to my father, and it’s been used, improperly.

I have no problem whatsoever, with ending everything – IMMEDIATELY.  Ending production, ending filming, ending the videos that get uploaded, and all of this that has been happening since 2014.  I see no problem whatsoever with the truth being revealed and moving on.  Either me continue to work with intelligence or not.

All of these companies will continue to profit and make money.  News agencies will continue to profit, Hollywood will continue to profit, actors will still be able to make movies and television, all without me.

I need, to be able to speak with my own family, honestly.  About their own health, my mother’s death, and so on.  The truth is, there is no real problem with me being able to live – on my own, without earpieces, and filming.

Since I am a reader and a mirror, the only people it benefits with not living a real life, managed, or handled by real intelligence as the real Weapons, as the United States’ greatest weapon, are the   criminals, not me.

You’ve been giving criminals – bags of money, not me.

Some people are readers.  Some people are mirrors.  Not many people are both.

You’ve downgraded me to human interest stories, rather than, working me as intelligence.  You have one man here, who wanted to show people how dangerous this work is the way you’ve started it by filming it.  Most of this is classified and classified means, it is not meant to be shared with the public.

And, I also see nothing wrong with being able to create, a secure room from which to work.  Or, not at all.

And, there really is no need for the dental work.  It really is possible to set up a way of communication that does not involve living in my head.

And, nothing around here is on a secure server.

This actor’s profile just says he doesn’t like himself very much.

It’s all been a lie.  This FBI man didn’t lie about anything, he was told to create a scenario, so he did.  The fact that they had to make it so credible, proves how good I am, and how difficult it is, to sway – facts, specifically, concerning reads on me.

You have destroyed my relationship with HL, for the fun and enjoyment of a royal couple.  Like I am a nothing, and they are still treating me like I am a nothing.

The truth is you’ve ruined my working relationship with HL, also.  I am not certain he is workable with me, anymore.  That doesn’t mean, he isn’t able to live and work on his own.  I am not sure, I approve him to work with me, anymore.

If HL is on any medication, take him off of it, he doesn’t need it.  I told you he would be able to run mental circles around these people.  And, my opinion of him still matters to him.  And, if he does not want to be read by me, have me see him, it’s a problem.  He was not afraid of being seen by me, before.

David’s penis is disgusting because of how many women he’s slept with, and never choosing me.  HL’s penis is disgusting because he’s slept with this disgusting black woman who is responsible for sticking a finger in my mother’s crotch (sexual abuse), in an attempt to get her to orgasm, it’s coming (I need your report on Yellow Cake, it’s a cover up and people have been suspicious of Sona and other women, and the production around here, is not secure it is tainted), from 13 Hours.  He’s disgusting to me.

I do not find married men, sexually attractive because, I am not crazy, and psycho.  Not one of you men, is man enough, to be real with me?  Not one of you American men is man enough to be seen and read as being sexually proficient enough to have me sexually satisfied with actually having real sex and MARRYING ME?!

NOT EVEN THE BIG SWINGING DICKS OF MILITARY GENERALS ARE MAN ENOUGH TO BE WITH ME?!  AND SHOW YOUR GODDAMN – FEELLINGS?!  BY MARRYING ME?!

David, did you get talked into this production around here?  That’s a shame.  They were only interested in themselves, and not what was best for you.  It’s why I wanted to talk to you before you married Courtney.  It’s why I messaged you so much, I was warning you, and you didn’t know it.

Same reason, I made HL my boyfriend, I was warning him, and he hasn’t known it.

He’s so disgusting in my mind, now.  Gross.

It leaves the door open for so many better men, better than David.

Or, I’m dead.

I’ve had my constitutional rights taken away from me.  I do not get to choose my employment or employer, I do not get to EVER be loved, in the flesh, and married?!

Most of your news stories like the journalist killing of Jamal, mean nothing to me, meaning, you’ve not done your work, or it is not a real story.

If all they’ve been doing since 2014 is creating false leads, false news stories, what have they really been doing, other than trying to find all these men I’ve worked with before, to KILL THEM!  Like Cody.

Stop letting this lie, perpetuate, the only way this blonde lesbian known as ABC, was able to not get me to STARE HER DOWN?!  She used David, as her protection.  She would have had a photo of David, most likely, on her chest, that she kept with her, all the time.

That’s a fail-safe.  That’s me, in public, not alerting people to the threat because it wasn’t secured.  David was in the parking lot when I saw this ABC woman face to face, do you know if you had guns on you, David?!

Ready to go?  I’ve been ready.  Ready for the reality that is not a truth, to end.

Poor fucker had to get up in the middle of the night, Zero Dark Thirty, that was me, I am not the one who had to get up, I was on “night duty” taking care of my now dead mother.  It’s how it’s worked before, in the middle of the night, I would go outside, to my pool, look out the window and so on.  Until, usually, I was worried about how much time I was away from my mother.

And, that’s only because they didn’t know what they didn’t know, at the time, they didn’t know a better way to work me, than to take my entire house (UP) in my head with me to battle.  How many soldiers or Generals or Captains, take their entire house and family with them to battle?

They don’t.

Do you see the connections to my mother’s strokes and the United States military, yet?!

This is the most depressing place.

And, way to live.

Another Reason

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January 23, 2020

Here’s another reason why Franco can’t replace David Wolfe as a proxy or another double because Franco is unaware of how they have been using him.  This tabloid journalism that’s been going on around me, has no place in a war room or in the White House, that is why they hold press conferences, arrange times and places.  And, how many tabloid journalists get to make it to the White House?

Be careful, tabloid journalists also don’t get interviews with terrorists or detainee’s or criminals.  Tabloid journalism also, isn’t investigative journalism.

Everyone has to make a living?  Not everyone has to make a living off of the use of me.  It is possible to protect me as a resource.  Rather than an income.

Read and destroy, real Diller, very few men have been able to use me, to read, and then, get to destroy.  Like, bring me targets to kill.

Do you want them?

Or, are you still interested in watching them grow all around you?

Yeah, really big cojones?  From the movie Speed that really is a real read of me, probably as a kid, meaning they were able to read on me, I understood the threat, the danger, and I would have told them, go.  Cojones.

Elder Abuse

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January 23, 2020

You people are sick!  If you purposefully set HL up with the black female nurse who attempted to  sexually abuse my mother while in her nursing home, that looks corrupt, and this nurse also took payment for sexually abusing my mother (probably from someone in production around here), who would have screamed and this nurse was dismissed and fired because my mother accused her of sexual abuse, then torture HL with having to prove his worth by dating her, it’s sick!