Yesterday, I ate canned cheese. Canned cheese?! Yuck! It was so gross. It was less than tasteless. Stale, non-flavorful tortilla chips, microwaved canned cheese with jalapeno’s, cheap, fizzy wine, a handful of Hot Tamales, oatmeal and coffee for breakfast was all I ate yesterday. So gross. So yucky. I have sunk so low. I can’t afford to eat, and I certainly cannot afford to eat well.
I guarantee if you read the packaging it was less than a 1,000 calories for the day. There should be no way any person even eating such crappy food should even gain 1 pound eating such in a day. But, I am surrounded by liars, thieves, misogynist’s, vile-tempered child-men, and persons of no character. And, I have no wish to write any further about persons who treat others and myself as people to be toyed and messed with instead of elevating and empowering them above and beyond their own ego.
How I wish to cook real food, to eat real food. To be able to plan, purchase and buy, make and create a menu for myself, for my week and months, have left-overs that I could eat during the week, bake bread, make desserts, create desserts, and most importantly of all share with a man I love who loves me in return.
I no longer dream that day will ever come.
Things have needed to change for quite some time – for many years now. I have seen no change.
Why someone did this to me I will never understand. Why this continues, I do not understand.
I am hungrier than words. My mind is hungrier than words. There is a desperation due to deprivation. My mind is unable to make up the difference due to the lack.
WE - DO NOT AGREE! 