Declassified Files: A Series of True Events Being Brought to Light

Dated 02/23/2016

I am unable unlike every other person in the world to go to a grocery store because when I go to the grocery store, then people around me talk outloud trying to get me to purchase one product vs. another as and before I reach for a product.  Even if there was an end, and I got my life back how is it that this would not continue.  Was is to stop any ordinary person from repeating what they have seen on tv or youtube?  Especially when it concerns me.

Eating sausage and fries washing it down with a coke, I am reminded of my circumstances that I am living with and under.

When I started to understand not everything at The Container Store was right.

And, let me say this before I continue.  When I first started to work at The Container Store and saw all the camera’s in the ceiling it felt like being “on” when I was there.  I guess that is why I preferred being in elfa because I felt like that was where all the attention (for lack of a better way of saying that) was at.

Well, when I started to understand it was not right the pretense lost itself on me.  I kept looking around at different people like Alfredo, or Cleveland, or Sally and wondered why they were in disguise.

However, when I started to listen to this coded messages I believed that I was going to be taken care of (for lack of a better way of saying that).  I believed in what people were saying.  I believed in what people were doing were a benefit to me, for me.  I believed I was going to be provided for in a sense that I believed I wasn’t going to suffer the way I have lived the last year plus.

That car accident took something from me I cannot get back.

Because I believed.

Then, to have such catastrophic devastation – it took so much from me – leaving me still in shock.  Shell shock still.

I will not be the same again.  The pieces of me will not be able to go back again.

I did not and even still understand that the purpose was for others to keep me away from what it was I wanted or needed even if it is buying groceries so I can eat.

Had I not believed I would not still be here in this house and in this state.

I feel like I am constantly repeating myself with this information, however I must keep repeating this information because it continues to happen to me.

Even when I think I have done all I could, should, or need to do there are still characters and choices that I believed were already out of my life.