May 10, 2018

It took me four hours to write my last piece, Coffee and Breakfast: Problem.  It doesn’t normally take me so many hours.

There is still a big problem in my head.

Being made to urinate while at work and home is a problem.  Unacceptable for any human living condition, being made to urinate on themselves.  This should be removed immediately never to return.

I was asked whether it was work that helped my head get better.  The answer is yes and no.  Yes, because then I will have more income.  No, because it is time alone that helps not any activity.

Puzzle pieces: BBC America, Graham Norton Show – Rhianna talking about the old Russian woman who waxed her.  Kate Winslet talking about helping Sir Richard Branson’s mother escape the fire on Necker Island.  These were brought to my mind again last week, I was about to write about them when I ran into interference here at my home making me unable to write about them.  This interference must leave immediately never to return.  It causes damage that is incalculable.

I just noticed somebody painted a dog’s nose on my pen cup.

This left and right facing must be from the caricature painted on glass that was made of me at EPCOT in an oak frame.  I am not sure I still have it anymore since the events that happened in 2014 causing me to get rid of, throw out, and dump nearly every possession I had.

Did they actually think it was possible for me to move away when they have not allowed me to be employed on a salary in which I would be financially independent?!

The first driving trip I could write for days and days about, but it would take a great deal in my head to get me there.

There is a failure within your system of “choices” that you fail to see as a great problem and threat to my health, brain, and capacity to function.  I am the only one who is living this life so let me paint the picture of how it feels to me.

It is as if someone is building a house every so often replacing the solid wood with Balsa wood creating collapses, closures, cave-in’s, complete demolition of the structure.  All because of a choice that is never made clear or understand that is never a choice my brain would understand since my brain is in my head and no one else’s.

The timeline as I see it for me to be able to write the picture of the events on 4/23/2018 is weeks away at best.

I want my Tuesday and Thursday back alive.  They never should have been taken.  There never should have been any co-existing.  It is inhumane.

Russia Ate My Homework.  The physical work goes too fast.  At this point I am uncertain that they didn’t put an additive, chemical, or drug in my food to make me work so fast and furiously.  That time has passed.  As that was a one-dimensional character alone.

If it is true they placed drugs in my food, added calories, it should be investigated and sentenced for it.  It creates an unfair advantage or disadvantage.  It should never happen.  It creates interference and nothing more.

Struggling to maintain order in my home, I am failing.

I need to go back to bed.