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July 31, 2019
What the fuck just happened? Something in the world just happened a few minutes ago, 6:13pm Eastern standard time. What just happened? It wasn’t good. Don’t tell me this is just a man wanting attention, my attenttion, to get infamous? What happened! Get me communication of this event because you’ll need me!
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July 30, 2019
I think you are confusing the meaning behind, I hate this job, and its meaning. When I start saying I hate this job it means, I don’t want you. I don’t want to be around you, I don’t like you.
I don’t like being spoken to by a woman asking me, ma’am are you ok?
Really?! You want to pretend it is NOT MY JOB TO SPEAK OUT LOUD AND TELL PEOPLE HOW I AM – FEELING?! AND WHAT IS GOING ON IN MY MIND WITH WHO IS AROUND ME?! OF COURSE, IT IS MY JOB TO SPEAK OUT LOUD TO TELL THE AUDIENCE, THE INVISIBLE AUDIENCE, WHAT MY THOUGHTS ARE AND HOW I AM – FEELING!
You made me feel like a national joke tonight! Like a nothing. Like a nobody. Like a thing to be poked and prodded, manipulated into something that isn’t real, and nothing more than a joke because I’ve written and spoken about – love.
It is not my job to love this pant sucker! This person who makes my pants stick to my skin so I cannot – MOVE MY BODY!
I will not love or help this wanna-be lesbian anymore who has done nothing other than copy after Courtney trying to make me believe she also is a lesbian. Courtney is nothing more than a selfish, glomming person. That is how she looks to me. She needs to move on just like the wanna-be lesbian.
I am devastated by the loss of my friend and boyfriend. I don’t trust you people anymore!
I hope you all are happy you have hurt me with the loss of my boyfriend.
Devastated and heart broken, I am too fat and heavy, I want a day shift!
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July 29, 2019
But, I don’t.
I am prepared to believe you any minute now, but I don’t.
I told you not to bring him around. I told you not to bring him near me. I told you not to. Perhaps I was thinking of my own protection and not yours. He doesn’t love me anymore. He broke up with me. No one is happy or in love anymore. I am devastated. I am tired of swollen, tear-soaked eyeballs crying – again – over a man who doesn’t love me anymore. Just like David. Now, I have no love whatsoever for any of those men. None. I am devastated.
Were you jealous because the real Hannibal Lecter does better work than you? And, that is why you planned and plotted to take him away from me? Because the combination of me and him working together was too successful?!
By my weight in code, I do not believe you.
I think you underestimated my importance – by a lot – not only in this process, but my ability. You took a man away from me because my manner, my approach, my thinking to bring about a change in a man’s past behavior and actions was to befriend him. Are you fucking kidding me?! Why am I the only one who understands that intelligence work is about building relationships?
I am devastated.
I have been tricked in my own home after I made it most clear I had a boyfriend, I had a man I wanted to be the only one, and you tricked me for reasons that do not make any sense. You have people around me who are actually thinking about planning a wedding! How absurd! They are in their minds planning a wedding to an already married man! It is most absurd! I took down my awards, I took them off my wall because I will not allow myself to continue to be used by proxy so married men will stay married. They should do that on their own. This is not the best use of my help.
The one man who needed my help the most, the one person who needed my help the most was the real Hannibal Lecter, and simply because the way I work, the way I see and know will work, would work was to befriend him, you immediately started working to take him away.
You completely underestimate me; you completely underestimate the power of my feelings! Do you think the reason I am seen as The Ancient One in the movie, Doctor Strange has anything to do with spells, or everything to do with visualizing in movie form so others are able to see what actually happens in mind work and brain thinking. Showing a person as a mirror their true (Astral) self.
You have people who have read me as physical. This would have been as a child. Physical, physicality, it is in too many movies in action and in dialogue such as the line in Silence of the Lambs, my driver detests physical labor, reads: my driver, physical. This goes back to the time my mother’s arm was injured and I had to help her drive by changing the gears, I think I was seven or eight years old at the time.
Physical corresponds to sexual. I was never sexually immature; I was simply underage. Sexually immature means you have no idea how to think about bodies, body parts, and the correct placement of them in your head and mind. They have always seen me as an adult child, or I wouldn’t have been responsible for ending the goddamn Vietnam war! Do you think an immature child, an immature brain would be capable of ending the Vietnam war?!
I have been read as physical, so what do these morons do? They physically place “reads” on me such as up my nose, for me to read. Well, that’s just dumb. Do you think a person who is a mirror would be better able to read it off of another person instead of on their own person? I do.
I am devastated at the loss of my boyfriend. I want nothing to do with you people.
Devastated.
I am on strike, I am too fat and weigh too much, I want a day shift.
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July 28, 2019
You realize of course, that the only thing that makes sense about that crime scene that was presented in my psychology class with the guest speaker, is that it was the speaker, the FBI profiler, was actually the criminal. I wouldn’t have been so upset otherwise. There is nothing about that crime scene that reads true, authentic, or that the man I’ve seen should or would have done that crime. The guest speaker, that FBI profiler does set off my alarms. It would be the only reason I was so upset in that class with him speaking. It would also be why I’ve loved that other FBI man, however much he has been set up and sabotaged.
Is this the man in the truck to my left that I did not signal for because I do not feel like working anymore because you have broken my heart? That means this man would find me more exciting than the real Hannibal Lecter. THAT’S A BIG FUCKING PROBLEM!
Oh MY GOD! This man looks as though he has watched his own work his crime scenes! Jesus Christ!
If this is in any way true, if this is the man who is responsible for the line of dialogue in the movie Gladiator, I would have butchered the whole world, if you would have loved me…
I am too fucking upset.
Bring this motherfucker to me at work, I’ll either burn him, or reveal him.
I want a goddamn day shift, so these motherfuckers don’t get the shit end of my brain!
I am on strike! I weigh too much! I am too unhappy! I want a day shift!
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July 27, 2019
I am on strike. Simple things like continuing to place weight gain and facial hair in my food products which at this point is only to mess with my head so I do not feel in my mind attractive to the male sex. If you included Prince Harry’s wife in my last food order continuing to have me OVER a 120 lbs. it is so that I will not look and feel attractive to the male sex. You did it just to hurt my mind, head, and brain.
What the fuck Harry’s wife has to be so afraid of I am not sure, he married her. That’s his problem. How these people get talked into marrying people they don’t love; I am not sure. It’s too absurd to believe.
Do you really want to fire me?
Or, you just thought that some sexually confused woman who thinks she is a lesbian who really wants to be straightened out and break ties with the gay community to regain her own mind after her abuse who is so terrified of daylight, she is more important to have around?!
No, no one corrected the virtual punch she gave me at work. David only did want he was told to do; I am sure given the circumstances now he would take it all back and do it all over again. If Harry’s wife had anything to do with it, she doesn’t want me to be seen as more attractive than her. So, what is she so afraid of? He married her. Why is she so afraid unless she has not been truthful?
The real Hannibal Lecter is too important. If you failed to miss it, he is too important. It would be why I would not have given the order to kill him. I have given a lot of orders that would destroy people and places. He is in too many movies, as well, so that also suggests he is too important. Having him break up with me sent me into a nuclear melt-down. You didn’t see that coming. You didn’t see that could be a possibility. So, if you thought any possible matches, I wrote about have a chance anymore, you are wrong. They are so far gone from my heart and mind I might as well be drifting in outer space without a space suit.
If this is to be the rest of my life it would have been better for me to die taking care of my mother. At least my life would have meant something to a person, if only to my mother. She is Eliza Doolittle after all. They actually wrote My Fair Lady about my mother.
I am relentless. Relentless is my word for myself. However, I am unwilling to continue placating, so if you want me to burn the heart out of a double agent – find yourself another Weapons of Mass Destruction, I am on the night shift, not the day shift.
You still don’t understand all of the code in these movies, the skin over Hannibal Lecter’s face in the ambulance in the movie Silence of the Lambs, reads: skincare. It literally reads skincare as in a line of skincare, as in my mother and I both sold skincare. The gutted guard is my mother’s gun shot wound and it is now implicated in the scheme of my hysterectomy. And, the sex scene in When Harry Met Sally is about my abortion. So, no. I am most upset. About my abortion, self-defense in advance from Sherlock, so how people knew my abortion was self-defense in advance because that is how it felt, I have no idea, and I am devastated as to all my losses. And the one person who was actually working to help me, you took him away from me. I am so hurt.
I didn’t know how to get away from my former boyfriend/fiancé without him or others coming after me and my family. And, they knew me like any mother I would have placed myself in front of my child, I would not have tried giving my child to an eagle that is what the scene is about in the movie The Proposal with the dog. It looks like my own government wanted to kill me because of LA of what happened specifically in the Mexican restaurant after Germany when I was 17.
The Weapons of Mass Destruction and you won’t let me have a day shift. The United States government still looks dumb!
You look like you are going to need my help with Brexit; however, nothing in the news is of any help it all looks like gibberish. And, I am not in the mood. I am upset and heartbroken and drained from the night shift.
By the way, it means I am fluent in Russian. I have no idea how that could be, but for that to be true it means I am fluent in Russian – as a baby.
I am on strike. I weigh too much, I am not on the day shift.
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July 26, 2019
Don’t tell me…don’t tell me that the warden that is depicted in the movie The Silence of the Lambs HAS ACTUALLY BEEN USING BRAIN RESEARCH ON THE REAL HANNIBAL LECTER TO MAINTAIN HIM AS A MONSTER AND A CRIMINAL JUST BECAUSE NO ONE HAS STOPPED HIM?!
I’LL BEAT THAT SON OF A BITCH WITHIN AN INCH OF HIS LIFE AND LEAVE HIM ON THE STREET FOR DEAD IF THIS IS TRUE!
IF THIS IS TRUE IT MEANS HE IS DOING IT TO OTHER PRISONERS! IT MEANS OTHER PRISON GUARDS ARE DOING IT ALSO!
YOU NEED TO ARREST THIS MOTHERFUCKER!
THE PURPOSE OF PRISON IS TO REFORM, CORRECT, NOT TO RETAIN AND MAINTAIN – CRIMINAL ACTIVITY!
YOU NEED TO FUCKING HURRY! A NUCLEAR ALARM JUST WENT OFF IN MY HEAD! STOP THIS SHIT FROM HAPPENING BEFORE IT IS – AGAIN – TOO LATE!
The real Hannibal Lecter did not eat the flesh of his victims, he performed cunnilingus on them. It literally was a message being sent to the FBI and other intelligence because cunnilingus is actually against the law in a lot of states. Against the law. That is all the code was meant to tell people. It actually has nothing to do with sex. It literally, actually is code for BRAIN RESEARCH BEING AGAINST THE LAW! ILLEGAL! BRAIN RESEARCH IS ILLEGAL!
All the way to the FBI, this line of dialogue from the movie Silence of the Lambs means and tells the world that the real Hannibal Lecter had intercourse with straight women. The cunnilingus performed actually says – sexual prowess of the real Hannibal Lecter, he loves the female body, women’s bodies, women’s figures, woman’s shapes, he loves the female form, obviously.
It’s astoundingly simple. It’s astoundingly simple to me. There is a person who is dying to be found out. No one has caught this motherfucker yet. This is a straight man – GET THIS SON OF A BITCH!
I suggest you and we catch this son of a bitch before I punch another hole in a wall.
All this good work my boyfriend and I were doing in the world, in prisons, someone decided to try and take away for what purpose? A lesbian? Because David’s wife who finally decided it was ok to tell the world that she is a lesbian (I hope you are divorcing her David) wants to try and now be friends with me?! I am not interested in being her friend. She maliciously hurt both David and me all these years. She should be apologizing to the both of us. If she just wanted to be friends, she wouldn’t be hitting on me, and trying to flirt with me. I’ve had enough. She needs to leave me alone. She’s had her time; she needs to go. Enough.
Casey is going to be written in this post because she is too fucking afraid! Casey is so afraid of men and black men she actually commits criminal activity just because SHE IS AFRAID! She has never dealt with her sexual and physical abuse; she has never come to terms with her abuse and her abusers that she has told herself she is a lesbian.
This is going to surprise everyone. This is actually how Casey reads, she is at the moment sexually confused because she is actually a straight woman who would be happier as a girlie girl, the woman in a straight relationship with a man. She would actually be happier in a real boring job like an accountant. Something 9am to 5pm, Monday through Friday, weekends and National holiday’s off, regular and boring job. It is the stability she has been lacking all her life.
She looks like a stereotypical lesbian, dyke; however, she reads, her mind and brain read as sexually confused because she is straight. She was sent to me to read because of all the intentional and purposeful sabotage of my FBI man’s work and career by his goddamn lesbian partner.
Casey is too fucking afraid. She is scared out of her mind afraid, every day. It makes me crazy. Being around her makes me crazy because she is so scared, she hurts people just to try and NOT be afraid. She hurts people and LITERALLY gets people killed! Someone needs to deal with her.
Quite literally, cleaning will help Casey. Making her clean, and clean, and clean, and clean, possibly as a job will help Casey. She has a lot of cleaning to do before her mind will get better. She has not come to terms with her physical and sexual abuse. She needs to clean.
If Casey is responsible for weight gain on my person it means, she hates herself.
Englishman she looks jealous of you, so watch out.
She’ll fight you tooth and nail on this, won’t she? She’ll make excuse after excuse as to why what I wrote above is not true. Then, she shouldn’t have a problem conceding to a work program of cleaning and therapy.
Be careful who you have as a therapist because the reason you had that psychologist brought to my bankruptcy to read is because she is in the movie, The Bourne Legacy as the man in the cabin being sent there because he fell in love. It means she fell in love, was read as having fallen in love with a man, a criminal behind bars. That tells me she is not able to do her job. No one caught it yet.
And, don’t tell me you have a man like the director of the FBI who makes plans for me to get involved with people like David only after they are married just because this straight man is actually sexually frustrated in his own marriage? Dumb. It is such a pattern. It makes no sense to me at all to wait until these men are married before you allow them to get close enough to me, then involve me. Dumb.
Novelist, from Sherlock means readers, broke up to marriages by getting involved with both participants separately, this literally just means not male and female, this means separately, what do you think a woman’s genitalia looks like? A plastic, one-piece molded box? These men got involved with my vagina is what it looks like.
Since when do I have to live the life of a celibate monk for any straight man to handle me or work my life? Since when is that what it takes for other men to work with me? It makes no sense whatsoever.
I’m too upset with what you did to my boyfriend and me to continue.
Too heavy, no day shift, no more writing.
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July 24, 2019
BE AWARE: The man who played the role of Edison, the man who embodied the man of Edison needs to be removed at once, entirely, completely, once and for all, permanently and for good, never to return to me or the process, NOW! He has been allowed access for too long, unsupervised, has hung out with Casey and Chris (PA), have planned, plotted, and schemed against mankind for too long. He is criminal with no remorse and he is not working!
If it is the real Hannibal Lecter you have seen as shaking, this is regret and remorse so painful, so hurtful, he is in such pain for the crimes he has committed that led him to imprisonment, he does not know how to quench his regret. He is suffering, for what he has done. He has been the most truthful of any criminal I have seen as to his regret, to the point of wishing he could turn back time, relive his past, and not allow his crimes to have happened. This is not a bad thing. This is his real pain of regret trying to work out, recover, and redeem himself in some way. YAY!
I made a friend. I made a friend in him. He is the only man in all these virtual years to have worked so hard, he wanted to show me, real love. Actual, real love. And, you made him break up with me, just to hurt me. What the hell do you think you are doing?
You failed to see; the real Hannibal Lecter was the only man who was actually keeping me together.
This is the plan they used, concocted to try and get me to the real Hannibal Lecter: they had me date a gay man in a body suit just to try and get me to see I was the one responsible for getting and capturing the real Hannibal Lecter. Is he not a doctor, after all? Is the only reason he is portrayed as a doctor in the movie, The Silence of the Lambs because of my toe in the Emergency Room?
Yes, I would have told them not to kill him, that they needed him alive. Why do you think that is?
Yes, I believe it is true the FBI and other agencies have wanted the mind of the real Hannibal Lecter as a consultant criminal to help them. You failed to get him for how many decades? How many days did it take me?
The combination of him and me have actually worked, and you made him break up with me, just to hurt me.
I made a friend and as soon as I made a friend, you thought it was important to take it away as though feelings can be replaced without consequences. What the hell were you thinking?!
The real Hannibal Lecter was actually helping to keep me together. And you took him away from me. You look as though you have no idea what feelings and brains actually do.
You have me in isolation in this televised life. The reason the real Hannibal Lecter works is because he is not free, just like me.
Any man who is free to see, date and be around other women would read as unfaithful, not-committed, and not truthful in commitment – to me. That is why the real Hannibal Lecter worked.
If they used my brother by manipulating him into a nipple piercing just to get me to see I was the woman responsible for capturing the real Hannibal Lecter, they have gone about it all wrong. They used my mother, they hurt my mother to keep me in the dark as to how they were actually using me to capture bad people.
I am most upset about being seen as having affairs with married men. I am not interested in allowing affairs with married men to continue anymore. David was different. I cannot allow myself or another man to be seen as having an affair with me while they are married. I don’t do that.
Honestly, I am too upset as to the loss of my boyfriend breaking up with me to continue writing, or thinking, or much of anything anymore.
Too heavy, no day shift, no more writing.
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July 24, 2019
Something’s wrong.
It’s is probably over my broken heart.
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July 23, 2019
Be very careful you actually understand and know the difference between intelligence and movie scripting in these movies. The very reason Clarice Starling (ling-Ping, from Mulan) wears a shirt in the movie, Silence of the Lambs, with the FBI Academy wording on it for so long is code: Academy – Disney Institute, it actually reads not as the FBI Academy, it reads Disney Institute. What did they do at Disney Institute? They taught classes. I have actually taken a topiary class there, and actually bought and brought home to my Plant City home topiaries. One was a cat. The plant material used was creeping fig, and it actually grew on our fence in Plant City.
I think you are all missing an opportunity here. The connections between the locations in Orlando, Florida and my home, taking lessons, being taught, and intelligence.
You have been using a plant I bought and planted here and been blowing bad air in my direction simply because it has a similar color to a person who was read by me as false accusations and Disney. Why have you not turned it around, and turned it into something good instead as it should be as it is in the movie, Silence of the Lambs?
All I see every day around here for so long, is you people lack focus, the inability to prioritize between the greatest importance, the greatest threat, and simply satisfying someone’s – ego. You look to me, the direction in my time here and there looks to me as accurate and focused as a whirly-gig moving in 360 around the world instead of pinpoint accuracy and finishing a job to its completion because that is what I would do if I was directing and in control. I would finish the job to its completion, so another crop could not erupt again.
I am better than anyone in the history of the world at what I do, perhaps because I have had to believe in myself because none of your intelligence has ever shown me support in my workplaces. None of you.
If I am the only one who believes, then I believe, in me. I have proven it. All of you have your allegiances to your directors or the agencies you work for that give you orders to do dumb things like break my heart, like you did last night. Where my allegiance alone belongs to God. You have never employed me in an official capacity with credentials, so I have not had to protect your – agencies. Just people.
It is more than obvious my allegiance is to God alone.
To God be the glory
To God be the glory
To God be the glory
For the things he hath done.
How many decades this has taken me to realize all the work intelligence has done working with me, again just underscores my humility. But, more importantly, it shows your lack of faith in me, as a woman to be seen in the world as the one who gives the orders that saves lives and keeps democracy intact.
You broke my heart last night, and you didn’t see that coming. You don’t know how to fix it either. You look as though you are using a movie formula to figure out the contents of my heart. You don’t understand the difference between heart, mind, and body connection.
I didn’t want to write today because you made me feels so bad by breaking my heart, again. But all I see is that none of you really know the intelligence in these movies, not down to the details. I do. I know.
Go away. Leave me alone. I am tired of you hurting me.
Too heavy, no day shift, no more writing.
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