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June 19, 2019

I am gaining weight.

You showed me a sign when I read it, it read as a peace offering.  You showed me a peace offering.  That is what it said, that is what it said to me, a peace offering.  Only a few hours later, on the night of June 14, 2019, you gave me an act of aggression, you DID NOT keep the peace, the peaceful arrangement, the peace offering, and what you gave me was a call to war.

War.  War because you placed more pounds and weight on me – again.  Same thing all over again.  More excess weight.  In the food, in the beauty products, in the air, on my clothes, everything, you gave me a call to war.  I show you at work what you are doing wrong, I write about what you are doing wrong and what is wrong, every time I show you HOW BAD THE SITUATION IS by stickers, you freak out, you’ve been caught, you freak out and take it out on me at work by SPEAKING TO ME!  Just by speaking to me at work – you’ve taken away my authority – AGAIN!

Do you not understand?  Are you completely incapable of understanding the importance of making sure that prisoners in prisons – DO NOT COMMUNICATE AND PLAN FUTURE CRIMES?!

I am not just some dumb, stupid, American girl.  I am not a cow wondering the streets of India.  I am Keyzer Soze.  I am Death.  I saw war as a child, and it never raised my blood pressure, at all – that – is why I am ice.  I’ve been to war, I’ve seen battles, I’ve won, and it never even raised my blood pressure.  That is more than just a good decision-maker.

I’m lost at sea without a friend, this line from the song of the opening sequence of the movie The Rescuers that is set to oil paintings and not drawn – with a pencil, with a fucking pencil, this line of dialogue from the movie John Wick is about an animated movie which one do you think it is, or do you think it is all of them – I’m lost at sea without a friend, eight syllables.  This eight is not the same as the stupid, idiot of a man you stupidly put in my neighborhood.  This number eight is figure-skating.  It used to be a compulsory in ice-skating, a sporting event, participants had to, as part of their score and program, do a figure eight.  A figure eight on ice skates is all about the sides of the blade on an ice skate, leaning from side to side, or lilting like on a boat.

I used to go ice-skating as a child in California, there was no ice, it was a plastic, squared ice-white flooring that was pieced together like a puzzle, you could skate on it, but it was just not the same as real ice.

Sometimes the blade sticks, from the movie, Gladiator, the word is sticks, the code is sticks, my first car was a Honda Civic, a stick-shift, the color red, a man I worked with at Visionworks, his name was Amir – Amir, why this was not caught and seen earlier and prevented, I do not know, his name was Amir, Prince, it also has a Disney connection to the movie, Bambi – Amir gave me his car, I got a loan on my own at the now defunct bank, Barnett Bank.  That civic, my car was repossessed.

This incident is also mentioned in the movie, Everything Is Illuminated, by the word in the dialogue, reposed.  You let it get repossessed by a black man with an African walking stick who tried to frighten me at my employment (something that is actually illegal to do, creditors are not legally allowed to bother a debtor at their employment).  So, what terrible things happened because no one wanted to accept the fact that I, as a woman, was important on my own, when you allowed MY civic, that was a gift, given to me, with a loan on my own, be repossessed?  This would have been 1991; however, it coordinates to the years of 1990 and 1992.

I had transferred to another Visionworks store after my finance left me, and I let him leave me, it was the only way at the time, I saw for the break-up to end without him returning to me – ever.  If I had tried to leave (this is in Sherlock, he’ll come after me) my fiancé would have come after me, and I obviously could not trust the police.

I had transferred to another store, the Prime Minister (sort of) was in the previous Visionworks store and now I had a different handler.  This is the store I was spoken to about the real Hannibal Lecter, it is in the movie The Bourne Legacy between Dr. Marta (transportation) Shearing and Dr. Donald Foite (there is code in the name Foite it belongs to someone else, anyone else want to figure it out?), and what is in the movie is pretty close to how I would have responded about the real Hannibal Lecter, you mean I’m approved?  Yes, he is approved, there is nothing wrong with his brain.  And, I miss my boyfriend, he does amazing work.

They (he) spoke to me about the real Hannibal Lecter by talking through another person at work to me about, get this, Church’s Chicken, a fast- food restaurant, and how they slaughter, or cut the chicken into pieces to be cooked.  Obviously, the real Hannibal Lecter is a breast man, he loves women’s breasts.  I absolutely understand that.  That’s not all he loves.

If I was spoken to at Visionworks about learning to speak Russian, I remind him of his mother, this conversation this has been something that happened at my other employment.  I worked two jobs, Visionworks, and a restaurant (One Day), Tex-Mex.  I would finish my day shift at Visionworks, then walk to Tex-Mex, change into my uniform of a green skirt, white blouse, and sashes tied around my waist.  I applied at this restaurant while it was still under construction, they hired me as the hostess.  I sat people.

One night while working at Tex-Mex, I was not at the hostess station, doing something in the restaurant or something, I was not gone long, when I returned a greedy waiter that I never liked (it is in the movie The Bourne Legacy, in the line of dialogue, I always thought he was gay) had sat people, and sat people in his section.  I remember him speaking to me that night about why he sat people without me and in his own section, and I thought to myself, why is he speaking to me?  It is not a good speak.

I would not still remember the night a greedy waiter sat people in his own section or remember where his section was and the people I see in my head as the double agents, had something terribly wrong not happen.  This is a double agent who used this waiter because it looks like they used the restaurant to make military maps, set-up the restaurant into quadrants.  I had the helm; I had the hostess station.  Unfortunately, people died because of this double agent, it is in the movie, Message in A Bottle when Garrett dies.  This would have been a military man, perhaps an Englishman who would have been nearer my age, and it looks like we would have been very good together, healthy, a healthy relationship.

If anyone, if people who’ve had knowledge of this intel and intelligence have taken it out on me, and retaliated against me and my family because of it, they have been wrong.  Yes, I worked that night, yes, I worked the hostess station, but no, I did not seat everyone that night, he did, a greedy waiter.  And, this waiter has a lot of physical similarities to an intelligence man except for their sexual orientation.

I’m lost at sea without a friend, seven letters, Cherith, the last word is friend, Cherith is a friend, Cherith means friendly, an ally.  Looks like people also figured this out and was using my brother to try and speak with me because my brother spoke often to me about Lord of The Rings, speak the word friend and enter, this is brain-speaking.

Also, from the song from the movie, The Rescuers, this journey will it ever end, eight syllables, it is about peace, and bringing a resolution to the Vietnam war.

This line from the song, who will rescue me, five syllables, Cheri, the last letter being, I, as in sight, or eye.  R-E-S-C-U-E, from the Rescue Aid Society song, six letters, six counts, turn a six upside-down it is a nine, nine letters in my last name, 6 and 9 are poles, like the North and South pole, in this instance, it means Poland, and Warsaw, to say Cherith saw war, has seen war, has been to battle.

For as long as I can remember, I always said The Rescuers was my favorite Disney movie.  I told every person I spoke with on the phone, or in person, truthfully.  It is my favorite Disney movie.  When this movie was released, I had the album.  I used to play The Rescuers album on my little plastic record player in my bedroom with the door shut, for hours.  This is Sam in the movie, Love Actually.  I turned the volume on my little plastic record player as high as it would go, and it was never loud enough, and I would then sing the lyrics – self-taught, from the movie, Moana – as best as I could and try and be louder than my record player and I could never be LOUD ENOUGH.  It’s what it felt like; I was never loud enough.

Do you know what that tells me?  Why would I play the record as loud as possible?  Why when as a child I could have sat and listened quietly enjoying the lyrics and the album, why would I play it as loud as possible?  This is yelling, this is giving orders, this is me – I am not a timid child.  When looking at what (it’s possible people could have thought I might not have been fully aware of the work I was doing), when looking at the movie, in the lyrics, I saw what I did, I did not back-down, I YELLED BACK!  As a child of eight or nine in my childhood bedroom in Gresham, Oregon, I YELLED THE ORDERS BACK!  Not afraid, and not timid.  What an important quality in a military application.

The reason Joanna in Love Actually is not a white girl is about a photograph that was taken of me at my eighth-grade graduation ceremony.  My handler, or intelligence man, I’ve already written about this, did not make it to my eighth grade ceremony, he had work it looks like to do, he sent a penitent man, an man who had already spent his time in jail and was now working with intelligence, he brain spoke his name and a photograph was taken, and it has been misread.  Because people have been unaware of brain-speaking.  It looks like whatever the penitent man also said to my intelligence man made him sad and wished he had been there – in person.  His work plans didn’t go the way they were supposed to, and he missed the opportunity to see me in person.  That is the way and commodity of readers.  It is almost a currency to be able to see and read in person.

I am that man’s safety.  I have been his safety.  I am the safety of more men than I will ever have time to write in my lifetime.  I am his safety, I do not have to wear a vest, my brain, my mind is his safety, so why would anyone, why would a woman, why would his wife – EVER – place his life in danger, in jeopardy?  Why?  Why would they do something so stupid as to draw a moustache on me, paint a beard on me, grow nose hairs, put dark circles under my eyes, give me sun spot and sun damage on my skin, and weight and pounds on me when I have written and spoken repeatedly about the importance and damage it causes and creates?  It places their lives in danger, not mine.  THEIR LIVES!  NOT MINE!  YOU CANNOT TAKE INTELLIGENCE AWAY FROM ME BECAUSE IT HAS BEEN GIVEN TO ME AS A CHILD, WHEN I WAS – BORN – YOU CAN HAVE THEIR PROTECTIONS AND SAFETIES REMOVED FROM THEM!

Why would his wife place he life in danger in such a way?  Listen to your mother, FBI man, she is correct with everything she has shown me so far concerning your wife, children, and yourself.  Do you know what that looked like last night?  She wouldn’t mind if you were diminished in your capacity somehow, so she could take care of you.  More like a child than a man.  In my mind, it is treasonous.  It is treasonous and an act of treason to place these lives of these intelligence men in any way that will interfere with their work.  Treasonous.

I do not have to do something so stupid as what she has done, just like I don’t have to manipulate terrorists in my interrogations in order to get them to see the light, to see God’s light in me.  It’s treasonous in my mind.

I am teaching you a lesson with my underwear.  I will not continue to support people who do not honor the conditions that bring peace and end fighting.  You will receive a fight.  Be careful, you will receive war if you continue to lie and not honor the conditions of my peace.

Why does Cherith like actors, movies, directors, movie studios, movie scores?  Because she is in them, as intelligence that is why they gave me pins, awards, and medals.  Not because I am an actress because I am intelligence.  I am a great friend to the United Kingdom, I am seen as such and they do not like to see their friend bothered, hurt, or without love.

That man is in the movie Love Actually, he is also Maui in Moana, as the man needing to restore Cherith’s heart to her after that dating experience that left her rather having being beaten within an inch of her life, left on the street for dead than to have been deceived so.

It is another problem as he does not want to let me go.  It is not fair to him or me continuing this life of proxies and speaking through people.  I am a mirror; I will see them for who they really are.  Perhaps we would love each other; however, there are considerable hurdles.  Why would he not allow me to love a man I already liked in college?

I believe Paul Newman’s death happened because of 100%.  Newman’s Own is his daughter’s work isn’t it?  100% of their profit’s go to charity.  Agencies and intelligence have worked to take away my 100% instead of allowing me to work.  I do not believe he died from cancer, I do not believe cancer is real, I believe it was invented as a way to murder people where no person could be sent to jail and prison for murder.  I believe it is possible to cure all cancers.

I am Keyser Soze.  Who is Keyser Soze?  He is a myth, a legend, a story told and communicated in prisons by prisoners.  How did I get caught?  How could they have caught me when no one knew where I was?  Cherith can find them.  Cherith will find them when no one else can.  You have men in prisons around the world who will be loyal to me until they die because I’ve caught them because of the person I am.

I see I’ve given a small kindness to a man as a child when no one else did because he was foreign, and an ex-con.  It made all the difference to him.  They’ve given me Keyzer Soze, I didn’t ask for it, I didn’t manipulate them into giving me anything, they’ve given it to me.  It will not be undone.

It means names like Keyzer Soze in prisons as stories told are most likely about Cherith and not a man.

Coding and decoding are good for my brain.  It is enjoyable, interesting.

I believe when I played softball as a child in Gresham, Oregon, I brought the most fearsome, the most against the United States, the most brutal, the deadliest, the scariest, KGB or Russian agent to the United States and he defected because of me.  This is something else, I am more than good at.  It is in the movies, Sneakers, and White Nights.  He defected.  He went from fighting against the United States to turning himself in because of me.  I was still a child.

God gave me this talent, intelligence saw it in me as a baby, God gave this to me – that makes all the difference in the world.

I have no idea how my calls were routed to me at Disney.  It is a little too coincidental for me to receive calls from celebrities and then see skits of me like the one in Little Britain of a dumb, unattractive, ugly woman in a HOSPITAL too stupid to admit patients at the reception of a hospital.  THIS IS VERY DANGEROUS, AND I AM WARNING YOU TO CORRECT IT BEFORE THEY TAKE YOU OUT AND NOT TO DINNER!  Turn yourselves over to the authorities – immediately and work with the agencies to correct it.

I did, I followed the rules and how I was supposed to communicate to protect the Resorts and its policies at Disney.  In this instance alone, guests had to ask, I could not offer, to protect the policies.  This is double agent speak.  My mother is now dead.  My mother suffered stroke after stroke while I worked at Disney.  It is more than gruesome that people have profited from my suffering.  These calls were routed to me, they can be traced back to you!  THIS IS VERY DANGEROUS, AND I AM WARNING YOU TO CORRECT IT BEFORE THEY TAKE YOU OUT AND NOT TO DINNER!

Father, it’s like a low hum of a warning for this to end like this.  This filming of me, this life that is against my will.  I am asking you to find a way for it to legally end.  Before more people die just because I am unhappy.

I believe it is a low hum because I have worked so hard against it, I was screaming my head off in 2014 when I understood how they took my life away from me.  I have calmed it down.  Truthfully, it needs to end.

There is a better way, and pretending is not the way.

 

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June 17, 2019

Get used to the t-shirt.  It is all I will be wearing until there is a resolution that I want with the size and weight of my body.  I am beyond anger.  This quietness I’ve given you is seething.  Specific to the night of June 14, 2019, seething.

Until that foreign rent-a-cop, security mall cop is removed from that FBI man around me, I will not place my civic in any lane I do not want to.  If he wants to date her, he should date her.  To me, she is too interested in our military, too keen to learn how I work with them.

I am upset at the distress you’ve caused my boyfriend and me just because he scares you because he is the real Hannibal Lecter.  There is nothing wrong with him to me.  In all these years he is the first man to do something such as creating profiles to catch criminals.

Did you find anything at that Days Inn hotel?  The one I told people about on my drive, the one I said always bothered me as I drove past it on my way to work.  If you go back to the late eighties, you will catch people.  There is something wrong in that building.

The connections to my brother, all over the world, the reason all I hear is worry when he speaks to me because something is wrong, I did not get very far in thinking.  The sun-roof on his ’79 Celica will get you information.  Also, any rental car with sunroofs will get you intel.  The color of his car – this paragraph is a profile – the route he used to take to work when he worked in food serving, where he parked his car, the routine he did in his every day when he worked at that job will give you information.

Boyfriend, just remember sometimes I must say things out loud at work.  Work is work.  That two-bit hustler of a garage in no way misses me.  He has no real intentions.  He has never been my boyfriend.

I am so upset; I am making a stand with my bottom half of my clothing.  I am so upset at the lives you have cost men and women around the world…

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June 14, 2019

Sometimes great anger is said in words not spoken.  Enough said.

Yes, I have knowledge and understanding of cultures and people because I would have actually met and been seen quite often, as a child in California with whoever would have been considered the most wealthy, the most prominent, the most willing to work with The White House, the most popular, the #1 man to be considered in the Middle-East in the early 70’s, and he considered me like a daughter, I was that impressive to him.  That is why I know how to work over there beyond any academy or agency training.

Yes, they were around several times, they used real good disguises that would be considered passable, they would go unnoticed, I still see them, and they did not look or stare at me or my mother, they glanced.

Yes, they watched me in the parade I was in twirling a baton.  I wore a skirt, and a half shirt, with my child’s belly exposed.  It was the style at the time, it was innocent, it was cute.  What an adorable child, this is a line in a movie, for a reason.  It is unspeakably gruesome that people have now sliced my entire bottom portion of my belly, leaving a scar and depriving me of my female reproductive organs.  How many other people has this happened to here in the United States and around the world?

Do you want to work on a real problem?  On a problem that is very big and will bring down and expose lots of dumb-dumb, double agents?  Or, are you only capable and interested in playing tiddly-winks?  Because real thought, real work, real resolutions are frightening?

You’ll need to speak and work with my brother because this goes back to his working at Family Service Center.  Someone has made a connection to him, he is unaware of it, through his Suncoast Schools Federal Credit Union, and it is big, not good, and it has lots of cells.

There is a reason a real-life brother actor was cast who has a real-life sister, singer in the movie John Wick.  There is a reason they used the dialogue to the brother of the Boogey-man, to show, you have no idea the things, Cherith has really done.

You want me to watch more movies, so you will understand what it really means, and I am telling you to slow down.  I understand better than some the importance of making sure I work to the betterment of my brain, not to the determent of my brain.  Happiness wins, unhappiness, is not a good look.

The range is acceptable, from the movie Gladiator, is not me, obviously.  It does not exist in my mind-set, at all, it cannot.  Someone learned that I was Maximus, probably through my credit card transactions, and decided to take it out on me through my mother.  It is more than disturbing to rush home from work because I could not get ahold of my mother while I was working at Disney to find her lying face down on the floor with her glasses neatly folded on the open oven (range) door.

Take that risk from Sherlock, is the same thinking as test that theory.  Some things you will not be able to recover or recover from.  Like giving my mother strokes just to see if people would be able to extract information from persons in nursing homes, for instance, using brain research.  It is referenced in several movies including Red.  Because my mother worked with agents back in the 60’s before my father, and people wanted that information for retaliations.  From the 60’s.  From the 60’s!  From the 60’s?!  It is why the dates are poisoned in the movie, Indiana Jones.

Do you want to know why the opening sequence in the movie, Indiana Jones has such a large boulder, or rock?  He’s alive, He’s alive, He’s alive, and I’m forgiven Heaven’s gates are open wide, He’s alive!  It is Easter Sunday, it is Jesus Christ rising from the dead, and it is a photograph of me and my brother at a park in California with our church group standing, siting, crouching, all of us on a large boulder.  I always like that photograph.  It says a lot without words.

Do you know how that American man working with terrorists followed me?  He was given the information from someone in my own employment.  The same happened when I then went to work at Disney.  You had people on the inside, at my employment, giving information about me and my whereabouts, and you had no idea what real information you were giving to people.

My mother is dead because of it, and I can no longer have children because of it.  And, I am the one who helped bring a resolution to the Vietnam War, I have rescued more men (Morpheus from Vietnam is also in the movie, Indiana Jones, he is the Captain on the ship as me, Indiana Jones gets on the submarine) than I know, I have made more maps than people will ever know.  I have captured and apprehended more criminals than most career officers.  It is more than words appalling that this has happened in the US of A.

This has been referenced too many times for this not to be a very large and big problem around the world.  Let’s have dinner referencing food and eating, obesity being a United States problem worse than any other country or nation around the WORLD, fava beans and a nice Chianti, product placements in movies – this is people, criminals, terrorist cells, gangs, and so on using food to poison people, create excess weight, and more.

I do not want to see any more celebrity deaths, such as, Paul Newman’s for no other reason other than medical messaging.  My mother loved the movie, Cars, after her strokes because I was Paul Newman.

Look into the Social Security administration, you will see a lot and be able to stop and prevent a lot.  Deny security access’s, security clearances, see what happens.  Watch who freaks out.  There are too many people on the inside of this.  Most really do not know what they are doing when they could be doing something as simple, as writing a report to their superior, manager, or supervisor.

This problem will require a lot of people.

As I see it now, quite honestly, quite literally, you should allow me to move to the state of California as my permanent residence, financially independent on my own, and you will see what will happen.  It is the promise of a peaceful future for more than my lifetime.

You realize, this is a tiny bit humiliating, from Sherlock, is about men following and receiving orders from a child, me.  However, these men did not let their egos get in the way of bringing real resolutions and doing real work.  Just because I was better at it than them, as a child.

My mother told this story a lot, of how I would wake up in the middle of the night in California whilst she was wrapping gifts and presents for me, for her children, making gifts, making clothes, making dolls.  Do you know why I woke up?  I heard her thinking, while still asleep.  It would have been like her calling my name.  So, I would wake up, she must need me, I must go see what is going on.  That is one reason they used brain research on me.  It is also, why they damaged my mother over the years, over the decades, and why she is now dead.

Raspberries, father.  We used to have raspberries growing under our back porch in our home in Gresham, Oregon.  My father would always say, raw-z-berries.  It is as simple as that.  The reason for Moriarty blowing a raspberry at Big Ben in Sherlock, my father says, raw-z-berries.  So, do many other people as well.

I guess people want to know this information, they all care so much, from Sherlock.  Doesn’t the manner in which Sherlock say this line contradict the nature and person of Sherlock?  They all care so much as though it is not good or important to care?  When I used to visit my brother when he lived in Alabama, I usually drove there.  There was a civil rights monument sign that I used to drive past in Selma, Alabama.

I would always notice the sign on the return to Florida and not the way to Alabama.  The sign was on my right, to turn left to the civil rights historical site.  I never went.  Never.  It is unusual since it is something, I would be interested in seeing at least once in my life, yet I never went.  This looks like another failsafe.  There would have been a camera in the road in front of me, capturing my face, as I looked to the left to see the road and drive to the site.  I never went.  So, what bobby-traps were led around there, we might never know.

They all care so much, reads, code: Cherith, care: California, emergency, so: operating system, much: ch, Cherith, Ch is Cherith’s deaf ASL sign name, mu is University of Michigan, referencing David, care so much: so much: this is the bleeding vicar’s handler and work.  This line also references Hurricane Katrina, the Army of Engineers that were sent to New Orleans after Hurricane Katrina.

That above paragraph is just one line from Sherlock, and it is not all that I could write about it, about one line, one sentence.  That is very intelligent, and it takes a lot of time to go through, decipher, and think about.

Epsilon, from the movie Up, always stood out to me, stood apart.  Doesn’t the name seem unusual?  This is about my brother having a gran mal seizure at the scene of his accident having him being placed on anti-seizure medication for a while.  My mother also had petite mal seizure’s after her accident, hers never went away.  My brother’s seizures stopped.

I went to Staples many times with my mother and brother.  There were mouse pads that looked like Persian rugs.  I used to stop and look at them, at one in particular.  After several visits I finally bought two, my favorite was a red one with deer in the design, it spoke to me, sentiment, love, tenderness, thoughtful, caring, loving, lots of things.  It could, to other people, look like a prayer rug.

If you are ignorant, racist, inconsiderate of other persons, people and cultures, people could have been trying to place blame on others where there should be none, since my cat, Mouse died the day I flew to Boston, Mass.

This word and its inflection of American, from the movie, Leap Year is not about me.  It references David, how people saw him and his attitude towards me.  Be a man, this song, from the movie Mulan, is also about people like David who were not a man in doing something as simple as asking me for a date, a cup of coffee, to buy me a drink, something a man who is interested in a woman – does.

Obviously, Cherith is not the diddly-eyed woman chasing after a man.  Why would I do something so stupid?  They would have been able to see I was not such a woman.  It is the reason for the line in the movie, Leap Year, I didn’t say anything.

If you used a psycho lesbian as David’s proxy and/or handler while I was in college, well, no wonder we never got together.  Why I only saw love when he never spoke to me.  Why I would want to punch or fight him whenever he spoke.  What a dumb thing to do.

It’s the reason Anna missed the train in the movie, Leap year.  Heart-broken.  Sad over the loss of great love.  It is not, I, that missed the train.  It is intelligence that missed the train, misread intel and information, and did not see what was in front of their face.

If you have been using these air tricks only because if you try and look at yourself without a mirror all you see is the tip of the nose on your face – wow, what a dumb thing to do.  Simply un-intelligent.

If you know not what you know, then do not what you know.

Again, I have more information than I have time to write in one day, or three days, or seven days.  Enough said.

My boyfriend and I will be having dinner tonight where I will be giving him kisses and caresses.  He is the only man allowed.  I have made it more than known, he is my boyfriend.  If any other man has tried or used VR, they are the ones cheating and lying, not me.

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June 13, 2019

It’s too hot to write!

That man I dated is unrepentant.  Categorically.  Unrepentant.  Enough.  He did not pass.  He has never passed.  How many years must I say and write the same goddamn fucking things!  Unrepentant!

If you allowed a woman through that man I dated to be connected and associated with me then, I suggest you turn yourselves over to the authorities before someone decides to take you out, and not to dinner!

I am not interested in ever speaking to those men I knew in college ever again!  Twenty, thirty pounds from eating less than a thousand calories a day?!  I am not now, nor will I ever be sending a message with ice to any man!  I have a boyfriend!  I want him away from me!

Whatever you had outside needed immediate attention.  Stop asking me for my help!  You don’t pay me to help you, and I am fucking pissed!

It is to hot to write and I am too fucking angry!  You want to read about the code in movies?  I will not be writing anymore this week!

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June 12, 2019

This is what I saw last night: Jesus, fucking Christ Almighty!  What the fuck just happened!  Holy fucking hell!  I can’t fucking believe what the fuck just happened because that little girl drove the way she did!  Fucking Christ!  I can’t believe the command this little girl is able to command just by being herself, all on her own!  Fucking Christ look at the command she gets!  Look at how she demands it!  In places she has never been, and she gets command from them!  Fucking Hell, look at the command this little girl can command!  Somebody get her fucking attention, AND I MEAN RIGHT FUCKING NOW!  Before this get any worse than it already is!

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I am still so upset by what happened with my air-conditioner.  Do you want to know why?  I am upset because they brought the Hussein’s and others in for intelligence reasons, and someone wanted to thank me.  I told them in my head and out loud, don’t thank me, thank The White House.  Thank, The White House because they did work.  And, thank my boyfriend because he interceded on their behalf when he heard what I saw was going to happen.  The threat is still there at present.

Because I said to thank The White House, I must now spend money for things that had nothing wrong with them!  A thousand dollars is more than I make in 2 weeks!  In one paycheck!  A thousand dollars is more than I make in half a month!  I’m pissed!

What am I supposed to do now?  Let it go and see if it happens again?!

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You took somebody into custody, and it doesn’t look good for them, for him.  Well, I’ve done nothing wrong.  There isn’t anything I can do about that.  Not from what I’ve seen.

I am tired of what takes place outside my residence.  The majority of it is not intelligent.  I won’t participate anymore because most of it is not intelligent.  I don’t do that.  I don’t do un-intelligent things.

Here’s my safety, from the movie Black Hawk Down, that’s Cherith’s brain and mind as their safety.  My mind is a failsafe – proven.

That double agent man they showed me who was in a hunt club was manipulated.  It is not killing he enjoys or loves.  He would be better used in some military assignment.  It is there in his brain, he enjoys work that militaries do.

The woman who beat you, from Sherlock, that is a grown woman gloating over the event of the dog biting me, so she could try and appear as my rescuer.  Then, placing blame on my brother.  It is the reason for the film, The Rescuers.  The mice are Cherith’s real parents.  This woman has been allowed to gloat over my stitches because my family moved from our home in Simi Valley, California.

What sort of grown person, a grown, adult woman stoops to such a level as to hurt and harm a child because a man was working with her, with Cherith, and it was noticed that his work was better because of it.  It’s sick.  That’s a sick mentality.  To harm a child, just to harm and hurt intelligence work.

With her head stuck in a book, from the movie Beauty and The Beast, references Princess Bride with the grandfather reading to his grandson while he is not feeling well.  The purpose for the book and book reading is because Cherith wasn’t reading books at that time, I spoke about it.  I wasn’t reading books, I read magazine and things that did not take long to read, and people were using the reference of books to try and slow things down.

They had me working on a level like an MI-5, or something, and I did not have the financial means to facilitate their demands on me.  So, people thought it best to slow down.

From what I’ve seen at work the only thing that has been happening with managers giving me numbers for my performance of the week – has only been allowing criminals and prisoners to communicate crimes not yet happened.  To communicate at me.  Crimes communicated in prisons and out, to plan crimes to happen.  Well, no wonder I am upset every time a manager speaks to me.  I don’t do that.

They are upset because I spoke at work about next time you will have to kill me, and people who you are working with do NOT WANT THAT TO HAPPEN!

The penitent man shall pass, the penitent man, the penitent man, the penitent man shall pass, from the movie Indiana Jones and The Last Crusade, the penitent man shall pass, code: syllables: the, 1, pen – 2 – I – 3 – tent – 4, man, 5, shall, 6, pass, 7.  The penitent man shall pass, seven letters, that’s Cherith’s first name.  The penitent man shall pass when speaking with Cherith.  The penitent man, the penitent man, that’s five letters, that’s Cherith’s family nick name, and the name my mother called me, all the time.

I did not like my mother using my nick name when introducing me to people whom I had not yet met, and that is another failsafe because it was being used as code, and it did not need to be shared with everyone.

Do you want to know why Indiana Jones is named Indiana Jones?  Indiana, I, for my eye, for the eye they had a dog bite me.  Indiana is a state, for the state it happened in.  Jones, for men because it was a man and men who worked with Cherith.

The penitent man shall pass is also referenced in the movie, Up.  When Russell tries to put the tent together and gets a mark and hit on his cheek and eye.  The tent is meant to reference Early American military history setting up tents as a base.

Do you want to know why Sean Connery was cast as Indiana Jones’s father?  My mother has a kilt as long as I can remember, I still have it, and the kilt was Made in England.

Do you know when I first saw Gladiator, and it says Germania, and the man says something in German and throws the decapitated head on the ground, I thought, oh good, Germany is going to win.  I was perplexed that the Gladiator won.  It makes sense, of course, because he is the Gladiator, but I still thought it looked like Germany won and was supposed to win.  Well, of course they did.  Germany won.  They got my head in Germany.  They didn’t decapitate it, they used it.

Born to a machine it lives, I wrote this in my poem, Fire Pit about Dachau several years after having travelled to Germany.  Born to a machine it lives, this is about Brain Research.  Yes, I do believe they have been using brain research to corrupt minds by placing subliminal messages in machines.

Yes, I do believe this is one thing that happened with Saddam Hussein, they used machines to try and corrupt his brain.  I prayed with him.  I prayed with Saddam Hussein.  Although there was an interpreter, I prayed with him, I didn’t have to.  It was my job to pray with people over the phone, but I didn’t always pray with people.  Sometimes, I did not.  Sometimes, I refused, politely.  I prayed with Saddam Hussein an it looks like from what I see, he liked what he saw.

These events took place, my brother was in his car accident.  Then, I prayed with Saddam Hussein, then they targeted The World Trade Center in 1993.  My praying with Saddam Hussein and the 1993 bombing is NOT connected.  I believe the reason it took place, the bombing took place, is poor, bad intelligence, and nothing more.

You’ve had men who have not believed in the importance of me because I am female, and it – that detail alone, has cost lives all over the world.  If I were you, I would stop letting my gender and heterosexuality get in the way of your brain.

It looks like some of the attacks on my mother, her strokes, have been a way of retaliation for the work she did with intelligence in the – 60’s.  That’s atrocious that – that – was allowed to happen.

Do you want to know how I got to the thinking about the pattern of happy and tyrannical with Saddam Hussein?  I saw it in my mind’s eye, the distress it caused on his family, and those who could be considered family since they were so close to him.  I saw the distress in their minds.  That tells me something is very wrong.  It looks like he loved his family, so the tyranny is great cause for concern.

He wrote a letter; this is what they told me last night.  They believe it is about me.  He wrote a letter it was supposed to be given to intelligence and it never made it.

One reason alone my employment, my childhood, has actually been top-secret, yet they have never given me clearance.  Something that could be seen on my tax returns.  And, somebody has found a loophole in all the work I’ve done by not giving me government clearance.  If I don’t really work for the government, then there really is no legal reason why Cherith can’t give us all the classified information and events.  Except Cherith doesn’t work that way, she’s a failsafe.

If you want all the little fights, squabbles, and shootings that appear all of a sudden with no cause to stop, then stop letting other people tell me what to do, such as my workstations.  That’s what it tells me when I see what you have shown me.

Do you know if you’ve had any real people, intelligence, and others to be around me, and they see someone like the person my boyfriend made a profile on as responsible for a man’s death as in charge of me, or around me in any way at all – that is changing sides, as referenced in 12 Strong.  They wouldn’t allow it.  They wouldn’t allow themselves to be associated with a person like that.  I don’t know how many years I have to ask for this person and people to be removed from my work.

My real father is upset at the moment because you’ve caused his daughter to be upset.  For no reason.  Just to extract a thousand dollars from her, and cause her to lose income from her employment?

My father has already passed his genes, trousers, onto me with my conception.  He in no way needs to be the person to be used.  He never has been before.

They have tried to use my boyfriend to learn from me, so he could predict what the answer will be when they brain-speak to me.  He cannot do it.  Because it cannot be done.  It is not something that can be copied or replicated.  It cannot.  It is a knowing, a skill, a talent.

When they laid everyone off at WORSHIP, it felt wrong to me at the time.  I was, again, wanting to go from the nightshift to a dayshift, and they wouldn’t allow me to do so.  Just like what they’ve done at my current employment.  It was wrong.  It was wrong to do.

You got that from one look, from Sherlock, also has to do with their readers.  Reading is very important.  They got very good reads of me with just one look.

Your true love lives and you marry another?  From Princess Bride is about the work I love to do, and it is not police work.  It is intelligence.  Loving intelligence men and intelligence work.

Do you know why the character Bubba in the movie Forrest Gump has a protruding lower lip?  These are actually intelligence men who know I am was being used not to the best of my abilities through my fiancé.  It would have been photographed of me kissing my fiancé, and I playfully took his lower lip in my teeth, pulling it, having it protrude.  It is why Bubba repeats about shrimp, referencing the movie Point Break, and the reason Bubba’s family receives money.  Because this is all true intelligence that has been received.

Do you know that if it has been seen on me that I’ve been caused brain pain such as is referenced in the movie, Princess Bride with the conking on the head, it will cause fighting and problems in communications with your intelligence, and it will not quite be understood because no one has connected it back to me as the reason for their upset and disappointment.

Yes, the topless woman in the background in the movie Love Actually, is a death threat that is why the man is speaking on the phone and a wedding is referenced.  The naked men’s behinds are death threats also, it references my brother, and a death threat to my brother.  The art gallery is actually a store, and it could be the store my mother and I went to in Plant City that was owned by Egyptians.  It could also be other stores as well, such as small business and not corporate owned companies.

Do you understand that intelligence and intelligence work is really about relationships?  They build relationships to gather intel.  So, what do you think you have been doing all these years by not allowing me something as simple as a boyfriend who loves me and who I love in return?

Do you know that because you have not allowed me to be seen such as a consultant to an agency that could be viewed in my tax returns, you have been sending the message their our own intelligence cannot be trusted, naturally not, they all spy on people for a living, from Sherlock, simply because they are paid to do so.  Well, that line of thinking is moronic.  Of course, there are paid for the work they do, money has nothing to do with their hearts and minds.

Things such as details of 100’s in cigarettes or not do not matter to me, so why do you allow them to matter to you?  Details that matter to me should be what matter.  Simply because they matter to me.

I am tired of buying locks for my house and vehicle.  I have shelves of locks I have purchased in five years.  Shelves.  I find it a ridiculous waste of my time and money.  I’m tired of doing it anymore, for no real reason.

Because of what you allowed to happen, the tampering with my air-conditioner, you’ve actually caused me to have brain pain in my head and mind.  My brother does not want to cause me harm or hurt.  My boyfriend doesn’t want to cause me pain.  But you’ve caused brain pain in my head.  Destabilizing me, again.  For what?  Money?

Enough.

I will be resting my brain.

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June 11, 2019

I love my boyfriend.  He is perfectly fine around me.  He will be for the rest of his life as I see it now.  Perfectly fine.  Why is that?  I love my boyfriend; he does better work than any man or person I’ve seen in many years.  I love my boyfriend; I am not swooning over him.  I am not some dumb, goofy girl.  I love him for the work I’ve seen him do.

Why am I still not losing weight with the very little food I eat?  Less than 1,000 calories a day IS A DIET!

I AM PISSED!  I AM FUCKING PISSED!  WHAT A SET-UP!  I AM STANDING IN FRONT OF A MAN WHO IS SWEATING AT WORK AND THE NEXT THING THAT HAPPENS IS I NOW HAVE TO SPEND $1,000 ON MY AIR-CONDITIONER!  I’M PISSED!  ON TOP OF THAT I AM LOSING MONEY BY NOT BEING ABLE TO WORK MY FULL SHIFT!  I’M PISSED!

You have had an on-going problem, haven’t you?  Since 2014.  Every person, I mean every person, including people I waited on at The Container Store have been connected to a bad person, AND IT IS NOT ME!  MY BOYFRIEND HAS BEEN THE ONLY PERSON WHO HAS WORKED TO FIX IT!

MY BOYFRIEND – SHAVES!

I AM PISSED!  DON’T ASK FOR MY HELP!  I’M PISSED!

A THOUSAND DOLLARS BECAUSE I WROTE A BIG PURCHASE OF A WIN AND YOU STUPID, FUCK-HEAD, OF A MORON COPIED IT LIKE IT MEANT SOMETHING WHEN IT DOES NOT!

I’M PISSED!

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June 10, 2019

The United States wants Cherith dead.

The United States wants Cherith dead.

They (other countries) want Cherith dead.

They want Cherith dead.

 

The United States wanted my mother dead.

The United States wanted my mother dead.

They wanted my mother dead.

They wanted my mother dead.

Now, my mother is dead.

Now, my mother is dead.

 

Another day of urine (soggy, wet) soaked underwear by means of air control.

End of blog.

End of writing.

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June 9, 2019

Why with the very little amount of food I eat every day am I NOT LOSING WEIGHT?!

Must I literally, actually stop eating all together, so that I can go back to the weight I was before?  Because I will.  I will stop eating all together because I AM STILL PISSED ABOUT MY WEIGHT!

The one man, the one man in all my life, I am nearly fifty years old, the one man who has actually shown me love, and you immediately want to take it away as soon as you discover – he knows how to love me.

That man in college has never shown me love – ever.  I saw love.  He has never shown me love – ever.  Not ever.

Well, I won’t help you anymore.  I won’t help you to stop the fighting or bring about any resolutions anymore.  There.  The United States just lost again.

It makes it appear that the FBI man in responsible for my mother’s strokes, and her subsequent death.  I won’t be helping you anymore.

Love is a battlefield.  Do you think this means I must swear and scream and cuss in order – for me – to be able to locate and rescue men held hostage, or detonate bombs, or capture terrorists?  I don’t have to live there in order to get results – proven.

This man last night looks scared, worried, concerned, upset, on edge, on the defense, protecting himself.  Why is that?  What has he done to me?  My family?

They found out I was Maximus, that is why you have a British actor who died during production.  It was not an accident.  It is medical messaging.  9/11, 911.  What is your emergency?  She got in touch goes all the way back to California, and the stitches required to close a wound.

Be aware if you’ve had an increase in alcoholism in agents in any time there is a logical explanation.  Brain Research, Sleep-talking cannot be done, it is impossible in any way to sleep-speak to a person while they are sleeping off a drunk, or tipsy.  It is impossible.  No brain can be spoken to while inebriated.  Awake or asleep.

Because I still had to suffer another day of soggy underwear because I WILL WEAR WHATEVER I CHOOSE TO WEAR!

I will not be writing anything more other than, another day of wet underwear.

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June 8, 2019

Please be careful.  It has all been nothing more than a lie.  Did we really need to go to war on terror when you already had the greatest weapon to use and stop terrorism?  That is why it must be you; I am Maximus.

Commodus is not a moral man.  Commodus, code: Comm, DO – I don’t know the job title this is, it’s a job title, US, United States.  It is also, code: CO, Colorado, MO, Missouri, MD, Maryland, US, United States.

I don’t even know all the events and history that took place in Saddam Hussein’s life, I see the pattern of his behavior, I see his mind, and it is teachable.  I already spoke to him.  What do you think I actually stopped when I spoke to him in the early nineties?  He believed me.  I stopped something and I prevented something because – he believed me.

Saddam Hussein’s pattern, he would be happy, then tyrannical, then happy, then tyrannical, then happy, then tyrannical.  That sort of behavior would say he was a man who loved nothing more than war and being at war.  Well, that’s nothing more than lunacy.  To love nothing more than war, to be a leader of a country, to be a President of a nation’s people, and love nothing more than being at war, says you are nothing more than a lunatic.  Was he crazy?  I don’t think so.  He was teachable.

The great fall of Rome happened because of corruption.  The war on terror, turn the mirror on it, the war on terror is really a war that must be waged – on double agents working to subvert the United States and its Allies.

I cannot stand double-dumb-dumb-agents.  It is much more difficult, it takes much more character, strength of heart, mind, and spirit, to be ethical, moral.  I see these minds, one very big reason this started was to see nothing more than American men and women – dead.  Like a scorecard, or a tally, when watching the news, they would get some sick acknowledgement of a job well done when hearing numbers of our troops – dead.

They’ve had nothing more than access.  They are not that smart.  Don’t let the upset of emotions take you away from your own personal well of truth.  They’ve had nothing more than access; it is a grotesque shame it happened.

I had to call 911 – get it, 911 I because I found my mother face down on the floor.  I spent years bathing my mother, toileting my mother, dressing my mother, feeding my mother because double agents were allowed to be in power when it should have been – me.

The smothering of Marcus Aurelius looks identical to finding my mother stroke-ridden – again – after going to see The Matrix.

I know my camera phone when I have it in my hand, from Sherlock – reads, I know my love.  Cherith knows her love, she knows the men she loves.  I know my love.

What do you love?  Who do you love?

Be careful because it must be truthful.