Tag: God

6 4 2025 THEY’VE GALLERY AND SERVER ERROR – STOPPED WORKING – BYE! ;($!, MAD AND HUM MORE! ;($!,

LOOKS LIKE – CH IS MAD, HUH, DON’T FUCKING COPY OR QUESTION CH – FAGGOTS – UM, EXCUSE ME, EXCUSE CH – THIS IS FOR CH – AWESOME GOD, THIS IS FOR CH ATTORNEY INTELLIGENCE AND TELL TPOA:

  • FIT THIS GODDAMN PROFILE – HERE’S CH MIDDLE FINGER – FUCK YOU!  YOUR GODDAMN RIGHT CH IS WORRIED AND CONCERNED ABOUT CH APPEARANCE – CH KNOWS YOU ARE LYING AND NO – CH IS NEVER IN THE BUSINESS OF JUST – WATCHING PEOPLE DIE AS YOU – CAN’T MANAGE AND CAN’T SELF-MANAGE – YOUR WHOLE LIVES AS FAR AS – LIVING – CENTER – AROUND CH, AND YOU – CAN’T EVER HAVE A PROBLEM – WITH THAT AWESOMENESS!
  • FIT THIS GODDAMN FUCKING PROFILE, CH – FACED THE PACIFIC OCEAN, AND WASHINGTON, DC IS THEREFORE – AT CH BACK – ITS NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND – NOW FIX THIS, CH IS NOT FAT – YOU GOT A MIDDLE FINGER AND UNTIL YOU TURN AROUND AND ARE AWESOME – FUCK YOU!
  • EVERY DAY, EVERY GODDAMN DAY – CH HEARS THAT THE GREG’S BUTT FART HAIR BALCONY PLASTIC SURGERY LAWYERS – HAVE A PROBLEM, EVERY DAY, AND THIS IS YEARS NOW, AS THAT FUCKING WHORE – HAD A PROBLEM WHILE CH WAS EMPLOYED AT AMAZON, AND INSTEAD OF LETTING CH GET ANOTHER JOB AND – QUIT AMAZON BECAUSE THEY WERE HARASSING CH SO MUCH ABOUT HER EMPLOYMENT AND CAUSING SO MUCH TROUBLE – CH HAD TO SEEK OTHER EMPLOYMENT AND CH KNOWS – AMAZON WAS GETTING YELLED AT FOR THEIR LOW-WAGES, THEY ARE NEVER ALLOWED TO BE HIRED AGAIN – YOU CAN’T LET A PROBLEM SUCH AS THE GREG’S BUTT FARTS HAIR BALCONY GROUP – HAVE AIR, MEANING BREATH, AS THEY CAN’T CONTNUE TO HACK AS A MEANS OF CONTROL – CAN’T HAVE CONTROL – FIX THIS – NOW!
  • YOU WILL BE KNOWN IN HISTORY – EVERY DAY – CH BEGGED FOR HELP FROM THESE VIRTUAL TAKEOVER PEOPLE WHO STOLE CH FREEDOM AND EVERY DAY – YOU’VE FAILED CH – YOU’RE ON THE WRONG SIDE OF FREEDOM!  HOW MANY DECADES BEFORE CH GETS FREED FROM THIS VIRTUAL PRISON AND CH – GETS HER OWN LIFE – FUCK – YOU?!  KILL ANOTHER ONE, AND KILL ANOTHER ONE, AND KILL ANOTHER ONE, AND YOU ARE STILL – NOWHERE!  YOU THOUGHT YOU COULD JUST TAKEOVER WHAT THE BAD RUSSIAN DOUBLE AGENT STARTED AND – WIN – YOU WILL ALL LIVE TO SEE THE COUNTRY – FALL – UNTIL CH IS FREED FROM THIS VIRTUAL – PRISON!
  • MAKE AMERICA – SAFE AGAIN!  GET CH AND HER FAMILY TO THE REAL WORLD, THERE – IS NO GOVERNMENT IN THE WORLD THAT WORKS ASSESSTS IN THIS WAY – THEY ARE LYING – 100% NOT SAFE TO WORK AN ASSESST IN THESE CIVILIAN JOBS – NONE OF THEM ARE – CLASSIFIED OR SECURE – THEY DO NOT HAVE CLEARANCE – NOT SAFE!  ANOTHER CRITIQUE AND TOLD CH IS NOT – SELLING ENOUGH – THE GOVERNMENT DOES NOT WORK THIS WAY!
  • THEY HAVE KIDNAPPED CH FROM HER OWN FAMILY – LYING AND HAVE LIED ABOUT IT – SINCE 1978 – THAT’S A LONG TIME TO BE – INTOXICATED, INSTEAD OF IN THE FIGHT BETWEEN GOOD – AND EVIL, AND IF CH HAS BOTH – HOW DO YOU THINK YOU WILL EVER WIN, CHEATING AND LYING, AND PLAYING NOSE, AND PLAYING MONEY FOR THE VIRTUAL TAKEOVER – TO MAKE CH UNHAPPY – CH HATES YOU, ASK THE BAD RUSSIAN DOUBLE AGENT – IF SHE WON MAKING CH – UNHAPPY?!  EVERYONE OF YOU WILL – DIE LIKE THAT BAD RUSSIAN DOUBLE AGENT – SEEKING UNHAPPINESS FROM CH, YOU – THOUGHT WAS GOING TO GIVE YOU CONTROL – YOU’VE BEEN TOLD TO STOP SEEKING THE DEATH OF CH – YOU CAN’T KILL – CH – SURRENDER TO CH ATTORNEY AND LET CH ATTORNEY GET THE RESCUE TRUCKS TO CH – BYE-BYE!
  • CH IS SUING FOR CONTROL OVER HER OWN LIFE: CH ATTORNEY: Joshua 10: 25 “Don’t ever be afraid or discouraged.” Joshua said to his men. “Be strong and courageous, for the Lord is going to do this to all of your enemies.”
  • THIS WILL BE KNOWN IN HISTORY THAT EVERY DAY – CH BEGGED FOR HELP IN FREEDOM THAT IS SUPPOSED TO BE – IN THE USA, AND EVERY DAY, EVEN TODAY – CH IS NOT GETTING THE HELP – CH NEEDS OR WANTS – THIS IS NOT GETTING BETTER!
  • YOU’VE BEEN TOLD THAT YOU HAVE TO LET CH FIND ANOTHER EMPLOYER, IF CH WANTS – YOU CAN’T REPEAT AMAZON, AND YOU WERE TOLD – IKEA WAS SUPPOSED TO BE ALLOWED TO HIRE CH – BECAUSE YOU CAN’T – FIRE!  SO, WHY ARE YOU – STILL IN CH NOSE – WHO IS PAYING YOU – TO PLAY NOSE – YOU WILL DIE BY THE UNHAPPINESS OF CH – JUST LIKE THE BAD RUSSIAN DOUBLE AGENT!
  • HAVEN’T HEARD FROM KATE AFTER HER DEATH, HAVEN’T HEARD FROM BIB OR HARRY AFTER DEATH, HAVEN’T HEARD FROM DAMON OR FRANCO AFTER DEATH – YOU’VE BEEN WARNED, CH HAS CONTROL OVER YOUR AFTER-DEATH LIFE, AND YOU MIGHT – NEVER BE BORN, AFTER DEATH – STOP PUSHING CH UNHAPPINESS, OTHERS – WANTS TO LIVE!
  • CAN YOU GODDAMN LET CH – FINISH – WHAT CH – STARTS?!
  • FIX TH IS GODDAMN NOSE BUSINESS! 
  • FIX THIS GODDAMN VIRTUAL REALITY TAKEOVER – YOU MASTER FAGGOTS – GOT ALL YOUR PRAYERS TAKEN AWAY FROM YOU – FUCK YOU!
  • GREG AND HIS FARTING BALCONY ARE ALL – THE NUMBER ONE TERRORIST PREVENTING CH FROM BEING IN THE REAL WORLD, INCLUDING AFGHANISTAN – FIX IT!
  • FACE MASKS ARE 100% WRONG, FIX IT!  THEY CAN’T EVER USE FACE MASKS!
  • FIX THIS GODDAMN WORD – COVID – THEY LITERALLY CAN’T EVER USE THE WORD COVID – ITS NOT REAL! DUMB-DUMBS!
  • THE GREATEST HISTORY – MANKIND EVER MADE, WAS NOT – LANDING ON THE MOON, THE GREATEST HISTORY MANKIND EVER MADE – WAS MAKING THE MOVIE TWINS AND PUTTING THE – WE SEALED THOSE DOORS THE DAY – CH – YOU WERE BORN – BELIEVE IT!
  • THE GREAEST THING THEY’VE EVER SAID IN THE MOVIES IS IN THE STAR WARS, WE’RE GOING TO TAKE THE LONG WAY AROUND!
  • CH IS CELEBATE UNTIL – CH DECIDES THAT CH LIFE IS HOW – CH BELIEVES, NOT ANYONE ELSE – IS AS IT SHOULD BE!
  • THEY ARE UNDER CONTROL OF THAT – PINK BAG!
  • FIX THAT GODDAMN GAY TWO WOMEN PURSE TRAFFIC SIGNS – THAT IS NOT AMERICA!
  • CH – IS GOING TO BYE-BYE YOU – FOR THE MURDER OF CH MOTHER – NOT ONE OF YOU ARE TAKING THE RESPONSIBILTY – OF CH MOTHER’S – MURDER!
  • CH IS GOING TO – BYE-BYE YOU – UNTIL CH PETS ARE RETURNED ALIVE AND WELL – TO CH – BYE-BYE – NOT ONE OF YOU ARE TAKING – RESPONSIBILITY FOR THE ACTIONS – OF OTHERS!
  • CH IS GOING TO – BYE-BYE YOU – FOR THE ACTIONS, YOU WILL NEVER SEE IT – BYE-BYE YOU!
  • CH IS GOING TO BYE-BYE YOU – FOR WHAT THEY ASSHOLE GAY DID – TO CH BROTHER – BYE-BYE YOU!
  • CH IS GOING TO BYE-BYE YOU FOR ALL THE RESTRAINING ORDERS AND GAG ORDERS CH ASKED FOR AND – NO ONE IS YET TAKING THE RESPONSIBILTY OF ENDING THE VR TAKEOVER AND THE NOSE BUSINESS – BYE-BYE YOU!
  • CH – IS NOT GOING TO COMMUNICATE WITH CH OWN FAMILY ANYMORE – BYE-BYE – NOT ONE OF YOU ARE – TAKING THE RESPONSIBILTY!  BYE-BYE!
  • CH – WANTS TO GO TO GODDAMN FUCKING AFGHANISTAN – NOT BECAUSE GOD ASKED CH TO GO – BECAUSE CH – WANTS TO GO – YOU WILL LOSE – UNLESS CH GOES – IN PERSON, DO – YOU – HEAR – ME?!
  • November 28, 2022 – THAT IS QUITE A LONG TIME TO BE – INTOXICATED – 6/4/2025!  PUT THIS IS YOUR GODDAMN REFERENCE BOOKS – SO YOU – DON’T HAVE TO ASK CH EVERYTIME – YOU WILL – ALREADY KNOW THE ANSWER – IT IS – NEVER – GOING TO CHANGE!
  • 1978 – 2025 – THAT IS TOO LONG OF A TIME – FOR UNITED STATES INTELLIGENCE – TO FUCK UP, AND PRENTED THE ONLY PERSON THEY EVER NEED – IS NOT CH, GO GET THOSE GODDAMN RESCUE TRUCKS AND STOP PRETENDING – CH ISN’T THE ONLY 100% THERE EVER WILL BE – DO YOUT FUCKING JOBS, OR CH – WILL MAKE SURE – THE RESULT WILL HAPPEN – DO NOT LIE – TO CH!
  • 2012 – 2025 – THAT IS TOO LONG OF A TIME – FOR YOU MORONS TO PLAY HOUSE IN CH BODY AND HEAD, HOLDING CH HOSTAGE, FOR THE NEXT EAR FAGGOT, AND THE NEXT, AND THE NEXT, AND CH OWN FATHER AND BROTHER BEING – SPOKEN AND SCRIPTED – AGAINST CH – YOU CAN’T WIN THIS WAY – CH IS NOT SORRY, CH BELIEVED THIS WAS THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA, WHERE MEN – DON’T HIDE IN THE CORNER AND LISTEN TO A WOMAN MASTERBATE, AND THINK THEY ARE IN LOVE WITH HER, AND THEN ORGANIZE WEALTHY PEOPLE INTO HIDING A FREE CITIZEN INTO LETTING ALL THE WORLD – WATCH FROM THE CORNER OF THE ROOM – YOU ALL LOOK AFRAID AND COWARDS – GET CH – TO THE GODDAMN MICROPHONES AND LET CH MEET PEOPLE IN PERSON, YOU CAN’T EVER TRULY GOVERNMENT, IN A VIRTUAL BUBBLE OF A WORLD – YOU DO IT IN PERSON AND LET THE WHOLE WORLD – HAVE THEIR FUCKING JAWS DROP IN RELIEF, AWE, JOY, PEACE THAT KNOWS NO – UNDERSTANDING, UNEXPECTED FULFILLMENT AT A LIFE PURPOSE – YOU CAN’T EVER SEE OR FILL OR – DENY, OR CH – WILL HAVE YOU BY THE BALLS, AND WILL – NEVER LET GO, AND ETERNITY IS A LONG TIME, IN THE GRIP OF – CH, ASK THEM, THEY’VE ALL SUFFERED HAND INJURIES – BECAUSE – THEY ARE NOT EVEN CLOSE TO THE GREATNESS THAT EXISTS IN CH THAT – GOD, LET BE BORN IN THE ONLY COUNTRY IN THE WORLD, IN ALL OF TIME AND HISTORY – THAT COULD EVER BE – GOD’S ONLY DAUGHTER – CH WILL – NEVER, NEVER, NEVER, JUST DO THIS – ALL BY HERSELF, GET YOUR GODDAMN LAZY FAT ASSES – INTO ACTIVE LISTENING AND ENGAGING YOUR MINDS AND BRAINS – THERE ARE MORE PEOPLE THAN – YOU KNOW – THAT YOU NEED, NO ONE LIVES IN THE WORLD, ALL BY THEMSELVES, NOT EVEN – ADAM, AND DON’T WORRY ABOUT IT, CH – WILL FILL YOUR BONES UNTIL IT IS POURING OVER AND – YOU WON’T EVER KNOW – THE WORLD WAS NEVER AS AWESOME AS IT IS – WITH CH, DON’T WORRY ABOUT THAT, CH – WILL NEVER STOP, NOT EVEN DEATH CAN STOP WHAT WILL ALWAYS BE CH, INCLUDING CH FATHER, CH BROTHER, NOT EVEN DEATH WILL STOP THE FOUR HORSEMEN, GOD SENT HIS ONLY SON – JESUS CHRIST – TO EARTH, THEY THINK THE TOWN BETHLEHEM, WAS LITTLE, BUT IT HAS A NAME, DOESN’T IT, STILL TO THIS DAY, DOESN’T IT, AND GOD SENT HIS ONLY SON, NO MATTER WHAT THEY FOUND WITH CH – THE BIBLE – IS STILL TRUE TO THIS GOD, DON’T EVER WORRY THAT GOD WILL NOT FIND – HIS OWN WORDS, GOD SENT HIS ONLY SON ON EARTH TO – FIX YOU BECAUSE EARTH IS NOT A PERFECT WORLD, AND ALL MUST WORK FOR THE BETTERMENT OF ALL, OR IT – NEVER WORKS, AND SOMETIMES THAT MEANS – YOU MUST PRUNE THE FLOCKS AND TREES, AND AFTER ALL THESE YEARS, WE STILL KNOW THE NAME – JESUS CHRIST, DON’T WORRY SO MUCH ABOUT WHAT – YOU CAN’T DO, AND JUST LISTEN TO CH, CH WILL ALWAYS TELL YOU – WHAT IS POSSIBLE, EVEN IF ITS – BEYOND YOUR WILDEST DREAMS, ITS NOT A DREAM ABOUT A FANCY AND LUXURIOUS HOUSE, ITS ABOUT A LIFE WITH PURPOSE, MEANINNG, DEFINTION, AND – FULFILLMENT THAT CAN ONLY COME – FROM GOD – BOOM?!
  • HOSTAGE, THEY ARE HOLDING CH HOSTAGE – FIX IT, AND STOP WORRY ABOUT WHAT GOD IS MEANT TO FIX – AND FIX YOUR FUCKING – SHIT!  YOU CAN’T HOLD CH HOSTAGE – CH HAS TO BE FREE, JUST LIKE THE HAIRS ON CH HEAD – WILL ALWAYS BE FREE – FIX THIS FUCKING MESS – DON’T WORRY ABOUT WHAT GOD WILL FIX – FIX YOURS – FIRST!
  • WHAT PART OF CH DOESN’T WANT – YOUR – LIFE, CH WANTS HER OWN LIFE, DON’T YOU UNDERSTAND?!
  • THERE IS NO RELIGIOUS FREEDOM IN THE UNITED STATES IF THERE ARE COP CARS AT EVERY CHRISTIAN CHURCH CH HAS ATTENDED, AND THEY HAVE BEEN WARNED – TO STOP RESTRICTING AND HARASSING CH – THEY HAVE BEEN WARNED – THEY CAN’T EVER HAVE OR USE CONTROL, SO WHY IS CH NOT ALLOWED THE FREEDOM TO GO TO CHRISTIAN CHURCH – FOR THE HILLSBOROUGH COUNTY SHERRIF’S OFFICE?!
  • SURPRISE – YOU WILL ACCEPT YOUR BEATING AND LOSS TO CH AND IF NECESSARY, THEY MIGHT DIE – FOR FIGHTING
  • WHY DOES YOUR COFFEE – ALWAYS TASTE LIKE – YUCK?!  BOYD’S COFFEE IS A COFFEE, OR WAS, AT LEAST, IN OREGON, SO WHY WOULD ANYONE THINK, CH BODY, BOYD’S – CAN COFFEE TALK?!  ARE YOU SURE YOU WANT THE WORLD TO KNOW AMERICAN’S GOT DUPED BY BAD DOUBLE AGENTS, AND CH – HAD TO ACT IT OUT, AS YOU’VE NEVER GIVEN CH ANY REAL CHOICES – TO SHOW IT TO YOU?!
  • CH – IS COMPLAING! GREG – IS STILL ALIVE!  FIX IT!
  • CH – IS COMPLAINING!  THERE VR NOSE AND BODYSUIT – IS STILL ALIVE!  FIX IT!
  • CH IS COMPLAINING!  THERE IS NO FREEDOM YET IN CH LIFE!  FIX IT!
  • CH IS COMPLAINING!  YOU HAVE A SENSITIVE IN CH GARAGE AND CAR AND NOT – ZOHAN!  FIX IT!
  • YOU PEOPLE ARE FAKE NEWS – LAZY!
  • PERHAPS IF YOU THINK OF CH AS A QUEEN OF ROYALTY, WHERE – CH IS THE ONLY HEAD, THEN MAYBE YOU MIGHT THINK OF HUSBAND MATERIAL BETTER BECAUSE A MARRIAGE TO CH WHERE A MAN RUNS AROUND WITH CH MONEY AND TELLS EVERYONE WHAT TO DO – WILL NOT BE ALLOWED – BY GOD!  IF YOU – DO NOT THINK WOMEN ARE WORTHY OF TASKS APPOINTED BY GOD, HOW WILL GOD EVER FIND – YOU WORTHY TO BE WITH THE ONLY SAFETY MANKIND WILL EVER RECEIVE – FROM GOD HIMSELF, THE ALMIGHTY?!  KEEPING GOD IN A BOX WAY UP HIGH ON A SHELF, AND YOU NEVER – TALK TO HIM, LIKE A PERSON, WHY IS THAT?!  WHAT IS IT IN YOU – THAT YOU CAN’T JUST – TALK TO GOD?!  YOU – HAVE TO FIX THESE THINGS YOURSELF ON YOUR OWN, NO ONE – IS EVER GOING TO DO MIND WORK HELP – FOR YOU, THE INDIVIDUAL IS RESPONSIBLE THEMSELVES FOR EVERYTHING THEY DO OR DO NOT DO WITHIN WHAT IS POSSIBLE WITHIN – THEIR OWN SELVES!
  • THERE IS NO WEAPON MAN, ANY MAN, IN ALL OF TIME, THERE IS NO WEAPON THAT MAN CAN MAKE THAT WILL EVER – KILL GOD!  OR WHY ELSE, DO THEY TRY SO HARD TO PREVENT CH – FROM GOING TO CHRISTIAN CHURCH IN AMERICA, IN ALL OF CH – LIFE?!  WHY?!  WHY DO THEY FIGHT SO HARD – TO PREVENT CH – FROM GOING TO CHRISTIAN CHURCH – EVERY WEEK, IN AMERICA, CAUSE SO MUCH DAMAGE AND TROUBLE AND HASSLE AND HARASSMENT – BECAUSE CH IS A CHRISTIAN?!  WHY IS THAT – AMERICA?!  AMERICA WHO IS FOUNDED ON CHRISTIAN PRINCIPLES AND PHILOSOPHY’S AND PRAYER AND IN GOD WE TRUST AND – SINCE THE BIRTH OF CH, TEAMS OF FOREIGN AND DOMESTIC GOVERNMENTS BEING ALLOWED – TO PREVENT CH FROM BEING ABLE TO GO TO CHRISTIAN CHURCH – EVERY WEEK, IN – AMERICA, OF ALL PLACES, WHERE IT IS – REQUIRED OF THE AMERICAN GOVERNMENT – TO SHOW, AND EVEN – FLAUNT THE FREEDOM OF RELIGION – THAT IS ONLY FOUND, REMEMBER, IN AMERICA?!  ONE OF THE FIRST THINGS THEY TOOK AWAY FROM THE GJ WAS – CHRISTIAN CHURCH – EVERY WEEK, BY – HARASSMENTS, AND ITS – STILL NOT FIXED – CHECK THE FUCKING MAILBOX AT CH HOUSE – GODDAMN SWAT TEAMS OF SPIES – WATCHING CH GODDAMN MAILBOX – FOR HARASSMENT AND TROUBLE AND CAUSING – REAL PERMANENT – DAMAGE!
  • GOOD NEWS IS CH HEARD YESTERDAY, THEY ARE NEVER GETTING ANOTHER PLANT CITY AGAIN!
  • GUESS CH DOESN’T LIKE YOU, SO WHEN THEY WOKE CH AT 7AM – CH GAVE THEM A – FUCK YOU!  AND WHEN THEY WOKE CH AGAIN NEAR 10AM – CH – DID NOT HURRY – TO PLEASE YOUR – EGO’S!  AND IF CH DOES NOT LIKE YOU – GOD – AIN’T FUCKING HAPPY!
  • GUESS WHAT BRAINIAC’S – ITS IN THE BIBLE, BROODING OVER THE DARK MATTER, GOD – BROODING, BROODING!  THEY WROTE – GOD WAS BROODING OVER THE DARK MATTER – THAT’S THE VERY FIRST – CHAPTER – BROODING – BROODING – BROODING – BROODING – BROODING – JESUS CHRIST – GOD WAS – BROODING! DO YOU THINK, GOD WAS IN A – GOOD MOOD, BEFORE?!  GUESS WHAT, GOD – HAS NEVER CHANGED, AND WHEN GOD GETS IN A MOOD, AND STARTS – BROODING, YOU BETTER – STOP – THINKING ABOUT YOURSELVES, AND PLACE GOD IN YOUR MIND, AND FIGURE OUT A WAY – TO MAKE THE WORLD GOD LIVES IN – A BETTER PLACE – THAT – IS WHY WE HAVE RELIGION – TO ACKNOWLEDGE – WE KNOW AND BELIEVE THERE IS ONLY ONE GOD, THE GOD OF THE HEBREWS, AND YES, HIS ONLY SON, JESUS CHRIST, AND – WE ONLY EXIST, IF YOU WANT TO BE A NIHILIST, TO FULFILL THE PURPOSE OF – GOD, WHATEVER THAT MAY BE, BUT THE TRUTH IS – MANKIND HAS NEVER FULLY TAKEN ON THE RESPONSIBILITY OF – COMMUNICATING – WITH GOD!
  • CASE IN POINT, ASD CH SPOKE YESTERDAY, THE ONLY JOB ADAM AND EVE WERE GIVEN IN TH GARDEN OF EDEN – THE ONLY JOB, THE ONLY JOB, THE – ONLY JOB, AS THE SIMS GAME IS PURPOSEFULLY RUNNING SUPER SLOW – TO PESTER AND BOTHER AND UPSET CH AS CH KNOWS, ITS NOT THE FAULT OF CH COMPUTER OR CH SIDE – IT IS THEIR’S , THE ONLY JOB ADAM AND EVE HAD IN THE GARDEN OF EDEN, LITERALLY AS CH SEES IT IN CH MIND, THE PERFECT, IDEALLYC (AND CH STOPPED SPELL CHECKING FOR YOU PEOPLE – YEARS AGO, DEAL WITH IT), THE GARDEN OF EDEN, NOT TOO HOT, NOT TOO COLD, BARE NAKED BODIES, SO – WE KNOW THE OUTSIDE WAS NOT – WHAT?!  COLD!  FILLED WITH PLANTS AND WILDLIFE – BEFORE SIN, SO WE KNOW – WHAT?!  SO PRETTY AND WELL-PUT TOGETHER, THE CLOSEST COMPARABLE MUST BE – A DISNEY THEMEPARK OR DISNEY RESORT, RIGHT, NO THORNS AND WEEDS, AND LIKELY EVEN, UNEVEN GROUND TO WALK ON, JUST – LOUNGING AROUND THE GARDEN OF EDEN, EATING FRUIT AND TALKING AND COMMUNING WITH GOD AND THEIR ONLY JOB – WAS?!  DON’T EAT – THIS ONE!  WHATEVER THE STORYLINE IS IN THE BIBLE, JUST – DON’T EAT THIS, ALL THIS OTHER STUFF – HAVE AT IT, ITS YOURS, NOTHING ELSE IS OFF-LIMITS, JUST – DON’T EAT THIS ONE!  BECAUSE IN THE BIBLE WE READ THE REASONING BEHIND WHY GOD SAID – NO, TO THIS ONE, BUT THE TRUTH IS – IT DOESN’T REALLY MATTER – WHAT GOD SAYS – HE, GOD – SAID SO – JUST TRUST AND OBEY!  IS THERE ANYONE IN THE WORLD WHO CAN TAKE AWAY FROM ANY PERSON THE KNOWLEDGE AND THE TRUTH ANY PERSON HAS WHEN THEY’VE HEARD OR DISCOVERED SOMETHING?!  WE’VE LEARNED ABOUT OUTER SPACE, GRAVITY – AIN’T IT AN EQUATION, MATHS, LANGUAGE, VOCABULARY, DIPLOMACY, GOVERNING – IS THERE ANYTHING THAT COULD EVER TAKE IT AWAY FROM YOUR MIND – THAT YOU KNOW THAT 2 + 2 – WILL ALWAYS BE – 4?!  NO!  CH – WILL NOT – YIELD!  CH IS SORRY – FAR MORE OFTEN THAN YOU MIGHT THINK OR KNOW BECAUSE CH – NEVER WANTS – A MISUNDERSTANDING!  AND, SORRY, JESUS CHRIST IS WHO JESUS CHRIST IS – BECAUSE – CH WAS THERE, OR HISTORY – WOULD BE DIFFERENT!  AND CH WILL HATE AND DESPISE YOU PEOPLE FOREVER – FOR THE EARNOISES THEY PLACE IN CH HEAD, ANOTHER THING – NOT EVEN DAVID DID OR WOULD HAVE DONE, DAVID WHO NEVER FORCED THESE FEMALES TO HAVE SEX ON CH, OTHER THAN HIS WIFE, WHICH IS WHAT EVENTUALLY – KILLED DAVID, AS IT WILL – YOU FAGGOTS, CH WILL HATE YOU – FOREVER!  THE ONLY JOB ADAM AND EVE HAD – WAS DON’T DO THIS – ONE THING, IT WAS NOT – DIFFICULT TO STAY AWAY FROM IT AND NOT EAT IT, AS THE STORY OF THE DEVIL BEING A SERPENT TO TALK TO EVE, TO WHAT IS IN – YOUR MINDS, CONVINCE EVE TO EAT THE FRUIT – IS NOT WHAT IS – MEANT, IN THE BIBLE!  REALLY AS SPOKEN IN THE VERSION IN CH BIBLE, AND THESE WOMEN WHO KNOW CH – HATES THEIR SEX ABUSE AND INSIST ON FORCING TOUCHING, KISSING, LIP TOUCHING, PLAYING WITH NIPPLES – ARE SEEKING A VIOLENT END TO THEIR – LIFE, NOT A VIOLET END – THEY WANT TO BE KILLED – WITH VIOLENCE!  THE PURPOSE OF TELLING THE STORY IN THE BIBLE ABOUT THE SERPENT AND THE FORBIDDEN FRUIT EATEN IS TO SAY – ADAM AND EVE – FAILED GOD, BY FAILING – TO HEAR – GOD!  THEY FAILED!  THE SERPENT TALKING TO EVE IS TO BE A MIRROR – OF THEIR OWN MIND, MEANING GOD KNOWS – YOU ARE NOT EVEN THINKING ABOUT WHY GOD SAID – DON’T DO THIS BECAUSE IF THE SERPENT SPOKE TO ADAM OR EVE AND – SPOKE TO THEIR – FAITH, THEY SHOULD HAVE HAD BRAIN CONNECTIONS THAT SAID, I KNOW GOD, AND I – WILL NEVER – DISOBEY – GOD!  DOESN’T LOOK LIKE THERE WAS – ANY RESISTENCE IN THEIR MINDS, ADAM OR EVE SHOULD HAVE, INSTEAD SAID, NO- I LOVE GOD, AND DO NOT WANT TO – HURT GOD, NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAY SERPENT, I – WILL NOT GO AGAINST – WHAT GOD WANTS – FOR – MY LIFE!  AND AS CH SEES IT IN THE WRITING, THEIR MINDS WERE – NOT WELL-FORMED, WELLS FARGO MAILBOX – HARASSMENTS!  THE PURPOSE OF THE SERPENT IN THE GARDEN OF EDEN IS NOT TO LEARN – JUST DON’T EAT THE FORBIDDEN FRUIT, THE PURPOSE OF THE STORY IS TO TELL YOU – IF EVER YOU HEAR SOMETHING, OUTLOUD OR INAUDIBLE, REMEMBER WHO – YOU REALLY ARE – GOD – IS ALWAYS THERE, AND GOD – IS ALWAYS – GOOD! 
  • DO YOU THINK, IT NEEDS – A BIT OF EDITING?!
  • SO, THE STORY GOES, AND FIRST, NO, AS CH GOT ANOTHER MESSAGE THIS MORNING, THEY DID, AS CH TRAVELLED TO A HORSE FARM AROUND THE OLDSMAR AREA IN 2014, THEY DID WANT TO KNOW CH – OPINION IN THE CH IN THE DESIGN OF HORSES AND STABLES, AS THIS FAGGOT – WHO WILL NEVER BE CLOSE TO CH, IS GETTING PAID TO INFLATE CH STOMACH – FOR SMELLY NETFLIX SHEETS – FART – CH WILL HATE YOU – FOREVER, YOU HAVE NO IDEA THE POTENTIAL FOR THE AMOUNT OF MONEY IF YOU EVER – GET OUT OF THE WAY WEIGH – OF CH, SHE CAN’T – EVER BE IN CH HOUSES OR LIFE OR NOSE – SO CH – IS GOING TO HATE ON THE UNITED STATES – FOREVER – FOR THIS ABUSE – WE – WILL NEVER BE CLOSE, NO MATTER WHAT THEY FORCE, THE STORY GOES CH RECEIVED WORD WHEN CH FIRST STARTED GOING TO THESPIS – DESIGN AND MAKE – T-SHIRTS, JUST LIKE THE GRAPE SODA BADGE IN DISNEY’S UP MOVIE, SO PEOPLE KNOW – WE BELONG TOGETHER!  IT WAS DAVID’S IDEA TO USE MOCK TURTLE NECK SHIRTS AND LONG SLEEVES INSTEAD OF T-SHIRTS, AND CH – NEVER LIKED THE IDEA, BUT CH – PUT IT TO A VOTE IN THE THESPIS GROUP, AS CH – WAS NOT GOING TO TAKE THE FINANCIAL BURDEN OF PAYING FOR THE MOCK TURLENECK SHIRTS, AND THEY VOTED TO HAVE THAT OPTION, AND CH ALSO BOUGHT AND WORE IT, BUT – IT WAS KNOWN, IT WAS NEVER CH IDEA – WE NEED TO HAVE BETTER EYESIGHT IS WHAT CH WOULD SAY – YOU – DON’T EVEN KNOW – WE BELONG TOGETHER – THAT’S WHY YOU HAVE SHIRTS WITH THE THESPIS SOCIETY – NO ONE, NOT EVEN OTHER COLLEGE STUDENTS OR THE STAFF KNOWS – YOU NEED TO BE SEEN – WITH CH, WORKING TOGETHER – SO YOU GET – MORE FUNDING!  HOW MANY OTHER STUDENT GOVERNMENT GROUPS WERE THERE AT HCC – THAT NO ONE ACTUALLY KNEW ABOUT – CH IS READING AND YOU HAVE ACCESS TO PEOPLE AND THEIR GOVERNMENTS – AND THEY – DON’T KNOW HOW TO GET INVOLVED – THEY DON’T KNOW – SO, CH MADE THE T-SHIRTS THAT YOU’VE NOW, PLACED IN YOU PILE OF RUIN ALONG WITH – EVERY PERSON USING CH – FOR A VIRTUAL NOSE TO PLAY – A VIDEO GAME WITH – CH IS GOING TO HATE – THE AMERICAN GOVERNMENT – FOREVER, THEY HAVE A – HUGE RESPONSIBILITY HERE, AND THEY ARE – WASTING CH TIME – AS CH FEELS AND SMELLS IT – WE – WILL NEVER BE CLOSE!
  • THE OTHER STORY IS
  • THESE HOUSES IN THE SIMS GAME THAT LOOK REALLY NICE ON THE OUTSIDE, UNTIL YOU LOOK AT THE DESIGN AND THEN ITS – YOU BUILT A THREE LEVEL OR TWO STORY HOUSE AND – IT ONLY HAS ONE BEDROOM AND MAYBE ONE OR TWO – OFFICES?!  WHAT A FUCKING WASTE!  NO ONE CARES IT HAS A BATHROOM ON THE FIRST FLOOR – IF ITS IN SUCH AN ACKWARD PLACE AND ITS HUGE AND ITS – JUST A TOILET AND A SINK – ITS NOT VERY WELL DESIGNED – FOR LIVING, ITS ONLY DESIGNED – TO PLAY THE STUPID GAME – WHERE THE GAME ITSELF – IS SO FLAWED – NO ONE WANTS IT, THEY ONLY LIKE – CH DESIGNS – WHERE THEY ARE ABLE TO SEE – A LIFE WITH A PURPOSE!
  • CH – HATES HOW THIS FEELS ON HER HEAD AND IN HER BODY – HATES IT, AND IF CH HATES IT – WHO IS GOING TO BEAR THE – BRUNT OF THE BAD – CH IS DEALING WITH, IF NOT THE UNITED STATES, DEAL WITH IT AND – FIX IT!
  • CH JUST HEARD THIS FEMALE THAT THEY USED WITH EA GAMES TO USE THE SIMS WHEN THEY TOOK CH CATS, AND THEN TOOK CH CATS AGAIN, HE (MUST BE MORE THAN ONE MAN) OFFERED HER A LOT OF MONEY TO USE CH – FOR NIGGERHOOD EXCITEMENT, WHICH IS – NOT ACTUALLY REAL!  ITS JUST A VIDEO GAME THEY ARE GETTING PAID – TO USE CH FOR VIRTUAL SLAVERY AND – IT IS DOMESTIC TERRORISM, AS IF – CH HATES IT, THE FIRST PEOPLE TO GET IN TROUBLE FOR WHAT CH HATES – IS THE AMERICAN GOVERNMENT – WHO IS RESPONSIBLE FOR CH, AND THE SIMS ARE JOHANA PREVENTING CH FROM SAVING THE DESIGNS IN THE CATS AND DOGS AND HORSES PART OF THE SIMS GAME FOR CH TO HAVE IN OWNERSHIP – SINCE CH – ACTUALLY PAID AND THEY HAVE A LEGAL OBLIGATION – TO NOT INTERFERE!  THEY WAY WEIGH THE SIMS IS GOING – THEY WILL BE COMPLETELY DISBANDED AND BE GIVEN – TO OTHER COMPANIES WHO WILL – NOT HACK TO USE CH – FOR CONTROL WHICH IS REQUIRED BY THE GOVERNMENT – THAT ALLOWS THEM TO BE IN BUSINESS – TO BEGIN WITH – WE ARE – NOT CLOSE!
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  • CH IS COMPLAINING!  YOU HAVE A GODDAMN HEADPHONES BUSINESS AND HAVE KIDNAPPED CH!  FIX IT!
  • CH IS COMPLAINING – THEY CAN’T – EVER COMMINICATE WITH CH OR CH FAMILY – NOT EVER!
  • CH IS GODDAMN COMPLAING ABOUT THIS GODDAMN FAT BODYSUIT – FIX IT!
  • CH IS GODDAMN COMPLAING – EVERY GODDAMN PERSON THEY PLACE IN CH HEAD – CAN’T REMEMBER!
  • YOU STUPID MOTHERFUCKERS WANT TO GO PLAY INTELLIGENCE – WITHOUT MONEY FROM CH BANK ACCOUNTS – WATCH THE WORLD TURN INTO A LYNCH MOB – AND COME AFTER YOU!  PEOPLE – ARE TOO FUCKING MAD – THE GOVERNMENT – NEVER DOES IT’S – PART!  AND YOU HAVE CH – FROM A PLACE OF TRUE TRUTH, ITS SO OUT-OF-THIS-WORLD RELIABLE AND REMARKABLE – ITS OF LEGENDS, STORIES, SENT FROM GOD, COMIC BOOKS MIRACULOUS – AND YOU WANT TO PLAY – I WONDER IF I CAN KEEP MY DICK IN MY HAND WHILE CH – ISN’T LOOKING?!  JESUS FUCKING CHRIST!  GROW UP!  YOU FUCKING STOLE CH – IN OREGON, WITH THE GODDAMN HOUSE SALE – FUCKING FIX IT – OR CH WILL TAKE – EVERYTHING IN LIFE – THAT KEEPS THE WORLD – ALIVE!  BELIEVE IT!
  • STUPID, GODDAMN MOTHERFUCKERS!  CH – IS COMPLAINING!  THE GODDAMN UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT WILL FIX IT – OR CH WILL HAVE – EVERY GODDAMN HEAD IN THIS WORLD – BELIEVE IT!
  • THE ONE THING THE WORLD DOES NOT NEED – IS GREG’S GODDAMN – CULT!
  • JOE
  • 27
  • FART
  • MAILBOX MAIL
  • FART
  • MAILBOX STRESS
  • FART
  • FRONT DOOR CONFRONTATIONS
  • FART
  • FART BALCONY
  • GREG
  • MAILBOX CONFRONTATIONS
  • GREG
  • GREG
  • MAILBOX CONFRONTATIONS
  • GREG
  • THEY ARE CONFUSED – GREG – NEVER GETS IT!  THERE IS ONLY CH – GREG – WAS NEVER ALLOWED AND CH – IS COMPLAINING THAT – GREG – IS STILL ALIVE – FIX IT!  GUESS WHAT HAPPENED WHEN CH COMPLAINED – BIN LADEN WAS STILL ALIVE?!  BIN LADEN – WAS NEVER AN ASSEST – YOU CAN’T INTELLIGENT – BETTER THAN CH – EVER – READ CH FUCKING REPORTS – AND KILL THE TARGETS!
  • ANNETTE
  • TRANSPORTING
  • LISA HAS BEEN GONE FOR TWO WEEKS
  • JOE
  • ANNETTE
  • MAILBOX CONFRONTATIONS FOR TRANSPORTING
  • JOE
  • ANNETTE
  • NO ONE CARES ABOUT THIS BULIMIC MEGHAN
  • MAILBOX CONFRONTATIONS
  • NO ONE CARES ABOUT MALE MEGHAN
  • NO ONE GIVES A FUCK – ABOUT YOUR STUPID FIGHTING WITH CH
  • JOE
  • 27 MAILBOX CONFRONTATIONS
  • ANNETTE
  • A/C AND TECO ELECTRIC
  • JOE
  • GET OUT OF CH – MAILBOXES! HUM! ;($!,
  • CH IS GOING TO HATE YOU FOREVER – UNTIL YOU RETURN CH ANIMALS – ALIVE AND WELL – THIEVES!
  • CH IS GOING TO HATE YOU FOREVER – FOR THE MURDER OF CH MOTHER, AND ITS COVER-UP!
  • CH IS GOING TO HATE YOU FOREVER FOR WHAT YOU DID AT DOVER CHURCH!
  • CH IS GOING TO HATE YOU FOREVER FOR WHAT YOU DID AT BELL SHOALS CHURCH!
  • CH IS GOING TO HATE YOU FOREVER – FOR WHAT YOU CAUSED WITH THE CROSSING CHURCH!
  • CH IS GOING TO HATE YOU FOREVER FOR THIS SEX ABUSE!
  • CH IS GOING TO HATE YOU FOREVER – FOR THIS VR NOSE!
  • CH IS GOING TO HATE YOU FOREVER – FOR THESE VR HEADPHONES!
  • CH IS GOING TO HATE YOU FOREVER FOR THE CONTROL YOU USED – ALL OF CH LIFE SINCE – 1978!
  • CH IS GOING TO HATE YOU FOREVER FOR MWB!
  • CH IS GOING TO HATE YOU FOREVER FOR EDISON!
  • CH IS GOING TO HATE YOU FOREVER – FOR HIDING INSTEAD OF TALKING – FOR REALS!
  • CH IS GOING TO HATE YOU FOREVER FOR THE MORTGAGE AND FORECLOSURE – SCAMS!
  • CH IS GOING TO HATE YOU FOREVER – FOR EVERY DOORBELL RING – EVER!  EVER!  EVER!
  • CH IS GOING TO HATE YOU FOREVER FOR EVERY PIECE OF SPAM MAIL AND FRAUD HACK ATTACK – EVER!
  • CH IS GOING TO HATE YOU FOREVER – FOR THE COMMUNICATIONS – USING CH FAMILY!
  • CH IS GOING TO HATE YOU FOREVER FOR EVERY HACKED CREDIT CARD – EVER!
  • CH IS GOING TO HATE YOU FOREVER FOR THE STALKING AND PUBLIC APPEARANCES!
  • CH IS GOING TO HATE YOU FOREVER – FOR EVERY, EVERY, EVERY MAIL NOTICE – EVER!  FOREVER!  BYE-BYE! ;($!,
  • CH IS GOING TO HATE YOU FOREVE UNTIL YOU – GET OUT OF REVERSE!
  • CH IS NEVER GOING TO STOP LOVING DAVID – NOT EVER!  CH WILL NEVER BE – IN LOVE WITH DAVID!
  • GET OUT OF CH – MAILBOXES! HUM! ;($!,
  • THE WHOLE WORLD ONLY CARES ABOUT ONE THING – WHATEVER IT IS – THAT CH – WANTS, AND CH HAS NOT CHANGED HER FUCKING MIND – YOU NEED CH IN AFGHANISTAN AND YOU NEED THE ENTERTAINMENT AND MEDIA PACKAGE THAT IS – WHATEVER THE FUCK CH WANTS – NOT IN YOUR HIDDEN TAKEOVER WORLD, IN THE REAL FUCKING LIFE – FUCK – YOU!  BELIEVE IT!  YOU WILL SUFFER AND TOIL AND – NEVER GET ANYWHERE IN LIFE – UNTIL YOU GIVE CH – EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING – CH EVER WANTS – IN ALL OF TIME!
  • YOU KNOW – NOTHING ABOUT MEN, AND WHAT MEN REALLY WANT AND HOW MEN WANT TO BE TREATED AND WHAT MEN – FIND IMPORTANT AND WILL LAST – ALL THEIR LIVES, UNTIL THE END OF TIME, BEYOND THE GRAVE – YOU KNOW – NOTHING!
  • CH IS STILL AT THE RESCIND ALL THE OFFERS OF HELP, THESE BUTT FAGGOTS WHO HAVE STOLEN CH FROM CH FAMILY FOR CH TO HAVE A REAL LIFE – IS A PUBLIC RELATONS PROBLEM, SO BAD – CH DOESN’T WANT TO HELP, ANYMORE, ARE YOU SURE YOU WANT – TPOA TO WIN – AGAINST AMERICA?!
  • THEY ARE BEING TOO DIFFICULT!
  • SUE THEM FOR THE NEWS AGAIN!
  • THEY ATTACK CH – EVERY DAY, THEY ATTACK CH BODY AND LIFE – EVERY DAY – AND THEY ATTACK CH A/C – TOO MANY TIMES, AND THEY ARE GETTING – WORSE – FIX IT!
  • IF YOU PEOPLE ARE SO PERFECT AND EVERYTHING IS AS THE GOVERNMENT – HAS WRITTEN IT SHOULD BE – THEN WHY IS CH – SO FUCKING MAD?!
  • DON’T FUCKING LIE TO CH!
  • FINE THEM AGAIN FOR NOT LOSING WEIGHT!
  • YOU’VE NOT GIVEN CH – A CHOICE!  THERE IS NO UNOFFICIAL WITH CH AT CH EMPLOYMENTS AND LIFE – THE GOVERNMENT CAN’T ACTUALLY USE CH – UNOFFICIALLY AND CAN’T ACTUALLY – NOT USE CH – NOT ONE OF YOU ARE – TAKING RESPONSIBILITY FOR WHAT IS HAPPENING – TO CH!
  • YOU’RE NOT GIVING CH – ANY CHOICES – SHOULD CH PLAN SUICIDE – TO BE GIVEN – ANY FREEDOM?! 

REPAIR LIST:

THEY ATTACK CH – EVERY DAY, AND THEY ATTACK CH WITH TECO – THAT’S THREE TIMES JUST THIS YEAR, 2025, THEY’VE SHUT THE ELECTRICTY OFF – TO ATTACK THE AC – UNFIXED AND UNPAID – FIX THIS!

  • THEY ARE NOSE GETTING PAID – NOT TO WORK – UNFIXED AND UNPAID!
  • GREG HAS NOW DAMAGED CH IPHONE WITH A BUG AND NOW IT HAS A – BATTERY DRAIN – UNFIXED AND UNPAID!
  • THEY STILL HAVE A HACK ON CH PHONE WITH DIM CONTROL – THAT’S SOMEONE ELSE CLAIMIMG TO BE CH AND CH PHONE – FOR ACCESS – UNFIXED AND UNPAID!
  • NEW IPHONE TO REPLACE THE LAST IPHONE THEY – VIRTUAL REALITY USED ON CH TO MAKE CH PHONE – DROP REPEATEDLY – IT BROKE THE GLASS – SEVERAL TIMES – PAID BY CH!
  • THE CAMERA ON CH PHONE IS HACKED AS IS THE APP FOR THE PHOTOS – SOMEONE ELSE CLAIMING TO BE CH TO HAVE ACCESS TO CH STUFF – THIS HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR TOO MANY YEARS – UNFIXED AND UNPAID!
  • THE PHOTO PROFILE ON THE EA GAMES THE SIMS GAME – IS HACKED – CLAIMING TO BE CH AND THEY ARE NOT CH – HACKED – UNFIXED AND UNPAID!
  • CH COMPUTER AND PROGRAMS – ALL HACKED!
  • MICROSOFT WORD – HACKED – UNFIXED AND UNPAID!
  • ONEDRIVE – HACKED – UNFIXED AND UNPAID!
  • 8520 HACKED THE CEILING FAN 2020 IN CH OFFICE AND CHANTED FROM IT – FOR YEARS – CH STOPPED USING THE FAN – UNFIXED AND UNPAID!
  • SHOWER HEAD IN THE MASTER BEDROOM BATHROOM – BROKEN BY A BAD COP FROM THE CAR WASH – LIVE-IN – KEY ACCESS EMPLOYMENT – UNFIXED AND UNPAID – DIE IN HELL FAGGOTS!
  • GARAGE DOOR VISIT 2015(ISH) – PAID BY CH!
  • CAR KEY STOLEN 2015 AND PAID TO AAA – LOOKS LIKE THE SAME CAR KEY THEY – PICK-POCKETED AT THE KISSING FLORIDA PARK NEAR A PRISON – PAID BY CH!
  • SOAP DISPENSER AT THE KITCHEN SINK – UNPAID!
  • WATER FAUCET LOOSE AT THE KITCHEN SINK – UNPAID!
  • TWO ELECTRICAL LIGHT SWITCHES – UNPAID!
  • URINE AND WATER MOLDING DAMAGED – UNPAID!
  • URINE ON THE STAIRS EAGLE PALMS NEIGHBORS – UNPAID!
  • MICROWAVE BROKEN BY HANNIBAL – UNPAID!
  • CLOTHES DRYER – FROM AMAZON – UNPAID!
  • WATER AND ICE DISPENSER IN THE REFRIDGERATOR BROKEN WHILE EMPLOYED AT AMAZON – UNPAID!
  • WALL SCRATCHING DAMAGE WHILE EMPLOYED AT AMAZON – UNPAID!
  • 2 KEURIGS BROKEN SINCE 2012 – PAID BY CH!
  • AC VISIT 2013 – PAID BY CH!
  • AIR-CONDITIONER CLEANING AND NEW BLOWER SEPTEMBER 2019 – PAID BY N AND CJ!
  • SCREW IN TIRE – PAID BY CH!
  • TPMS BROKE BY DANIELLE – PAID BY CH!
  • RIGHT REAR TAILLIGHT PAID AT CHRISTIAN BROTHERS – BY CH!
  • GARBAGE DISPOSAL BROKE BY HAIRLINE – UNPAID!
  • CAR A/C – UNPAID!
  • CAR BRAKES – PAID BY N 2020!
  • HEAVENLY FATHER, CH REMOVED ALL THE PRAYERS – TOO MANY SOMETHING HAPPENED’S – HAPPENED!
  • HEAVENLY FATHER, PLACE A HEDGE OF PROTECTION – THEY WILL NEVER SEE IT, IN JESUS NAME, AMEN!
  • CH WANTS TO BE – CLASSIFIED, THE HOUSES AND CH AND PETS – ARE BUGGED, AND CH WANTS THE FREEDOM OF CH, AND CH FAMILY, AND CH PETS RETURNED ALIVE AND WELL – WHAT ARE THEY GOING TO DO IF – CH DIES?

What I Didn’t Understand

Sometimes prayers are answered, but you just don’t understand it at the time.

Praying silently for hours at my mother’s bedside begging God to give her back to me because she was the last person I had left in the world who loved me.  What good is this life without love?

Leaving my mother’s side for a moment, my mind was overcome with pain, hurt, and loss.  Yet, in a moment a name was whispered in my ear.  He had not been a part of my life for years, I brushed that moment aside as soon as it happened because when it came to him I left so much room for doubt.

When we were together it was different – I was different.  Just being near him I was different.  He made me feel alive in ways I can’t explain.  He had a way of turning me on – not just sexually, but parts of me I didn’t believe I had.

However, I was so hurt by him.  I believed he felt the same for me, yet he never spoke of feelings to me.  I believed he was either ashamed or embarrassed to have feelings for such a large woman.  I cannot begin to explain the pain it caused for him not to speak to me, or share his emotions with me.

Years later after our worlds went in separate directions, I tried as best I could to reach out to him.  He closed the door so severely it made it impossible to approach him again.

Perhaps, though what I didn’t understand in the moment when his name was whispered in my ear was that my mother was not the last person in the world I had left who loved me.  Perhaps, he did love me, or perhaps there was a man out there who could and would love me and that was my destiny and my future.  I did not need to spend years of my life caring for her just to have some form of love.

The problems with my father at home were and are so difficult to explain it was hard to believe in any other future other than protecting my mother.

Perhaps, what God was telling me and letting me know – in an answer to my prayer – is he is out there.

Returning home from the hospital my mind was a mess thinking about him while trying to put my life together.  What do I do next?  Thinking of him at the same time, trying to understand why it was his name that came to me.

He has been the strongest connection I’ve ever made.  He was not my first love, or even my friend really, we were just a boy and a girl who went to college together.

We were in a play together.  I was Big Momma and he was Gooper in a Cat On A Hot Tin Roof.  The director stopped and changed direction.  The direction was for me and him to turn at the same time from opposing sides of the stage.  The director said it looked liked incest.  Because I couldn’t help myself when it came to him, I was excited and happy every moment I got to see and be a part of his life.  I remember the turn.  My heart leapt at the sight of him.  It was something I couldn’t control.  It was just pure happiness.

Our last conversation I will not forget.  He and I sitting on the lawn just talking.  He was going one direction in life and I in another.  I knew that would be that.  We said our good-byes.  I walked away.  But, I looked back, I had to look back as we walked away from each other.

I was a mess for months and months afterwards.  It was as if I was in this world, but not apart of this world as my tethering point – which was him – was gone.

Yet, at this moment he has been presented to me as my greatest enemy, killer of all my hopes and dreams, the one person who has brought me to the point of suicide every day for years.

Perhaps he is my enemy with only one wish to destroy and torture me.

I don’t know.  We haven’t spoken to each other for years.  He chooses to not be a part of my life.

But, an answer to my prayer was he is out there.  I just didn’t understand at the time.

What Happened Today

The purpose for sleep is to allow your brain to repair and regrow tissues, to build bone and muscle, and to strengthen the immune system.

When this is disrupted it sends the entire order and balance in these bodies God designed out of whack.

Since, the tooth radio has been installed in me, I have had my sleep interrupted every single day.

Can you imagine what that can do to a person over years of not being allowed the normal function of what their own body was designed to do?!

The possibility that people have access to my thinking as it is being thought exists, but NO ONE has any concept of LIVING the experience.  Nor, does anyone have any idea what it has cost me emotionally, physically, mentally, and spiritually.

Which begs the response, just because you can do something doesn’t mean you should do something.

I used to think I was an insomniac – it was just the way I could explain, I do not get good restful sleep – because after I placed my mother in a nursing home I thought I would finally make up for all those years of sleep deprived nights, and rest, and repair.

My whole entire being had been on high alert while taking care of her.  My mind, body, every single nerve ending on high alert making sure I was there the moment my mother needed help.

The best way I can explain it: It was like being a solider in battle.  I was removed from everyday life – as the majority of the population are not care-givers, nor do they have an understanding or comprehension to the life of a care-giver.  So, when I finally was able to give the care of my mother to a nursing home, I thought my mind and body would relax.  And rest.  And do everything I had wanted to do whilst taking care of her, but was unable to do so.

Just as a side note: I ended that last sentence with “so” because I did not want to end the sentence with the preposition “to” which would be poor writing.  Remembering “to” as a preposition because I played “to” the preposition at a school assembly.  I think it was the only time I did well at that Christian school, since I was kicked out or asked to leave there.  They were not prepared or equipped to manage a dyslexic student, especially an auditorily dyslexic with a high reading comprehension.  Even public high school was at a loss as how to manage a student who could read at such a high level tested years beyond my grade level, but get lost during lectures.  It has taken me years to find a way to get my brain to work with the standardized norm.

Whoops, rambled for a moment.

Another side, but must be said: Today the world at large tried to make me feel bad for ordering a pizza.  I had a coupon for a free pizza and I am broke – yet, again.  So, I ordered the pizza, so that I didn’t have to go another day of eating celery and apples because that is the only food I have left.  I was made to believe that I was asking to gain weight because I ordered pizza.  I am so sick and tired of being mocked, and having my existence controlled by purchases instead of just being allowed to actually live.

I have literally starved myself to near death just to prove a point and claim my innocence.  

I am simply trying to live.

My life since The Container Store has been a series of jobs.  I will never completely be able to describe the terribleness of those jobs.  The place I work for currently is the place I should have been able to go to from The Container Store.

When I first started at The Container Store, the store hadn’t opened yet, we were in training.  We stood in a large circle in the store while a trainer was talking.  A woman, I’ll call her Sue, stood beside me so close she was nearly touching me.  I thought to myself, uh ok.  Then, she put her arm around my shoulder very tightly.  I was at once on high alert.  If my face didn’t show it my body was trying to shrink out of her hold as I was thinking, What the fuck just happened.  At the same time I had no judgement or preconceived notion of her intention.  I’ve just never had a woman hit on me – that I recall.  If that was her intention or what happened.  I have no idea.  It just creeped me out.  My entire reaction was, Eeeww, yuck, and gross!

It was all a set-up.  To discover my trigger points and discover my reactions.

I will say this my departure from The Container Store and everything including my jobs has been very poorly planned.  Ninety-five percent of which has been completely unneccessary!

The first job after The Container Store I was forced to only use one door to exit and enter, otherwise I would never have used that door.  I still have no idea what my job was there as it seems they were still develpoing my job as it went which is a terrible mistake.

That gentleman helping me with my air-conditioner was a defining moment.  However, I would never have stayed at that job had I not been conditioned to do so from the previous job.

Walking into the Starbucks, seeeing that gentleman with his laptop was another defining moment for me.  It made me believe in the possibility of my employment.

It is a shame so much bad and terrible happened previously, since it has and is effecting my entire life still.  My current employment should have had the longest duration.  However, the time must be cut short.  My life is at stake.

I walked into a dealership today to get my key straightened out since it has been stolen.  Quite honestly, I went back a third time to make a point and name the person I believed should be in charge of helping me.

I know a person, or persons use a key to gain access to the contents of my car.  They spray accelerants – could be drugs for all I know in my car.  I believed I was walking into a door where the television could not see me, I feel tricked.  I am so tired of having to duck under and get out of the way of everyone’s television just so I can have my life back – to me.

Needless to say, my attempt to gain access and control over everything in my life – failed.  I have to replace everything the key touches in order to keep someone who stole my keys, my life, and my identity.  On top of which, actually planted false evidence in my own home as a means to control me.  Based on what evidence they chose to plant that evidence, I have no idea.

They told the story first as a way to control me which was not my story.

I know this post may appear criptic and out of context.  Saying something without actually speaking about something which is why my reality at the moment is fundamentally flawed.

No one can live in a virtual bubble without friends, relatives, family, and for me without a boyfriend or husband.  No one can live rushing from appointment to appointment, fixing one problem only to have another problem created, to fix that problem, only to have another problem to fix, etc.  It is not a life.

I was not meant to return to a pond, nor was I meant to be walked to death.  Isn’t that why he left that job?!

I want to live, but at the moment I see no alternative.

 

 

Lost In The Moment

At Panera, which was normally our routine after rehearsals, sitting at a high-top table we over-worked, tired, broke, stressed-out college grown-ups trying to release the dull-drum schedule of work, school, and very little sleep – not necessarily in that order – talking and bull-shitting, would one-off each other.

Somehow the topic became a question of whether or not there could possibly be a limit to the size of a man’s junk.  Is there such a thing as too big?  Certainly there is such a thing as too small, right.  But, too big?!  Is there such a thing?

While the table started to discuss the very worthy question of how big is too big, I recalled I time a man got me drunk on red wine.

My wingman, a girl from work who had been hooking-up (do people still say hooking-up?) with a guy from Turkey (can anyone say Green Card – not to sound bitter, I just found it an unequal match) said, we’ll all go out and have a good time.  Meeting them at his apartment I waited on his sofa while he took a phone call when I arrived.  Most of the conversation took place with him staring at me while speaking Italian on the phone.

Let’s have a drink first, he said when he hung up his phone call.

Sure, what do you have?

He poured me a glass of red wine so sweet from the fruit that was soaking in it, I finished the glass rather quickly.

And then I finished another and another.

Oh, it was so good.

We never made it out that night.

Lying on his bed, tipsy, and wanting more…when I got to unzip his pants – Whoo, Lord have mercy!

It was a beautiful sight to behold.  That man was hung like a baby elephant.  Holy shit!  That was a beautiful creation God made between his legs!

I still recall that moment with stammering wonderment.  It’s a story to tell your grandchildren.  Embarrassing them with the life you lived before them.

So, well equipped with that memory, I blurted out matter-of-factly, yes there can be such a thing as too big because my jaw does not come unhinged!

There was great laughter all around the table, but one person fell back with such laughter he fell to the floor.  It took me a second to realize he was not only laughing so hard he wasn’t making any noise, but he was completely flat on the floor.

Almost immediately I started crying tears of laughter from the beautiful sight of him laughing.  And in that moment an overpowering need took root.  I just wanted to be next to him.  Close to him.  Just to be near him.

In the past I have used laughter as a weapon as a means to unarm people, so I can see people as they really are perhaps even as God meant them to be.

When a person is so gone in the moment from laughing they could pee themselves and not even care, or notice just to have one more breath, so they could laugh again – it is the most beautiful sight to me.  There is a boundless wonder of the human soul and spirit to behold a much greater story to be told in that single moment.

Worn Through

A kind of tired wears on me.  It is not just in the way my drab clothes hang upon my petite frame, exhaustion echoes loudly across my face yelling keep away, I’m worn out.

I’m so sick of traffic.  Anyone else sick of the same old shitty traffic?

I brought home take-out today,  I’ll be able to eat for days off it.  I’m reminded of the days when I took care of my mom.  She would go through times where she would not eat what I fed her.  She never did eat very much,  I would have to bribe her with chocolate or treats in order to get her to take her medicine.  Because if I couldn’t get her to take her medicine, what good was I?

So, I would get take-out just to try to get her to eat.  Honestly, it was always a great deal of work.  I would feel exhausted afterwards, but I felt as if I accomplished something at least.

I would have gotten her up, bathed, and dressed.  Given her a ride, so she was out of the house and out of bed.  She would have walked some instead of lying down in bed.  Then, she would have had some real food.

It wasn’t just the drive and getting out of the house.  She loved people.  She worked with people her whole life, international students, refugees, and children.  All shapes, all sizes, all colors, all ethnicities, she truly loved people.

She would reach for people, talk to strangers even after her strokes she never changed, she never altered.  She loved people and she wanted to make sure they – whomever she came across – knew she loved them.  Maybe it was her belief in God, maybe she was compensating for a lack of love in her own life, maybe she saw something no one else did.  I don’t know, but she loved people.

They say the apple doesn’t fall from the tree, and that’s true.  Sometimes people might find that hard to find in me as it was my job to protect her which sometimes meant asserting a different approach.

It’s a kind of terribleness to no longer have someone to care for.  I’m like a mother without a child, a nurse without a patient, or a solider without a fight.

Given my present circumstances that continue to keep those who know and care about me far, far away, I believe my loss to be unrecoverable.

Once, I went into a store and I thought I would get married there.  I can’t explain that.  Perhaps there was an unfair advantage that persuaded me into believing that story, I’m not sure.  But, I believed it.  And I believed it would help to marry him.

I will cry when I am ready, but not before then.  They will be my tears and no one else’s.  Don’t push your luck, buddy.