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January 1, 2019

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January 1, 2019

 

I am beyond unhappy with the numbers on my scale.  I am beyond unhappy with the size of my body.  I am beyond unhappy with the ugly, bloated belly.  Should I thank you for making me feel UGLY ON THE OUTSIDE, AGAIN?!

Yesterday, quite literally felt like the first day off I had.  I almost started to feel like a real person again.  Then, I was hurt by the arrest of one of the men who hurt my mother.  An old lady.  It takes a really big man to hurt an old lady, to harm an old lady.

You will not be able to hide the money when I return food items that have been tampered with anymore.  The money will go back to my credit card where it will be seen, rather than credit added to my account.

It makes Publix complicit also, a friend visiting a Publix worker standing at the back door waiting to hand off a tampered product, and many other versions of this idea.  Publix selling tampered items making people sick like myself.

What did they do with my organs when they removed them?  Research or more?  Leaving me with a scar that can be seen from a great distance.  I am not a person to get a tattoo or a belly-button piercing.

Did you actually let something happen to that protective man because you underestimated the threat level here, again?!

If you are looking for a full book report on The Green Mile, I am too upset.

I wonder if my brother reconsiders some of the things he has done, some of the communications he shared knowing now that I see they paid someone to molest him as a child to create an asset to be used and manipulated.

I see their thinking.  They do not think highly or much about gay men and their lifestyle.

The conection in Sherlock, BBC, I know human ash, is the death of Arthur Ashe and the Biltmore death.  The connection being the Presidents men as a source.

If you haven’t figured it out – what I see – there was, there is, a plot, a thinking, a group, persons, set about to home-grown terrorism striking at people when they are most vulnerable, in a hospital.  In capacitated.  Also, creating chaos, damage, while putting money into health care to further their need.  To further the need for them.  Death in the form like a disease or illness where it could not be traced back to the originator.  Therefore, a criminal never caught.

It looks as though having my family moved to Oregon set about an action plan, so to speak.  Oregon is a big problem.  There are a lot of people there with hidden motives.  It is a spear-head, it is the best word I can think of at the moment.  There is still a man there in Oregon, a doctor, he is not the only doctor, who should be brought to justice and jailed for his actions, for the rest of his life.

So, miserably unhappy.  I want to be a real person again.

Carrie Fisher

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January 1, 2019

Is Carrie Fisher really dead?!  Did she actually pass?!

You fucking morons!  She spoke to me at Disney!  On the phone!  The second time I worked there!

You haven’t caught that fucking bitch in Guest Services at the Tampa call center!

This woman in Guest Services was KNOWN by every person I talked to in Guest Services!  My first conversation was KNOWN!!  The first conversation I had with her was so bad, she wouldn’t take anymore of my phone calls.  She would push the mute button to pretend she couldn’t hear me!

Then, my mother ends up dead?!

You are all morons!

December 31, 2018

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December 31, 2018

 

Who would want to deprive a man of the happiness I would give him?  My adult life, all of my sexual adult years, and perhaps before that I have been denied men in my life.  Having a man, being in a relationship with a man, I would make him so happy.  There are persons who want to deprive and keep the male sex from being able to experience that happiness and the effect that would have on them from happening.  In return, I would be so happy to be able to have a man in my life and have a life with him.  I would be his never-ending joy.

However, not just any man will do, I actually have to be sexually-attracted to him.  It has been proven disguises don’t work.  I see you’re a friend of David’s.  I see this, I see the connection to this person.  Stop pretending you are not taking my life from me by pretending you aren’t there.

I have not finished The Green Mile; you people are so greedy.  John Coffey literally just means Starbucks.  People go to Starbucks every day.  Millions of people go to Starbucks.  Don’t be so literal.  You stupid copy-cats who understand nothing.

Michael Clarke Duncan actually died, didn’t he?  He is actually dead.  Him being a black actor literally means death by the color of his skin alone.  No, it is not Asian.  It is American.  There is more to his character, but before people go crazy his name is just Starbucks.

And, the reason Michael Clarke Duncan died?  Because you people set me up for a surgery that never needed to happen, and someone did not like it.  They killed someone for it.

Be careful because I am John Coffey, just not his body in any way.  I am the person who is not violent toward other people.  I am the one who makes people spirits, moods, demeanor, and attitudes change by being near me.  There are a lot of people who bring joy and happiness to others just because of who they are.

The ingestion of the badness and illness, I see and understand it better than I have time or want to write at the moment.  It is slightly more complicated, however none of this is very difficult.  Nearly anyone could have seen the connections.

I do not ingest badness or disease when I am around people.  I dispel, or repel, that is more of the mind I have.  However, I have been fed really bad stomachache’s – that is not a good thing.  A slow death, if it takes years or decades is a death, and it is a serial killer.

I am devastated that someone wanted to hurt my mother, then use it as fodder for a television show or entertainment.  Wanting to kill my brother in a car accident is a different animal, I have not brain-worked it.  My brother is not the same as me.  My father they have destroyed by having us move from our home in California.

I was correct, I needed a break, a mind vacation, I was in desperate need of time-off.

I see people are anxious for my reading of the movie, The Green Mile.  I am not yet done.

Yes, I am so upset I took Norway off my computer.  Think about it.

I would make him so happy.

December 28, 2018: I Am Not Your Friend

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December 28, 2018

 

Pound for pound, I am not your friend.  I doubt it is possible for you to ever be correct.  Redbeard is not a dog.  A bread recipe from a newspaper clipping from the LA Times that is not a black woman or black hole, nor is it black ink.  It is just a way to tell me my mother was correct, you are too dumb to understand.  My real mother was finding the connections in the news stories and she has been killed because of you people.

Right lane ends.

The belt murder is not a knife, it is something ingested is all that killed them.  You should have been able to figure that all by yourself.  I didn’t need to hold your hand.

I drew the eagle it is the only reason I chose the design.

I am not your friend, David.  You see me as a gross, overweight, ugly black and white woman.  Who the fuck do you think you are?!  I am not your friend anymore.  When was the last time you saw me laughing?  I do not see you as Lambert the Good, David.  I have no idea anymore when you were last good to me or protected me.  If ever.  I want to be away from you for the rest of my life.  I want nothing to do with you, your wife, or any children you might have.  I want nothing to do with you.

I did not want to hold your hand.  Is that the best you could do?  You couldn’t possibly talk to me face to face?  You couldn’t possibly court and date me properly?  The best you could do was hands?  It makes you look terrified of me.   You should be.  You would never be the same again.  I am not your friend.

I want to work during the day.

Do not look to see me running anytime soon.  You are all on your own.

No, I will not of my own choice be working for the US government in any capacity or its military.  Someone got their wish in that sentence alone.

No, I will not be working with any foreign governments or their militaries.

No, I will not be working with any intelligence agencies.  You will all have to help yourselves.

I am not your savior.  I am not your hero.  I am not your protectors.

I am not an Anglophile at the moment.

I am not the criminal.  I am not your sister.  I am not the criminal.

I have only one brother, and you ain’t it.

I am not your friend.  You should be very frightened of me.  I can do the things other people take credit for.  I can, they cannot – PROVEN!

Somebody wants me to believe the Eel is a made-up person and not a real man.  You got your wish, I do not believe he is a real man or a real criminal.

You fail over and over and over, you fail.  You think the best and all that I am is guessing who someone is behind the person speaking?!  I surpassed that years ago, as a child I surpassed it.  You think my brain-thinking is just a memory technique?  I have been places in my mind, I should not know about.

The last thing I need is some gay man in love with me, so Bing was removed because of it.  New York Times was also removed.  I am not your friend.

Figure it all out on your own.

I will not be helping you.

I will not be saving you.

I am not your leader.

I am not your friend.

This is not the White House.  I will not be helping or working with anyone there or here.

I am not your friend.

December 27, 2018: Biltmore

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December 27, 2018

 

You’re not going to want to read this.  I really do not want to write this either.  It is going to create a family problem, not of my family.  It is the reason my brother’s conference was in Asheville, NC.  The purpose was for me to get there to see the house.  It was their working thought process, that Cherith needed to have connections made for her to be able to brain-think a crime.  They are wrong.  It is not true.  I get more information; however, I do not need it in order to get information.  Asking it of me, is a start.

How many years have people suspected her?  Do they go back and forth between several females of the family?  It is so repulsive to me.  It is literally something as stupid as a business decision and nothing more personal, passionate, or emotional.  Were they high?  Or drugs?  It is a close or immediate family member to him, the reporter.  It looks like they have never admitted it.

I literally cannot stand to look at it.  She had no idea what she was doing.  That does not mean she doesn’t deserve punishment, she does.  It is as though she had no connection whatsoever to the Earth, to reality, to people.

They brought me there as a favor it looks like.

It’s repulsive to me.

If you have a man in custody from the Cherry Lime Ricky, he is too young.  The one I am looking for is Grandfather aged.  He has a rap sheet you would not believe, and when you catch him, he will be the one to put closure to a lot of unsolved crimes. Go get that SOB!

December 27, 2018: Coffee and Breakfast

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December 27, 2018

 

Believe in me.  You will only be astounded.

They failed to understand Tolstoy.  The Last Station failed to convey and understand Tolstoy.  It is their greatest failure.

It looks like in Sherlock BBC, the woman who beat you line, is about a woman believing she had beaten me by denying David and me at that time.  History and the events that took place because of her ego, her inabilities, have proven her wrong.

This, this here, this Coffee and Breakfast should never have been taken from me.  Should never have been taken away from me in pounds.  Should never have been taken away by mass and weight gain.  It shows an inability in their thinking.  In fact, I should have been given employment at a gourmet, specialty shop.

Upset beyond words.